{"id":26585,"date":"2018-02-13T10:05:47","date_gmt":"2018-02-13T06:05:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=26585"},"modified":"2018-02-13T10:05:47","modified_gmt":"2018-02-13T06:05:47","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-m%c9%99nim-sevimli-r%c9%99q%c9%99mim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=26585","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”M\u0259nim sevimli r\u0259q\u0259mim”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, AYB v\u0259 AJB \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nPrezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, G\u0259ncl\u0259r m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n

(\u018fs\u0259d Cahangirin Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 El\u00e7inin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131
\nhaqq\u0131nda qeydl\u0259rind\u0259n ibar\u0259t \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201d kitab\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259)<\/p>\n

U\u015faqk\u0259n 13 v\u0259 23 r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259rini niy\u0259 sevdiyimi he\u00e7 kim\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131qlaya bilmirdim. El\u0259 indi d\u0259 bunu bacarmaram. Ax\u0131, h\u0259r iki r\u0259q\u0259m m\u00fcxt\u0259lif xalqlar\u0131n mistik d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 \u201cl\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015f\u201d say\u0131l\u0131r… M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 yox… Bu iki r\u0259q\u0259mi o q\u0259d\u0259r sevir\u0259m ki… H\u0259tta, h\u0259r ay\u0131n 13 v\u0259 23-\u00fc m\u00fctl\u0259q sevindirici x\u0259b\u0259r al\u0131ram. Uzun zaman planla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015fl\u0259ri m\u0259hz bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irir\u0259m, \u0259min\u0259m ki, u\u011fur ovuclar\u0131mda olacaq.
\n\u018fs\u0259d Cahangirin \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201d kitab\u0131 n\u0259\u015fr olunanda, mahiyy\u0259tind\u0259n daha \u00e7ox ad\u0131 m\u0259ni c\u0259lb el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Sevimli r\u0259q\u0259mim n\u0259yi adland\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131?-dey\u0259 maraqlan\u0131rd\u0131m. Sa\u011f olsun, g\u0259nc yazar dostum G\u00fclnar\u0259 Sadiq t\u0259qdimat\u0131ndan aylar ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259 kitab\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 etdi. Sevindim… Sev\u0259r\u0259k d\u0259 kitab\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m… Kitab xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 El\u00e7inin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 haqq\u0131nda \u018fs\u0259d Cahangirin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini \u0259hat\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi… V\u0259 \u018fs\u0259d Cahangir oxucunun maraq \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc, d\u0259yi\u015fk\u0259n psixologiyas\u0131n\u0131, yaxud d\u00f6vr\u00fcn formala\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131; h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 ironik yana\u015fan insan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ani g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcb yox olan kinay\u0259ni ( bundan \u0259min\u0259m ki, insan xisl\u0259ti n\u0259yi is\u0259 anlamayanda beynini yormaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u201cla\u011fla\u011f\u0131\u201d etm\u0259yi se\u00e7ir) eynin\u0259 almayaraq bel\u0259 bir etiraf edir: \u201cOnun haqq\u0131nda yaza-yaza h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc formala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yarad\u0131ram\u201d . M\u0259n is\u0259 h\u0259m \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201dni, h\u0259m d\u0259 El\u00e7inin \u201c\u0130ntihar\u201d hekay\u0259sini oxuya-oxuya m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn toxunulmazl\u0131q qazanm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rimin (bildikl\u0259rimi z\u0259nn etdikl\u0259rimin, yaxud m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259dil\u0259nl\u0259rin) ovcumda \u0259riy\u0259n qar d\u0259n\u0259si boyda yalan-he\u00e7lik oldu\u011funu anlay\u0131rd\u0131m…
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\nEl\u00e7inin \u201c\u0130ntihar\u201d hekay\u0259si balaca \u018fbinin yuxusu il\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. O yuxu ki, daim m\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcb. Daim m\u0259ni \u0259trafdak\u0131 u\u015faqlardan f\u0259rql\u0259ndirib. U\u015faqk\u0259n i\u015f o yer\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, ana n\u0259n\u0259m Z\u0259hra Barat\u0259liq\u0131z\u0131 bir i\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n v\u0259 ya bir s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l z\u0259nnl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxar, \u201cgec\u0259 n\u0259 yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n, de, yozum\u201d-dey\u0259rdi. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm yuxular\u0131 h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131m. Ta ki, bir g\u00fcn onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki ifad\u0259l\u0259rin m\u0259nalar\u0131n\u0131 anlayanad\u0259k… N\u0259n\u0259min \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 gah m\u00fcjd\u0259, gah k\u0259d\u0259r, gah t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259la\u015f effekti g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Bu effektl\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yuxulardan dezinfeksiya el\u0259m\u0259k arzusu oyatd\u0131. D\u00fczd\u00fc, bunu bacarmad\u0131m he\u00e7 vaxt, lakin daha yuxular\u0131m\u0131 kim\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qada\u011fa qoydum…
\nV\u0259 o yuxular m\u0259ni m\u0259cbur etdi ki, \u201cBir az vaxt\u0131m var\u201d adl\u0131 povestimd\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dak\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri yaz\u0131m:
