{"id":28085,"date":"2018-08-24T03:00:38","date_gmt":"2018-08-23T23:00:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28085"},"modified":"2018-08-24T10:00:37","modified_gmt":"2018-08-24T06:00:37","slug":"xalq-sairi-b%c9%99xtiyar-vahabzad%c9%99-secm%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28085","title":{"rendered":"Xalq \u015fairi B\u0259xtiyar VAHABZAD\u018f.Se\u00e7m\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u0130Y\u0130RM\u0130 BE\u015e \u0130L
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr yolda\u015f\u0131ma<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil d\u00fcn\u0259ndir Sabir ba\u011f\u0131nda
\n\u00c7\u0131xd\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ma a\u011f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k kimi.
\nEl\u0259 bil d\u00fcn\u0259ndir, a\u011f paltar\u0131nda
\nQondun evimiz\u0259 k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k kimi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 tez ba\u015fa g\u0259ldi iyirmi be\u015f il?
\nBalalar yeti\u015fir, qocal\u0131r\u0131q biz.
\nN\u0259l\u0259ri itirdik – qay\u0131dan deyil,
\nG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, n\u0259 imi\u015f b\u0259s qazanc\u0131m\u0131z?<\/p>\n

S\u00f6nm\u0259mi\u015f k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn odu, h\u0259v\u0259si,
\nBalalar s\u0259sl\u0259nir: “B\u0259sindir dayan!”
\nO\u011flumuz toy umur, bizim toy s\u0259si
\nH\u0259l\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fk\u0259n qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan.<\/p>\n

Bu nec\u0259 d\u00fcnyad\u0131r? Yolu bir qar\u0131\u015f,
\nAy\u0131ra bilmirs\u0259n \u00e7oxunu azdan…
\nH\u0259zzind\u0259n, z\u00f6vq\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 doymam\u0131\u015f
\n\u00c7\u0259kirl\u0259r s\u00fcfr\u0259ni qaba\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan.<\/p>\n

Bu nec\u0259 d\u00fcnyad\u0131r anlam\u0131ram m\u0259n,
\nN\u0259 g\u0259li\u015f b\u0259llidir, n\u0259 gedi\u015f biz\u0259.
\nX\u0259b\u0259rimiz olmur g\u0259li\u015fimizd\u0259n,
\n\u0130nana bilmirik getm\u0259yimiz\u0259.<\/p>\n

Vurduq bir zindana iyirmi be\u015f il,
\n\u00d6td\u00fc g\u00fcnl\u0259rimiz a\u011fl\u0131-qaral\u0131.
\nS\u0259nin duy\u011fular\u0131n – bir n\u0259\u011fm\u0259li g\u00f6l,
\nM\u0259nim duy\u011fular\u0131m min mac\u0259ral\u0131…<\/p>\n

