{"id":28435,"date":"2018-09-06T03:00:58","date_gmt":"2018-09-05T23:00:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28435"},"modified":"2018-09-06T08:50:25","modified_gmt":"2018-09-06T04:50:25","slug":"ilah%c9%99-imanova-tutuqusu-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28435","title":{"rendered":"\u0130lah\u0259 \u0130MANOVA.”Tutuqu\u015fu” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Atam\u0131n \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f ucunda oturub \u0259lini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m an m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, bir daha he\u00e7 vaxt onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim ya\u015fla dolub bo\u015fal\u0131rd\u0131. Eyni sual\u0131 tez-tez anama v\u0259 tibb bac\u0131lar\u0131na t\u0259krar verirdim:
\n\u2500Atam sa\u011falacaq? B\u0259s n\u0259 vaxt g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7acaq?B\u0259s niy\u0259 ay\u0131lm\u0131r?
\nH\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 eyni cavab\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131m:
\n\u2500Dar\u0131xma, sa\u011falacaq.
\n Anam h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 v\u0259 narahat g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 donub qalm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, bacarm\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131, m\u0259n daha u\u015faq deyildim. Yeddinci sinif \u015fagirdi idim. Atam\u0131n dili il\u0259 des\u0259k, daha b\u00f6y\u00fck ki\u015fi idim. Odur ki, h\u0259kiml\u0259rl\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015fan anam\u0131n g\u0259rgin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n atam\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ciddi oldu\u011funu anlay\u0131rd\u0131m.
\n\u2500Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni! Nolar, \u00f6lm\u0259! M\u0259n s\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m…
\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259kind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, bu d\u0259f\u0259 suallar\u0131m da, sevgim d\u0259 cavabs\u0131z idi. Ka\u015f ki birc\u0259 \u0259linin h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti il\u0259, ya da g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rpmaqla cavab ver\u0259ydi m\u0259n\u0259. Allah u\u015faqlar\u0131n s\u0259sini daha tez e\u015fidir, deyir babam. \u00c7arpay\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f ucunda \u0259ll\u0259rimi g\u00f6y\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b dua etdim:
\n\u2500Allah\u0131m, nolar, atam tez sa\u011fals\u0131n! S\u00f6z verir\u0259m, bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt onun s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmayacam!
\nH\u0259kiml\u0259r ota\u011fa daxil oldu\u011fu an anam \u0259limd\u0259n tutub m\u0259ni d\u0259hliz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n buda\u011f\u0131na qonub dimdiyini buda\u011fa s\u00fcrt\u00fcb aradabir \u0259trafa boylan\u0131b civild\u0259\u015f\u0259n s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini izl\u0259dikc\u0259 daha \u00e7ox \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Atam\u0131n bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 olmas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnahkar\u0131 m\u0259n idim. Bunu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yirdim. \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n… Ka\u015f ki onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dinl\u0259s\u0259ydim!<\/p>\n

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\n\u2500\u0130lqar, o\u011flum, burda niy\u0259 oturmusan? Niy\u0259 ev\u0259 getmirs\u0259n?
\nQon\u015fumuz Sevil xalan\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131mda g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 tez aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. Qeyri-ixtiyari \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimi \u00e7\u0259kdim. Sual\u0131na cavab verm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, sual\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259krar edinc\u0259 sakitc\u0259:
\n\u2500Anam evd\u0259 yoxdur. S\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259rs\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 a\u00e7ar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259yi unutmu\u015fam, -dedim.
\n \u018flind\u0259ki paketl\u0259ri oturdu\u011fum s\u0259kinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub bir anl\u0131q n\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rdi. T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131 dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rimd\u0259 hiss edinc\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m. N\u0259d\u0259n s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmir\u0259m, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n ucuna dikdim.
\n\u2500Qalx ged\u0259k biz\u0259! Anan g\u0259l\u0259r,ged\u0259rs\u0259n ev\u0259, -dedi.
\n\u2500Yox, harada olsa indi g\u0259l\u0259r. \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun, -dey\u0259r\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bulay\u0131b etiraz etdim.
