{"id":27596,"date":"2018-07-20T02:00:26","date_gmt":"2018-07-19T22:00:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=27596"},"modified":"2018-07-20T09:05:07","modified_gmt":"2018-07-20T05:05:07","slug":"m-nedim-tepebasi-ilk-oruc","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=27596","title":{"rendered":"M. Nedim Tepeba\u015f\u0131.\u201d\u0130LK ORU\u00c7\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"

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USARE DERG\u0130S\u0130 18. SAYI<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fl\u0131k, \u00d6mer Seyfettin\u2019in \u201c\u0130lk Namaz\u201d \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc gibi oldu ama niyetim nazire yapmak de\u011fil asla, haddimi de hududumu da bilirim. Eskiden hep b\u00f6yle ilkler olurdu, kast\u0131m odur sadece! Ben \u201ceskiden\u201d dedi\u011fim her s\u00f6z\u00fcmde genelde kendi ge\u00e7mi\u015f y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131 kast ederim yani tan\u0131k olduklar\u0131mdan s\u00f6z ederim. Bilmediklerime kar\u0131\u015fmam da uzanmam da. Daha bilmediklerimiz neler vard\u0131r k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczde, say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorum.
\nBen bu ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yk\u00fc olarak yazmayaca\u011f\u0131m, \u00d6mer Seyfettin\u2019e sayg\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131k etmem, ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki uygulamalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131m, y\u00e2d etmek istedim sadece, ya\u015fat\u0131labilirse de ne \u00e2l\u00e2.
\n\u015eimdilerde b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey yok, \u00e7ok \u00e7abuk de\u011fi\u015fiverdik, hem de \u00e7ok \u00e7abuk, ya da k\u00fclt\u00fcr emperyalizmine teslim olduk, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fc \u00e7ok g\u00fczelmi\u015f gibi kendi k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc be\u011fenmez olduk yani ya hepsi, ya da biri veya birka\u00e7\u0131 bizi bizden uzakla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131!
\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumdan hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fczel k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fczdeki an\u0131lar\u0131mdan bir tanesidir ilk tuttu\u011fum oru\u00e7 i\u00e7in kutlama yap\u0131lmas\u0131. Ben \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumu iyi hat\u0131rlar\u0131m; d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131mda de\u011fildim, daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcm. O zamanlar, belki de \u00e7ok zay\u0131f, \u00e7elimsiz oldu\u011fumdand\u0131r, oru\u00e7 tutmak istedi\u011fim halde; \u201cDaha \u00e7ocuksun, \u00f6\u011fleye kadar tut, sonra bunlar\u0131 birbirine ular\u0131z, dikeriz, t\u00fcmlenmi\u015f olur.\u201d derlerdi, fakat beni ikna edemezlerdi. Orucun birbirine dikilece\u011fine hi\u00e7 inanmazd\u0131m, hep oyalama takti\u011fi olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm bu s\u00f6z\u00fc.
\n\u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da; zoru ba\u015farmak bir \u00e7ocuk i\u00e7in kahramanl\u0131km\u0131\u015f me\u011fer. \u00c7ocuksu da olsa iyi bir \u00e7aba de\u011fil mi? O y\u0131l Ramazan\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnleri; tutar\u0131m, tutamazs\u0131n m\u00fccadelesi ile ge\u00e7ti. H\u00e2lbuki gerek yoktu, her \u00e7ocuk i\u00e7in, herkes i\u00e7in s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum, bana g\u00f6re \u00e7ocuk oru\u00e7 tutmak istiyorsa tutmal\u0131, b\u0131rak\u0131n tutsun, o ba\u015far\u0131y\u0131 ya\u015fas\u0131n, ba\u015farmaya ilk ad\u0131m\u0131 ats\u0131n ki ileri ya\u015flar\u0131nda, zorluklar kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hemen pes etmesin, u\u011fra\u015fs\u0131n, direnmesi gerekenlere dirensin! Bu a\u00e7\u0131dan bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u015fimdi daha bir \u00f6nemsiyorum benzer davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131.
