{"id":27669,"date":"2018-07-27T01:00:34","date_gmt":"2018-07-26T21:00:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=27669"},"modified":"2018-07-27T09:03:34","modified_gmt":"2018-07-27T05:03:34","slug":"nargul-delice-perisan-kurabiyeler","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=27669","title":{"rendered":"Narg\u00fcl DEL\u0130CE.”PER\u0130\u015eAN KURAB\u0130YELER”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Seher vakti uzad\u0131k\u00e7a uzuyordu. Yorgan\u0131n bir ucunu kolunun aras\u0131na \u00f6b\u00fcr ucunu s\u0131zlayan omzuna \u00e7ekti. G\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p uykuya dalmay\u0131 umdu, ama bo\u015funa. Yast\u0131\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 iteledi yorganla beraber \u00fcst\u00fcne kay\u0131p g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kovu\u015funu izlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Aynada \u00f6nce kara bir g\u00f6lge, sonra silik bir \u015fekil olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fc kendini. Mart\u0131lar\u0131n hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 o sabah\u0131 \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor, zaman orada durmu\u015f ya da geri sar\u0131yordu. Ani bir kararla kalkt\u0131, h\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131 giydi. Kurabiye yapmal\u0131yd\u0131, cevizli, \u00fcz\u00fcml\u00fc, bol tar\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131.
\nHer \u015feyden iki \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fc katt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hamurdan, rastgele kopard\u0131\u011f\u0131 par\u00e7alar\u0131 \u015fekil vermeden tepsilere dizdi. Yoksa k\u0131t\u0131r k\u0131t\u0131r olmazd\u0131. Nergis Han\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u015feklinden alan peri\u015fan kurabiyelerinin s\u0131rr\u0131 buydu asl\u0131nda. Tepsileri f\u0131r\u0131na iki\u015ferli yerle\u015ftirip orta ayarda pi\u015firdi. Mutfak masas\u0131na yayd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sofra bezinin \u00fczerine bo\u015faltt\u0131. Gazoz da almal\u0131yd\u0131, \u00d6zer limonlu sever. Cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde duran anahtar\u0131 ald\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Ard\u0131ndan kapanan kap\u0131 sesiyle akl\u0131ndakiler u\u00e7up gitmi\u015fti. Anahtar\u0131 deli\u011fe takt\u0131. Eve mi girecekti, yok, okula gidip \u00d6zer\u2019i almal\u0131yd\u0131. Hay Allah \u00e7ok ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Merdivenleri indi. Soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p okula do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Bek\u00e7i kul\u00fcbesinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu. Bah\u00e7e hareketliydi, e\u015fofmanl\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar yakan top oynuyordu. Duvar\u0131n beton \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131na oturdu. Topun elden ele ge\u00e7i\u015fini izlerken bir ara oyuna girmeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ama hemen vazge\u00e7ti. G\u00fcne\u015ften tepesi yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, iki elini ba\u015f\u0131na dolad\u0131, kollar\u0131 yoruluncaya kadar \u00f6ylece kald\u0131. Yan\u0131nda sesler \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015f yabanc\u0131 y\u00fczler bekle\u015fmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Her g\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc insanlar\u0131 ni\u00e7in tan\u0131m\u0131yordu. Ba\u015fkalar\u0131 gelmi\u015ftir belki bu g\u00fcn. \u00d6zeri almaya dedesi gelse \u00f6tekiler de onu tan\u0131mazd\u0131. Bah\u00e7eden duyulan m\u00fczi\u011fin ard\u0131ndan, \u00e7ocuklar d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bo\u015fald\u0131. Minikler annelerinin elinden tutup giderken \u00d6zer\u2019e odaklanm\u0131\u015f zihni buland\u0131. Oraya ni\u00e7in gelmi\u015fti? Eline dayanarak do\u011fruldu, nereye gidece\u011fini bilmeden y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Otob\u00fcs dura\u011f\u0131nda bekleyenlerin arkas\u0131na, kuyru\u011fa girdi. H\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131n cebini yoklad\u0131. Ne jeton vard\u0131 ne de para. Panikledi. Eve ge\u00e7 kald\u0131m. Param yok desem, olmaz, dilenci miyim? Yasemin hep b\u00f6yle yap\u0131yor. \u00c7antam\u0131 alma k\u0131z\u0131m diyorum. Dinleyen kim. Nevzat duymas\u0131n. Koskoca banka m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn kar\u0131s\u0131 para m\u0131 dilenir. Y\u00fcr\u00fcsem daha iyi olacak, binalar ne kadar y\u00fcksek? Korkmazlar m\u0131 camdan bakarken? Bah\u00e7eli ev gibisi yok.