\n\u0130\u00e7i meyv\u0259-t\u0259r\u0259v\u0259zl\u0259 dolu olan salafan paketl\u0259ri \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b getm\u0259k ist\u0259rk\u0259n q\u0259fil yuxudan oyanm\u0131\u015f kimi tez \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131m. K\u00f6m\u0259yim\u0259 n\u0259inki etiraz etm\u0259di, dey\u0259rdim ki,h\u0259tta raz\u0131 qald\u0131.
\nQap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda paketl\u0259ri yer\u0259 qoyub t\u0259l\u0259sik pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri endiyim an Sevil xalan\u0131n arxadan s\u0259sini e\u015fitdim.
\n\u2500D\u0259rsd\u0259n g\u0259lmis\u0259n, he\u00e7 olmasa bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259rdin! Yem\u0259yim d\u0259 istidir. Alt\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m el\u0259. Cavid d\u0259 indil\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, bir yerd\u0259 nahar ed\u0259rsiz.
\nH\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00e7ox mehriban, xo\u015f xasiyy\u0259tli, g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz qad\u0131n kimi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 Sevil xala anam\u0131n \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ox az qon\u015fulardan biri idi. Qon\u015fularla m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin\u0259 pis baxan v\u0259 az qala anam\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259sl\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kindir\u0259n atam bel\u0259, onun ad\u0131n\u0131 evd\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi. O\u011flu Cavidl\u0259 d\u0259 eyni m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyurduq. O m\u0259nd\u0259n iki sinif yuxar\u0131 oxuyurdu. Bundan \u0259lav\u0259 bir m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259nin u\u015faqlar\u0131 oldu\u011fumuz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn aram\u0131zda salam-sa\u011fol var idi. Bir yerd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r futbol oynay\u0131b, r\u0259qib qap\u0131s\u0131na o q\u0259d\u0259r top vurmu\u015fduq ki!
\nSevil xalan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha s\u0259kid\u0259 oturmad\u0131m. A\u011faclar\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 skamyaya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. \u00c7antam\u0131 da yan\u0131ma qoyub oturdum. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 anam\u0131n hara ged\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Ax\u0131, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bu saatlarda anam evd\u0259 olard\u0131.
\n\u018fs\u0259n soyuq meh t\u0259dric\u0259n can\u0131ma i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc hiss edib g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259min d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rini ba\u011flay\u0131b papa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130sti \u00e7ay indi lap yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdi. \u00dcst\u0259lik d\u0259 ac idim. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bo\u015f m\u0259d\u0259min s\u0259sini duyduqca Sevil xalan\u0131n t\u0259klifind\u0259n boyun qa\u00e7\u0131rtd\u0131\u011f\u0131ma, dey\u0259s\u0259n, pe\u015fman olurdum. S\u0259h\u0259r yat\u0131b qald\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan yem\u0259k yem\u0259d\u0259n evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. M\u0259kt\u0259bin bufetind\u0259n d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 n\u0259 al\u0131b yem\u0259zdim.
\nBir anl\u0131q n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rim Cavidgilin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259ldi. O, tez-tez \u0259trafa boylan\u0131r, sanki bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 kimis\u0259 axtar\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, indil\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259n qay\u0131tmal\u0131 olan o\u011flunun yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u201cB\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259ni axtar\u0131r, yaxud da anam\u0131n qay\u0131d\u0131b qay\u0131tmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 maraqlan\u0131r\u201d fikri beynimd\u0259n ke\u00e7di. M\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259min olsam da, yen\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00fcknar a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb oturdum. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bel\u0259c\u0259 oturdu\u011fumun f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyil\u0259m. Ka\u015f ki atam m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l telefonu i\u015fl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 icaz\u0259 ver\u0259ydi! Bax, indi anama z\u0259ng ed\u0259r, harada oldu\u011funu, n\u0259 vaxt qay\u0131daca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fard\u0131m he\u00e7 olmasa. Beynimd\u0259n min fikir ke\u00e7diyi vaxt kimins\u0259 \u0259lini sa\u011f \u00e7iynimd\u0259 hiss edib diksindim.
\n\u2500Dur! Dur ged\u0259k biz\u0259!