\n\u0130lk denemeden sonra \u00f6n\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 oru\u00e7lar\u0131n. Art\u0131k kimse durduram\u0131yordu beni, ba\u015farman\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Bakt\u0131lar ki ben durdurulam\u0131yorum, bu sefer de sahurda; \u201cKarn\u0131n\u0131 iyi doyur; ac\u0131kmayas\u0131n, suyunu i\u00e7, sonra susars\u0131n.\u201d telkinleri yap\u0131lmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00d6\u011fleden sonra olunca s\u00fcrekli y\u00f6neltilen soru; \u201cAc\u0131kt\u0131n m\u0131, susad\u0131n m\u0131, nas\u0131ls\u0131n peki?\u201d oluyordu. Ne diyeceksin; anne baba endi\u015fesi, \u00f6zellikle de anne merhameti i\u015fte! Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey oldu\u011fu yok, akl\u0131na getirilmese ac\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamayacak h\u00e2lbuki. Gere\u011finden fazla ilgi, gere\u011finden fazla endi\u015fe de iyi de\u011fil, bence \u00e7ocuk b\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle al\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 hayat\u0131n getireceklerine de! Ge\u00e7enlerde bir uzman doktorun yorumunu okudum, \u201cBir hastam var obez, o h\u00e2le nas\u0131l geldi\u011fini irdeledim, ac\u0131kmaktan korktu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u00e7ok yemekten o h\u00e2le gelmi\u015f anlad\u0131m ki!\u201d diyordu. Bu da yanl\u0131\u015f i\u015fte; ac\u0131kmamak i\u00e7in \u00e7ok yemek. H\u00e2lbuki insan v\u00fccudu, nerede ki her duruma \u00e7ok \u00e7abuk adapte olurmu\u015f.
\nAk\u015fam saati yakla\u015f\u0131nca evdekiler s\u0131rayla evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki ayazda yani \u00e7ardakta ve sofada s\u0131rtlar\u0131nda gezdiriyorlar beni. \u0130stemiyorum ama \u201cSevapt\u0131r o\u011flum, bize de sevap gelir!\u201d diyorlar, eh, onlar\u0131 sevaptan mahrum b\u0131rakmayal\u0131m bari dercesine raz\u0131 oluyorum. Ak\u015fama biraz daha yakla\u015f\u0131nca bu sefer yola, o g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015fartlar\u0131nda caddeye \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorlar evin benden b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar\u0131. Caddeye \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum ki yaln\u0131z ben de\u011filmi\u015fim, en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckleri ben g\u00f6r\u00fcnsem de say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fim, \u00e7ok diyebildi\u011fim say\u0131da \u00e7ocuk abisinin, ablas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131nda birlikte geziniyorlar.
\n\u0130ftar saati yak\u0131n oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in herkes evine d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, mahallenin amcalar\u0131n\u0131n, abilerinin, bu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ne kadar da mutlu olduklar\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum \u015fimdi, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 iyi bir i\u015fe sevinmek de mutlulukmu\u015f o zaman demek ki! Hatta bu mutlulu\u011fa ortak olmak i\u00e7in, onlar da \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 s\u0131rtlar\u0131nda gezdirmek, ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde; \u201cBize de sevap olsun!\u201d diyerek bu ba\u015far\u0131y\u0131 kutlamak ve mutlulu\u011fu payla\u015fmak istiyorlard\u0131. Benim gibi \u00e7ekingen \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n isteksizlikleri kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda mahzun da olmu\u015flard\u0131. Kimisi de hi\u00e7 de\u011filse \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 ok\u015fuyor, yanaklar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcyor; \u201c\u00d6p\u00fcc\u00fcklere orucun tad\u0131 bula\u015fm\u0131\u015f, oh ne g\u00fczel!\u201d veya benzeri s\u00f6zler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorlard\u0131.
\n\u015eimdilerde b\u00f6yle \u015feyler yok herhalde, duymuyorum ve de g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. \u015eu anda yani yaz\u0131n\u0131n tam da buras\u0131nda, Dede Korkut hik\u00e2yelerinden \u201cBamsi Beyrek\u2019e Ad Konulmas\u0131\u201d hik\u00e2yesi akl\u0131ma geldi. \u00c7ocu\u011fa ad konulmas\u0131 i\u00e7in bir kahramanl\u0131k g\u00f6stermesi gerekirmi\u015f ya eskiden T\u00fcrklerde. \u0130\u015fte ilk oru\u00e7 da bence bir kahramanl\u0131kt\u0131r, belki de bu s\u0131rtta gezdirmeler de bu k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcn bir uzant\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r.
\nVar olun, iyiliklerle an\u0131l\u0131n in\u015fallah, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc \u00f6ren b\u00fcy\u00fcklerimiz, \u015fimdikilere de ibret olsun, ba\u015fka ne diyeyim ki!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

USARE DERG\u0130S\u0130 18. SAYI Ba\u015fl\u0131k, \u00d6mer Seyfettin\u2019in \u201c\u0130lk Namaz\u201d \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc gibi oldu ama niyetim nazire yapmak de\u011fil asla, haddimi de hududumu da bilirim. Eskiden hep b\u00f6yle ilkler olurdu, kast\u0131m odur sadece! Ben \u201ceskiden\u201d dedi\u011fim her s\u00f6z\u00fcmde genelde kendi ge\u00e7mi\u015f y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131 kast ederim yani tan\u0131k olduklar\u0131mdan s\u00f6z ederim. Bilmediklerime kar\u0131\u015fmam da uzanmam da. Daha bilmediklerimiz neler […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[34],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-27596","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-usare"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27596","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=27596"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27596\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":27602,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27596\/revisions\/27602"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=27596"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=27596"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=27596"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}