\n\u201cBizim izah\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259diyimiz yuxular \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz boyu axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z h\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259tir\u0259n car\u00e7\u0131lard\u0131r. Sad\u0259c\u0259, n\u0259 biz anlam\u0131r\u0131q, n\u0259 d\u0259 anladanlara qulaq asm\u0131r\u0131q. Kor-koran\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti axtar\u0131r\u0131q…
\n… Yuxular h\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259n b\u0259hs ed\u0259n kitab\u0131 oxuma\u011f\u0131 bacarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn biz\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259n ilk h\u0259rfl\u0259rdir. B\u0259s, biz, bu h\u0259rfl\u0259ri bir-bir \u00f6yr\u0259nib, h\u0259qiq\u0259tin \u0259lifbas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259y\u0259 bilirikmi? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, yox! Yoxsa, d\u00fcnya yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcb\u0259ri h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 bu sual\u0131 niy\u0259 \u00fcnvanlayard\u0131q ki?! \u201cOLUM YA \u00d6L\u00dcM?\u201d<\/p>\n

El\u00e7in is\u0259 yuxunun mistik g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259nim kimi c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 t\u00f6km\u00fcr. O, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 istedad\u0131na sadiq qal\u0131r. \u018fbinin yuxuda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 fiziki a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n onun beyninin m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n kodlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yi oxucunun \u00f6hd\u0259sin\u0259 burax\u0131r. Qoy bir az da oxucu \u00f6z mara\u011f\u0131na yenilsin, ba\u015flas\u0131n yuxuda fiziki a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fanmas\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcmk\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc axtarma\u011fa… Yaxud, tibb elmind\u0259 az-\u00e7ox s\u0259thi t\u0259xmin edil\u0259n bir hal\u0131-komaya girib sonra ay\u0131lan insan\u0131n x\u00fcsusi bir bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259fil \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n\u0131 da min c\u00fcr \u201cyozma\u011fa\u201d… Ax\u0131, bildiyimizi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z n\u0259 varsa, \u0259slind\u0259, bilm\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rimizin z\u0259rr\u0259 hal\u0131d\u0131r…
\n\u018fbinin d\u00f6n\u00fcb \u201cA\u011fa\u201d olmas\u0131 da onun a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259min gec\u0259d\u0259n qaynaqlan\u0131r… Yoxsa ki, \u201cav\u00e7arka \u015eakir\u201din be\u015f q\u0131zdan sonra do\u011fulan ar\u0131q, s\u0131sqa o\u011fluna \u015eakirin t\u0259birinc\u0259 des\u0259k, \u201co\u011fra\u015f d\u00fcnyada\u201d \u201cA\u011fa\u201d dey\u0259n tap\u0131lard\u0131m\u0131?!
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\n\u018fs\u0259d Cahangir kitab\u0131nda El\u00e7inin m\u00fcxt\u0259lif ill\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259tbuatda v\u0259 ya kitab \u015f\u0259klind\u0259 \u00e7ap olunan hekay\u0259l\u0259ri, m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259ri, pyesl\u0259ri, h\u0259tta, romanlar\u0131 haqq\u0131nda da \u00f6z qeydl\u0259rini oxucularla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. \u201cQ\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0259r\u0259nfil g\u00fcll\u0259ri \u201cPera Palas\u201d otelind\u0259 qald\u0131\u201d hekay\u0259sini t\u0259hlil ed\u0259rk\u0259n \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y maraql\u0131 bir fikir y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcr: \u201cSevginin s\u00fcnil\u0259\u015fm\u0259si ki\u015fini d\u0259, qad\u0131n\u0131 da androgin bir \u015fey\u0259-s\u0259n\u0259tkara \u00e7evirir\u201d . Ard\u0131nca da bu fikrini daha da \u0259lvanla\u015fd\u0131ran bir teoremi oxucunun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoyur: \u201cQad\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sevm\u0259y\u0259n ki\u015fi Allah\u0131 da sev\u0259 bilm\u0259z\u201d . \u0130ndi, bir oxucu kim m\u0259n bu teoremin isbat\u0131n\u0131 axtarmal\u0131yam… Axtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb-dolan\u0131b yen\u0259 \u00f6z i\u00e7im\u0259; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259m\u0259, ya\u015fant\u0131ma, sevgim\u0259 v\u0259 sevgini nec\u0259 duydu\u011fuma diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxmal\u0131yam… \u018fll\u0259rimi g\u00f6y\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b Allaha dua da etm\u0259liy\u0259m ki, bu teoremi aksioma etm\u0259k g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc, yet\u0259rliliyini m\u0259n\u0259-qad\u0131n psixologiyas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n sad\u0259 n\u00fcmun\u0259sin\u0259 \u0259rm\u0259\u011fan etsin… Bu ya\u015fdan sonra Allah \u00f6z yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnahkar H\u0259vvan\u0131n varisin\u0259 daha n\u0259yi nec\u0259 anladacaq, bilmir\u0259m, amma 2014-c\u00fc ild\u0259 m\u0259rhum \u015fair R\u0259na Teymurq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u201cS\u00f6z il\u0259 \u0259tirl\u0259ndi\u201d adl\u0131 monoqrafiyada sevgini bel\u0259 anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fam:
\n\u201cH\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za h\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259ni hissl\u0259rimizl\u0259 “b\u0259z\u0259yib”, \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 sevdam\u0131zdan p\u0259rd\u0259 as\u0131r\u0131q… G\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimizi g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck… Ad\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n qoyuruq, yara\u015fsa da, yara\u015fmasa da: “SEVG\u0130”.