\nAya\u011fa qalx\u0131b \u00e7antam\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 sald\u0131m. Yalandan:
\n\u2500N\u0259n\u0259mgil\u0259 gedir\u0259m, \u2013dedim.
\nCavid qolumdan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b buraxmad\u0131.
\n\u2500Anam m\u0259ni s\u0259nin arxanca g\u00f6nd\u0259rib. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b ki, s\u0259ni ev\u0259 g\u0259tirim. Yoxsa m\u0259ni qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri qoymayacaq, \u2013deyib g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u2013Ged\u0259k, bir az yem\u0259k yey\u0259k, sonra m\u0259n haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011fa ged\u0259c\u0259m, s\u0259n d\u0259 hara ist\u0259s\u0259n ged\u0259rs\u0259n.
\n\u00d6zl\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259 anama \u201cHe\u00e7 vaxt u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 qap\u0131lara g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda qoyma!\u201d dey\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131ran atam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Bils\u0259, \u00e7ox g\u00fcman ki, anama da, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutacaqd\u0131. H\u0259r zaman q\u00fcrurlu olma\u011f\u0131, bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sl\u0259 \u00f6z hissl\u0259rimi b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259yi tap\u015f\u0131rard\u0131.
\nCavidin t\u0259l\u0259bkar s\u0259si v\u0259 israr\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bizi s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n anas\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 \u0259lacs\u0131z qal\u0131b arxas\u0131yca getdim.
\nQap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda Sevil xalan\u0131n g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz simas\u0131 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m yen\u0259.
\n\u2500Ke\u00e7, o\u011flum, ke\u00e7 i\u00e7\u0259ri. Xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n! Cavid, \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc yuyun, ke\u00e7in qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na.
\nM\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 qon\u015fusu v\u0259 dost olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131za baxmayaraq, he\u00e7 vaxt Cavidgild\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Divarlardan as\u0131lan r\u0259sml\u0259r v\u0259 gipsd\u0259n haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f m\u00fcxt\u0259lif fiqurlar d\u0259rhal diqq\u0259timi \u00e7\u0259kdi. Atas\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259ssam v\u0259 heyk\u0259ltara\u015f oldu\u011funu bils\u0259m d\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259l i\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. G\u00f6z\u0259l r\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131 atas\u0131ndan Cavid\u0259 d\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Bayram v\u0259 t\u0259dbirl\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bin stendl\u0259rini Cavid\u0259 haz\u0131rlatd\u0131rard\u0131lar.
\n\u2500Utan\u0131b s\u0131x\u0131lma, o\u011flum. Bax el\u0259 bil \u00f6z evindir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc rahat hiss et.
\nBiz i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259 haz\u0131r idi. Sevil xala \u0259n \u0259ziz qona\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131 el\u0259 bil. \u0130sti \u00e7aydan, \u015firniyyatdan tutmu\u015f, yem\u0259y\u0259, h\u0259tta meyv\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r do\u011fray\u0131b d\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259. Yarpaq dolmas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259trini h\u0259l\u0259 bayaq qap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda hiss etmi\u015fdim. \u018fn sevdiyim yem\u0259k idi.
\nCavid fincandak\u0131 isti \u00e7ay\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kib:
\n\u2500Soyutma! Bay\u0131rdan g\u0259lmis\u0259n, isti-isti i\u00e7,\u2013dedi.
\nD\u0259rsd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n v\u0259 haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011fa ged\u0259c\u0259k o\u011flundan daha \u00e7ox m\u0259nim qay\u011f\u0131ma qalan Sevil xalan\u0131n qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rliyi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda utan\u0131b s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m. Bu ya\u015fa kimi h\u0259tta qohumlar\u0131m\u0131n evind\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 bu q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00f6rm\u0259t g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Meyv\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r diliml\u0259yib qar\u015f\u0131ma qoymu\u015fdu. \u0130srarla bo\u015fqab\u0131mdak\u0131lar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 da yem\u0259yi m\u0259nd\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi. S\u0131x\u0131lmay\u0131m dey\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259ri oldu\u011funu b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirib bizi t\u0259k burax\u0131rd\u0131.
