{"id":25556,"date":"2017-08-03T02:00:20","date_gmt":"2017-08-02T22:00:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=25556"},"modified":"2017-08-03T11:02:55","modified_gmt":"2017-08-03T07:02:55","slug":"harika-ufuk-dogum-gunumde-anneme-mektup","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=25556","title":{"rendered":"Harika UFUK.”DO\u011eUM G\u00dcN\u00dcMDE ANNEME MEKTUP”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temssilcisi<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sevgili Anneci\u011fim,<\/p>\n

Hani eski T\u00fcrk filmlerinde \u201cSen bu mektubu okurken ben \u00e7ok uzaklarda olaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d diye ba\u015flayan ac\u0131kl\u0131 mektuplar olurdu ya; yazan ki\u015fiyle birlikte a\u011flard\u0131k. \u201cSon Mektup\u201d filminde bu c\u00fcmlelerle ba\u015flayan mektubu yazan Filiz Ak\u0131n\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fmi\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u2026 Ben b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey yazamayaca\u011f\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben hayattay\u0131m, sense 21 \u00f6nce beni d\u00fcnyaya getirdi\u011fin bu ayda ebedi yolculu\u011funa \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. <\/p>\n

Bunu senin okuyamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum ama i\u00e7imi d\u00f6kmesem kalbim \u00e7atlard\u0131 anne\u2026 Ger\u00e7i sen \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde de ayn\u0131 duygular\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yordum. \u0130lk \u00f6l\u00fcm ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 anneannemle tatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Sonras\u0131 gelmi\u015fti. Amcam\u0131n, babaannemin, Ya\u015far day\u0131m\u0131n, babam\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcmleri \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131lard\u0131. Ama senin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn verdi\u011fi ac\u0131 hepsinden beterdi, dayanamam sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u201cDayanam\u0131yorum Allah\u2019\u0131m!\u201d diyerek h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131ra a\u011fl\u0131yordum. Hala hayatta oldu\u011fuma g\u00f6re demek ki dayanabilmi\u015fim. \u201cGel, sen ne \u00e7ekti\u011fimi bir de bana sor!\u201d diyor \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131ndan birinde Erol Evgin\u2026 \u0130\u015fte tam da o duygularday\u0131m. Annem, yoklu\u011funda \u00f6\u011frendim \u00f6p\u00fcnce ge\u00e7meyen ac\u0131lar da varm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Sana mektup yazmayal\u0131 \u00e7ok uzun zaman oldu. Sen gittin gideli y\u0131llar\u0131 da sayamaz oldum. \u0130lk mektupla\u015fmam\u0131z ben Van\u2019a tayin olduktan sonra ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O mektuplar\u0131 nas\u0131l beklerdim bilemezsin. K\u00f6ye kazadan (il\u00e7eden) gelenlere \u201cBana mektup var m\u0131 ?\u201ddiye heyecanla \u00f6zlemle i\u00e7im titreyerek soru\u015fum bug\u00fcn gibi hat\u0131r\u0131mda\u2026 Allah raz\u0131 olsun; ablam, senin amcan Hac\u0131 Mehmet Dedem, arkada\u015flar\u0131m, kuzenlerim beni mektupsuz b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Kimden gelirse gelsin bana g\u00f6nderilen hi\u00e7bir mektubu atmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Senden gelenleri de y\u0131llarca saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, sonra yat\u0131l\u0131 \u00f6\u011frencilik y\u0131llar\u0131nda tuttu\u011fum hat\u0131ra defterlerim ve saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn mektuplarla birlikte kayboldu hepsi\u2026 Bunu biliyorsun, o zaman hayattayd\u0131n. Arada bir an\u0131 yuma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 beraberce okurduk, o hasret dolu g\u00fcnleri anarak bazen duygulan\u0131rd\u0131k bazen de i\u015fi \u015fakaya vurup g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck. <\/p>\n

Oysa Van\u2019\u0131n \u00d6zalp kazas\u0131n\u0131n Emek k\u00f6y\u00fcnde \u00f6\u011fretmen iken gelen her mektubu belki y\u00fcz kez okurdum. K\u00f6yde elektrik yok, su yok, \u00e7evirmeli siyah telefon muhtar\u0131n evinde var sadece\u2026 Muhtar\u0131 s\u0131k s\u0131k rahats\u0131z etmek olmazd\u0131 tabii\u2026 Bu nedenle haberle\u015fmede \u00f6ncelikli olan mektuptu, sonra da telefon\u2026 Maa\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 almak i\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00f6y \u00f6\u011fretmenleri her ay\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc kazaya inerdik. Maa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ald\u0131ktan sonra ilk i\u015fim postaneden s\u0131ra yazd\u0131r\u0131p sesini duyaca\u011f\u0131m an\u0131 beklemek olurdu. O zaman da seni \u00e7ok \u00f6zlerdim ama kavu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z tarihler belliydi. \u015eimdi ise belirsizlik var. Tarih belli de\u011fil annem\u2026<\/p>\n