\nV\u0259 bundan sonra d\u00f6n\u00fcb-dolan\u0131b yen\u0259 \u018fbinin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki sevgini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m… O sevgi ki, A\u011fan\u0131 yalan dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa da m\u0259cbur edir… \u0130ri, ya\u015f\u0131l g\u00f6zl\u0259ril\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 na\u0259laca z\u0259nnl\u0259 baxan A\u011fa onun \u201cd\u0259rdini\u201d deyirdi… B\u0259z\u0259n, d\u0259rman\u0131n\u0131 da…
\nA\u011fan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck yalan\u0131 Aslanla ba\u015flay\u0131r. El\u00e7in bu m\u0259qamda da yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 manevri il\u0259 zamanlararas\u0131 mistikan\u0131 oxucular\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na nar meyv\u0259si kimi qoyur. Tac\u0131ndan tutmu\u015f, r\u0259nginin b\u0259rraql\u0131\u011f\u0131nad\u0259k adama \u201cg\u0259l-g\u0259l\u201d dey\u0259n, lakin paralan\u0131nca gil\u0259l\u0259rinin \u015firin yaxud tur\u015f, iri yaxud balaca oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259diyimiz kimi El\u00e7inin zaman mistikas\u0131na da el\u0259c\u0259 heyranl\u0131qla bax\u0131r\u0131q.
\nAslan\u0131 \u018fbi m\u0259hz o a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131, q\u0131zd\u0131rmal\u0131, h\u0259yat\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yaradan gec\u0259d\u0259 \u201cg\u00f6r\u00fcr\u201d… V\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna kimi Aslan\u0131 yuxudam\u0131, yoxsa ger\u00e7\u0259klikd\u0259mi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 izaholunmayan paralel zaman k\u0259siyind\u0259mi g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u201can\u015f\u0131rda bilmir\u201d. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 Aslan obraz\u0131 is\u0259 hekay\u0259y\u0259 ill\u0259r sonra, art\u0131q \u015eakirin bel\u0259 A\u011fan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kindiyi, onun s\u0259sinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda m\u00fctil\u0259\u015fdiyi bir zamanda daxil olur.
\n\u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u018fbinin onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi: \u201ciki g\u00fcnd\u0259n bir \u201c\u015ftraf\u201d olundu\u011funu dem\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lir\u201d. A\u011fa \u015eakir\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 Aslana ist\u0259diyini verm\u0259sini sakit s\u0259sl\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. \u015eakir is\u0259 bu sakit s\u0259sd\u0259ki ilahi h\u00f6km\u00fc hiss edirmi\u015f kimi m\u00fctic\u0259sin\u0259 boyun \u0259yir. N\u0259hay\u0259t, Aslan A\u011fan\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi; beynin\u0259 qan s\u0131zaraq \u00f6l\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

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\n\u018fs\u0259d Cahangir El\u00e7inin bir daramturq kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsuslu\u011funu \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201dd\u0259 el\u0259 m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m t\u0259svir edir ki, adam az qal\u0131r yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 El\u00e7ini unutsun. \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y dramaturq q\u0259l\u0259mind\u0259n daha \u00e7ox dramaturq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259si, missiyas\u0131 haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 oxucunun fikirl\u0259rini bu istiqam\u0259t\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259ldir. El\u00e7inin \u201c\u015eekspir\u201d pyesi haqq\u0131nda qeydl\u0259ri oxuduqca beynimd\u0259 qurdu\u011fum dramaturq obraz\u0131 ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa cilaland\u0131 des\u0259m, fikrimi daha d\u00fczg\u00fcn s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 istifad\u0259 etmi\u015f olaram. (Baxmayaraq ki, ilk pyesim 2015-ci ild\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Dram Teatr\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259hn\u0259sind\u0259 tama\u015faya qoyulub, yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn dramaturgiya \u201c\u00fczm\u0259y\u0259 h\u00fcn\u0259r ist\u0259y\u0259n d\u0259rya\u201d olaraq qal\u0131r).