\nCavid m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259raras\u0131 futbol turnirind\u0259 birinci yer tutduqlar\u0131ndan h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 vaxt q\u0259fil qula\u011f\u0131ma civilti s\u0259sl\u0259ri g\u0259ldi. Qeyri-ixtiyari diqq\u0259tim yay\u0131nd\u0131. S\u0259sin haradan g\u0259ldiyini m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildim. Fikrimin yay\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n\u2500Balacalard\u0131. Bayaqdan sakit idil\u0259r. Yen\u0259 s\u0259s-s\u0259s\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r indi. \u2013He\u00e7 n\u0259 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. \u2013G\u0259l, g\u00f6st\u0259rim.
\nG\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 dolu olan aynab\u0259ndd\u0259 iri q\u0259f\u0259sin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 qu\u015flar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcm\u00fc gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259dim:
\n \u2500N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rdil\u0259r! Nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldil\u0259r! Bu b\u00fclb\u00fcll\u0259r ham\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259nindir?
\nCavid barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259f\u0259sin d\u0259mirl\u0259rin\u0259 toxunduraraq:
\n\u2500H\u0259,m\u0259nimdir, \u2013dedi,\u2013B\u00fclb\u00fcl deyil, tutuqu\u015fudurlar. H\u0259l\u0259 bax, g\u00f6r indi neyn\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.
\nMaraqla Cavidin h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini izl\u0259yirdim. Qablar\u0131na bir az d\u0259n v\u0259 su t\u00f6kd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra \u0259lini q\u0259f\u0259sin i\u00e7\u0259risin\u0259 sal\u0131b ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngli dal\u011fal\u0131 tutuqu\u015funu \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b ovcunda saxlad\u0131. Yum\u015faq t\u00fckl\u0259rini s\u0131\u011fallama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n\u2500Salam Ke\u015fa!
\n\u2500Salam Ke\u015fa! Salam. Salam. Salam Cavid. Cavid…
\nDan\u0131\u015fan tutuqu\u015fular haqq\u0131nda e\u015fitmi\u015fdim. Kitablarda oxuyub, televizorda da g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Amma he\u00e7 vaxt bu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131ndan, canl\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim.
\n\u2500Dan\u0131\u015fa da bilir? \u2013t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 verdiyim sual \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 yersiz g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.
\n\u2500H\u0259, o biril\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r. T\u0259kc\u0259 bu dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, \u2013dey\u0259r\u0259k Cavid tutuqu\u015funu ehtiyatla ovcuma qoydu.
\n\u2500Amma bunlar balacad\u0131. B\u00f6y\u00fck tutuqu\u015fular dan\u0131\u015fa bilir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.
\n\u2500Yox, \u00f6yr\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259brin, h\u0259v\u0259sin \u00e7atsa, bunlar da dan\u0131\u015fa bilir. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 eyvana \u00e7\u0131xanda bizi salamlay\u0131r.
\nB\u00f6y\u00fck maraqla ovcumdak\u0131 tutuqu\u015funu oynad\u0131r, barma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n ucu il\u0259 t\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 toxunurdum. Barma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 di\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259diyi zaman Cavid tez qu\u015fu \u0259limd\u0259n al\u0131b q\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 buraxd\u0131. \u018flini g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k:
\n\u2500Ehtiyatl\u0131 ol! Yaman b\u0259rk di\u015fl\u0259yirl\u0259r, \u2013dedi.
\nOnlarla tutuqu\u015funun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn diqq\u0259tim h\u0259min tutuqu\u015fuda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Fikrimd\u0259n \u201cka\u015f m\u0259nim d\u0259 tutuqu\u015fum olard\u0131\u201d ke\u00e7di. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 Cavidd\u0259n ist\u0259m\u0259k ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, fikrimd\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmad\u0131m. Amma dey\u0259s\u0259n Cavid h\u0259min an fikirl\u0259rimi oxudu.
\n\u2500\u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bir c\u00fct h\u0259diyy\u0259 edim?
\nBu t\u0259klifin \u00fcr\u0259yimc\u0259 olmas\u0131na v\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sevindiyim\u0259 baxmayaraq ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bulad\u0131m.
