{"id":27366,"date":"2018-06-28T03:00:07","date_gmt":"2018-06-27T23:00:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=27366"},"modified":"2018-06-28T09:30:01","modified_gmt":"2018-06-28T05:30:01","slug":"ilah%c9%99-imanova-elci-zanbaqlar-povestinin-davami-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=27366","title":{"rendered":"\u0130lah\u0259 \u0130MANOVA.”El\u00e7i zanbaqlar” (Povestinin davam\u0131)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Bir q\u0131z v\u0259 ya qad\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn r\u0259qibinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xmaq q\u00fcrur v\u0259 m\u0259nliyini, l\u0259yaq\u0259tini al\u00e7altmaqdan \u0259lav\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n ondan daha yax\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu etiraf etm\u0259k dem\u0259k idi. Qar\u015f\u0131mda dayanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131za bu c\u0259h\u0259ti yara\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyimd\u0259n hal\u0131na ac\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. Y\u0259qin ki, onun yerin\u0259 olsam, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt bunu etm\u0259zdim.
\n\u2500Dey\u0259c\u0259yiniz s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259xmin etdiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, siz\u0259 yaln\u0131z bunlar\u0131 dey\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259m. Qay\u0131nanan\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bar\u0259nizd\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmirdim. Bils\u0259m, he\u00e7 vaxt bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 yol verm\u0259zdim. Bir q\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini, s\u0259ad\u0259tini \u0259lind\u0259n alacaq q\u0259d\u0259r vicdans\u0131z deyil\u0259m. Ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259db\u0259xtliyi, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimi qurmaram he\u00e7 vaxt. Narahat olmay\u0131n, Raufla m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimiz\u0259 bird\u0259f\u0259lik son qoyulub.
\nQ\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259canla dediyi:
\n\u2500\u018fslind\u0259 el\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdim, \u2013s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259,
\n\u2500Raufun h\u0259yat\u0131ndan bir d\u0259f\u0259lik \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedir\u0259m. Sizin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyiniz\u0259 mane olmayacam, \u2013dey\u0259 cavab verdim.
\n\u2500Siz m\u0259ni s\u0259hv anlad\u0131n\u0131z. M\u0259n…
\n\u2500Bizim m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimiz \u00f6z\u00fc bir s\u0259hv idi. M\u0259n bu s\u0259hvi d\u00fcz\u0259ltdim.
\n\u2500Rauf sizi h\u0259ddind\u0259n \u00e7ox sevir. Sizin d\u0259 onu sevdiyiniz\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259m yoxdur.
\n\u2500Raufla aran\u0131za girdiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bilm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n sizd\u0259n onun sevgisini o\u011furlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 \u00fczg\u00fcn\u0259m. S\u0259mimiliyim\u0259 inan\u0131n, bel\u0259 olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259zdim.
\n\u2500Rauf…
\n\u2500H\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m kimi, sabah ax\u015fam \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259m. Ondan sonra xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyiniz\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 mane olmayacaq. Bacar\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zsa, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n.
\n\u2500Siz m\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa imkan vermirsiz!
\n\u2500Buna ehtiyac da yoxdur. Hissl\u0259rinizi anlay\u0131ram.
\n\u2500Amma siz bilm\u0259lisiniz ki, …
\n\u2500Rauf s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t. Onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt et! Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olun! \u2013deyib masadan qalxd\u0131m.
\nBu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dediyim ana q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 Raufla m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimizin m\u00fcmk\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131m. Dilimd\u0259n qopan k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259ri \u2013dediyim son s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi qulaqlar\u0131m\u0131n e\u015fitdiyi an, art\u0131q m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimizin qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m. Sevdiyim insana xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik arzu edib onu ba\u015fqas\u0131na \u0259man\u0259t etm\u0259kl\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 son qoymu\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

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\nF\u0259rq etm\u0259z n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcdd\u0259t\u0259, vidala\u015fmaq son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r duy\u011fudur. \u018fn \u0259vv\u0259l, evinin da\u015f-divar\u0131na n\u0259z\u0259r salarsan: bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259n \u0259\u015fyalar bel\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r do\u011fma v\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259r ki bir anda. N\u0259 vaxtsa k\u0259nara at\u0131b unutdu\u011fun, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc toz basm\u0131\u015f oyunca\u011f\u0131n, ad g\u00fcnl\u0259rin\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 edilmi\u015f ki\u00e7ik suvenirl\u0259r, r\u0259fl\u0259rd\u0259ki kitablar\u0131n, masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki yaz\u0131b qaralad\u0131\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6hn\u0259 d\u0259ft\u0259rin bel\u0259 sanki dil a\u00e7\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi diqq\u0259t k\u0259sil\u0259rs\u0259n. Sevimli ay\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131b \u201cDar\u0131xma m\u0259nsiz. S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox dar\u0131xacam\u201d dey\u0259rs\u0259n p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259. H\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verib, h\u0259r \u015feyin yax\u015f\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fcn qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q ham\u0131n\u0131 inand\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsan da, ilk \u00f6z\u00fcn k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259r, gizlinc\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sil\u0259rs\u0259n ki, arxanca g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qalmas\u0131n, s\u0259nd\u0259n narahat olmas\u0131nlar. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm h\u0259m dodaqlar\u0131na, h\u0259m d\u0259 q\u0259lbin\u0259 y\u00fck olar.
\nM\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmamalar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc deyib-g\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l x\u0259yallar qururdum ki. Anama zarafatla bundan sonra qohum v\u0259 qon\u015fular\u0131n yan\u0131nda daha \u00e7ox h\u00f6rm\u0259tli olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyib, kas\u0131b bir ail\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n Almaniyada t\u0259hsil almas\u0131n\u0131n nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259xr oldu\u011funu v\u0259 q\u00fcrur hissi b\u0259x\u015f etdiyini bil\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n vur\u011fulay\u0131rd\u0131m.
\n\u2500H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik getmir\u0259m ki! G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m d\u0259.
\n\u2500Yad \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na nec\u0259 olacaqsan… D\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131d\u0131r! Yax\u0131n da deyil ki, bi\u015f-d\u00fc\u015f edib tez-tez yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259m…
\nG\u00fcld\u00fcm:
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131 ki d\u0259 yax\u0131n deyil! Yoxsa bir g\u00fcnd\u0259n bir babadan qalma h\u0259sir z\u0259nbili, s\u0259b\u0259ti doldurub durub g\u0259l\u0259rdin. Narahat olma, d\u00f6vl\u0259t bizim t\u0259hsilimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u0259saitl\u0259ri ay\u0131r\u0131b. He\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m\u0131z olmayacaq. Yaln\u0131z sizin dualar\u0131n\u0131za ehtiyac\u0131m olacaq.
\nAnam v\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m s\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi. El\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015fdim. Onlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki k\u0259d\u0259rli ifad\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259, h\u0259tta fikrimd\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7m\u0259k, bu s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n imtina etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim.
