{"id":2665,"date":"2013-06-07T09:29:26","date_gmt":"2013-06-07T09:29:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=2665"},"modified":"2013-06-07T09:29:26","modified_gmt":"2013-06-07T09:29:26","slug":"qiym%c9%99t-m%c9%99h%c9%99rr%c9%99mlinin-t%c9%99zadlar-q%c9%99zetind%c9%99-d%c9%99rc-olunmus-musahib%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=2665","title":{"rendered":"Qiym\u0259t M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mlinin “T\u0259zadlar” q\u0259zetind\u0259 d\u0259rc olunmu\u015f m\u00fcsahib\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\nQiym\u0259t M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mli: \u201cM\u0259n ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 bacarmad\u0131m…\u201d <\/p>\n

M\u00fcsahibimiz filologiya \u00fczr\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 doktoru, \u015fair-publisist Qiym\u0259t xan\u0131m M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mlidir.<\/p>\n

–\tQiym\u0259t xan\u0131m, sizinl\u0259 h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259t olan jurnalistl\u0259r \u00e7ox olub. V\u0259 sizi yet\u0259rinc\u0259 tan\u0131ma\u011fa v\u0259 tan\u0131tma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131blar. M\u0259n suyunu i\u00e7ib, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini yediyimiz bir elin \u00f6vlad\u0131 kimi, y\u0259ni sizin elliniz kimi, sizi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnd\u0259n fikirl\u0259rimizin \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc bilir\u0259m. Bir yarad\u0131c\u0131 m\u00fcsahib kimi verdiyim suallara alaca\u011f\u0131m cavablar\u0131 da t\u0259xmini bilir\u0259m. Siz sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t kimi \u00e7ox maraql\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. \u0130st\u0259dim, sizinl\u0259 m\u00fcsahib\u0259d\u0259 el\u0259 \u00e7alarlara toxunum ki, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n m\u0259nada maraql\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f kimi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f edib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc oxuculara daha yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131das\u0131n\u0131z. Mill\u0259tin d\u0259rdinin b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b, bu y\u00fck\u00fc da\u015f\u0131maq ist\u0259y\u0259n alim, jurnalist, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131-publisist kimi, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 diqq\u0259t m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259siniz. Siz el\u0259 bir kitabs\u0131n\u0131z ki, s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259ndikc\u0259 daha da \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 \u00e7alarlar \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Siz o q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259vaz\u00f6kar insans\u0131n\u0131z ki, siz\u0259 qalsa, bu m\u0259qamlar sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gizli qalar. Lakin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259p\u0259r tapan, sizi sev\u0259n h\u0259r bir m\u0259sl\u0259kda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z ist\u0259r ki, \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t kimi maraql\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259riniz a\u00e7\u0131laraq s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259nsin. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu g\u00fcn \u015feirin, s\u00f6z\u00fcn ucuzla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir vaxtda buna ehtiyac\u0131m\u0131z var.
\nDeyilm\u0259y\u0259n s\u00f6z \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259 sirrdir,
\n\u00c7\u0131xsa dil atdan incidir, d\u00fcrrd\u00fcr.
\nSiz d\u0259, Qiym\u0259t xan\u0131m, \u00fcr\u0259yinizd\u0259 sirr olan d\u00fcrl\u00fc s\u00f6zl\u0259rinizi, inci fikirl\u0259rinizi sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259yin. Bir az \u0259rkl\u0259 deyim ki, insan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259vaz\u00f6kar v\u0259 q\u00fcrurlu olsa da, sizin t\u0259birinizc\u0259 des\u0259k, \u201cbir g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u00fcz g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 u\u015faq kimi s\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr\u201d. Allah g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u00fczl\u0259ri sizin\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259skik etm\u0259sin. \u0130ndi is\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259k suallara:
\n–\tSosial bax\u0131mdan yana\u015fsaq, ucuz s\u00f6z bazar\u0131nda n\u0259yi baha al\u0131b, n\u0259yi ucuz satard\u0131n\u0131z?
\n–\t\u018flimd\u0259 olsayd\u0131, l\u0259yaq\u0259t, vicdan, namus, \u0259xlaq, halall\u0131q, d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fck kimi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ri a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259nfilikl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qara bir x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdim. Zaman\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259zisinin \u0259yilm\u0259sin\u0259 duru\u015f g\u0259tirm\u0259k bu \u201cat\u0131 ucuz, iti baha d\u00fcnyada\u201d el\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259zdir ki!…
\n–\tA\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z c\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131n m\u0259xsusiliyi siz\u0259 n\u0259yi verib, n\u0259yi al\u0131r?