\n\u2500Yox…
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259ki sevinc par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 dilimd\u0259ki \u201cyox\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259si il\u0259 uy\u011fun g\u0259lmirdi he\u00e7. Cavid \u0259lini \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoyub g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n\u2500M\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7oxdur. G\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rdil\u0259r. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 say\u0131 artd\u0131qca daha b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0259f\u0259s almal\u0131 oluram, ya da kim\u0259s\u0259 pay verir\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 ver\u0259r\u0259m. Q\u0259f\u0259sim d\u0259 var. H\u0259l\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u00fck d\u0259n d\u0259 ver\u0259r\u0259m. Sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn alarsan.
\n\u00c7iyinl\u0259rimi \u00e7\u0259kib:
\n\u2500Bilmir\u0259m, -dedim.
\nDivar \u015fkaf\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u015f q\u0259f\u0259si qar\u015f\u0131ma qoyub:
\n\u2500\u00dcr\u0259yin hans\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir bir c\u00fct se\u00e7 g\u00f6t\u00fcr, \u2013dedi.
\nMavi r\u0259ngli tutuqu\u015fu ilk d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259rimi \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. \u018flimi ona uzatd\u0131m. Cavid he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n qu\u015fu q\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 qoydu. O:
\n\u2500\u0130ndi g\u0259l birini d\u0259 se\u00e7\u0259k ki, t\u0259k qalmas\u0131n, c\u00fct olsunlar, -dey\u0259r\u0259k a\u011f v\u0259 mavi zolaqlar\u0131 olan g\u00f6z\u0259l bir qu\u015fu da ay\u0131rd\u0131. \u2013Bax, bel\u0259! \u0130ndi c\u00fct oldular. Bunlar\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 azd\u0131r. D\u00f6rd-be\u015f ayl\u0131q olarlar. Bala tutuqu\u015fulara dil \u00f6yr\u0259tm\u0259k daha asan olur. Unutma, h\u0259r g\u00fcn suyunu d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259lis\u0259n.
\nMaraqla Cavidi dinl\u0259yirdim. D\u0259rs \u0259la\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, olimpiada v\u0259 intellektual yar\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n qalibi olan, daha \u00e7ox d\u0259qiq elml\u0259r\u0259 mara\u011f\u0131 olan birinin canl\u0131lar haqq\u0131nda bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259lumatl\u0131 olmas\u0131 m\u0259ni t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirirdi.
\nSevil xalan\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n kiminl\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib aynab\u0259ndd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 boyland\u0131m. Anam idi. Qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rliyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bir daha Cavidin anas\u0131na t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edib t\u0259l\u0259sik g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259mi geyinib, \u00e7antam\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 sal\u0131b qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.
\nAnamla bir az aralanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q ki, Cavid p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259ni s\u0259sl\u0259di:
\n\u2500\u0130lqar, qu\u015flar yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\n\u2500G\u0259lib g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259m, \u2013deyib \u0259l etdim.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min q\u0259fil t\u0259zyiqi qalxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259sik qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xan anam\u0131n nahar haz\u0131rlay\u0131b qoyma\u011fa vaxt\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir azdan atam da i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi.
\nM\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7dim. Cavidin qu\u015flar\u0131ndan, onu salamlamas\u0131ndan v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 bir c\u00fct h\u0259diyy\u0259 etm\u0259sind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Sevincimi onunla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. Amma anam\u0131n m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti k\u0259skin oldu:
\n\u2500Ba\u015f\u0131n xarab olub s\u0259nin? Qu\u015f n\u0259di?Bir qu\u015fumuz \u0259skik idi el\u0259! Qu\u015f saxlama\u011f\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r-d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zi olur. Bal\u0131qd\u0131, qu\u015fdu, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r ev\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xtlik g\u0259tirir.
\n\u2500Ana, el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldirl\u0259r ki! Cavidin qu\u015fu dan\u0131\u015fa da bilir e! Deyir \u00f6yr\u0259ts\u0259n s\u0259ninkil\u0259r d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015facaq.
\n\u2500Dedim, yox! Bir k\u0259lm\u0259! \u2013Anam \u0259s\u0259bi halda \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131.
