{"id":28718,"date":"2018-10-30T08:00:17","date_gmt":"2018-10-30T04:00:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28718"},"modified":"2018-10-30T09:14:39","modified_gmt":"2018-10-30T05:14:39","slug":"hikm%c9%99t-m%c9%99likzad%c9%99-yeni-seirl%c9%99r-20","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28718","title":{"rendered":"Hikm\u0259t M\u018fL\u0130KZAD\u018f.Yeni \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131n\u0131n Prezident T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc<\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

1989-cu ild\u0259 atam \u00f6ld\u00fc… Bir ay sonra bu \u015feir do\u011fuldu.<\/p>\n

Ruhumun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki
\nNax\u0131\u015flar yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b.
\nSa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm
\nBax\u0131\u015flar yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

Torpa\u011fa s\u0259cd\u0259 edib,
\nD\u0259n\u0259 Allah deyirdim.
\nAllah\u0131m ola-ola
\nS\u0259n\u0259 Allah deyirdim, –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

\u018fzray\u0131la s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b,
\n\u018fc\u0259li mat qoyurdun.
\nNec\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131m ki?
\nSin\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7at qoyurdun, –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

S\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259n g\u00fcn, h\u0259yata
\nSahibsiz dalan dedim.
\nAnam\u0131 \u00fczm\u0259m\u0259k\u00e7\u00fcn
\nAnama yalan dedim, –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra i\u00e7imin
\nOyu\u011fu artd\u0131 el\u0259.
\nBu k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rimin
\nSoyu\u011fu artd\u0131 el\u0259, –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

S\u0259ninl\u0259, bu d\u00fcnyadan
\nG\u00f6vh\u0259rin, l\u0259lin k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc.
\nQon\u015fu q\u0131z da, biz\u0259 yox,
\nYad ev\u0259 g\u0259lin k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc, –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

Bir vaxtlar atam idin,
\n\u0130ndi bir \u0259lc\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil.
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z yuxuma girim,
\nS\u0259n \u00f6z yuxuna \u00e7\u0259kil… –
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata!<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

…\u018fvv\u0259l adam\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc,
\nSonra da can\u0131 g\u0259lir…
\nG\u00fcnahlar \u00e7oxald\u0131qca
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q an\u0131 g\u0259lir…<\/p>\n

H\u0259r an\u0131n \u00f6z an\u0131 var,
\nKimin d\u0259rdi, s\u0259ri yox?!
\nSon m\u0259nzil\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r\u0131q…
\nHaqq-hesab d\u0259ft\u0259ri yox…<\/p>\n

Ruhun da, ax\u015fam-s\u0259h\u0259r
\nYaxalar\u0131 a\u011f olur.
\nRuhdan gen d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n adam
\n\u018fc\u0259l\u0259 dusta\u011f olur.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n a\u011f\u0131 artd\u0131qca,
\n\u015e\u0259klim dondan-dona d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.
\nRuhum ay kimi olandan
\n\u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259k ona d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

O da, bel\u0259c\u0259, q\u0259sd edir,
\nCan\u0131m haldan-hala qal\u0131r.
\nM\u0259n \u015feytandan uza\u015fd\u0131qca,
\nO, \u015feytandan dala qal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Duz t\u00f6km\u0259, yaram soyuyub,
\nQ\u0259mi h\u0259d\u0259f\u0259 d\u00fcz vurma…
\nO, m\u0259nlik deyil, m\u0259n onluq,
\nTa ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fcz vurma.<\/p>\n

Ruhum el\u00e7i da\u015f\u0131d\u0131 ki,
\nG\u00fcnd\u0259 y\u00fcz adam dara\u015f\u0131r?!
\nM\u0259ni t\u0259kliy\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259tm\u0259, –
\nT\u0259klik Allaha yara\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Kas\u0131b\u0131n<\/p>\n

Bu \u015feiri 1993-c\u00fc ild\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam. Bir n\u0259f\u0259r dedi ki, payla\u015f, \u00e7\u00fcnki vacibdir… Payla\u015fd\u0131m…<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259lind\u0259n bel\u0259dir; a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dik\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n,
\nQul kimi i\u015fl\u0259k olar, zay\u0131 olmaz kas\u0131b\u0131n.
\n\u018fll\u0259rini qald\u0131rar bir udumluq pay \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,
\nDuas\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r, pay\u0131 olmaz kas\u0131b\u0131n.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yinin istisi h\u0259r arzu-kama \u00e7\u0131xar,
\nDuy\u011fusu n\u0259m libasda naz il\u0259 dama \u00e7\u0131xar,
\n\u018fzab\u0131 p\u0259rvan\u0259t\u0259k t\u00f6v\u015f\u00fcy\u0259r, \u015fama \u00e7\u0131xar,
\nG\u00fcn\u00fc ah-ufla ke\u00e7\u0259r, ay\u0131 olmaz kas\u0131b\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Tale ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 qondurar,
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259sini h\u0259yat\u0131n odu il\u0259 yondurar…
\n\u018fynin yamaq \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u0259r, can\u0131n yoxluq dondurar,
\nQ\u0131\u015f\u0131 divan\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259r, yay\u0131 olmaz kas\u0131b\u0131n.<\/p>\n

O, na\u011f\u0131l kimi baxar g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi toxlu\u011fa,
\nDuy\u011fular\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259z sevgi adl\u0131 \u00e7oxlu\u011fa.
\n\u018fc\u0259li vaxts\u0131z g\u0259l\u0259r, h\u0259yat y\u0131xar yoxlu\u011fa,
\n\u018fzray\u0131l ova \u00e7\u0131xsa tay\u0131 olmaz kas\u0131b\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Yana\u011f\u0131na x\u0259tt salar duman onun, \u00e7\u0259n onun,
\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fardar q\u0259fil d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n d\u0259n, onun.
\nHikm\u0259t, kefin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259 q\u0259m yey\u0259nd\u0259, s\u0259n, onun,
\nO q\u0259d\u0259r ah-vay ed\u0259r, hay\u0131 olmaz kas\u0131b\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Gen dur g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n…<\/p>\n

\u015eeytan da m\u0259niml\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259\u015fir el\u0259…
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259 e\u015fir k\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, g\u00f6r\u00fcm.
\nBir g\u00fcn dem\u0259zl\u0259rmi d\u0259liydi ki\u015fi?!
\nGen dur g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

…N\u0259d\u0259n Allah q\u0259d\u0259r sevdiyim qad\u0131n
\nCavab m\u0259ktubunu qollam\u0131b h\u0259l\u0259?
\n…\u00c7oxdan o yaz\u0131\u011fa bir v\u0259d veribl\u0259r,
\nO da q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kollam\u0131b h\u0259l\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259kdiyim \u015f\u0259kil\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rsan he\u00e7,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259, q\u0259l\u0259m s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.
\nSand\u0131m, ovlayaram, ba\u015f\u0131m qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131,
\nQ\u0259fil dedil\u0259r ki, t\u0259l\u0259m s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131n\u0131n Prezident T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata! 1989-cu ild\u0259 atam \u00f6ld\u00fc… Bir ay sonra bu \u015feir do\u011fuldu. Ruhumun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki Nax\u0131\u015flar yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm Bax\u0131\u015flar yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, – M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata! Torpa\u011fa s\u0259cd\u0259 edib, D\u0259n\u0259 Allah deyirdim. Allah\u0131m ola-ola S\u0259n\u0259 Allah deyirdim, – M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata! \u018fzray\u0131la s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b, \u018fc\u0259li […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-28718","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28718","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=28718"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28718\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":28723,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28718\/revisions\/28723"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=28718"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=28718"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=28718"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}