\n–\tH\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259m v\u0259 t\u0259bii ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn sonunacan \u00f6z\u00fcm olaraq da qalaca\u011fam. \u0130nsanl\u0131q c\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131 il\u0259 ir\u0259lil\u0259yir\u0259m v\u0259 bu yolda m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259rin say\u0131-hesab\u0131 yoxdur, lakin he\u00e7 d\u0259 pe\u015fman deyil\u0259m. \u018fqid\u0259siz olub z\u0259nginlik i\u00e7\u0259ri\u00e7ind\u0259 itib-batmaqdansa, l\u0259k\u0259siz, t\u0259miz vicdan\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 qazand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 insan sevgil\u0259rinin f\u00f6vq\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u0259xtiyar olma\u011f\u0131n l\u0259zz\u0259tini dadmaqdayam h\u0259r add\u0131mda.
\n–\t\u0130nsan q\u0259lbi oxunmayan kitabd\u0131rsa, onu oxuma\u011fa ehtiyac varm\u0131 v\u0259 onu kiml\u0259r oxuya bil\u0259r?
\n–\tH\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259, h\u0259r bir insan\u0131n q\u0259lbi oxunmayan, sirli kitaba b\u0259nz\u0259yir. Bu kitab\u0131 oxuma\u011fa \u00e7oxlar\u0131 c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259, yaln\u0131z b\u0259sir\u0259t g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131q olanlar onu oxuyub \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilirl\u0259r. Z\u0259nnimc\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n yersiz s\u0259yl\u0259r d\u0259 insan\u0131 bezikdir\u0259 bil\u0259r, ax\u0131 bel\u0259 bir deyim d\u0259 var: \u201c\u0130nsan \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u00fcfr\u0259 deyil ki, h\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131na a\u00e7asan\u201d. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, Yaradan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259si el\u0259 budur ki, he\u00e7 insan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131y\u0131b \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilmir \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r. O da ola ba\u015fqalar\u0131. T\u0259sad\u00fcfi deyildir ki, bir zamanlar yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m:
\nSirrl\u0259r yuvas\u0131d\u0131r \u00fcr\u0259yim m\u0259nim,
\nQap\u0131s\u0131 kilidli, a\u00e7ar d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259n.
\nTez-tez olursa da qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259nim,
\nQapan\u0131r \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qap\u0131lar h\u0259m\u0259n.
\n–\t\u018fliniz\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259lbinizd\u0259ki dal\u011falar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sahild\u0259 t\u0259nha hiss ed\u0259r\u0259kmi yaz\u0131r? D\u0259niz… dal\u011fa… l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131za n\u0259 verir?
\n–\tT\u0259lat\u00fcml\u00fc d\u0259niz kimi,
\n\u00c7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131ram, d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m… \u2013 bu, m\u0259nim h\u0259yat t\u0259rzimdir, des\u0259m, s\u0259hv etm\u0259r\u0259m. Dal\u011falar \u015fah\u0259 qalxark\u0259n, \u00e7\u0259tin ki, l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rin t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u00fc bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na duru\u015f g\u0259tir\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n.
\n–\tHe\u00e7 olubmu ki, k\u00f6lg\u0259niz sizi qorxutsun?
\n–\tHe\u00e7 vaxt. \u00d6z k\u00f6lg\u0259sin\u0259 p\u0259r\u0259sti\u015f ed\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259, yaxud \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259sinin oldu\u011funa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc inand\u0131ranlara yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lib h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259.
\n–\tPoeziya al\u0259mind\u0259 qad\u0131nlar aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 r\u0259qib g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc?
\n–\tB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ist\u0259rdim, i\u00e7\u0259rimd\u0259 sa\u011flam r\u0259qab\u0259t deyil\u0259n bir hiss ba\u015f qald\u0131rs\u0131n. Lakin bilmir\u0259m, h\u0259dsiz ail\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131, yaxud i\u015fl\u0259rimin \u00e7oxlu\u011fu s\u0259b\u0259bind\u0259n bu hiss he\u00e7 v\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259lbim\u0259 yax\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259yib. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, r\u0259qab\u0259td\u0259 \u0259lim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndand\u0131r ki, \u00e7ox \u015feyi, arzu kimi q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 g\u00f6mm\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fam. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki m\u0259nl\u0259 r\u0259qab\u0259td\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259r zaman uduzdu\u011fumu hiss etmi\u015f\u0259m.
