{"id":28361,"date":"2018-09-03T16:00:54","date_gmt":"2018-09-03T12:00:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28361"},"modified":"2018-09-03T16:12:40","modified_gmt":"2018-09-03T12:12:40","slug":"ulku-tasliova-ir-ikindi-manzarasi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28361","title":{"rendered":"\u00dclk\u00fc TA\u015eLIOVA.”\u0130R \u0130K\u0130ND\u0130 MANZARASI”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Yorgun ikindi, t\u00fcrkuaz g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n haberini veriyor. K\u0131z\u0131l ufkun kararmas\u0131na bir kar\u0131\u015f kala i\u00e7ime tarifsiz efk\u00e2r \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcyor. G\u00f6z\u00fcmdeyse hapsolmu\u015f damlalar\u2026
\nKehribar sar\u0131s\u0131 mevsimde bir \u015femsin daha zevalini seyretmekteyim. Pencerelerdeki \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 yans\u0131mas\u0131 \u015fehri \u015fiir rengine boyuyor. Benimse isimsiz h\u00fcz\u00fcnlerim g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde yol al\u0131yor. Onca c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f onca ahenk ne haldesin demeden kendi demini ya\u015f\u0131yor. Lal olmu\u015f duygular, pak niyetle ahraza g\u00f6n\u00fcl koyuyor.
\nBir zamanlar dal\u0131nda ma\u011frur sal\u0131nan yaprak \u015fimdi yitik kald\u0131r\u0131mlarda s\u00fcr\u00fcnmekte\u2026 Bir dilenci y\u0131rt\u0131k ayakkab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla savuruyor onu o yana, bu yana. Ne kadar derin mana y\u00fckl\u00fc manzara. A\u011fa\u00e7lar ise \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak. Bu g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn kirini \u015fimdi kim temizleyecek?
\nY\u0131rt\u0131k giysiler i\u00e7indeki mendil satan k\u0131z masum oldu\u011fu kadar da ars\u0131z. \u00c7i\u011f sesiyle uyand\u0131r\u0131yor beni d\u00fc\u015flerimden. \u201cAllah r\u0131zas\u0131 i\u00e7in bir mendil al abla.\u201d diyor yalvarmaya al\u0131\u015fk\u0131n diliyle. Al\u0131yorum bir paket, c\u00fczdan\u0131mdaki b\u00fct\u00fcn bozukluklar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcyorum avucuna. Koyu ye\u015fil g\u00f6zleri mutluluktan ay kadar b\u00fcy\u00fcyor. K\u0131z\u0131yorum i\u00e7imden \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f kuru\u015f i\u00e7in \u00e7ocuktaki insan masumiyetini kirletenlere.
\nHafif\u00e7e esen r\u00fczg\u00e2r gazel ya\u011fmuruna sebep oluyor. U\u00e7u\u015fan kuru yapraklar h\u00fcz\u00fcn olup sar\u0131yor y\u00fcre\u011fimi. Ruhumdaki yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dizlerimin takat\u0131n\u0131 kesiyor bir an. Yol kenar\u0131ndaki so\u011fuk banka ili\u015fiyorum isteksizce. \u00d6ylesine mendil satan k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011funa dal\u0131yor g\u00f6zlerim. Ko\u015fuyor arabalar\u0131n yan\u0131na, elindekini uzat\u0131yor \u201cal\u0131n\u201d diye. Kimse ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmiyor. Boynu b\u00fck\u00fck oturuyor kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015f\u0131na. Bir sonraki trafik \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131nda duracak arabalar\u0131 beklemeye koyuluyor. Hali mutedil.
\nBuru\u015fuk market po\u015fetinin i\u00e7indeki mendillere bak\u0131yor. \u201cBirka\u00e7 tane kalm\u0131\u015f.\u201d diyor. Po\u015fetini yan\u0131na koyarak, bo\u015f g\u00f6zlerle gelip gidenleri seyre koyuluyor. Kimselere \u201cBir mendil al\u0131n.\u201d demiyor. Yorulmu\u015f besbelli. Elektrik tellerinde istirahate \u00e7ekilen ser\u00e7eler gibi b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015ferek etraf\u0131na bak\u0131n\u0131yor. O ser\u00e7eyi \u00fcrk\u00fctmeden seyrine dal\u0131yorum. R\u00fczg\u00e2rda da\u011f\u0131lan ke\u00e7ele\u015fmi\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltiyor. Sonra hafif dikeliyor, sanki en pahal\u0131 kuaf\u00f6rden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na kendini be\u011feniyor. Mest oluyorum tavr\u0131na. Galiba \u00e7ok g\u00fczel oldu\u011funu biliyor. \u0130\u00e7imden \u201cZaten b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7ocuklar g\u00fczeldir. Seni bu hale getiren sebepler ve ki\u015filer \u00e7irkin melek k\u0131z. \u015eimdiden s\u0131rt\u0131nda onca y\u00fck\u00fcn var. Ak\u015fam eve gidince seni s\u0131cak \u00e7orba m\u0131 bekliyor sanki. Belki bir s\u00fcr\u00fc i\u015f yapacaks\u0131n, ya da paran\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 vereceksin.\u201d diyorum. Onu seyrettik\u00e7e kendime geliyorum. \u0130\u00e7imdeki gizli h\u00fczn\u00fcmden s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131yorum. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ona bakt\u0131k\u00e7a akl\u0131mdan s\u0131ra s\u0131ra hayaller ge\u00e7iyor. Bazen akl\u0131mda hik\u00e2ye kurguluyorum, bazen de gidip onunla konu\u015fma iste\u011fi duyuyorum. Sonra vazge\u00e7erek sadece seyrediyorum.