\n\u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y \u201c\u015eekspir\u201d pyesi haqda qeydl\u0259rind\u0259 El\u00e7inin h\u0259mplanetlil\u0259rimizin \u00fcmumi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sini d\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131r: \u201cYadplanetlini d\u0259li say\u0131b \u201cpsixu\u015fkaya\u201d salmaqla Yer k\u00fcr\u0259si adamlar\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259li-a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 anlay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u015f\u0259rti oldu\u011fu, onlar\u0131n h\u0259r c\u00fcr f\u0259rqli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259li dam\u011fas\u0131 vurdu\u011fu \u0259yanil\u0259\u015fir\u201d. Bu fikirl\u0259 raz\u0131yam… \u00c7\u00fcnki, \u00fcmumun yekunlu\u011fu el\u0259 bu dem\u0259kdir…
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\n\u00dcmumun yekunlu\u011fu prinsipin\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 El\u00e7in d\u0259 \u201c\u0130ntihar\u201d hekay\u0259sind\u0259 yer ay\u0131r\u0131r: \u015eakirin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u0259sviri il\u0259… \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 \u015eakir \u00f6z t\u0259bi\u0259tin\u0259 \u00fcsyan qald\u0131r\u0131r, A\u011fan\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259lib ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir:
\n..V\u0259 bir gec\u0259 A\u011fa yatmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlad\u0131 v\u0259 bu q\u0259fil vaqe\u0259d\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirmi\u015f \u015eakir d\u0259 onu qucaqlad\u0131 \u2013 b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yatlar\u0131nda onlar ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, qucaqla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 A\u011fan\u0131n bu m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tind\u0259n \u00e7ox t\u0259sirl\u0259n\u0259n \u015eakir doluxsuna-doluxsuna:
\n– A\u011fa,- dedi.- M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, u\u015faq vaxt\u0131 s\u0259ni \u00e7ox incitmi\u015f\u0259m, anan\u0131 da, bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 da \u00e7ox incitmi\u015f\u0259m\u2026
\nA\u011fa atas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pd\u00fc \u2013 bu, onlar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yatlar\u0131ndak\u0131 ilk \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f idi \u2013 v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259yib, \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na getdi. S\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n is\u0259 Z\u0259hran\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 qopdu: \u015eakir gec\u0259 yuxuda ik\u0259n ke\u00e7inmi\u015fdi v\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259 camaat\u0131 onu b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u00dcmumun yekununun daha bir b\u0259dii t\u0259sviri: vaxtil\u0259 t\u00fcnd xasiyy\u0259tin\u0259, dilinin ac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 \u015eakir\u0259 ayama qo\u015fub \u201cav\u00e7arka\u201d dey\u0259n q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259 sakinl\u0259ri onu A\u011fan\u0131n atas\u0131 kimi \u201cb\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259\u201d o d\u00fcnyaya \u201cu\u011furlay\u0131r\u201d… <\/p>\n

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\n\u201cD\u0259lil\u0259r ikil\u0259\u015fm\u0259k hesab\u0131na \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 k\u0259nardan d\u0259y\u0259r verdikl\u0259ri kimi, d\u0259li d\u00fcnya da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 teatr, oyun-s\u0259n\u0259t vasit\u0259sil\u0259 qiym\u0259t verir\u201d. \u018fs\u0259d Cahangirin g\u0259ldiyi bu f\u0259ls\u0259fi n\u0259tic\u0259 d\u0259 maraql\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259rk\u0259zd\u0259nqa\u00e7ma prinsipi il\u0259 yox, m\u0259rk\u0259z\u0259 meyletm\u0259 prinsipi il\u0259 baxsaq, g\u00f6r\u0259rik ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259rin zirv\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7atanlara-dahil\u0259r\u0259 \u201cd\u0259li\u201d dam\u011fas\u0131 vurmaq insan \u00f6vlad\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn el\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin deyilmi\u015f…
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\nHekay\u0259nin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 A\u011fa da paralel zamanlar\u0131n ka\u015fifi kimi \u201cdahi\u201d say\u0131la bil\u0259r. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, onun dahiliyinin d\u0259lilikd\u0259n xali oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fc. Bunu A\u011fa \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilir… Onun kitablara meyl salmas\u0131, \u201c\u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n ax\u0131rad\u0259k oxumad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir kitab\u0131 dolaba qoymamas\u0131\u201d \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc cilovlama\u011f\u0131n \u00fcsullar\u0131ndan say\u0131l\u0131r. Elmi psixologiya sad\u0259 dild\u0259 bu proses\u0259 \u201c\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259qapanma\u201d dey\u0259 bilir.