\n–\tG\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 qalxd\u0131n\u0131z, G\u00f6y Adam\u0131n\u0131n siz\u0259 n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdiyini sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 bildirm\u0259k fikriniz olubmu? Bu kitab\u0131n davam\u0131 n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7\u0131xacaq?
\n–\tG\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131n bir \u00f6zg\u0259 n\u0259\u015f\u0259si var. Bunun n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu G\u00f6y adamlar\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bilir v\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259ri boyunca yaz\u0131b-pozduqlar\u0131 da el\u0259 bu missiyan\u0131 sev\u0259nl\u0259rin\u0259 izhar etm\u0259kd\u0259n ibar\u0259tdir. H\u0259r halda, G\u00f6y adam\u0131n\u0131n sev\u0259nl\u0259rin\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yi h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox s\u00f6z\u00fc var. Sa\u011fl\u0131q olsun.
\n–\tSizc\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259viyyat al\u0131nm\u0131rsa, nec\u0259 sat\u0131l\u0131r?
\n–\t\u018fslind\u0259, sat\u0131lan\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilmir\u0259m, birc\u0259 onu bilir\u0259m ki, h\u0259r n\u0259dirs\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259viyyat deyil. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n\u0259viyyat n\u0259 al\u0131n\u0131r, n\u0259 d\u0259 sat\u0131l\u0131r. O, Tanr\u0131n\u0131n insana \u0259man\u0259tidir. M\u0259n\u0259viyyat ruh m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sidir. Ruhunu satmaq?! Buna m\u0259n inanm\u0131ram!
\n–\t\u0130nsan dan\u0131\u015fmasa, onu nec\u0259 tan\u0131maq olar? Sokrat demi\u015fk\u0259n: \u201cDan\u0131\u015f\u0131n, sizi tan\u0131yaq\u201d.
\n–\tBel\u0259 bir deyim var: \u0130nsan\u0131 g\u00f6rk\u0259min\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131b, a\u011fl\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 yola sal\u0131rlar. Lakin \u00e7ox vaxt s\u00f6z art\u0131ql\u0131q edir, qar\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131 adic\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan, yeri\u015find\u0259n-duru\u015fundan tan\u0131y\u0131b, d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndir\u0259 bilirs\u0259n. \u00c7ox olub ki, m\u0259n\u0259 intuisiyam bel\u0259 hallarda yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 olub. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc d\u0259 olsa deyim ki, m\u0259n ilk bax\u0131\u015fdan tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m insan bar\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259na\u0259timd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin ki, yan\u0131lam.
\n–\tB\u0259xtiyar m\u00fc\u0259llimin verdiyi xeyir-dua \u00e7iyinl\u0259rinizd\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck deyil ki? Y\u0259ni, onun m\u0259suliyy\u0259tini h\u0259l\u0259d\u0259mi hiss edirsiniz?
\n–\t\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259. T\u00fcrk d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zsiz s\u00f6z s\u0259n\u0259tkar\u0131, b\u00f6y\u00fck ustad\u0131m B\u0259xtiyar Vahabzad\u0259nin 1998-ci ild\u0259 \u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat q\u0259zeti\u201dnd\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fcnvan\u0131ma yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201cAlt qat\u201d adl\u0131 yaz\u0131dan sonra inan\u0131n, bu m\u0259suliyy\u0259ti h\u0259r add\u0131mda hiss edir\u0259m. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m, yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feirl\u0259rin h\u0259r k\u0259lm\u0259si bir\u0259r-bir\u0259r onun t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr s\u00fczg\u0259cind\u0259n ke\u00e7ir. Dediyi: \u201cBu g\u0259nc \u015fair uydurmur, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss edib, duydu\u011funu yaz\u0131r\u201d \u2013 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u0259ni uydurmalardan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 o d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259nqidi yana\u015f\u0131ram ki, b\u0259z\u0259n aylarla \u0259lim\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m almaqdan \u00e7\u0259kinir\u0259m. Sanki hans\u0131sa bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259 oturub yarad\u0131c\u0131 f\u0259aliyy\u0259tim\u0259 senzorluq el\u0259yir.