\nBeyaz l\u00fcks bir araba yana\u015f\u0131yor kald\u0131r\u0131ma yak\u0131n. Tam k\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne. Mendil po\u015fetini alarak aya\u011fa kalk\u0131yor. Merakl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerle ben onu, o arabadan inen s\u00fcsl\u00fc han\u0131m\u0131 izliyor. Topuklu ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131yla uyumlu \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 omuzuna as\u0131nca, k\u0131z da po\u015fetini koluna ge\u00e7irerek s\u00fcsl\u00fc han\u0131m\u0131 taklit etmeye koyuluyor. Dola\u015f\u0131k ke\u00e7e sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n tokas\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131yor, galiba onunki gibi savrulsun istiyor sa\u00e7lar\u0131. Savrulmuyor.
\nSonra taklit oyununu bitirerek tekrar kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015f\u0131na oturuyor. S\u00fcsl\u00fc han\u0131m\u0131n parlak b\u00fcy\u00fck telefonla u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 seyrediyor. Arabas\u0131n\u0131n bagaj\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7arak orada bekleyen s\u00fcsl\u00fc han\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na giderek ayakta dikiliyor. Birka\u00e7 saniye onun y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131ktan sonra, \u201cBenim annem daha g\u00fczel.\u201d diye hayk\u0131r\u0131yor. O an i\u00e7inden neler ge\u00e7ti bilmiyorum ama ben ve s\u00fcsl\u00fc han\u0131m, \u015fefkatli bak\u0131\u015flarla onun o g\u00fczel ye\u015fil g\u00f6zlerine dal\u0131yoruz. Merhametli ses tonuyla, \u201cTabi ki senin annen daha g\u00fczel.\u201d diyor kad\u0131n. Gururlan\u0131yor k\u0131z.
\nKo\u015farak gelen erkek \u00e7ocuk s\u0131rt\u0131ndaki okul \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 araban\u0131n bagaj\u0131na koyuyor. Mendil satan k\u0131z anl\u0131yor s\u00fcsl\u00fc han\u0131m\u0131n o\u011flunu almak i\u00e7in orada durdu\u011funu. Sonra vedas\u0131z \u00e7ekip giden l\u00fcks araban\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan bak\u0131yor k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre.
\nBizim g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcze d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc g\u00fclden bir tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn fark\u0131nda olmadan da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tekrar toplayarak trafi\u011fin aras\u0131na dal\u0131yor mendil satmak i\u00e7in. \u201cBir tane al\u0131r m\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d Sesi araba kornalar\u0131nda kaybolup gidiyor.
\nOnun ard\u0131ndan bakakal\u0131yorum. Ak\u015fam\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ikindinin \u00fczerine sindi\u011finde \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc fark ediyorum. Sessizce, \u201cHadi kalk\u201d diyorum kendime \u201cKelebek \u00f6mr\u00fc kadar olan bu hayatta yapacak i\u015flerin var. \u0130kindi, gazel ve k\u0131z bug\u00fcnk\u00fc dersin olsun. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcnde kaybolan kalbinin sesini dinle ki huzurun mirac\u0131na yol alas\u0131n. Hat\u0131rla ki sende bir \u00f6mr\u00fcn ikindisindesin.\u201d Birbirine kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f duygular\u0131mla evimin yoluna d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum dalg\u0131n ve suskun. 09.12.2016\/ANKARA<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Yorgun ikindi, t\u00fcrkuaz g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n haberini veriyor. K\u0131z\u0131l ufkun kararmas\u0131na bir kar\u0131\u015f kala i\u00e7ime tarifsiz efk\u00e2r \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcyor. G\u00f6z\u00fcmdeyse hapsolmu\u015f damlalar\u2026 Kehribar sar\u0131s\u0131 mevsimde bir \u015femsin daha zevalini seyretmekteyim. Pencerelerdeki \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 yans\u0131mas\u0131 \u015fehri \u015fiir rengine boyuyor. Benimse isimsiz h\u00fcz\u00fcnlerim g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde yol al\u0131yor. Onca c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f onca ahenk ne haldesin demeden kendi demini ya\u015f\u0131yor. Lal olmu\u015f duygular, pak […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[33],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28361","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kumbet"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28361","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=28361"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28361\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28374,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28361\/revisions\/28374"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=28361"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=28361"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=28361"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}