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\nD\u0131\u015f hatlar terminalinden sar\u0131 taksilere do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyen gen\u00e7 adam, bir eliyle valizini \u00e7ekerken di\u011fer eliyle kula\u011f\u0131na yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 telefonu tutuyordu.
\n\u201c\u0130ndim. \u00d6\u011fleden sonra arkada\u015flarla bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m. Israr etme anne, kalamam. Anla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 san\u0131yordum. Durmadan yeni bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorsun. \u015eimdi taksiye biniyorum, kapatmam laz\u0131m.\u201d
\nG\u00f6mlek cebinden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 adresi direksiyonda bekleyen taksiciye g\u00f6sterdi. Adam kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p indi. Valizi bagaja yerle\u015ftirdi. K\u00e2\u011f\u0131tta yazan adrese gitmek \u00fczere yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131lar.
\nTaksici, trafik yo\u011funlu\u011funu bahane ederek epeyce dola\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131ktan sonra adrese geldi. Gen\u00e7 adam her \u015feyden habersiz tarife \u00fccretini \u00f6dedi. Te\u015fekk\u00fcr edip indi. Otomatik a\u00e7\u0131lan bagajdan valizini ald\u0131. G\u00f6kdelenlerin yan\u0131nda gecekondu gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen \u00fc\u00e7 katl\u0131 binaya do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. A\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f demir kap\u0131dan ge\u00e7ti. Asans\u00f6r olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015ftu. Hat\u0131rlamas\u0131 uzun s\u00fcrmedi. Yukar\u0131 do\u011fru k\u0131vr\u0131larak \u00e7\u0131kan merdivene bakt\u0131, valizi kuca\u011f\u0131na kald\u0131r\u0131p t\u0131rmanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Annesi ne doldurduysa \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc kata \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kollar\u0131 ve bacaklar\u0131nda g\u00fc\u00e7 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Zile bast\u0131, ayn\u0131 anda kilide tak\u0131l\u0131 anahtar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u00c7evirip i\u00e7eri girdi, mis gibi kurabiye kokuyordu. Bu ev, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu, rahmetli dedesi ne kadar gerilerde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Seslenerek mutfa\u011fa y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc, \u201cAnneanne ben geldim.\u201d
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\nNergis Han\u0131m solu\u011fu kesilene, bacaklar\u0131 tutulana kadar dola\u015ft\u0131. Bah\u00e7esinde g\u00fcller, fesle\u011fenler olan tek katl\u0131 evini ar\u0131yor bulam\u0131yordu. Etraf\u0131 dev gibi binalar doldurmu\u015ftu. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor kendi kendine s\u00f6yleniyordu. \u00c7antam\u0131 ruj i\u00e7in ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorum sanki. Baban yakalayacak g\u00f6receksin. Yan\u0131ndan gelip ge\u00e7enlerin onunla ilgilenecek zamanlar\u0131 yoktu. Herkes bir yere yeti\u015fme derdinde ko\u015fturuyordu. Kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n aras\u0131ndan buldu\u011fu bo\u015flu\u011fa kayd\u0131. Arkas\u0131ndan birinin yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, elini omzuna at\u0131ncaya kadar fark etmedi. \u201cNergis teyze, ne ar\u0131yorsun burada?\u201d Geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc.
\n\u201cEve gidiyorum,\u201d derken yabanc\u0131 biriyle konu\u015fuyormu\u015f gibi bakt\u0131.
\n\u201cAh ah. Yine ila\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 almad\u0131n de\u011fil mi? Dur bakay\u0131m yeni bant yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131n m\u0131?\u201d S\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc kontrol etti.
\n\u201cSeni tan\u0131d\u0131m, \u00e7antam\u0131 ne yapt\u0131n, be\u015f paras\u0131z kald\u0131m.\u201d
\n\u201cYap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, ne \u00e7antas\u0131, u\u00e7mu\u015fsun yine hadi gel hastaneye girelim.\u201d
\nAkl\u0131 iyiden iyiye kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, Hastanenin yan\u0131na ne zaman ni\u00e7in gelmi\u015fti bilemiyordu.