\n\u018ftrafdak\u0131 d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f, yaxud \u201cel n\u0259 dey\u0259r\u201d A\u011fan\u0131 da rahat buraxm\u0131r. Elin i\u00e7ind\u0259n bir n\u0259f\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u0259y\u0259n\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r: A\u011fa haqq\u0131nda SSR\u0130-nin n\u00fcfuzlu q\u0259zetind\u0259 \u201cYeni peyda olmu\u015f pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259r\u201d adl\u0131 t\u0259hqiramiz yaz\u0131 \u00e7ap edilir…
\nEl\u00e7inin yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 ustal\u0131\u011f\u0131 hekay\u0259nin bu yerind\u0259 daha d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc olur. Nec\u0259 ki, \u00dczeyir b\u0259y Hac\u0131b\u0259ylinin felyetonlar\u0131n\u0131 oxuyandan sonra eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b h\u0259min personajlar\u0131 bir-bir ger\u00e7\u0259klikd\u0259 seyr ediriks\u0259, bax o c\u00fcr d\u0259 indiki media haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm… M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, El\u00e7in bu m\u0259qam\u0131 el\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131na baxanda g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k yaz\u0131b, m\u0259n d\u0259, s\u0259n d\u0259, o biri oxucu da \u0259traf\u0131na baxark\u0259n bunu g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k… He\u00e7 bir elmi izah\u0131 axtar\u0131lmayan, k\u00f6k\u00fc ara\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lmayan, qulaqdan-qula\u011fa yar\u0131uydurma, yar\u0131ger\u00e7\u0259k yay\u0131lanlar\u0131 uc-uca qo\u015fub informasiya ad\u0131yla camaata s\u0131r\u0131maq g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn \u0259n adi v\u0259 \u0259n ucuz pe\u015f\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilib…
\nA\u011fa haqq\u0131nda yaz\u0131lan felyeton da bu c\u00fcr ucuz idi.
\n\u018fn maraql\u0131s\u0131 is\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259 sakinl\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n, h\u0259tta, ittifaq\u0131n ( burada SSR\u0130 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutulur) h\u0259r yerind\u0259n Moskvaya ard-arda g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259n teleqramlard\u0131. Hans\u0131 ki, o q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 \u201cav\u00e7arka \u015eakir\u201din c\u0131l\u0131z o\u011flu el\u0259 \u018fbiliyind\u0259 qalsayd\u0131, he\u00e7 kim yolda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u0259rib ona salam verm\u0259k \u0259ziyy\u0259tin\u0259 d\u0259 qatla\u015fmazd\u0131… Yen\u0259 d\u0259 insan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sinin anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k kimi xisl\u0259ti haqq\u0131nda psixoloji elmi-t\u0259dqiqat i\u015fi oxuyurmu\u015f kimi hiss etdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc…
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\n\u018fs\u0259d Cahangir kitab\u0131nda \u015eekspir ad\u0131 \u0259traf\u0131nda apar\u0131lan \u0259d\u0259bi \u015foudan da b\u0259hs edir. \u015eekspir imzas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259slind\u0259 kim\u0259 m\u0259xsus oldu\u011fu, \u201cOlum ya \u00f6l\u00fcm?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259dii donunu q\u00fcsursuz bi\u00e7mi\u015f d\u0259rzinin qad\u0131n yaxud ki\u015fi oldu\u011fu, \u0259n n\u0259hay\u0259tind\u0259, eyni imza alt\u0131nda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llifin birl\u0259\u015fdiyi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fczakir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, yeri g\u0259ldi-g\u0259lm\u0259di umu-k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bdir. \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n sonsuzluq i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259ndiyini birc\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259 il\u0259 deyir. V\u0259 h\u0259min c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259 \u0259d\u0259bi h\u00f6km\u00fc hiss etm\u0259k el\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin deyil: \u201cBel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, \u201cB\u00f6y\u00fck \u015eekspir oyunu\u201d adland\u0131r\u0131la bil\u0259c\u0259k bu tama\u015fan\u0131n p\u0259rd\u0259si qiyam\u0259td\u0259 en\u0259c\u0259yi kimi, \u015eekspirin ad\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 sirr p\u0259rd\u0259si d\u0259 qiyam\u0259td\u0259 qalxa bil\u0259r!\u201d