\nQ\u00fcrb\u0259t \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox n\u0259n\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xacaqd\u0131m. N\u0259n\u0259min boynuna sar\u0131l\u0131b \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pm\u0259kd\u0259n doymurdum. Qoxusunu i\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 aparmaq ist\u0259yirdim. Yad yerd\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m q\u0259d\u0259r kim \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259kdi naz\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259nim… Kim s\u0259hvl\u0259rimi \u00f6rt-basd\u0131r edib, himay\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kdi m\u0259ni…
\nAnam m\u0259ni ba\u011fr\u0131na basark\u0259n i\u00e7imd\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bur duy\u011fu yarand\u0131. Sanki ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi i\u00e7ind\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn sevgisini hiss etdirirdi. Qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131b ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131r, arada da \u201c\u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n mu\u011fayat ol. Bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xanda \u0259ynini qal\u0131n gey. Hava qaralanda k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259k g\u0259zib dola\u015fma, q\u00fcrb\u0259t diyard\u0131r. Fikrin bizim \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259sin, oralar\u0131n adamlar\u0131 bir ba\u015fqa c\u00fcrd\u00fcr, bizimkil\u0259r\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259zl\u0259r\u201d \u2013dey\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcd v\u0259 n\u0259sih\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n son anda da \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim. Anlayanda ki, anam\u0131n danlaqlar\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r deyintisini e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, indid\u0259n q\u0259ribs\u0259dim. <\/p>\n

T\u0259kidl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmayaraq, anam\u0131n v\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min hava liman\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yin\u0259 etiraz etdim. Hava limanlar\u0131, va\u011fzal m\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r zaman k\u00f6vr\u0259k hissl\u0259r oyad\u0131r. Bu m\u0259kanlar\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259diyi ayr\u0131l\u0131q, h\u0259sr\u0259t qoxan duy\u011fusunu bir d\u0259 \u0259zizl\u0259rimin vidas\u0131 il\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259mirdim. Buna tab g\u0259tirm\u0259zdim.
\nBac\u0131m v\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, anam\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259mi onlara \u0259man\u0259t etdim. S\u00f6z verdil\u0259r ki, onlar\u0131 dar\u0131xma\u011fa qoymayacaqlar. He\u00e7 k\u0259s ba\u015f b\u0259las\u0131n\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z ed\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, amma bac\u0131m\u0131n u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rinin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qataca\u011f\u0131na \u0259min idim. N\u0259v\u0259 \u015firin \u015feydir, yorulub \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n iki n\u0259n\u0259nin b\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 m\u0259ni xat\u0131rlama\u011fa bel\u0259 vaxtlar\u0131 qalmayacaqd\u0131.
\nT\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259 minik ba\u015flad\u0131. Trap\u0131n pill\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 yuxar\u0131 qalxd\u0131qca son d\u0259f\u0259 imi\u015f kimi \u0259trafa boylan\u0131b s\u0259maya, geni\u015f aerodroma n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131m. Ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131ndan \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss edinc\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259ldim, kirpikl\u0259rimd\u0259 donub qalm\u0131\u015f ya\u015f az ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n yanaqlar\u0131ma s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. V\u0259t\u0259nimin havas\u0131n\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rim\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdim. Bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r daha \u00e7ox bu havan\u0131 i\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k, ehtiyac duyaca\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 ehtiyat saxlamaq ist\u0259yirdim. H\u0259r g\u00fcn onlarla insan\u0131n yan\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131na, s\u0259sl\u0259rin\u0259 diqq\u0259t etm\u0259zdim. \u0130ndi is\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, lakin m\u0259n\u0259 yad olmayan bu insanlar\u0131 daha \u00e7ox e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. H\u0259myerlil\u0259rimin s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00f6z dilimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dar\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilirdim. \u00d6z v\u0259t\u0259nind\u0259n \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259n, q\u00fcrb\u0259t ell\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6z xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini tapma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan insanlar\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt anlaya bilm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, t\u0259k olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, m\u0259nim kimi \u00f6z mill\u0259tini, d\u00f6vl\u0259tini, dilini sev\u0259n y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259, minl\u0259rl\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259rl\u0259rimizin oldu\u011funa \u0259min idim. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0259slind\u0259 d\u00f6vl\u0259timiz\u0259, insanlar\u0131m\u0131za faydal\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayan k\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259n biri kimi m\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 bununla t\u0259skinlik verirdim.
\nT\u0259yyar\u0259nin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n bax\u0131b harada oldu\u011fumuzu m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n u\u00e7du\u011fumuz tarlalar, \u00e7ay v\u0259 d\u0259nizl\u0259r x\u0259rit\u0259d\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fcks\u0259klikd\u0259 ki\u00e7ik n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n tikilil\u0259ri g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir qalaktikan\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki\u00e7ik bir z\u0259rr\u0259si oldu\u011fumu anlay\u0131r, h\u0259m\u00e7inin \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc Allaha h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fundan daha yax\u0131n hiss edirdim.
\nSt\u00fcardessa g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k:
\n\u2500Az\u0259rbaycan s\u0259rh\u0259ddini ke\u00e7dik, \u2013dediyi zaman k\u00f6vr\u0259ldim, sanki can\u0131mdan can ayr\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Gerid\u0259 qoydu\u011fumuz h\u0259r mil m\u0259ni do\u011fma Bak\u0131mdan, v\u0259t\u0259nimd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Az\u0259rbaycan hava yollar\u0131na m\u0259xsus t\u0259yyar\u0259d\u0259 oldu\u011fumu xat\u0131rlad\u0131qda is\u0259, bu h\u0259sr\u0259t azal\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 hiss edirdim.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 oturaca\u011fa s\u00f6yk\u0259yib d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 arxaya verdim. \u018flim qeyri-ixtiyari qula\u011f\u0131ma toxundu\u011fu zaman s\u0131r\u011fam\u0131n bir tay\u0131n\u0131 itirdiyimin f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131m. \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fcm. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, h\u0259yatda n\u0259yis\u0259 qazanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yola \u00e7\u0131xark\u0259n, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259y\u0259rli olanlar\u0131 itirm\u0259k \u015f\u0259rtdir. M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rli olan bu q\u0131z\u0131l s\u0131r\u011fa n\u0259n\u0259min yadigar\u0131 idi, on s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131m tamam olark\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nS\u0131r\u011fan\u0131n t\u0259k tay\u0131n\u0131 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t ovcumda tutduqdan sonra onu da itirm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7antama qoydum. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmaq bel\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259diyim telefonu \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131m. Ad\u0259t etdiyimd\u0259ndir b\u0259lk\u0259, mesaj b\u00f6lm\u0259sin\u0259 daxil oldum. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 mesajlar\u0131n he\u00e7 birini silm\u0259mi\u015fdim. T\u0259krar-t\u0259krar oxuduqca daha da k\u00f6vr\u0259lirdim. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259:
\n\u2500Hissl\u0259rin \u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fcs\u00fc ayr\u0131l\u0131q imi\u015f! Bildim. T\u0259kc\u0259 ail\u0259mi, yax\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131 deyil, sevdiyim insan\u0131 da s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t edib gedir\u0259m, V\u0259t\u0259n! \u2013p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131m…\u201d<\/p>\n

Raufun s\u0259sini e\u015fidib fikird\u0259n ay\u0131ld\u0131m. Bir anl\u0131q hissl\u0259r\u0259 nec\u0259 qap\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131msa, kafed\u0259 oldu\u011fumu, onunla \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturdu\u011fumu bel\u0259 unutmu\u015fdum.