\nN\u0259yin bahas\u0131na olur-olsun anam\u0131 raz\u0131 salmaq ist\u0259yirdim:
\n\u2500G\u00f6rs\u0259n xo\u015funa g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r vallah. Cavid m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 edib e!
\n\u2500\u0130lqar! S\u0259n m\u0259ni e\u015fitmirs\u0259n? \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram m\u0259n? Dedim ki, olmaz! M\u0259n icaz\u0259 vermir\u0259m!
\n\u2500Ana, ax\u0131…
\n\u2500Cavidin anas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm dan\u0131\u015faram. Dey\u0259r\u0259m ki, biz\u0259 qu\u015f saxlamaq d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr.
\n\u2500Ana, nolar…
\n\u015ekafdan duz qab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n yer\u0259 salan anam daha da \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdi.
\n\u2500Canun yanmas\u0131n! Duz da t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc yer\u0259! Bax, s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 oldu. Duz da\u011f\u0131lma\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259lam\u0259t deyil, evd\u0259 dava d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr… \u2013dey\u0259r\u0259k tez \u0259lini q\u0259ndqab\u0131dak\u0131 q\u0259nd\u0259 atd\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259sini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb duzun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Sonra deyin\u0259-deyin\u0259 yer\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f duzu y\u0131\u011f\u0131b t\u0259mizl\u0259di.
\n\u2500Ana, …
\n\u2500Get ota\u011f\u0131na d\u0259rsl\u0259rini oxu! Tutuqu\u015fu h\u0259v\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn! Bir qu\u015fum \u0259skik idi evd\u0259! Bel\u0259 a\u011f g\u00fcnd\u0259yik e, bir d\u0259 qu\u015fu g\u0259tirib b\u0259db\u0259xtliyi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259k. Ay Allah, birc\u0259 dava d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin. X\u0259ta-b\u0259la uzaq olsun evimizd\u0259n…
\nDaha he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259yib m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Anlad\u0131m ki, anamla dan\u0131\u015fmaq, onu raz\u0131 salmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. \u00dcm\u00fcdim t\u0259kc\u0259 atama idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 atam anam\u0131 raz\u0131 salar, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259. Amma h\u0259r \u015fey \u0259ksin\u0259 oldu. Ax\u015fam ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n atam da anam\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259fini tutdu, onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.
\n\u2500Yox, o\u011flum, olmaz. Biz\u0259 heyvan saxlamaq d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 bal\u0131q al\u0131b g\u0259tirdim, qarda\u015f\u0131m aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131 h\u0259min ax\u015fam. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00fclb\u00fcl ald\u0131m. \u0130ki g\u00fcn sonra atam d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi.
\n\u2500Amma bu tutuqu\u015fudur! \u2013etiraz etdim.
\n\u2500F\u0259rqi n\u0259di! Ax\u0131r d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr d\u0259 biz\u0259! \u2013Atam anam q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259rt olmasa da, etiraz\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi.
\n\u2500Ata, nolar…
\n\u2500Yox, o\u011flum, yox! Olmaz!
\n\u2500\u018fmigil evd\u0259 pi\u015fik d\u0259 saxlay\u0131r, it d\u0259.
\n\u2500Onlar h\u0259y\u0259t evind\u0259 qal\u0131r.
\nValideynl\u0259rimin bu c\u00fcr k\u0259skin m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini anlaya bilmirdim. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim dolsa da, a\u011flamama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Onlara t\u0259sir etm\u0259k, yola g\u0259tirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn u\u015faq m\u0259ntiqimi i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131m:
\n\u2500H\u0259y\u0259t evind\u0259 qalanda nolur ki? Bal\u0131q olmasayd\u0131 \u0259mi aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rmayacaqd\u0131? Baban\u0131 b\u00fclb\u00fcl \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc ki? B\u0259s deyirdin, Allah\u0131n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 var. \u018fg\u0259r al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 varsa, dem\u0259k ki, b\u00fclb\u00fcl ev\u0259 g\u0259ls\u0259ydi d\u0259, g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259ydi d\u0259, baba \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kdi d\u0259!
\nAtam bir anl\u0131q fikr\u0259 gets\u0259 d\u0259, yen\u0259 d\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fmad\u0131.