\n\u201cSen hem\u015firesin. Ay\u015fe\u2019nin k\u0131z\u0131.\u201d
\n\u201cAy\u015fe de\u011fil H\u00fclya\u2019n\u0131n. Neyse, doktor g\u00f6rs\u00fcn, sonra eve gideriz olur mu?\u201d
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\nGen\u00e7 adam ikinci kurabiyeyi \u0131s\u0131r\u0131rken telefonu \u00e7almaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Annesi g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc ar\u0131yordu. Kameray\u0131 \u00f6nce kurabiyelere sonra y\u00fcz\u00fcne tuttu.
\n\u201cAnneannem evde yok ama haz\u0131rl\u0131klar tam, anahtar\u0131 kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f.\u201d
\n\u201cSak\u0131n o gelmeden gitme.\u201d
\n\u201cBir saate arkada\u015flar\u0131n yan\u0131nda olmam laz\u0131m, gelir herhalde, olmad\u0131 not yazar masaya b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m.\u201d
\n\u201cArkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yeni g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun sanki.\u201d
\n\u201cBilmiyormu\u015f gibi konu\u015fma anne, Clarice var orda. \u00c7akallar sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r etraf\u0131n\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn burada bekleyemem.\u201d
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\nHastanede Nergis Han\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fckselen tansiyonu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc Alzheimer bantlar\u0131 yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Zihnindeki sis da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f alg\u0131lar\u0131 normale d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u201cEvden \u00e7\u0131karken para almam\u0131\u015f\u0131m,\u201d dedi mahcup bir tonla. \u201cNe kadar harcad\u0131ysan gidince veririm k\u0131z\u0131m.\u201d
\n\u201cHallederiz, \u015fimdi bir an \u00f6nce \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131m. Bu kadar hastane yeter. Yar\u0131n sabah yine buraday\u0131m.\u201d
\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk gibiydi. Her atakta beyin h\u00fccrelerinin bir k\u0131sm\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcyor demi\u015fti doktor. Bu kadar yak\u0131nd\u0131 demek. \u0130mk\u00e2ns\u0131z oldu\u011funu bile bile, akl\u0131 onu tamamen terk etmeden, k\u0131z\u0131yla torunuyla birlikte ya\u015famay\u0131 diledi. Belki mucize olur buraya yerle\u015fmeye karar verirlerdi, kim bilir? K\u0131z\u0131n koluna girdi eve gitmek \u00fczere yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131lar. Yolun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7ip minib\u00fcse bindiler. Y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek bir hayli yol kat etmi\u015fti. Bakkal\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne gelince, inmek i\u00e7in s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcye seslendi. Minib\u00fcs ani bir frenle durdu, kap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 k\u0131z kolundan yakalamasa kald\u0131r\u0131ma yap\u0131\u015facakt\u0131
\n\u201cNi\u00e7in erken indin. Dikkat etsene d\u00fc\u015fecektin az kals\u0131n.\u201d
\n\u201cLimonlu gazoz alaca\u011f\u0131m bakkaldan, Bu g\u00fcn \u00d6zer gelecek, \u00e7ok sever.\u201d K\u0131z yine akl\u0131n\u0131n gitti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ama ses \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131. \u00d6zer ad\u0131n\u0131 duymu\u015ftu annesiyle Kanada\u2019da ya\u015f\u0131yordu.
\n\u201cParan yoktu, dur ben vereyim,\u201d dedi, \u00e7antas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bozukluklar\u0131 uzat\u0131rken.
\n\u201c\u00d6d\u00fcn\u00e7 al\u0131yorum. Hepsi ne tuttuysa annene s\u00f6yle.\u201d \u0130yi en az\u0131ndan akl\u0131 yerindeydi.