\n\u2500Af\u0259t! Dinl\u0259yirs\u0259n m\u0259ni?
\nBir zamanlar sevgisin\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131b h\u0259sr\u0259tiyl\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259ri sabah etdiyim insana laqeydlikl\u0259 astadan:
\n\u2500M\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259, birba\u015fa m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 ke\u00e7, \u2013dedim.
\nRauf n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n \u0259limi tutdu:
\n\u2500S\u0259n\u0259 deyil\u0259si o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcm var ki! Yeddi ild\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259ri bir ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 il\u0259 ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m…
\n\u2500O zaman dem\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rini q\u0131sa v\u0259 ayd\u0131n ifad\u0259 et. Vaxt\u0131m\u0131 alma!
\n\u2500Bu yeddi il \u0259rzind\u0259 s\u0259ni xat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, s\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259diyim g\u00fcn olmad\u0131. S\u0259nsiz ya\u015fanan bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 anlad\u0131m ki, m\u0259nim xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim s\u0259nin yan\u0131ndad\u0131r. S\u0259ni bir daha itir\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, Af\u0259t! G\u0259l, unudaq h\u0259r \u015feyi, sanki arada bu yeddi il olmam\u0131\u015f kimi m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimizi yenid\u0259n, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n davam etdir\u0259k.
\n\u0130ll\u0259r sonra sevdiyim insan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Sevgi il\u0259 dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin s\u0259mimiliyin\u0259 inanmaq ist\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259rs olmu\u015fdu. Bir daha pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q hissi ke\u00e7irm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir daha insanlar\u0131n s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tin\u0259 inanmayaca\u011f\u0131ma and i\u00e7mi\u015fdim.
\n\u0130stehza il\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcm:
\n\u2500Qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n? M\u0259n\u0259 bo\u015f \u00fcmidl\u0259r verib xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi v\u0259d etdiyin, yoxsa sonuncu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri etiraf etdiyin yerd\u0259n?
\n\u2500Bir-birimizin \u0259lini buraxmayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259rab\u0259r olma\u011fa and i\u00e7diyimiz yerd\u0259n. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 verdiyim v\u0259di unutmad\u0131m. S\u0259ni h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 sevir\u0259m. Bilir\u0259m ki, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259ni sevirs\u0259n. Bir-birimizi incitm\u0259yin m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdur.
\n\u2500Bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil!
\n\u018flimd\u0259n tutdu, ovcunda s\u0131xd\u0131:
\n\u2500Niy\u0259, ax\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n b\u0259las\u0131? \u00d6z \u0259limizd\u0259 deyilmi? Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011fa gecikmi\u015fik, ill\u0259rin ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sonra yenid\u0259n s\u0259ad\u0259timiz\u0259 qovu\u015fmaq haqq\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r.
\nRaufun s\u0259sind\u0259ki s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t\u0259 ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l oldu\u011fu kimi inanmaq ist\u0259dim yenid\u0259n. \u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259diyim s\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259sr\u0259tin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim insan\u0131n dilind\u0259n e\u015fidirdim. Aya\u011fa qalxmaq, boynuna sar\u0131lmaq, s\u0259sim yet\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259n onu sevdiyimi s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. Bir anl\u0131q x\u0259yal bel\u0259 qurmu\u015fdum ki…
\nTelefon z\u0259ngi. Raufa z\u0259ng g\u0259lirdi. Masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki telefonun ekran\u0131na g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm h\u0259min q\u0131zla boynunu qucaqlayan \u00f6z\u00fc kimi g\u00f6z\u0259l balaca bir q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259smi v\u0259 \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fim\u201d ad\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131r, z\u0259ng\u0259 cavab verib-verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim.
\nRauf \u00fczr ist\u0259yib masadan qalxmadan, n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n ay\u0131rmadan, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k z\u0259ng\u0259 cavab verdi:
\n\u2500Ay caan!… Bir az i\u015fl\u0259rim var, yubanacam, m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yin… \u0130\u015fl\u0259rimi yoluna qoyub g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m… Yox, can\u0131m, narahat olma, h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r… N\u0259? N\u0259 deyir? D\u0259st\u0259yi ver ona g\u00f6r\u00fcm… M\u0259l\u0259yim m\u0259nim! Caaaan! Dilin\u0259 qurban!.. N\u0259 al\u0131m? Yax\u015f\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131m, g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 alacam.
\nHe\u00e7 vaxt onu bel\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n \u0259trafa yay\u0131lan s\u0259si \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn ciddiliyi, g\u0259rginliyi aradan qald\u0131rd\u0131, parlayan g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 sevinc \u0259ks olundu. H\u0259tta s\u0259si bel\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi.
\nBir daha \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc al\u00e7alm\u0131\u015f, t\u0259hqir olunmu\u015f hiss edirdim. Bir az \u0259vv\u0259l m\u0259n\u0259 sevgisini etiraf ed\u0259n insan m\u0259niml\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturub qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259 nec\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259rb\u0259st v\u0259 rahat dan\u0131\u015fa, xo\u015fluq ed\u0259 bilirdi?! H\u0259yas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n son h\u0259ddi idi! Raufun g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxaraq utanmadan, \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi yalanlar\u0131 daha art\u0131q dinl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259yib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. Bura g\u0259lib oturdu\u011fuma, onu dinl\u0259diyim\u0259, az qala s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tin\u0259 inan\u0131b h\u0259yata yenid\u0259n ba\u015flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r ikimiz\u0259 \u015fans verm\u0259k ist\u0259yim\u0259 pe\u015fman oldum yenid\u0259n. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki bu z\u0259ng vaxt\u0131nda g\u0259ldi! G\u00f6zl\u0259rim a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Allah\u0131ma qurban olum, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 zaman\u0131nda m\u0259ni agah edir.
\nT\u0259hqir olunmu\u015f hissl\u0259rim yenid\u0259n t\u00fc\u011fyan etdi. \u201cBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131n b\u0259las\u0131\u201d adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011fa haqq\u0131 yox idi. Bu haqq \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fim\u201dkimi ad\u0131n\u0131 qeyd etdiyi h\u0259min qad\u0131n\u0131n, xo\u015fb\u0259xt h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt anan\u0131n haqq\u0131 idi, m\u0259nim yox! Bir qad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259ad\u0259tini, bir m\u0259l\u0259k\u00fczl\u00fc k\u00f6rp\u0259nin ata sevgisini o\u011furlaya bilm\u0259zdim!
\nHissl\u0259rim\u0259, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131ma hakim olmal\u0131 idim. \u00c7antam\u0131 \u0259lim\u0259 al\u0131b bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, qar\u015f\u0131ma ke\u00e7di. \u00c7antam\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259n al\u0131b oturaca\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131. Qolumdan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b geri \u00e7\u0259kdi m\u0259ni. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259kl\u0259 naraz\u0131 oldu\u011funu v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 ke\u00e7ib oturma\u011f\u0131 i\u015far\u0259 etdi. Qolumu buraxmadan t\u0259l\u0259sik s\u00f6hb\u0259ti bitirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131, can\u0131m, dov\u015fan da alacam, barni d\u0259… Anan\u0131 incitm\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qulaq as! Get yat! Yat ki tez b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259s\u0259n… M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fcm, m\u0259l\u0259yim.