\n–\tHe\u00e7 q\u0259lbinizd\u0259n ke\u00e7dimi: \u201cBilmir\u0259m, d\u00fcnyaya m\u0259n niy\u0259 g\u0259ldim?\u201d H\u0259yat\u0131n eni\u015f-yoxu\u015flar\u0131 sizi \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131rmay\u0131b ki?
\n–\t\u018fst\u0259\u011ffurullah! D\u00fcnyaya g\u0259li\u015fimiz, yaxud gedi\u015fimiz b\u0259nd\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259 deyil ki, asi d\u0259 olaq. Lakin, gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, el\u0259 anlar olub ki, \u0259yilm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, azca qal\u0131b ki, s\u0131nam. El\u0259 h\u0259min andaca hardansa bir X\u0131zr \u0259li uzan\u0131b yuxular\u0131mda da olsa v\u0259 m\u0259ni s\u0259malara qald\u0131r\u0131b. Ruhum el\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lib, el\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lib ki! \u015e\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r olsun Yaradan\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 ki, m\u0259ni he\u00e7 bir m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259t Haqq yolundan sapd\u0131ra bilm\u0259yib. \u00c7a\u015fmam\u0131\u015fam, \u00e7a\u015fmaram da!
\n–\tB\u0259z\u0259n insan \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bez\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259rk etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Bu zaman \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc hara tutmaq ist\u0259rdiniz?
\n–\tAnal\u0131-atal\u0131 u\u015faql\u0131q d\u00fcnyama. Orda safl\u0131q vard\u0131r, s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t vard\u0131r, t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t vard\u0131r…
\n–\tNizami, F\u00fczuli d\u00fchas\u0131 \u201csevirdi\u201d dey\u0259nd\u0259, Leyli-M\u0259cnun yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. El\u0259 bir ifad\u0259 varm\u0131 ki, s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 Qiym\u0259t yada d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn?
\n–\t\u201cB\u0259y\u0259m ad\u0131m k\u0259nd\u00e7i deyil, ay sa\u011f olmu\u015fun balas\u0131?!\u201d
\n–\tBu ifad\u0259nin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yana qals\u0131n, onun ucuzla\u015fmas\u0131, h\u0259tta e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 az qal\u0131r, insan qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tutsun (h\u0259r halda bu s\u00f6z V\u0259t\u0259nini sev\u0259n insana aiddir), \u201cQaraba\u011f\u0131 azad ed\u0259c\u0259yik!\u201d, \u201cTorpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z qay\u0131dacaq!\u201d \u2013 bu ifad\u0259l\u0259r sizd\u0259 q\u0131c\u0131q yarad\u0131rm\u0131?
\n–\tOna g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u201cbiz qalib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r\u0131q s\u00f6z vuru\u015fundan!\u201d M\u0259nim ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r bundan qabaq yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bel\u0259 bir ba\u015fl\u0131qda \u015feirimd\u0259ndir bu s\u00f6zl\u0259r. Do\u011frudan da, Qaraba\u011f d\u0259rdimizin \u2013 qara ba\u011fr\u0131m\u0131zda qara bir yara kimi oyuq a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 biz ancaq pafoslu \u015f\u00fcar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olduq, n\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 ortada n\u0259 i\u015f oldu, n\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l. \u015eair d\u00fcz deyir ki, \u201cV\u0259t\u0259ni sevm\u0259k azd\u0131r, onu qorumaq g\u0259r\u0259k!\u201d Qorumad\u0131\u011f\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131n, qeyr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilm\u0259diyin mill\u0259tin \u00f6vlad\u0131 olmaqla nec\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n ax\u0131?
\n–\tT\u0259vaz\u00f6karl\u0131qdan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc poeziya al\u0259mind\u0259 gizli saxlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fi budur, b\u0259s g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fi n\u0259dir?