\n\u201c\u015eekspir\u201d pyesind\u0259n b\u0259hs ed\u0259rk\u0259n \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y rejissor i\u015fin\u0259 d\u0259 diqq\u0259t ay\u0131r\u0131r. Deyir ki: \u201cB\u0259hram Osmanov qurulu\u015f verdiyi tama\u015falarda aktyor imkanlar\u0131n\u0131n maksimum n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirilm\u0259sin\u0259 \u015f\u0259rait yaradan rejissordur\u201d. B\u0259hram Osmanovun ad\u0131 m\u0259ni ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259-2009-cu il\u0259 apard\u0131… Onda G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 teatr festival\u0131 ke\u00e7irilirdi… Onda B\u0259hram Osmanov C\u0259f\u0259r Cabbarl\u0131 ad\u0131na GDDT-na ba\u015f rejissor kimi g\u0259lmi\u015fdi… V\u0259 m\u0259n televiziyada redaktor i\u015fl\u0259yirdim… Bir g\u00fcn q\u0259rara al\u0131nd\u0131 ki, h\u0259ft\u0259nin \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259h\u0259r proqram\u0131n\u0131n canl\u0131 efirind\u0259 B\u0259hram Osmanov qonaq olacaq. Teatra olan sevgimd\u0259n (g\u00f6rk\u0259mli teatr xadimi Rafiq Ataki\u015fi bu sevgimi sez\u0259r\u0259k demi\u015fdi: \u201cS\u0259nin kimi teatr\u0131 sev\u0259n, anlayan c\u0259mi iki-\u00fc\u00e7 adam tan\u0131m\u0131\u015fam bir \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259, ay balaca q\u0131z…\u201d) B\u0259hram Osmanov \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 pay ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259ft\u0259nin \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259n c\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 efirini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. N\u0259hay\u0259t, c\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc Cavadxan k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n yolumu d\u0259yi\u015fib ara d\u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 girmi\u015fdim. D\u00fcz Osmanovlar\u0131n evin\u0259 getmi\u015fdim… Anas\u0131ndan B\u0259hram b\u0259yin u\u015faql\u0131q \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259d\u0259k g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, anan\u0131n dilind\u0259n sevgiyl\u0259 ax\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri \u201cbir\u0259r-bir\u0259r yadda\u015f\u0131ma, ruhuma y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m\u201d, \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm i\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. S\u0259h\u0259risi B\u0259hram Osmanov studiyada ik\u0259n onun haqq\u0131ndak\u0131 ki\u00e7ik h\u0259cmli s\u00fcjet efir\u0259 getdi… B\u0259hram b\u0259y g\u00f6zl\u0259ri b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f halda birc\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259 demi\u015fdi:
\n-Bunu kim eliyib ax\u0131?
\nO c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259ki sevinci d\u0259, q\u00fcruru da, f\u0259xar\u0259tqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fc d\u0259 duymu\u015fdum… El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 yaln\u0131z bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra B\u0259hram b\u0259y\u0259 telefon a\u00e7araq o s\u00fcjeti haz\u0131rlayan\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131n \u015e\u0259fa oldu\u011funu demi\u015fdim… \u018fmin\u0259m ki, B\u0259hram b\u0259y o \u015e\u0259fa adl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259n oldu\u011funu he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015fdi…
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\n\u018fbi be\u015f q\u0131zdan sonra do\u011fulanda q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 kimin a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, onu Vanqa, Messinq, Edqar Keysi il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r tutacaqlar… B\u0259lk\u0259, ucundan-qula\u011f\u0131ndan e\u015fits\u0259l\u0259r qar\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 tutub q\u0259\u015f\u015f ed\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k g\u00fcl\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, \u201cnec\u0259 y\u0259ni, bizim \u018fbi Brejnevi m\u00fcalic\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259r?\u201d Amma onlar A\u011faya inan\u0131rd\u0131lar… A\u011fan\u0131n Brejnevi klinik \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qaytard\u0131\u011f\u0131na kims\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etmirdi…
\nEl\u00e7inin \u018fbini A\u011fal\u0131\u011fa aparan yolu ruhunun diqt\u0259si il\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 almas\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259min bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yad\u0131ma sald\u0131: \u201c\u018fz\u0259lin g\u0259linc\u0259, ax\u0131r\u0131n g\u0259lsin\u201d… A\u011fa \u018fbinin ax\u0131r\u0131 idi… Sonu idi… Bu sonu g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k d\u0259 onun\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259zaba \u00e7evrilirdi. Sanki, \u0259lini uzatsa g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yi son h\u0259r \u015feyin t\u0259rsin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015f hal\u0131 idi…