\n\u00c7iyinl\u0259rimd\u0259n tutub:
\n\u2500Hara gedirs\u0259n?
\nVar g\u00fcc\u00fcml\u0259 \u0259lini it\u0259l\u0259yib:
\n\u2500Getm\u0259li oldu\u011fum yer\u0259,\u2013dey\u0259 cavab verdim.
\nRauf g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxaraq s\u0259sini y\u00fcks\u0259ltdi:
\n\u2500He\u00e7 yer\u0259 getmirs\u0259n! Ke\u00e7, otur! S\u00f6hb\u0259timiz bitm\u0259yib h\u0259l\u0259!
\nM\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259zyiq g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n, masaya oturtma\u011fa m\u0259cbur ed\u0259n insana nifr\u0259t edirdim art\u0131q. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf hissi il\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bulad\u0131m:
\n\u2500G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015film\u0259mis\u0259n! El\u0259 h\u0259min Raufsan! \u018fksin\u0259, daha \u00fczl\u00fc, daha h\u0259yas\u0131z olmusan! S\u0259n nec\u0259 insansan?!
\n\u018fs\u0259bi halda bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 s\u0259sini y\u00fcks\u0259ltdi:
\n\u2500Af\u0259t! B\u0259lk\u0259 susub m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa imkan ver\u0259s\u0259n!
\nH\u0259r k\u0259si unudub qeyri-ixtiyari m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259simi y\u00fcks\u0259ltdim:
\n\u2500N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Deyil\u0259c\u0259k s\u00f6z qald\u0131 ki?!
\nBil\u0259yimd\u0259n tutub m\u0259ni saxlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2500B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259nin m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn yoxdur, amma m\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259 deyil\u0259c\u0259k \u00e7ox s\u00f6z\u00fcm var…
\n\u2500Yox! S\u0259nin s\u00f6z dem\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 haqq\u0131n yoxdur! Narahat olma, m\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l anlad\u0131m. Ax\u015fam-ax\u015fam bu sevgi etiraflar\u0131 il\u0259 n\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259 etm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcn? M\u0259ni n\u0259 hesab edirs\u0259n?! Yanl\u0131\u015f tan\u0131m\u0131san m\u0259ni! S\u0259nin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn biri deyil\u0259m! Ay\u0131b olsun s\u0259n\u0259!
\n\u018fs\u0259bi halda \u0259linin i\u00e7ini aln\u0131na vurdu:
\n\u2500\u0130lahi! Bir an\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 s\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r-n\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn! S\u0259nc\u0259, m\u0259n s\u0259nin bar\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m? S\u00f6hb\u0259t m\u0259nim sevdiyim q\u0131zdan gedir e. G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259ni yanl\u0131\u015f tan\u0131m\u0131san!
\n\u2500N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r utanmaz, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz biris\u0259n s\u0259n! Heyf, \u00e7ox heyf! Nec\u0259 vard\u0131n, el\u0259 d\u0259 qalm\u0131san! \u0130nsanlara, qad\u0131nlara d\u0259y\u0259r verm\u0259yi he\u00e7 vaxt \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259din!
\nRauf bir az da \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdi:
\n\u2500C\u0259f\u0259ngiyyat dan\u0131\u015fma! S\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, ifad\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 diqq\u0259t et! T\u0259hqirl\u0259rini xan\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131na v\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 olan sevgim\u0259 ke\u00e7ir\u0259m bu d\u0259f\u0259. Amma… unutma, s\u0259brimin d\u0259 bir h\u0259ddi var!
\n\u2500S\u0259n daha bet\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 layiqs\u0259n!
\nDaha da hidd\u0259tl\u0259ndi:
\n\u2500Af\u0259t!!!
\n\u2500N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki bu z\u0259ng g\u0259ldi! \u00d6z g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, \u00f6z qulaqlar\u0131mla e\u015fitdim h\u0259r \u015feyi! M\u0259n bir yana, s\u0259ni sev\u0259n, inanan qad\u0131na h\u00f6rm\u0259t etmirs\u0259n, he\u00e7 olmasa, o g\u00fcl\u00fczl\u00fc k\u00f6rp\u0259nd\u0259n utan!
\n\u00c7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259ki g\u0259rgin ifad\u0259 bird\u0259n yox oldu. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi sevgi dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxaraq g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. G\u00f6zl\u0259diyimin \u0259ksin\u0259 olaraq, s\u00f6zl\u0259rim onda tamamil\u0259 f\u0259rqli duy\u011fular oyatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Son k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259riml\u0259 ona t\u0259sir ed\u0259c\u0259yimi, b\u0259lk\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259ki vicdan hissini oyadaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcns\u0259m d\u0259, s\u00f6zl\u0259rim t\u0259sirsiz qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fcl\u0259 -g\u00fcl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\n\u2500\u00d6z g\u00f6zl\u0259rinl\u0259, \u00f6z qulaqlar\u0131nla n\u0259yi g\u00f6r\u00fcb, n\u0259yi e\u015fitdin, maraql\u0131d\u0131r…
\n\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc daha da m\u0259ni q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131r, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fs\u0259bl\u0259rim\u0259 hakim deyildim:
\n\u2500\u00d6z \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 bir g\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n d\u0259?!
\n\u00c7iyinl\u0259rimi qucaqlay\u0131b sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma toxundu. S\u0259sind\u0259 yum\u015faql\u0131q hiss olundu:
\n\u2500H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi yanl\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r, yanl\u0131\u015f q\u0259rarlar! Yanl\u0131\u015f n\u0259tic\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu. \u2013S\u0259sini bir q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fcks\u0259lts\u0259 d\u0259, indi bu s\u0259sd\u0259 m\u00fclayimlik, n\u0259vazi\u015f, bir az da m\u0259z\u0259mm\u0259t duyulurdu, \u2013S\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt s\u0259brli olma\u011f\u0131, qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fi dinl\u0259m\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?!
\n\u018fs\u0259bimd\u0259n, h\u0259y\u0259candan b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nim \u0259sirdi:
\n\u2500Toxunma m\u0259n\u0259 , \u0259claf!
\n\u018flim havada qald\u0131. Rauf bil\u0259yimd\u0259n s\u0131x\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di:
\n\u2500Bir daha buna c\u0259sar\u0259t etm\u0259! Xan\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131na h\u00f6rm\u0259t edib ke\u00e7ir\u0259m.
\n\u2500Yoxsa, n\u0259?
\n\u2500He\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 bir qad\u0131na \u0259l qald\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fam, sevdiyim insana qar\u015f\u0131 he\u00e7 etm\u0259r\u0259m! Amma… he\u00e7 k\u0259s m\u0259ni kobud olma\u011fa da vadar etm\u0259sin.
\nQar\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 zabitin \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fib h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259, bil\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n-bilm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n onu daha da q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131rd\u0131m \u00f6z s\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259:
\n\u2500S\u0259nd\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k olar!
\n\u2500Dogru dedin!\u2013deyib q\u0259fil belimi qucaqlay\u0131b m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyim halda dodaqlar\u0131mdan \u00f6pd\u00fc.