\n\u201c Nergis teyzecim bor\u00e7 tamam, s\u00f6ylerim merak etme.\u201d
\nEvin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldiler, demir kap\u0131 i\u00e7e do\u011fru a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Soluk benizli bir delikanl\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131dan gelenleri g\u00f6r\u00fcnce duraksad\u0131. Nergis Han\u0131ma bakt\u0131, bir elinde gazoz \u015fi\u015fesi kollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f bekliyordu. Ona do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. \u201cAnneanne, nerde kald\u0131n, az daha g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femeyecektik,\u201d diyerek kucaklad\u0131. Heyecandan a\u011flamaya ba\u015flayan Nergis Han\u0131m, elindeki \u015fi\u015feyi uzatt\u0131, \u201cBak limonlu gazoz ald\u0131m, \u00e7ok severdin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken.\u201d
\nB\u00f6yle ayak\u00fcst\u00fc konu\u015fup ayr\u0131lmak do\u011fru olmazd\u0131, ama Clarice\u2019in yan\u0131nda olmak da istiyordu. K\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcne tuz biber ekti. \u201cNergis teyze bu gazozu alabilmek i\u00e7in t\u00fcm \u015fehri dola\u015ft\u0131, haberiniz olsun,\u201d deyip yanlar\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131. Nergis Han\u0131m, torununun koluna girdi, rahmetli dedesine ne \u00e7ok benziyordu. \u201cHadi evimize gidelim, sana en sevdi\u011fin kurabiyelerden pi\u015firdim.\u201d dedi. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131mlar\u0131na e\u015flik etmeliydi \u00d6zer. Bir zamanlar onun yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi. Anahtar hala kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeydi, i\u00e7eri girdiler. \u00d6nce mutfa\u011fa ge\u00e7tiler, kurabiyeleri yeni g\u00f6r\u00fcyormu\u015f gibi sevinerek seslendi, \u201cAnneanne bunlar harika olmu\u015f, ne \u00e7ok yapm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n.\u201d
\n\u201cOlsun giderken g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn artan\u0131. Beslenme \u00e7antana fazladan birka\u00e7 tane kor arkada\u015flar\u0131na da ver derdim okula giderken, k\u0131yamaz, geri getirirdin.\u201d
\n\u201cPintiymi\u015fim baya. Bitmesinden korktu\u011fum i\u00e7indir belki de,\u201d derken onu b\u00f6yle b\u0131rakamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, Clarise\u2019e haber vermeliydi. Telefonu eline ald\u0131 ara butonuna bast\u0131, d\u0131\u015f kap\u0131 z\u0131r z\u0131r \u00f6tmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir eli kula\u011f\u0131ndaki telefonda kap\u0131ya y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc, g\u00f6zetleme deli\u011finden bakt\u0131. Clarice, \u00e7antas\u0131nda \u00e7alan telefonu \u00e7\u0131karmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Ona buran\u0131n adresini verdi\u011fini hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131, soran g\u00f6zlerle bakt\u0131. Clarice, \u201cS\u00f6ylemem, annene s\u00f6z verdim,\u201d diyerek anneanneye do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.
\nHeyecan\u0131n bu kadar\u0131n\u0131 ila\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fken bile kald\u0131ramazd\u0131 Nergis Han\u0131m. Clarice\u2019i i\u00e7tenlikle kucaklarken, \u201cBak Yasemin bir daha \u00e7antam\u0131 alma, hem nerdesin, sabahtan beri seni ar\u0131yorum,\u201d dedi. \u201c\u00d6yle habersiz \u00e7ekip gitme, peri\u015fan kurabiye yapt\u0131m, yan\u0131na bir \u00e7ay demleyiver, baban da gelir birazdan, hep beraber yiyelim.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Seher vakti uzad\u0131k\u00e7a uzuyordu. Yorgan\u0131n bir ucunu kolunun aras\u0131na \u00f6b\u00fcr ucunu s\u0131zlayan omzuna \u00e7ekti. G\u00f6zlerini kapat\u0131p uykuya dalmay\u0131 umdu, ama bo\u015funa. Yast\u0131\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 iteledi yorganla beraber \u00fcst\u00fcne kay\u0131p g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kovu\u015funu izlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Aynada \u00f6nce kara bir g\u00f6lge, sonra silik bir \u015fekil olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fc kendini. Mart\u0131lar\u0131n hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 o sabah\u0131 \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[33],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-27669","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kumbet"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27669","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=27669"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27669\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":27685,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/27669\/revisions\/27685"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=27669"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=27669"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=27669"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}