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\n\u018fs\u0259d Cahangir El\u00e7inin \u201cBa\u015f\u201d roman\u0131 haqda fikirl\u0259rini d\u0259 kitabda oxucular\u0131yla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Tarixi hadis\u0259l\u0259rin fonunda romandak\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259sinin a\u00e7ar s\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u0259 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259\u00e7i qabiliyy\u0259ti il\u0259 a\u015fkarlaya bilib. \u201c\u0130nsan \u00f6z \u00f6lm\u0259zliyini \u00f6l\u00fcm hesab\u0131na d\u0259rk edir\u201d. M\u0259n dey\u0259rdim ki, bu f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259s\u0259ni a\u015fkarlama\u011fa \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y he\u00e7 c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259yib. \u00c7\u00fcnki, El\u00e7inin dem\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rini anlamaqda o, he\u00e7 vaxt \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kmir. \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201dd\u0259 \u018fs\u0259d Cahangirl\u0259 Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 El\u00e7inin ruh v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k istedadl\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259ris oxucu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox asand\u0131. Yet\u0259r ki, n\u0259 oxudu\u011funu bil\u0259s\u0259n, oxumaq ehtiras\u0131n\u0131 cilovlamaqdansa, ona yenil\u0259s\u0259n…
\nDaha sonra \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y \u00f6l\u00fcm f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259sinin k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 daim ikili d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 il\u0259 ya\u015fayan insan\u0131n \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259kzibini v\u0259 ya t\u0259sdiqini axtar\u0131r El\u00e7inin roman\u0131nda… Bu axtar\u0131\u015f da uzun s\u00fcrm\u00fcr. Ax\u0131, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 hadis\u0259d\u0259n hadis\u0259y\u0259, zamandan-zamana ke\u00e7id etm\u0259kl\u0259 ikiliyin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u201cetiraf edir\u201d… \u018fs\u0259d b\u0259y d\u0259 haql\u0131 olaraq bu q\u0259na\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lir: \u201cKlassik \u015e\u0259rq k\u0259lam\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n dili il\u0259 des\u0259k, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 iki c\u00fcr a\u015fmaq olar-ya m\u0259l\u0259k, ya da heyvan olmaqla…\u201d
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\n\u201c\u0130ntihar\u201d hekay\u0259sind\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131n A\u011fan\u0131 m\u0259l\u0259k kimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc yaz\u0131r. B\u0259zil\u0259ri onu xeyirxah, \u015f\u0259fq\u0259tli bir m\u0259l\u0259k obraz\u0131yla eynil\u0259\u015fdirs\u0259 d\u0259, bir ba\u015fqas\u0131, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, professor A\u011fa-zad\u0259 onu \u00f6l\u00fcm m\u0259l\u0259yi hesab edir…
\nSona do\u011fru add\u0131mlama\u011fa A\u011fa \u00f6vladlar\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ba\u015flay\u0131r… H\u0259r add\u0131mda min bir m\u0259\u015f\u0259qq\u0259t, \u0259zab da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r. Hekay\u0259nin bu sona do\u011fru ir\u0259lil\u0259y\u0259n m\u0259qam\u0131nda El\u00e7in A\u011fan\u0131 bir ata kimi t\u0259qdim edir v\u0259 \u00f6z sevimli obraz\u0131n\u0131 insanil\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 sidq-\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 c\u0259hd edir. \u00d6z \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 z\u0259nnl\u0259 baxmaqdan qorxan A\u011fa onu yaradana, bu \u201cvergi\u201dni ona \u0259ta el\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xmaqdan da \u00e7\u0259kinmir. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259ki d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, hissl\u0259rd\u0259n qorxdu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259ksin\u0259 baxmayan A\u011fa, \u0259slind\u0259, \u00f6z daxilini ham\u0131dan yax\u015f\u0131, ham\u0131dan ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc… Bu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259ki ya\u015fam \u0259zab\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rk etdiyind\u0259n h\u0259yatdan z\u00f6vq almaq dey\u0259 bir anlam ona yad idi. Bu yadl\u0131qla qap\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki \u201cqara duman\u201da bax\u0131r, Tanr\u0131n\u0131n niy\u0259 buna izn verdiyin\u0259 m\u0259\u0259tt\u0259l qal\u0131rd\u0131.