S\u0259n n\u0259 dal\u011faland\u0131n, n\u0259 \u00e7alxaland\u0131n,
\nHaldan-hala d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm m\u0259n h\u0259r d\u0259m, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni bir d\u0259f\u0259 sevib dayand\u0131n,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni h\u0259r r\u0259ngd\u0259 sevir\u0259m, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Da\u015f atd\u0131m,
\n\u018flimd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 bir xata.
\nBulana-bulana yen\u0259 duruldun.
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni duymad\u0131nsa da,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u0259, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u0259 havadar oldun.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yuvam\u0131za, d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc qan-qada,
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7axd\u0131.
\nS\u0259simiz, n\u0259\u011fm\u0259miz bir olmasa da,
\nSuyumuz, selimiz bir arxdan axd\u0131.
\nAta oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259l\u0259md\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yi m\u0259n\u0259ms\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u0259ns\u0259n.
\nBa\u015fmda \u00e7al-\u00e7arpaz ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7axan
\n\u0130sti yuvam\u0131z\u0131n dir\u0259yi s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim x\u0259yallar\u0131m u\u00e7du havada
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n endir\u0259n oldun.
\nBizim qurdu\u011fumuz isti yuvada
\nF\u0259hl\u0259 m\u0259n oldumsa, usta s\u0259n oldun.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 ki, b\u0259xtimin g\u00f6z\u00fc yumuldu,
\nYoluma nur sa\u00e7an \u00e7il\u00e7\u0131raq oldun.
\nM\u0259nim n\u0259\u015f\u0259l\u0259rim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn oldu,
\nAncaq d\u0259rdl\u0259rim\u0259 s\u0259n ortaq oldun.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131ma dolanan d\u0259rd-s\u0259rimin
\nOdunu q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259n oldun.
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n gileyl\u0259n\u0259n \u015feirl\u0259rimin,
\nSahibi m\u0259n oldum, qulu s\u0259n oldun.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131b yax\u0131landa \u015feirim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n,
\nS\u0259n el\u0259 bildin ki, gizli q\u0259mim var.
\nAyr\u0131la bilm\u0259din \u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259n
\nBilm\u0259din, m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00f6z al\u0259mim var.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fcm, aynas\u0131d\u0131r \u00fcz\u00fcm, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn,
\nM\u0259ni \u0259ld\u0259n sald\u0131 axtar\u0131\u015flar\u0131m.
\n\u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259ks etdi m\u0259nim g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcmd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan s\u0259rt q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Fikrim d\u0259r\u0259 ke\u00e7di, t\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r a\u015fd\u0131,
\nArd\u0131mca bir add\u0131m g\u0259lm\u0259din ancaq.
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni dindirdin,
\nDilim dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u015eerimi dindir\u0259 bilm\u0259din ancaq.
\n\u00d6td\u00fcy\u00fcn mahn\u0131n\u0131 bir yol \u00e7a\u015fmad\u0131n
\nM\u0259n \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131m…
\nD\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n boyland\u0131m da\u011fa.
\n\u00d6z k\u00f6n\u00fcl mahn\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259n \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmad\u0131n,
\nM\u0259nim iniltim\u0259 uyu\u015fdurma\u011fa…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil d\u00fcn\u0259ndir, Sabir ba\u011f\u0131nda
\n\u00c7\u0131xd\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ma a\u011f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k kimi.
\nEl\u0259 bil d\u00fcn\u0259ndir, a\u011f paltar\u0131nda
\nQondun evimiz\u0259 k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k kimi.<\/p>\n

Aradan n\u0259 ke\u00e7di? \u0130yirmi be\u015f ild\u0259
\nQara sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131zda a\u011fard\u0131 ill\u0259r!
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 ist\u0259yimiz qald\u0131 k\u00f6n\u00fcld\u0259,
\nQalan n\u0259 vard\u0131sa, apard\u0131 ill\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi x\u0259yal yor\u011fun, k\u00f6n\u00fcl \u015fik\u0259st\u0259…
\nG\u0259ncliyi dadmam\u0131\u015f qocal\u0131r\u0131q biz.
\n\u00d6vlad qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131nda, bir murad \u00fcstd\u0259
\nBirl\u0259\u015fir uyu\u015fmaz n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rimiz.<\/p>\n

Eyni y\u00fck alt\u0131nda ne\u00e7\u0259 yoxu\u015fu,
\nArzumuz, q\u0259sdimiz birg\u0259 a\u015f\u0131bd\u0131r.
\n\u00d6zg\u0259 budaqlar\u0131n iki yad qu\u015fu
\n\u0130ndi bir budaqda do\u011fmala\u015f\u0131bd\u0131r.
\nBuda\u011f\u0131n e\u015fqin\u0259 darda, \u00e7\u0259tind\u0259
\nN\u0259f\u0259sin k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259 qol-qanad vermi\u015f.
\nZaman \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin d\u0259
\n\u0130lk r\u0259ngi, ilk dad\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fil\u0259rmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Dem\u0259 qocalm\u0131san, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, do\u011frusu
\nM\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn bir az da sonala\u015fm\u0131san.
\nBalam\u0131n anas\u0131, n\u0259 sirrdir bu?
\n\u0130ndi m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 anala\u015fm\u0131san.<\/p>\n