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dart\u0131nsam da, xeyri yox idi. G\u00fccl\u00fc qollar\u0131ndan xilas ola bilmirdim. Q\u0259z\u0259bli p\u0259l\u0259ng kimi onu par\u00e7alama\u011fa haz\u0131r idim:
\n\u2500S\u0259n\u0259 nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m!
\nKefini pozmadan:
\n\u2500D\u0259li kimi sevirs\u0259n! \u2013deyib g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. \u2013D\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n! H\u0259min Af\u0259ts\u0259n! Dilin z\u0259h\u0259r kimi ac\u0131 olmasa s\u0259n \u0259qr\u0259b olmazsan ki! Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n b\u0259las\u0131, etiraf et ki, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni sevirs\u0259n!
\nG\u0259ldiyim\u0259 pe\u015fman etmi\u015fdi m\u0259ni. \u018flind\u0259n xilas ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi anlay\u0131rd\u0131m:
\n\u2500D\u0259lis\u0259n s\u0259n!
\n\u2500Aha, d\u0259rdind\u0259n d\u0259liy\u0259m. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, bu \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n sonra daha he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259ni unuda bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n!
\nN\u0259 vaxtsa ona vurdu\u011fum, yoxsa bu g\u00fcn vurmaq ist\u0259diyim \u015fill\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zini bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259mi\u015fdi, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u018fs\u0259b v\u0259 q\u0259h\u0259r m\u0259ni bo\u011furdu:
\n\u2500Allah b\u0259lan\u0131 versin!
\nG\u00fcl\u0259 -g\u00fcl\u0259:
\n\u2500Allah b\u0259lam\u0131 verib…Qar\u015f\u0131ma s\u0259ni \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b,\u2013dedi, \u2013G\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131n c\u0259zas\u0131san! H\u0259m bu d\u00fcnyada, h\u0259m o biri d\u00fcnyada s\u0259ninl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rimin c\u0259zas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131ram.
\nT\u0259slim olmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n p\u0259l\u0259ng kimi ona m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rir, a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirirdim. Yenid\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ifad\u0259si s\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fdi. Qolumdan tutub m\u0259ni masa arxas\u0131na oturma\u011fa m\u0259cbur etdi:
\n\u2500Otur!
\nEtiraf edim ki, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n oxunan ciddi v\u0259 s\u0259rt ifad\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259 q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 ondan art\u0131q \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Daha he\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda xan\u0131m oldu\u011funu unutmu\u015fdu, dey\u0259s\u0259n. Sanki \u00f6z \u0259sg\u0259ri il\u0259 r\u0259ftar edirdi. Zabitl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131 kobud olurmu\u015f, do\u011fru deyirl\u0259r.
\nMasa arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7ib m\u0259niml\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturdu. \u015e\u0259had\u0259t barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2500C\u0259mi birc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259!Birc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u0259brli ol v\u0259 dinl\u0259! Sonra ist\u0259s\u0259n ged\u0259rs\u0259n, s\u0259ni saxlamayacam.
\n\u0130rad\u0259sin\u0259 t\u0259slim oldum. \u00dcz\u00fcmd\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki telefonun ekran\u0131na toxundurdu. Ekranda yen\u0259 h\u0259min \u015f\u0259kil v\u0259 ad g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Telefonun s\u0259sini a\u00e7d\u0131.
\n\u0130nc\u0259 bir qad\u0131n s\u0259si e\u015fidildi:
\n\u2500Alo…
\n\u2500Bayaq \u0259lim toxundu, ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f verdi. S\u0259ninl\u0259 d\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015fa bilm\u0259dim.
\n \u2500Eybi yox, can\u0131m. Narahat olma.
\n\u2500Leyla yatd\u0131?
\n\u2500Rauf day\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 dov\u015fan alacaq dey\u0259-dey\u0259 quca\u011f\u0131mda m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259di. El\u0259 indi \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131na qoydum. Dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\n\u2500Yox, can\u0131m, oyatma, qoy yats\u0131n… M\u0259n \u0259v\u0259zd\u0259n m\u0259l\u0259yimi \u00f6p.
\n\u2500Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259.
\n\u2500\u015e\u0259ms, yolda\u015f\u0131n yax\u0131ndad\u0131rsa, z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa, telefonu ona ver…
\n\u2500G\u00f6zl\u0259… Can\u0131m, Raufdur, s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc var, g\u00f6r n\u0259 deyir.
\nTelefondan ki\u015fi s\u0259si e\u015fidildi.
\n\u2500Alo.
\n\u2500Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir, Ziya… Nec\u0259s\u0259n, qarda\u015f?
\n\u2500\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr. Bir az var i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.
\n\u2500Tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fam, ma\u015f\u0131ndad\u0131r.
\n\u2500\u00c7ox sa\u011f ol, Rauf! Neynirs\u0259n? Haradasan indi? Dur, g\u0259l biz\u0259. \u015e\u0259ms d\u0259, Leyla da b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yib.
\n\u2500Yox, qarda\u015f, indi g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Bir az i\u015fl\u0259rim var, yubanacam. Ev\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 yol\u00fcst\u00fc siz\u0259 d\u0259yib ver\u0259r\u0259m.
\n\u2500\u015e\u0259ms\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259c\u0259yini demis\u0259n, o da s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u015fa, \u015firniyyata q\u0259d\u0259r haz\u0131rlay\u0131b. G\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259n, bax, inciy\u0259c\u0259k.
\n \u2500\u015e\u0259msin haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 plovdan, \u015firniyyatdan imtina etm\u0259zdim, amma t\u0259k deyil\u0259m… \u00dczrl\u00fc bilsin.
\n\u2500Hm… \u015e\u0259ms deyir tan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u0259lsin.
\n\u2500\u0130n\u015fallah, g\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259.
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131, qarda\u015f. Allah i\u015fl\u0259rini avand etsin. N\u0259? N\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t? \u015e\u0259ms soru\u015fur ki, v\u0259ziyy\u0259t nec\u0259dir?
\nRauf \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n\u2500G\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m, s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rik.
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131.
\n\u2500Oldu, qarda\u015f. Sa\u011fol.
\nAraya s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Susurdum. N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yimi bilmirdim. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcms\u0259, bir o q\u0259d\u0259r fikirl\u0259rim qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxaraq soyumu\u015f q\u0259hv\u0259d\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qurtum i\u00e7di.
\n\u2500Niy\u0259 susdun? T\u0259l\u0259sik n\u0259tic\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011f\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259rinl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, qulaqlar\u0131nla e\u015fitm\u0259yin deyildimi? B\u0259s indi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rin, qulaqlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015f n\u0259tic\u0259l\u0259ri nec\u0259 t\u0259kzib ed\u0259c\u0259k?
\n\u2500…
\nAraya \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f s\u00fckutu yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc pozdu:
\n\u2500M\u0259n evli deyil\u0259m. He\u00e7 vaxt da evli olmad\u0131m. Yeddi ildir ki, subay zabit h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fama\u011fa davam edir\u0259m.
