M\u018fN\u0130M ANASIZ D\u00dcNYAM!<\/p>\n
El\u0259 anlar olur ki, insan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259k – t\u0259nha hiss edir v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131ya bilm\u0131r. Lakin bu t\u0259nhal\u0131q onun daxili d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131yacaq q\u0259d\u0259r yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 olur v\u0259 hiss edir ki, sonu olmayan bo\u015fluqlar onu \u00e7\u0259kib apar\u0131r. Bu bo\u015fluqlar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 y\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259ri ist\u0259r \u2013 ist\u0259m\u0259z yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 ata \u2013 ana sevgisi canlan\u0131r v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o ill\u0259rd\u0259 hiss edir. Bel\u0259 hissl\u0259r insan\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 hesab verm\u0259y\u0259 vadar edir. H\u0259yat\u0131nda hesabla\u015fa bilm\u0259diyin anlar el\u0259 ya\u015f d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ki, yadda\u015f\u0131nda silinm\u0259z izl\u0259r qoyur. Sizinl\u0259 b\u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rim u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan bu g\u00fcn\u0259 kimi q\u0259lbimd\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131m ANA m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tinin q\u00fcdr\u0259tind\u0259n yaranan inc\u0259, n\u0259fis duy\u011fular\u0131md\u0131, o duy\u011fular ki,insan\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131r, h\u0259yata ba\u011flay\u0131r. Lakin bu t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z duy\u011fular\u0131n bit\u0259c\u0259yiyi g\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u0259n. Boy at\u0131rsan, h\u0259yata p\u0259rvaz edirs\u0259n, ATA \u2013 ANA sevgisinin \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131na naz edirs\u0259n, h\u0259yatsa s\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259kib apar\u0131r, amma bilmirs\u0259n hara…! Zamam \u2013 zaman h\u0259yat\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na do\u011fru ir\u0259ll\u0259yirs\u0259n. \u0130lk b\u00fcdr\u0259diyin an uzaq olmur s\u0259n\u0259. G\u00f6zl\u0259rin h\u0259yata a\u00e7\u0131lar – a\u00e7\u0131lmaz f\u0259l\u0259yin ilk z\u0259rb\u0259si s\u0259ni silk\u0259l\u0259yir. D\u0259y\u0259rsiz, \u0259v\u0259zolunmaz valideynl\u0259rini itirirs\u0259n. Bu sars\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z ya\u015fayan bil\u0259r, bu a\u011fr\u0131 \u2013 ac\u0131n\u0131 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu da\u015f\u0131mal\u0131 olursan v\u0259 sanki h\u0259yata g\u00f6zl\u0259rin qapan\u0131r. M\u0259n d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131m, o bar\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259diyim anlar\u0131. Art\u0131q anayam, n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259m, ya\u015f yetirmi\u015f\u0259m, lakin g\u00f6zl\u0259rim daima m\u0259ni ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259n ANANI axtar\u0131r. Bu s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 h\u0259rfin s\u0259das\u0131 insana n\u0259l\u0259ri b\u0259x\u015f etmir ki…?
\nANA! el\u0259 m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259ydi ki,m\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131ma qay\u0131da bil\u0259ydim. KA\u015e K\u0130…! Ka\u015f ki, s\u0259nin s\u00fcdq\u00f6xulu n\u0259f\u0259sini duya bil\u0259ydim. Yuxuya ged\u0259ydim qollar\u0131nda, m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259zin s\u0259sinl\u0259 lay \u2013 lay calayd\u0131n ANAM! B\u0259lk\u0259 indi hiss ed\u0259rdim s\u0259sinin m\u0259lah\u0259tini. ANA qar\u015f\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmaq ist\u0259rdim. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 hiss ed\u0259ydim q\u0259lbinin a\u011fr\u0131 \u2013 ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131. Hans\u0131 ki, \u00e7\u0259kdiyin ac\u0131lar q\u0259lbind\u0259n silm\u0259di he\u00e7, he\u00e7 \u00f6vlad m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tini. Sevdin bizi ANAM! Sevdin a\u015fiqan\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259si kimi sevdin! \u00c7\u00fcnku bizl\u0259r m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t bula\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7a\u011flayan \u00e7e\u015fm\u0259l\u0259r idik s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn! ANA qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z ya\u015fayaraq bu \u00e7e\u015fm\u0259nin daima axar olaca\u011f\u0131na unanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. AMMA… \u0259fsuslar olsun ki, bu \u00e7e\u015fm\u0259nin suyu daima qaynaya bilm\u0259di. Niy\u0259 dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki yaradana \u00fcsyan etmi\u015f olaram. ANA bilirs\u0259n s\u0259n ged\u0259li n\u0259l\u0259r oldu? ANA s\u0259nin yoxlu\u011fun m\u0259ni h\u0259yat\u0131mdan k\u00fcsd\u00fcrd\u00fc. ANA bar\u0131\u015fa bilmir\u0259m yoxlu\u011funla. G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc naz\u0131 – q\u0259mz\u0259mi, sevgimi, a\u015f\u0131b \u2013 da\u015fan q\u0259lbimi apard\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 ANA…! Hayq\u0131rmaq ba\u011f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m: Qaytar\u0131n m\u0259ni anal\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rim\u0259, qaytar\u0131n m\u0259ni d\u0259rd orta\u011f\u0131ma! Quca\u011f\u0131na ba\u015f qoyum \u00e7il\u0259li q\u0259lbimi onunla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm. H\u0259yat, qaytar Anam\u0131! Qaytar onun titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rini sa\u00e7lar\u0131mda g\u0259zdiyini duyum, hiss edim. ANA h\u0259yatla bar\u0131\u015fmayan q\u0259lbim bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259ri b\u0259x\u015f etdi? Q\u0259lbim s\u0259nin p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131nla ehtizaza g\u0259lir, s\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rim k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn s\u00fczg\u0259cind\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr s\u0259tir \u2013 s\u0259tir. ANA m\u0259nim k\u00f6n\u00fcl t\u0259ran\u0259l\u0259rim a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 \u2013 ac\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259s\u0259 – s\u0259daya \u00e7evrilib. ANA, s\u0259nin p\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n q\u0259lbimin nidas\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcb, o nida ki, m\u0259n onu insanlarla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. Birc\u0259 duymayan s\u0259ns\u0259n ey m\u0259num k\u00f6n\u00fcl r\u00fcbab\u0131m! S\u0259nsiz n\u0259 varsa he\u00e7dir bilirs\u0259n? S\u0259nsiz dunyam bo\u015fdur, amma k\u00f6nl\u00fcm bo\u015f deyil.S\u0259nin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin m\u0259niml\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r,m\u0259ni ox\u015fay\u0131r,qoxlay\u0131r, x\u0259yallar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131r m\u0259ni ANA…! Bu b\u00f6\u015flu\u011fu dolduracaq el\u0259 bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 yoxdur. ANA g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, sanki \u015f\u0131ltaq u\u015faq kimiy\u0259m he\u00e7, he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259dim. Yen\u0259 d\u0259lil\u0259r kimi a\u015f\u0131ram da\u015f\u0131ram, ki\u015fn\u0259yib \u015fah\u0259 qalxan ay\u011f\u0131ra b\u0259nz\u0259yir\u0259m. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 aram \u2013 aram yay\u0131lan l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r t\u0259ki s\u0259ssiz oluram. Bu zaman g\u00f6r\u0259ydin m\u0259ni. G\u00f6r\u0259ydin ax\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131. Bu \u00e7il\u0259l\u0259r \u015fer\u0259 s\u00f6z\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcr s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. ANA nec\u0259 edim ki, duyasan m\u0259ni. Bax, e\u015fidirs\u0259n, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn s\u0259si nec\u0259 v\u0259sf edir s\u0259ni. ANA s\u0259nsizdi, s\u0259ssizdi d\u00fcyam! D\u00fcnyam, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim s\u0259nsiz, dilim, a\u011fz\u0131m dads\u0131z qalsa da, q\u0259lbim vicdan\u0131m qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6x
\nrahatd\u0131 ANA! S\u0259nin x\u0259st\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxanda ox\u015fad\u0131m o g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, dilim\u0259 \u015f\u0259k\u0259r qat\u0131b ox\u015fad\u0131m dilind\u0259ki s\u00f6zl\u0259ri, yana- yana hiss etdim, q\u0259lbind\u0259ki k\u00f6zl\u0259ri. Q\u0259lbin yan\u0131rd\u0131 ANA! Hiss etmi\u015fdin, duymu\u015fdun ki, s\u0259nin cik \u2013 cik s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn qanads\u0131z qalacaq. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcn, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rim m\u0259nsiz solacaq? Solduq, ANA solduq, solduq g\u00fcl\u00fczlu \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r t\u0259ki,\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fck, \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fck budaqdan l\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r t\u0259ki!
\nQeyd: Oxuyun, bur \u00f6vlad\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259tli k\u00f6n\u00fcl sevdas\u0131n\u0131. Onun nec\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015fahidi olun. Sizl\u0259r d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcn, d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcn onlar\u0131n eni\u015fli \u2013 yoxu\u015flu yollar\u0131nda! M\u0259nc\u0259 ATA \u2013 ANA \u00f6vlad \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 vaxt qoca say\u0131la bilm\u0259z: Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda onlar\u0131 sevin, sevin ki, ah\u0131l ya\u015fda sizi d\u0259 sevsinl\u0259r. El\u0259 edin ki, daima vicdan rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 tapas\u0131n\u0131z. M\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yan\u0131b, ANA h\u0259sr\u0259ti \u015f\u0259ks\u0259md\u0259 ALLAH qat\u0131nda q\u0259lbim, \u00fcr\u0259yim \u00e7ox rahatd\u0131, \u0259n az\u0131 ona g\u00f6r\u0259ki, anama balam kimi baxm\u0131\u015fam. X\u0259st\u0259 yatanda \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 da\u015f bas\u0131b, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259lbim\u0259, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 taxm\u0131\u015fam. Nec\u0259ki zaman\u0131nda bu t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259ri ANAM m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Analar\u0131 ox\u015fay\u0131n, a\u011faran sa\u00e7lar\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kin, ya\u015fad\u0131n \u00f6nlar\u0131, q\u0131rmay\u0131n onlar\u0131n k\u00f6vr\u0259k q\u0259lbl\u0259rini. Analar h\u0259yatd\u0131r, analar bin \u2013 b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tdir, analar qap\u0131lar\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan c\u0259nn\u0259tdir. C\u0259nn\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259n yol analar\u0131n q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7ir. F\u0259t edin bu C\u018fNN\u018fT\u0130…!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
M\u018fN\u0130M ANASIZ D\u00dcNYAM! El\u0259 anlar olur ki, insan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259k – t\u0259nha hiss edir v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131ya bilm\u0131r. Lakin bu t\u0259nhal\u0131q onun daxili d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131yacaq q\u0259d\u0259r yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 olur v\u0259 hiss edir ki, sonu olmayan bo\u015fluqlar onu \u00e7\u0259kib apar\u0131r. Bu bo\u015fluqlar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 y\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259ri ist\u0259r \u2013 ist\u0259m\u0259z yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 ata \u2013 ana sevgisi canlan\u0131r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2617","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2617","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2617"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2617\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2619,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2617\/revisions\/2619"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2617"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2617"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2617"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}