\n–\tM\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc zorla \u0259d\u0259bi sima kimi q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 ver\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259, sanki bir boy ki\u00e7ilmi\u015f\u0259m h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259. Atalardan m\u0259s\u0259l var: \u201cA\u011fac bar verdikc\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259y\u0259r\u201d. Bizd\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey tam t\u0259rsin\u0259dir. Bars\u0131z-b\u0259hr\u0259siz a\u011faclar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 az qal\u0131r buludlara d\u0259y\u0259. Bar\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259y\u0259nl\u0259ri is\u0259, \u0259ks\u0259r hallarda ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr \u201cd\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirm\u0259y\u0259\u201d \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. T\u0259vaz\u00f6karl\u0131\u011f\u0131n insana he\u00e7 d\u0259 fayda g\u0259tirm\u0259diyini bils\u0259m d\u0259, ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr olma\u011f\u0131 da bacarm\u0131ram. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 \u201cm\u0259n ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 bacarmad\u0131m\u201d h\u0259yatda.
\n–\tG\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 anons ver\u0259 bil\u0259rsinizmi: n\u0259 vaxtsa n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rinizd\u0259n hans\u0131sa sizi k\u00f6lg\u0259d\u0259 qoya bil\u0259rmi?
\n–\tH\u0259r \u015fey ola bil\u0259r. M\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcc\u00fc deyil\u0259m, lakin irs\u0259n, genl\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259ni \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131mda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259n, h\u0259r halda bu ehtimal\u0131n do\u011frulu\u011funa inanmaqdan ba\u015fqa \u00e7ar\u0259m qalm\u0131r.
\n–\t\u0130ctimai xadimsiz, g\u00f6z\u0259l anas\u0131z. Sadiq dostsunuz \u2013 buna \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz d\u0259 \u0259minsiniz. B\u0259s g\u00f6z\u0259l qaynana ola bilmisinizmi?
\n–\t\u018fvv\u0259la, bunu \u00f6z balam kimi sevdiyim g\u0259linim G\u00fcnel xan\u0131mdan soru\u015fsayd\u0131n\u0131z, daha d\u00fczg\u00fcn olard\u0131. Ancaq h\u0259r halda, bir Allah \u015fahiddir ki, m\u0259nonunla m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc qaynana g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n–\t\u0130nsan q\u0259lbind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 sar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lan yol \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u00f6rp\u00fc hardan ba\u015flay\u0131r?
\n–\t\u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, genl\u0259rd\u0259n.
\n–\tRedaktor kimi, \u201cElimiz.G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u201d dem\u0259kl\u0259 n\u0259yi \u00fcnvanlamaq ist\u0259misiniz?
\n–\tZ\u0259nnimc\u0259, bu iki m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s k\u0259lm\u0259 bir v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f olaraq a\u00e7\u0131qlamaq ist\u0259diyim fikri \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 tam \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ehtiva edir.
\n–\tD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz ki, \u00e7ox q\u00fcrurlu olmaq sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259rinizd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131ra bil\u0259r?
\n–\tB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259. H\u0259r halda bel\u0259 olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259zdim.
\n–\tHe\u00e7 \u00fcr\u0259yinizd\u0259n ke\u00e7ibmi ki, H\u0259cc ziyar\u0259ti \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn z\u0259vvar olas\u0131n\u0131z?
\n–\tH\u0259l\u0259 ki, yox. Lakin q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 bel\u0259 bir m\u0259n\u0259vi ehtiyac\u0131n ha\u00e7ansa \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131na inam\u0131m var.
\n–\tSizc\u0259, \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah n\u0259dir?
\n–\tM\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah s\u0259ni d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259nl\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f olmaqd\u0131r.
\n–\tHam\u0131 sizd\u0259n yazmaq ist\u0259yir (Sizi sev\u0259nl\u0259r), \u00fcr\u0259yinizin gizli qat\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yir. Siz nec\u0259, ha\u00e7ansa \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcat\u0131 il\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 almaq niyy\u0259ti \u00fcr\u0259yinizd\u0259n ke\u00e7mir ki?
\n–\tDem\u0259zdim ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcat\u0131 il\u0259 yazaca\u011fam. Lakin h\u0259r zaman bel\u0259 bir arzu il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. \u0130nan\u0131ram ki, yazaca\u011f\u0131m \u0259s\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259dli bir roman kimi olduqca oxunaql\u0131 olacaq.
\n–\tBax\u0131ram, m\u00fcsahib\u0259l\u0259rinizd\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f sizi daha \u00e7ox \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t kimi tan\u0131maq ist\u0259yir. Yarad\u0131c\u0131 xan\u0131m kimi yet\u0259rinc\u0259 tan\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131z. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r maraql\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi n\u0259dir?