Dekabr, 1974<\/p>\n

\u0130NSAN – G\u00d6YD\u018f AY K\u0130M\u0130D\u0130R<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259m\u0259nlikd\u0259 g\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin
\nSa\u011f-solunda \u0259l\u0259fi var.
\nD\u00fcnyada h\u0259r b\u0259db\u0259xtliyin
\nH\u0259m z\u0259r\u0259ri, h\u0259m n\u0259fi var.<\/p>\n

Vaxt hakiml\u0259r hakimidir,
\nH\u0259yat, vark\u0259n yox kimidir.
\nYaydan \u00e7\u0131xan ox kimidir,
\nH\u0259r \u00f6mr\u00fcn \u00f6z h\u0259d\u0259fi var.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259dir s\u00f6z\u00fcn k\u00f6k\u00fc,
\nAy\u0131ra bil t\u00fckd\u0259n t\u00fck\u00fc,
\n\u00c7ox a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r amal y\u00fck\u00fc,
\n\u00c7\u0259k\u0259 bils\u0259n \u015f\u0259r\u0259fi var.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259k fikrin tilsimidir,
\nH\u0259r qat\u0131 bir lay kimidir.
\n\u0130nsan – g\u00f6yd\u0259 Ay kimidir,
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fi var.<\/p>\n

\u0130yun, 1978<\/p>\n

G\u018fL\u0130R<\/p>\n

Tar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f sim\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259 s\u0259n,
\nTitr\u0259, bir yarpa\u011f\u0131n titr\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n.
\nBil, d\u0259nizd\u0259 co\u015fan suyun s\u0259sind\u0259n
\nX\u0259zri g\u0259lir, yoxsa gilavar g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

Bir az s\u0131xna\u015fanda g\u00f6yd\u0259 buludlar,
\nYava\u015fca titr\u0259\u015fir yerd\u0259 g\u00f6y otlar,
\nOnlar da bilir ki, havada \u00e7\u0259n var,
\nSabah ya\u011f\u0131\u015f g\u0259lir, sabah qar g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 m\u00fcy\u0259ss\u0259r deyildir ancaq
\n\u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni g\u00f6zd\u0259n oxumaq.
\nQaranqu\u015fdan qabaq, torpaqdan qabaq
\nG\u0259r\u0259k bil\u0259s\u0259n ki, ilk bahar g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbim g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259yir b\u0259ri-b\u0259z\u0259yi,
\n\u00c7\u0259tindir yamamaq s\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yi.
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn d\u0259rk ed\u0259s\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259r \u015feyi,
\nS\u0259ni ba\u015fa salmaq m\u0259n\u0259 ar g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131\u015fdan s\u00f6z g\u00f6t\u00fcr, s\u00f6z anla s\u00f6zd\u0259n,
\nH\u0259ssas ol, sevgilim, \u00f6mr\u00fcn boyu s\u0259n.
\n\u018fg\u0259r sevirs\u0259ns\u0259, ayaq s\u0259simd\u0259n
\nG\u0259r\u0259k bil\u0259s\u0259n ki, B\u0259xtiyar g\u0259lir!<\/p>\n