\n \u2500G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131-qaras\u0131 bir o\u011flum var. Allah el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 olar…
\n\u0130nad\u0131mdan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim:
\n\u2500M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 olacaqsa, olacaq da. Qu\u015fun n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 var ki!
\nAtam da m\u0259nd\u0259n geri qalm\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2500B\u0259s s\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259din ki, bird\u0259n anana, ya atana n\u0259s\u0259 olar? S\u0259n ist\u0259rs\u0259n ki, biz\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 olsun?
\nAtam\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n endiril\u0259n q\u0259fil z\u0259rb\u0259 kimi idi. M\u0259nim cavab\u0131m m\u00fczakir\u0259nin sonu olacaqd\u0131. Bunu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bulay\u0131b:
\n\u2500Yox! \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m! M\u0259n sizi \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m…\u2013dedim.
\nAtam sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131b aln\u0131mdan \u00f6pd\u00fc:
\n\u2500M\u0259nim a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 balam!
\nCavid\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm art\u0131q. M\u0259ni dostumun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda p\u0259rt v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qoydu\u011funu he\u00e7 birin\u0259 izah ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim onsuzda.
\nS\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn Cavidl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259kt\u0259bin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, d\u0259hlizind\u0259, h\u0259tta m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizd\u0259 bel\u0259 onu uzaqdan g\u00f6r\u00fcb yolumu d\u0259yi\u015firdim. Qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131qda is\u0259, o, he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi hal-\u0259hval tutub tutuqu\u015fulardan k\u0259lm\u0259 bel\u0259 dem\u0259di.
\nHava qaralmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, atam g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anam narahat qald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar atam\u0131n \u0259l telefonuna z\u0259ng edirdi. Z\u0259ng \u00e7atsa da, cavab ver\u0259n yox idi. Anam h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 halda ota\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda var-g\u0259l etdikc\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259 fikrim yay\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. Ev tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131ma diqq\u0259timi c\u0259ml\u0259y\u0259 bilmirdim.
\nAnam\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259n diksindim. D\u0259rsl\u0259rimi yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q burax\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. Anam g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131nda bo\u011fularaq atam\u0131n avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, x\u0259st\u0259xanada oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259di v\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etdi:
\n\u2500Bax, g\u00f6rd\u00fcn neyn\u0259din?! S\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdim ki biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. Ham\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259nin qu\u015f saxlamaq h\u0259v\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 oldu!
\nFikrimd\u0259n:
\n\u2500Ax\u0131, m\u0259n qu\u015flar\u0131 he\u00e7 ev\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259dim. Yaz\u0131qlar\u0131n n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131, -s\u00f6zl\u0259ri ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, dilim\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259dim. Susdum. Anlad\u0131m ki, indi bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rin yeri yoxdur. Q\u0259lbimin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 is\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 anam\u0131n haql\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m.
\n Biz x\u0259st\u0259xanaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259kiml\u0259r atam\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin a\u011f\u0131r oldu\u011funu, \u00e7oxlu qan itirdiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259dil\u0259r. \u018fm\u0259liyyatdan ne\u00e7\u0259 saat ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi. <\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayan\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi budaqdak\u0131 s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259dikc\u0259 valideynl\u0259rimin dedikl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Atam\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini yada sald\u0131qca q\u0259h\u0259r bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259nirdi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm:
\n\u2500\u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n tutuqu\u015fular\u0131 ev\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k h\u0259v\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259s\u0259ydim, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar olmayacaqd\u0131, atam da q\u0259zaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi… T\u0259k g\u00fcnahkar m\u0259n idim…
\nH\u0259min g\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni x\u0259st\u0259xanada ke\u00e7irtdik. S\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k reanimasiya ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259kim x\u0259st\u0259nin v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin art\u0131q stabil oldu\u011funu v\u0259 yax\u0131n saatlarda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 sevincimin h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu yox idi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra atam\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259xanadan ev\u0259 yazd\u0131lar. H\u0259r iki valideynimin sa\u011f-salamat, yan\u0131mda olmas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 Allaha \u015f\u00fckr edirdim. <\/p>\n

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\nFutbol m\u0259\u015fqind\u0259n ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda evd\u0259 qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. \u018fmim bizd\u0259 idi. Atama d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Salamla\u015f\u0131b \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yuma\u011fa ke\u00e7dim. M\u0259ni h\u0259min g\u00fcn nec\u0259 bir s\u00fcrpriz g\u00f6zl\u0259diyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz idim. Atamla \u0259mimin bax\u0131\u015fmas\u0131, m\u0259ni yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b ona g\u00f6z vurmas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, yor\u011fun oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 diqq\u0259t etmirdim. T\u0259k ist\u0259yim yem\u0259k yem\u0259k v\u0259 uzan\u0131b dinc\u0259lm\u0259k idi indi.