\nN\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rim masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki telefonun ekran\u0131nda ili\u015fib qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259:
\n \u2500\u201cB\u0259lk\u0259 yan\u0131l\u0131ram, b\u0259lk\u0259 bu ba\u015fqa q\u0131zd\u0131r, o deyil,\u201d\u2013d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. G\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d duydu\u011fum, Raufa q\u0131sqand\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. O idi, \u00f6z\u00fc idi. Telefonun ekran\u0131nda da, anas\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 d\u0259 eyni q\u0131z idi \u2013universitetin bufetind\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturub s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259n h\u0259min q\u0131z…
\nRauf sanki fikirl\u0259rimi oxuyurdu:
\n\u2500Bilir\u0259m n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u2013deyib telefonu \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259min q\u0131z\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 olan ba\u015fqa bir \u015f\u0259klini ekran boyu b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131, \u2013\u00d6z\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u015e\u0259msdir. M\u0259nim u\u011fruna can\u0131m\u0131 bel\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r oldu\u011fum h\u0259min q\u0131zd\u0131r. U\u015faql\u0131qdan ham\u0131 onu \u0259zizl\u0259yib \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Bu is\u0259 onun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Ziyad\u0131r. Bu da onlar\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 \u2013m\u0259nim be\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 m\u0259l\u0259yim Leyla…
\nRaufun s\u0259mimiliyin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapm\u0131rd\u0131m.
\n\u2500Bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259, ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 t\u0259hlil etm\u0259y\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r zaman\u0131m olub ki… \u018fslind\u0259 s\u0259nin hissl\u0259rini d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l anlay\u0131ram. S\u0259n do\u011fru hesab etdiyini etdin. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t ed\u0259n h\u0259r bir vicdanl\u0131 q\u0131z m\u0259hz s\u0259nin kimi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259rdi… Amma… S\u0259n, ax\u0131, m\u0259ni az-\u00e7ox tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131n! Q\u0259lbin s\u0259ni sevdiyimi, s\u0259n\u0259 yalan dem\u0259diyimi hiss etm\u0259li idi! S\u0259mimiyy\u0259tim\u0259 inanmal\u0131 idin. M\u0259ni dinl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rdin! Dinl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259din…
\n\u2500Bir insan\u0131 tan\u0131maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259z\u0259n bir \u00f6m\u00fcr bel\u0259 yetm\u0259z!
\nRauf s\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fmad\u0131:
\n\u2500Do\u011fru deyil! \u0130nsanlar\u0131 tan\u0131ma\u011f\u0131 bacarmayanlar\u0131n uydurmas\u0131d\u0131r! M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r, m\u0259n\u0259 inana, g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rdin. Ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 s\u0259n oldun! T\u0259rsliyin, inadkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259m\u0259yin oldu.
\n\u2500M\u0259n bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki…
\n\u2500H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim var. Anamla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fczd\u0259n, aran\u0131zdak\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi \u015e\u0259ms dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra da anam etiraf etdi.
\nYenid\u0259n araya s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.
\nDal\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Arabir \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir, sonra yen\u0259 fikr\u0259 gedirdi. Raufun diqq\u0259ti m\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259nim is\u0259 diqq\u0259tim p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131nda idi.
\n\u2500S\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdikd\u0259n sonra s\u0259ni unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259 s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Anlad\u0131m ki, s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 k\u0259sd\u0259 \u00f6z xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimi tapa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 bir g\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131ma yenid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarsan dey\u0259, d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259niz k\u0259nar\u0131na endim. S\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fcmidi il\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r-ax\u015fam \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259k-t\u0259nha n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259zib doland\u0131m. \u00d6z ist\u0259yiml\u0259 t\u0259yinat\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131b Bak\u0131dan getdim. Geri qay\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn yen\u0259 d\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131m m\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259kib d\u0259niz k\u0259nar\u0131na g\u0259tirdi. S\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fcmidi il\u0259 g\u0259zib dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 bir s\u0259s s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yimi s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi m\u0259n\u0259. Hissiyyat\u0131m m\u0259ni yan\u0131ltmad\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n o g\u00fcn. Yenic\u0259 ayaq a\u00e7an k\u00f6rp\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259n tutub g\u0259zdirirdin. Aral\u0131dan xeyli sizi izl\u0259dim. Ail\u0259 qurdu\u011funu, xo\u015fb\u0259xt bir ana oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, daha h\u0259yat\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 yer olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131nca \u00fczg\u00fcn halda oradan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131m.
\n\u2500Bac\u0131m\u0131n o\u011fludur, \u2013sakitc\u0259 bildirdim.
\nG\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n\u2500M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi yanl\u0131\u015f n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sdim.
\n\u00d6zl\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259:
\n\u2500B\u0259s nec\u0259 oldu ki, evli olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndin?\u2013d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb ona sual verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim ki, m\u0259ni qabaqlad\u0131:
\n\u2500Ba\u015fqa bir yer\u0259 t\u0259yinat almaq fikrind\u0259 idim. H\u0259tta \u0259riz\u0259mi bel\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, t\u0259kc\u0259 nazirliy\u0259 aparmaq qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259ms z\u0259ng edib h\u0259yacanla t\u0259cili g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini bildir\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131mdan min fikir ke\u00e7di, Leylaya n\u0259s\u0259 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc onlara nec\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bel\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram. Qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi \u015e\u0259ms el\u0259 Ziyan\u0131n yan\u0131nda boynuma sar\u0131l\u0131b, \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Sevinc\u0259k \u201cAf\u0259t ail\u0259li deyil. H\u0259yat\u0131nda he\u00e7 k\u0259s yoxdur. Tan\u0131\u015f birind\u0259n bar\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi d\u0259qiq \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 \u015fans\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rsan, daha b\u0259xtin\u0259 k\u00fcs!\u201d dedi. \u2013G\u00fcld\u00fc. \u2013\u015e\u0259ms m\u0259nim m\u0259l\u0259yimdir! G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fimdir! Onun q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni anlayan, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k olan ikinci bir insan yoxdur! O q\u0131z\u0131n etdiyini b\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s etm\u0259zdi ki, o, etdi. O, olmasayd\u0131, bu g\u00fcn s\u0259ninl\u0259 bel\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz otura bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdik. Ba\u015fqa biri olsa, q\u0259lbind\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 kin saxlard\u0131.
\n\u2500…
\nQ\u0131sa bir zaman \u0259rzind\u0259 Rauf fikrind\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi sanki:
\n\u2500\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259min \u0259r\u0259f\u0259d\u0259 anamgilin onlara el\u00e7i getdiyin\u0259, raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m olmadan barma\u011f\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fck taxd\u0131qlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar bilirdim. Vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirdim. Bir q\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ni\u015fan\u0131n pozulmas\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r oldu\u011funu, n\u0259 kimi s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b ola bil\u0259c\u0259yini bildiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, can\u0131mdan \u00e7ox sevdiyim insan\u0131 \u00fczm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Elin q\u0131na\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259kindiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ail\u0259l\u0259rimizin yax\u0131n oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, onun dill\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sini ist\u0259m\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 c\u00fcr s\u00f6z a\u00e7a, s\u0259n\u0259 olan hissl\u0259rimi etiraf ed\u0259 bilmirdim. Bir d\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 al ki, onun atas\u0131 n\u0259inki atam\u0131n \u0259n yax\u0131n dostudur, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ata \u0259v\u0259zidir. M\u0259nim h\u0259tta dem\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t etm\u0259diyimi, \u015e\u0259ms etdi. Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tin n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r oldu\u011funu t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr et. Bilirs\u0259n, o n\u0259 etdi? \u00d6z hissl\u0259rimi, ba\u015fqa birisini sevdiyimi etiraf ed\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sakit v\u0259 anlay\u0131\u015fla qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. \u201cHe\u00e7 bir q\u0131z s\u0259ni m\u0259nim \u0259limd\u0259n ala, m\u0259ni s\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xara bilm\u0259z onsuzda!\u201d, \u2013deyib boynuma sar\u0131ld\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. He\u00e7 vaxt \u00fcr\u0259yini s\u0131nd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259m\u0259diyim q\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki ya\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015fdim. \u201cS\u0259n sevgin\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131x! Narahat olma, m\u0259n atamla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b h\u0259r \u015feyi yoluna qoyaram. He\u00e7 k\u0259s d\u0259 bu ni\u015fan\u0131n s\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n pozuldu\u011funu bilm\u0259z. Qoy bu bizim sirrimiz olsun\u201d \u2013deyib m\u0259nd\u0259n s\u00f6z ald\u0131 ki, sevdiyim q\u0131z\u0131 yar\u0131yolda buraxmayacam, xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259c\u0259m.