\n–\tB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 buna s\u0259b\u0259b m\u0259nim qar\u015f\u0131-t\u0259r\u0259f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn sirl\u0259rimi a\u00e7\u0131b-t\u00f6km\u0259m\u0259yim olub.
\n–\tM\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n arzu il\u0259 yat\u0131b, ilk g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z zaman kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259rdiniz?
\n–\tYaln\u0131z v\u0259 yaln\u0131z ANAMI!
\n–\t\u201cK\u0259nd\u00e7iliyiniz tutanda\u201d n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olursunuz?
\n–\t\u201cK\u0259nd\u00e7iliyim\u201d tez-tez \u201ctutur\u201d v\u0259 bel\u0259 olanda tez h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, sevdiyim i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oluram: g\u00fcll\u0259rin, a\u011faclar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na p\u0259rvan\u0259 kimi dolan\u0131r, suyunu verir, ala\u011f\u0131n\u0131 edir, dibl\u0259rini bo\u015fald\u0131ram. H\u0259tta evd\u0259 t\u0259k olsam bel\u0259, samovar\u0131 qaynad\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki stolun \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qoyur, oturub \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259-i\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259 kimins\u0259 indic\u0259 darvazadan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m. O q\u0259d\u0259r duy\u011fulan\u0131ram ki, h\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, r\u0259hm\u0259tlikl\u0259r sa\u011fd\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259tta b\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259ri bel\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131ma g\u0259lir. Aldan\u0131ram, diksinir\u0259m, k\u00f6vr\u0259lir\u0259m… sonra yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u201ck\u0259nd\u00e7iliyim\u201dd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalm\u0131r…
\n–\tH\u0259yatda \u0259siri oldu\u011funuz bir \u015fey varm\u0131 ki, el\u0259 hey gedirsiniz, amma ona \u00e7ata bilmirsiniz?
\n–\tN\u0259 vaxtsa \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirimi yazaca\u011f\u0131ma, q\u0259zetimin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l say\u0131n\u0131 buraxaca\u011f\u0131ma, \u00f6vladlar\u0131m\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olacaqlar\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla inanaraq, \u201cgidiyorum g\u00fcnd\u00fcz-gec\u0259…\u201d
\n–\t40-c\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131n a\u00e7ar\u0131 \u0259linizd\u0259 olsayd\u0131, a\u00e7ard\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131? A\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z zaman qar\u015f\u0131la\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 haz\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131? T\u0259qrib\u0259n, qar\u015f\u0131n\u0131za \u00e7\u0131xan n\u0259 ola bil\u0259r?
\n–\tNa\u011f\u0131llara he\u00e7 zaman inanmasam da, 40-c\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 ha\u00e7ansa a\u00e7\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 \u00fcmidiyl\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259, a\u00e7ar\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259 olmasa bel\u0259. Buna h\u0259r zaman haz\u0131r saym\u0131\u015fam \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, az\u0131ndan ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, vicdan\u0131m\u0131 he\u00e7 zaman v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 satmam\u0131\u015fam. Haqq\u0131 nahaqq\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na verm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Deyirl\u0259r ki, \u00fcmid sonda \u00f6l\u00fcr, odur ki, i\u015f\u0131\u011fa sar\u0131 ged\u0259n bir yolun yol\u00e7usu kimi dey\u0259rdim ki, bu yolda yaln\u0131z v\u0259 yaln\u0131z i\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

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Qiym\u0259t M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mli: \u201cM\u0259n ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 bacarmad\u0131m…\u201d M\u00fcsahibimiz filologiya \u00fczr\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 doktoru, \u015fair-publisist Qiym\u0259t xan\u0131m M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mlidir. – Qiym\u0259t xan\u0131m, sizinl\u0259 h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259t olan jurnalistl\u0259r \u00e7ox olub. V\u0259 sizi yet\u0259rinc\u0259 tan\u0131ma\u011fa v\u0259 tan\u0131tma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131blar. M\u0259n suyunu i\u00e7ib, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini yediyimiz bir elin \u00f6vlad\u0131 kimi, y\u0259ni sizin elliniz kimi, sizi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnd\u0259n fikirl\u0259rimizin \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc bilir\u0259m. Bir yarad\u0131c\u0131 m\u00fcsahib […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2665","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2665","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2665"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2665\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2668,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2665\/revisions\/2668"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2665"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2665"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2665"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}