Annesi hayatta olan beni anlayamaz. \u201cDamdan d\u00fc\u015fenin halini damdan d\u00fc\u015fer bilir.\u201d demi\u015f Nasrettin Hoca\u2026 Bayramlar, anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc ve do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc ac\u0131 verir miymi\u015f evlada? Verirmi\u015f, annesi \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fse o g\u00fcnlerde ac\u0131lar katlanarak \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. \u0130nsan en \u00e7ok annesine sar\u0131lmay\u0131 \u00f6zl\u00fcyor. Onun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n verdi\u011fi huzuru, sesinin t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, o sesin kendisine verdi\u011fi g\u00fcveni\u2026 G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler, sesler kay\u0131t alt\u0131na al\u0131nabiliyor. Ya annenin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve kokusu? Anneniz yoksa ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda olursan\u0131z olun hep eksik kal\u0131yorsunuz. Foto\u011fraflar\u0131nla avunmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum annem\u2026 Olmuyor. Foto\u011fraflar, bak\u0131\u015ftaki s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 aktaram\u0131yor yavrusuna\u2026 Bir annenin objektife bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 ile evlad\u0131na bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 aras\u0131nda da\u011flar kadar fark vard\u0131r. O bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 ar\u0131yorum annem\u2026 Senin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sesini, ellerini\u2026 <\/p>\n

Bana \u201cSus k\u0131z\u0131m\u2026 \u0130ki k\u0131z\u0131n var, iki ya\u015f\u0131nda ikiz torunlar\u0131n var. Sen de annesin. Hatta iki y\u0131ld\u0131r anneannesin. K\u0131zlar\u0131n Sena, Seda; torunlar\u0131n Arya, Uygar; seni \u00e7ok seven dostlar\u0131n, \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fin \u00f6\u011frencilerin var.\u201d diyeceksin biliyorum. Senin yerin apayr\u0131\u2026 Kimse ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n yerini tutmuyor ki annem\u2026 <\/p>\n

12 Temmuz 1996 senin aram\u0131zdan ebediyen ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u00fc. 23 Temmuz ise do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u2026 \u0130\u015fte 1996 Temmuzundan beri ya\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc kutlamalar\u0131m \u00f6nemini kaybetti. G\u00fclsem de y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki tarifsiz ac\u0131 kaybolmuyor. 21 y\u0131ld\u0131r tad\u0131 kalmad\u0131 do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc pastalar\u0131m\u0131n\u2026 Ha bu arada can\u0131m annem ben \u015feker hastas\u0131 da oldum. Takm\u0131yorum hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi desem de inanma\u2026 Bilirsin her derdimi i\u00e7ime atar\u0131m. Herkes de derdini bana anlat\u0131r. Bilmezler ki benim derdim da\u011flardan b\u00fcy\u00fck\u2026<\/p>\n

Neyse sabah sabah do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcmde a\u011flad\u0131m, derdimi sana d\u00f6kt\u00fcm. Zaten senden ba\u015fka kimim var ki derdimi anlatabilece\u011fim? \u0130nsanlar k\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n, k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n hatta k\u0131r\u0131labilece\u011fimin fark\u0131nda bile de\u011filler. Yine de do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm kutlu olsun. Pastam\u0131n mumunu \u00fcflerken seni yan\u0131mda hissedece\u011fim annem\u2026 Yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n yer nur olsun.<\/p>\n

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Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temssilcisi Sevgili Anneci\u011fim, Hani eski T\u00fcrk filmlerinde \u201cSen bu mektubu okurken ben \u00e7ok uzaklarda olaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d diye ba\u015flayan ac\u0131kl\u0131 mektuplar olurdu ya; yazan ki\u015fiyle birlikte a\u011flard\u0131k. \u201cSon Mektup\u201d filminde bu c\u00fcmlelerle ba\u015flayan mektubu yazan Filiz Ak\u0131n\u2019\u0131n g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na kar\u0131\u015fmi\u015ft\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u2026 Ben b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey yazamayaca\u011f\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben hayattay\u0131m, sense 21 \u00f6nce […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-25556","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-turkiy-dbiyyati"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25556","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=25556"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25556\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25567,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25556\/revisions\/25567"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=25556"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=25556"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=25556"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}