\nN\u0259 gizl\u0259dim, Raufu dinl\u0259dikc\u0259, \u015e\u0259ms bar\u0259sind\u0259 nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259r dediyini e\u015fitdikc\u0259, ona n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259y\u0259r verdiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259, ona ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m tuturdu. Q\u0131sqan\u0131rd\u0131m… Q\u0131z \u00f6z s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 haql\u0131 idi. H\u0259tta m\u0259n\u0259 olan sevgisi bel\u0259 onu Raufun q\u0259lbind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xara bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259 anlay\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 etiraf edirdim ki, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt \u015e\u0259msin f\u0259dakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdim. Onun kimi olma\u011f\u0131 bacarmazd\u0131m. Y\u0259qin el\u0259 bu f\u0259rqimiz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, Rauf onu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n bil\u0259c\u0259kdi. He\u00e7 bir k\u0259s, h\u0259tta m\u0259n bel\u0259 \u015e\u0259msin yerini tuta bilm\u0259zdim Raufun q\u0259lbind\u0259.
\nRauf g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kmirdi. \u018flimi ovcunda s\u0131x\u0131b dodaqlar\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2500Demi\u015fdim ax\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn yollar Romaya apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi, hara gets\u0259n, \u0259limd\u0259n hara qa\u00e7san da, onsuz da gec, ya tez bir g\u00fcn s\u0259ni m\u00fctl\u0259q nikah masas\u0131na oturdacam. \u2013\u0130ll\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l cibind\u0259 gizl\u0259tdiyi h\u0259min \u00fcz\u00fck qab\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu, \u2013T\u0259klifim h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259d\u0259dir. Qar\u015f\u0131nda oturmu\u015f bu zabitl\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259rbi nizamnam\u0259y\u0259 uy\u011fun ya\u015fama\u011fa raz\u0131san? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k, fikrind\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn xeyli vaxt\u0131n olub. N\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?
\nHava sakitl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. Bayaqk\u0131 havaya b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi he\u00e7. Nar\u0131n ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da sanki bu ax\u015fam ba\u015fqa idi. D\u0259nizd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259n x\u0259fif yel d\u0259 t\u0259lat\u00fcml\u0259r qopartmaq fikrind\u0259 deyildi. Lakin noyabr soyu\u011fu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 can\u0131m\u0131 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu sakit v\u0259 soyuq pay\u0131z ax\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu olmayaca\u011f\u0131na, qar\u015f\u0131da ne\u00e7\u0259 bel\u0259 pay\u0131z aylar\u0131n\u0131 yola sal\u0131b, ne\u00e7\u0259 yaz\u0131, bahar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131layaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131za is\u0259 \u0259min idim.<\/p>\n

EP\u0130LOQ
\nD\u0259niz… T\u0259lat\u00fcml\u00fc, h\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7ox sakit, mehriban d\u0259niz… G\u00f6z\u0259lliyind\u0259n z\u00f6vq almaq, qoxusunu i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259nim kimi biril\u0259rinin \u00f6z q\u0259lbind\u0259kil\u0259ri b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getdiyi t\u0259k \u00fcnvan… \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259tl\u0259r, n\u0259 sirl\u0259r saxlad\u0131 bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r. M\u00fcdrik bir qocaya b\u0259nz\u0259dir\u0259m onu. H\u0259r k\u0259si dinl\u0259r, he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 sirrini verm\u0259z. P\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldayan l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259ri, \u015fah\u0259 qalxan dal\u011falar\u0131 il\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259ninl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259r. Onun biz insanlara deyil\u0259c\u0259k o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6zl\u0259ri var ki! Sad\u0259c\u0259 onu dinl\u0259m\u0259yi bacarmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Diqq\u0259tli olsan, n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyini, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz ki, anlaya bil\u0259rs\u0259n. N\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u0259di, n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u015fahid olmad\u0131 o. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n, zaman\u0131n g\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fc qaba\u011f\u0131nda olub ke\u00e7di.
\nD\u0259niz… Sevgisin\u0259 qovu\u015fa bilm\u0259y\u0259n a\u015fiq\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259dir\u0259m onu. \u00dcfiq x\u0259ttind\u0259 sanki qovu\u015fduqlar\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nn ets\u0259n d\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt qovu\u015fmazlar. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fiql\u0259r ona p\u0259nah apar\u0131r. Ax\u0131, o da t\u0259nhad\u0131r. G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r nec\u0259 olsa, vaxt\u0131 ke\u00e7ir. B\u0259z\u0259n biril\u0259rini m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 edir, biril\u0259rini dinl\u0259yir, ba\u015fqa birisin\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldayaraq n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir, arada da ya\u015fl\u0131 insanlar kimi bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259liy\u0259 m\u00fcrg\u00fc d\u0259 vura bilir. Gec\u0259l\u0259r is\u0259, insanlar\u0131n \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131 d\u0259nizk\u0259nar\u0131ndan y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra he\u00e7 vaxt qovu\u015fa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi S\u0259man\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259r, gah \u00f6z sevgisind\u0259n s\u00f6z salar, gah da yor\u011fun \u2013yor\u011fun \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259r.<\/p>\n

F\u0259sild\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, h\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u0259niz k\u0259nar\u0131nda g\u0259zi\u015fm\u0259k ad\u0259t hal\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan yolumu m\u00fctl\u0259q burdan salard\u0131m. Seyrin\u0259 dalar, s\u0259sini dinl\u0259rdim. \u0130\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyim \u0259tri, qoxusu ruhuma t\u0259rav\u0259t, t\u0259z\u0259lik b\u0259x\u015f ed\u0259rdi.
\n\u2500D\u0259niz! \u2013dey\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canla \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.
\nD\u0259niz kimi mavi g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131 olan, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259limd\u0259n dart\u0131n\u0131b qa\u00e7an bu d\u0259c\u0259l v\u0259 \u015f\u0131ltaq q\u0131z m\u0259nim D\u0259nizimdir. Tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za s\u0259b\u0259b, sevgimiz\u0259 \u015fahid olan d\u0259nizimizin \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 onu bel\u0259 adland\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Ax\u0131, bir \u00f6m\u00fcr sev\u0259c\u0259yim insanla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yim\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b o idi. Sevgimizin, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ac\u0131lar\u0131n \u015fahidi oldu\u011fu kimi, xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rimizin d\u0259 \u015fahidi ed\u0259 bilmi\u015fdik onu.