\n\u2500O\u011flum… D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, s\u0259n haql\u0131san. Allah n\u0259 yaz\u0131bsa, o da olacaq. He\u00e7 bir canl\u0131 bizim al\u0131n yaz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, qism\u0259timizi d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259z.
\n\u018fmim \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc q\u0259f\u0259si qar\u015f\u0131ma qoyanda t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 atam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Q\u0259f\u0259sin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 iri a\u011f tutuqu\u015fu gah m\u0259n\u0259, gah evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131r, qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259f\u0259sin d\u0259mirl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r, dimdiyini yer\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u00fcrd\u00fc. N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yimi, n\u0259 hiss etdiyimi bilmirdim o an. \u00c7a\u015fq\u0131nl\u0131q i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 idim. Donmu\u015fdum. Fikirl\u0259rimin, m\u0259ntiqimin qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdim.
\nAtam dill\u0259ndi:
\n\u2500\u018fmind\u0259n xahi\u015f etdim ki, s\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0259n qu\u015f als\u0131n. Ma\u011fazada bunu m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bilibl\u0259r. H\u0259, bir d\u0259 s\u0259nin ota\u011f\u0131na akvarium da qura\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b \u0259min. Dostun s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259n qu\u015flar\u0131 da ev\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 ondan q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131qlara qulluq etm\u0259yin qaydas\u0131n\u0131 da soru\u015fub \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259rs\u0259n. Savadl\u0131 u\u015faqd\u0131r. H\u0259r halda, bilm\u0259mi\u015f olmaz.
\nAtamdan e\u015fitdiyim s\u00f6zl\u0259rin do\u011frulu\u011funa inana bilmirdim. Qeyri-ixtiyari anam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir. O da g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, ax\u0131, atam onu raz\u0131 sala, h\u0259tta inand\u0131ra da bilmi\u015fdi. Daha \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k u\u011fursuzluqdan, d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r-d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zl\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6z salm\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cDaha he\u00e7 bir tutuqu\u015fu, he\u00e7 bir canl\u0131 ist\u0259mir\u0259m!\u201d dem\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, susdum. M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n d\u0259y\u0259rli canl\u0131 valideynl\u0259rim idi. He\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n, yataqdan yeni qalxan atam\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131m. Aln\u0131mdan \u00f6p\u00fcb sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2500G\u0259ls\u0259n\u0259, tutuqu\u015funa \u201cKe\u015fa\u201d ad\u0131 qoyaq.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bulay\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim:
\n\u2500B\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 Koko dey\u0259k. Ya da Kiki. Ax\u0131, bunlar Kakadu n\u00f6v\u00fcnd\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n

01.09.2018. BAKI<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Atam\u0131n \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f ucunda oturub \u0259lini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m an m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, bir daha he\u00e7 vaxt onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim ya\u015fla dolub bo\u015fal\u0131rd\u0131. Eyni sual\u0131 tez-tez anama v\u0259 tibb bac\u0131lar\u0131na t\u0259krar verirdim: \u2500Atam sa\u011falacaq? B\u0259s n\u0259 vaxt g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7acaq?B\u0259s niy\u0259 ay\u0131lm\u0131r? H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 eyni cavab\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131m: \u2500Dar\u0131xma, sa\u011falacaq. Anam h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 v\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28435","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28435","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=28435"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28435\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28445,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28435\/revisions\/28445"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=28435"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=28435"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=28435"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}