\nEl\u00e7in A\u011fan\u0131n bu heyr\u0259tind\u0259 d\u0259 \u201cOlum ya \u00f6l\u00fcm?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 \u015fifr\u0259l\u0259yib… Ax\u0131, \u201colmaq\u201d da, \u201c\u00f6lm\u0259k\u201d d\u0259 insan o\u011flunun-yarad\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 deyil… Y\u00fcz m\u00fcxt\u0259lif s\u0259b\u0259bi olursa da olsun, \u00f6l\u00fcm el\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr v\u0259 onun d\u0259qiq saat\u0131n\u0131, vaxt\u0131n\u0131, zaman\u0131n\u0131 aln\u0131m\u0131za yazan yaz\u0131b…
\nA\u011fan\u0131n sona bir add\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015f \u00f6z \u201cvergi\u201dsin\u0259 d\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etm\u0259yi yad\u0131m\u0131za Herman Hessenin \u201cyalquza\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u201d sal\u0131r… O da sonda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259sl xisl\u0259tini-insan ruhundak\u0131 asiliyi, \u015feytaniliyi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc… A\u011fa da sona bir add\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015f \u201cvergi\u201dsinin \u015eeytan \u0259m\u0259li oldu\u011funa inanmaqdan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nN\u0259hay\u0259t, sonluq…
\n2011-ci il avqustun 13-\u00fc… A\u011fan\u0131n 55 ya\u015f\u0131 tamam olur. D\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259yin\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r qalm\u0131\u015f n\u0259v\u0259sinin-onun kimi iri, ya\u015f\u0131l g\u00f6zl\u0259ri olacaq o\u011flan\u0131n yeddi ya\u015f\u0131nda avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131nda \u00f6lm\u0259si A\u011fa \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rinin son epizodu idi… Bu epizodda o, h\u0259yat\u0131n faniliyinin d\u0259rkin\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r… V\u0259 \u015e\u0259rq f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259sinin pik n\u00f6qt\u0259si- \u201cbe\u015fg\u00fcnl\u00fck fani d\u00fcnya\u201d hekay\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki n\u00f6vb\u0259ti d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 ke\u00e7idi olur. Bu ke\u00e7idd\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259kl\u0259 h\u0259r bir oxucu insan o\u011flunun qolunun zoru, var\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ri i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n qanunlar\u0131n oldu\u011funu da anlay\u0131r. A\u011fan\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 aparan da bu qanun idi…
\nA\u011fa olumun daim \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 borclu oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u201cKor G\u00f6z\u0259l Q\u0131z\u201d pirin\u0259 gedir… V\u0259 bu pirin \u0259fsan\u0259sinin yar\u0131dumanl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc yen\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259minin sehri il\u0259 \u201cg\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck\u201d… N\u0259 vaxtsa, guya o qayan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturan Kor G\u00f6z\u0259l Q\u0131z q\u0259fil yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131… O q\u0131z\u0131n safl\u0131\u011fa, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sliy\u0259 qovu\u015faraq g\u00fcnahkar g\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259si inanc\u0131 h\u0259min qayan\u0131 pir\u0259 \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi.
\nA\u011fa Kor G\u00f6z\u0259l Q\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 \u201cg\u00f6rd\u00fckd\u0259\u201d (burda da yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 insan psixologiyas\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fcdudsuzlu\u011funa i\u015far\u0259 edir) \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr… Bu d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259kl\u0259 d\u0259 A\u011fan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u018fbi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaq ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r. Onun bildikl\u0259rini bilm\u0259y\u0259n, g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n, dolay\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 b\u0259sir\u0259t g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lmayan \u018fbinin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 daha \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 arzulay\u0131r… Bu arzunun bir ucundan tutaraq o gec\u0259- avqustun 13-n\u00fcn ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 gec\u0259 Kor G\u00f6z\u0259l Q\u0131z qayas\u0131na gedir A\u011fa. Qayadan da o \u00fcz\u0259 \u018fbiy\u0259 do\u011fru yol al\u0131r. Gedir \u018fbini \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc axtarma\u011fa…
\nS\u0259h\u0259risi is\u0259 art\u0131q A\u011fa \u201cyoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u201d…
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\nYaz\u0131n\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259 \u018fs\u0259d Cahangirin El\u00e7in haqq\u0131ndak\u0131 fikirl\u0259rini qeyd etmi\u015fdim: \u201cOnun haqq\u0131nda yaza-yaza h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc formala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yarad\u0131ram\u201d… M\u0259n is\u0259 aylard\u0131 i\u00e7imd\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 axtard\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdim bu yaz\u0131yla… V\u0259 \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201dnin sabah\u0131nda daha bir g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi salamlad\u0131m… <\/p>\n

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\u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, AYB v\u0259 AJB \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, G\u0259ncl\u0259r m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 (\u018fs\u0259d Cahangirin Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 El\u00e7inin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 haqq\u0131nda qeydl\u0259rind\u0259n ibar\u0259t \u201cOn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc gec\u0259\u201d kitab\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259) U\u015faqk\u0259n 13 v\u0259 23 r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259rini niy\u0259 sevdiyimi he\u00e7 kim\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131qlaya bilmirdim. El\u0259 indi d\u0259 bunu bacarmaram. Ax\u0131, h\u0259r iki r\u0259q\u0259m m\u00fcxt\u0259lif xalqlar\u0131n mistik d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 \u201cl\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015f\u201d say\u0131l\u0131r… M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 yox… […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26585","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26585","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=26585"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26585\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":26587,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26585\/revisions\/26587"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=26585"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=26585"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=26585"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}