B\u0130R SALAMA D\u018fYM\u018fD\u0130<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259n s\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,
\nSalam verm\u0259k ist\u0259dim,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana tutdun.
\nS\u00f6yl\u0259, ill\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259ri
\nQ\u0259lbimizin bir duyub
\nbir vurdu\u011fu ill\u0259ri,
\nAx\u0131, n\u0259 tez unutdun?
\nBe\u015f ild\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n axan o qanl\u0131 sell\u0259r,
\nBir salama d\u0259ym\u0259di?
\nH\u0259y\u0259canla, f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259, q\u0259ml\u0259 dolu o ill\u0259r
\nBir salama d\u0259ym\u0259di?
\nHe\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxmadan yan\u0131mdan nec\u0259 ke\u00e7din?
\nS\u0259n e\u015fqin salam\u0131n\u0131 qorxuyam\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdin?
\nYoxsa s\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259hdin\u0259, ilqar\u0131na a\u011f oldun?
\nO q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n ik\u0259n, bu q\u0259d\u0259r uzaq oldun.
\n\u015eirin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rimiz, ac\u0131 f\u0259\u011fanlar\u0131m\u0131z
\nBir salama d\u0259ym\u0259di?
\nQay\u011f\u0131l\u0131 anlar\u0131m\u0131z, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z anlar\u0131m\u0131z
\nBir salama d\u0259ym\u0259di?
\nS\u0259n neyl\u0259din, bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn!
\nYaln\u0131z indi anlad\u0131m: ah, s\u0259n daha m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn
\n\u018fl\u00e7atmaz bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259ks\u0259n,
\nYa\u015fanm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rim t\u0259k geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n!…
\nQop, ey tufan, \u0259s, ey yel! X\u0259z\u0259l olum, t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcm
\nD\u00fcz be\u015f il \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259
\nB\u0259sl\u0259diyim m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, bir salama d\u0259ym\u0259di.
\nBir g\u00fcnl\u00fck h\u0259sr\u0259tim\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nB\u0259s n\u0259 oldu?
\nBu h\u0259sr\u0259t bir salama d\u0259ym\u0259di?
\nGetdin, dal\u0131nca baxd\u0131m, can ayr\u0131ld\u0131 can\u0131mdan,
\nS\u0259n nec\u0259 etinas\u0131z \u00f6t\u0259 bildin yan\u0131mdan,
\nAh \u00e7\u0259kdim, ba\u015f\u0131m \u00fcst\u0259 yarpaqlar \u0259sdi, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nS\u0259nin q\u0259lbin \u0259sm\u0259di.
\nArxana da baxmad\u0131n!
\nNiy\u0259 s\u0259nin yolunu m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin k\u0259sm\u0259di?…
\nQazanc\u0131m\u0131z de, bumu?
\nDeyilm\u0259mi\u015f o salam \u0259lvidam\u0131z oldumu?
\nS\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 z\u00fclm eyl\u0259din, m\u0259n\u0259 z\u00fclm yara\u015f\u0131r.
\nBir salama d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259n e\u015fq\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm yara\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Sentyabr 1961<\/p>\n

\u018fSAR\u018fT-AZADLIQ<\/p>\n

\u018fsar\u0259t odunda bi\u015fdi n\u0259slimiz,
\nAzadl\u0131q e\u015fqin\u0259 yand\u0131q, yax\u0131ld\u0131q.
\n\u00c7at\u0131b azadl\u0131\u011fa, bu m\u0259b\u0259dd\u0259 biz,
\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr namaz\u0131n\u0131 qibl\u0259siz q\u0131ld\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi biz azad\u0131q, bizi bir zaman,
\n\u015eeytandan qoruyan ab\u0131r-h\u0259yadan.
\nAzad\u0131q d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bd\u0259n, kind\u0259n,
\nMill\u0259t h\u0259d\u0259f olub \u00f6z nifr\u0259tin\u0259.
\nQurtar\u0131b \u00f6zg\u0259nin \u0259sar\u0259tind\u0259n
\nD\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn \u0259sar\u0259tin\u0259.<\/p>\n

Azadl\u0131q r\u0259hmd\u0259n, insafdan da biz,
\nMill\u0259tin haqq\u0131ya \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz olduq.
\nAna yurdumuzun qans\u0131z, r\u0259hmsiz,
\nQ\u0259ddar talan\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz olduq.<\/p>\n

Yoxdur \u0259v\u0259zimiz yalan\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qda,
\nBu ona \u015f\u0259r at\u0131r, o, buna b\u00f6htan.
\nYurdu da\u011f\u0131tmaqda, talan\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qda,
\nAzadl\u0131q qorxudan, Allah xofundan.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259nimdir,
\nBu gizli oyundan ba\u015f a\u00e7m\u0131r f\u0259l\u0259k.
\nM\u0259ni kor quyudan \u00e7\u0131xaran k\u0259ndir,
\n\u0130ndi bo\u011faz\u0131ma ke\u00e7ib halqa t\u0259k\u2026<\/p>\n

17 avqust, 1996.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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