\nBir zamanlar t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm, sirl\u0259rim\u0259 ortaq etdiyim d\u0259nizd\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259man\u0259tl\u0259rimi geri alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 arxas\u0131yca g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259min zabit bir daha he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259limi buraxmayaca\u011f\u0131na \u0259min oldu\u011fum h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m idi art\u0131q. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt ail\u0259miz, d\u0259niz kimi mavi g\u00f6zl\u00fc D\u0259niz q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 aydan sonra do\u011fulacaq k\u00f6rp\u0259miz\u0259 d\u0259 ad se\u00e7mi\u015fdim. Raufa h\u0259l\u0259 dem\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, do\u011fulacaq q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimiz\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bkar olan G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fimizin \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 \u015e\u0259ms qoyma\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.
\nB\u0259li, b\u0259li, bir zamanlar g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d apard\u0131\u011f\u0131m, Raufa q\u0131sqand\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259min q\u0131z, indi m\u0259nim \u2013\u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 he\u00e7 bir r\u0259fiq\u0259si olmayan Af\u0259tin \u0259n yax\u0131n r\u0259fiq\u0259si idi. B\u00fct\u00fcn sirl\u0259rimi onunla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, h\u0259r i\u015fd\u0259 onunla m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259\u015firdim. Raufun m\u0259nd\u0259n daha \u00e7ox d\u0259y\u0259r verib, q\u0259lbind\u0259 ona x\u00fcsusi yer ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, sevgisini m\u0259nd\u0259n o\u011furlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nn etdiyim q\u0131z, indi q\u0259lbimd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 el\u0259 yer etmi\u015fdi ki, Rauf \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 mehriban\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131sqanma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nRauf haqq\u0131nda bilm\u0259diyim \u00e7ox h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri \u015e\u0259ms m\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anas\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yimizi d\u0259, \u00f6lk\u0259ni t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u0259 Raufa \u015e\u0259ms x\u0259b\u0259r veribmi\u015f. Arxamca aeroporta g\u0259lib m\u0259ni dayand\u0131rmaq, yar\u0131 yoldan qaytarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259ni iznsiz t\u0259rk ed\u0259n zabitin m\u0259suliyy\u0259t\u0259 c\u0259lb olunmas\u0131na onun q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259can ke\u00e7ir\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ax\u0131dan ikinci insan olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 b\u0259lk\u0259. Raufu m\u0259suliyy\u0259t\u0259 c\u0259lb edilm\u0259kd\u0259n, az qala h\u0259bsxanaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259n xilas ed\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 \u015e\u0259msin atas\u0131 olmu\u015fdu.
\nRaufla ail\u0259si aras\u0131nda uzun ill\u0259r davam ed\u0259n g\u0259rgin, incik m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 son qoya bilmi\u015fdim. Atas\u0131 m\u0259ni do\u011fma q\u0131z\u0131 kimi sevir, \u00f6vladlar\u0131ndan ay\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. Anas\u0131na g\u0259ldikd\u0259 is\u0259, evd\u0259 onun q\u0259d\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131ma qalan, naz\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n yox idi. Onun timsal\u0131nda bir ana qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259. Valideynl\u0259rimin yoxlu\u011funu he\u00e7 vaxt hiss etdirm\u0259zdil\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259. Rauf i\u015fd\u0259n gec g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, ya da aram\u0131zda ki\u00e7ik s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t olanda o\u011flunu t\u0259nbeh ed\u0259r, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim t\u0259r\u0259fimi saxlard\u0131. M\u0259ni h\u0259r zaman himay\u0259 ed\u0259n, qoruyan n\u0259n\u0259mi d\u0259 D\u0259nizimin n\u0259n\u0259sind\u0259 tapa bilmi\u015fdim.
\nAnam demi\u015fk\u0259n, t\u0259yyar\u0259d\u0259 bir tay\u0131n\u0131 itirdiyimi z\u0259nn etdiyim h\u0259min s\u0131r\u011falar\u0131 anamdan, n\u0259n\u0259md\u0259n bir xatir\u0259 kimi saxlay\u0131ram, qula\u011f\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131ram. S\u0259n dem\u0259, qap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda vidala\u015fark\u0259n, s\u0131r\u011fa qula\u011f\u0131mdan a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b anam\u0131n \u00e7iynin\u0259 sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fal\u0131na ili\u015fibmi\u015f. T\u0259hsil ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u0259rzind\u0259 anam h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xanda onu ovcuna alar, sanki m\u0259ni \u0259zizl\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi \u0259zizl\u0259rdi. M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rli olan bu s\u0131r\u011falar\u0131 m\u0259n d\u0259 on s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 tamam olanda q\u0131z\u0131m D\u0259niz\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259m.
\n\u2500Ana! Bax! \u2013Q\u0131z\u0131m \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu zanbaqla qar\u015f\u0131ma qa\u00e7d\u0131.\u2013G\u00f6r, n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir!
\n\u2500H\u0259, can\u0131m, g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. S\u0259nin kimi g\u00f6z\u0259ldir, \u2013deyib q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 zanba\u011f\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fcm.
\n\u2500Atam\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 yen\u0259 zanbaq var, \u2013dey\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m yenid\u0259n \u0259limd\u0259n dart\u0131n\u0131b bir q\u0259d\u0259r aral\u0131da dayanm\u0131\u015f atas\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\nRauf boynuna sar\u0131lan q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u018flind\u0259ki zanbaq d\u0259st\u0259sini m\u0259n\u0259 uzad\u0131b \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimi qucaqlad\u0131. Ata-balan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 toxunan isti n\u0259f\u0259si, \u0259ll\u0259rinin h\u0259rar\u0259ti, yanaqlar\u0131mdak\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri bir qad\u0131n\u0131n, bir anan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyinin ifad\u0259 olunmayacaq s\u00f6zs\u00fcz k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259ri idi.
\nH\u0259, bir d\u0259 sevgimizin \u015fahidin\u0259, el\u00e7isin\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259n bu zanbaqlar… <\/p>\n

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\nBAKI, 30 aprel -27 may, 2017 \u2013ci il<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bir q\u0131z v\u0259 ya qad\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn r\u0259qibinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xmaq q\u00fcrur v\u0259 m\u0259nliyini, l\u0259yaq\u0259tini al\u00e7altmaqdan \u0259lav\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n ondan daha yax\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu etiraf etm\u0259k dem\u0259k idi. Qar\u015f\u0131mda dayanm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131za bu c\u0259h\u0259ti yara\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyimd\u0259n hal\u0131na ac\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. Y\u0259qin ki, onun yerin\u0259 olsam, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt bunu etm\u0259zdim. \u2500Dey\u0259c\u0259yiniz s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259xmin etdiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, siz\u0259 yaln\u0131z bunlar\u0131 dey\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-27366","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27366","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=27366"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27366\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":27381,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27366\/revisions\/27381"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=27366"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=27366"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=27366"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}