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(ilk hekay\u0259m)<\/p>\n

– Siz\u0259 sonuncu sual\u0131md\u0131r: G\u0259ncliyinizi nec\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

Bu sualdan sonra bayaqdan b\u0259ri ilk d\u0259f\u0259 olaraq onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131m. \u0130lahi, o g\u00f6zl\u0259r, o bax\u0131\u015flar nec\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. Sanki, c\u0259mi on be\u015f il bundan \u0259vv\u0259lki o g\u00f6zl\u0259r, o bax\u0131\u015flar deyildi. Onun on be\u015f il bundan \u0259vv\u0259lki qap-qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131na d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, aln\u0131na on be\u015f ilin nax\u0131\u015f\u0131 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, on be\u015f il bundan \u0259vv\u0259lki \u015fux, cazib\u0259li qam\u0259tin\u0259 sanki bir \u0259zginlik, bir yor\u011funluq \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ac\u0131l\u0131-\u015firinli x\u0259yallar m\u0259ni on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259, onun g\u0259ncliyin\u0259, m\u0259nims\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rim\u0259 apard\u0131. \u2026M\u0259n onu tan\u0131yanda t\u0259xmin\u0259n on \u00fc\u00e7-on d\u00f6rd ya\u015f\u0131m olard\u0131. Onlar bizim qon\u015fu ev\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. H\u0259min vaxtlar onun t\u0259xmin\u0259n otuz be\u015f-otuz s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131. Ortaboylu, qarayan\u0131z, parlaq, iri g\u00f6zl\u00fc, dolub\u0259d\u0259nli bu adam\u0131n bir-birind\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l, bir-birind\u0259n q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131z\u0131 var idi. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259 ona qar\u015f\u0131 maraq oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu maraq get-ged\u0259 daha da g\u00fccl\u0259nirdi. H\u0259tta, el\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r olurdu ki, saatlarla p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131r, onun yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. O, is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlardan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz idi. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, on \u00fc\u00e7-on d\u00f6rd ya\u015fl\u0131 d\u0259c\u0259l bir q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n daxilind\u0259ki \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nt\u0131dan onun n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri ola bil\u0259rdi?\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026Son vaxtlar el\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdim ki, ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131mla yax\u0131nl\u0131q etmir, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259nha ke\u00e7irir, \u00e7ox fikirli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l onu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. Onun b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131z\u0131 da m\u0259n oxudu\u011fum m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 t\u0259hsil al\u0131rd\u0131. O, h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 il\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131mla onu yola salar, sonra m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ged\u0259rdim. Dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u0259rs\u0259 gecik\u0259rdim. Lakin m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r danlamazd\u0131. Qabaqc\u0131l \u015fagird idim.<\/p>\n

Onu yax\u0131ndan g\u00f6rm\u0259k he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259n\u0259 qism\u0259t olmazd\u0131. H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259r, ax\u015famlar geri d\u00f6n\u0259rdi. \u0130\u015fl\u0259diyi yeri d\u0259 d\u0259qiq bilmirdim. Dem\u0259k olar ki, onun haqq\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmirdim. Lakin, onu g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim g\u00fcn gec\u0259ni s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n yatmazd\u0131m. O m\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259zdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ondan qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m. T\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n rastla\u015fanda da el\u0259 hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, q\u0131p-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 p\u00f6rt\u00fcrd\u00fcm, h\u0259tta ayaqlar\u0131m da s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131r, bir-birin\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz o, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 olsa m\u0259nim x\u0259yal\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259nim ki\u00e7icik \u00fcr\u0259yim \u00e7ox \u0259zablar \u00e7\u0259kirdi. \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmirdim bu n\u0259 hald\u0131r. Yamanca k\u00fcs\u0259y\u0259n olmu\u015fdum, ham\u0131dan k\u00fcs\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Q\u0259lbim\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n olan kimi bir k\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259r, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u0259rdim. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, o, m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqda olsa da ruh\u0259n m\u0259niml\u0259 idi. M\u0259niml\u0259 yuxudan oyanar, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259niml\u0259 birg\u0259 olar, m\u0259nl\u0259 d\u0259 yuxuya ged\u0259rdi. Yuxular\u0131m da onlu idi.<\/p>\n

Kitab\u00e7adan telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdim. O, ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi telefona qa\u00e7ar, titr\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 onlar\u0131n n\u00f6mr\u0259sini y\u0131\u011fard\u0131m. El\u0259 ki, telefona o cavab ver\u0259rdi, \u00fcr\u0259yim el\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259rdi ki, tez d\u0259st\u0259yi asard\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o, telefonda m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fidir. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu hissl\u0259rin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu is\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fcm\u2026<\/p>\n

tarakl\u0131.\u00e7\u0131nar-a\u011fac\u0131.1Yay aylar\u0131 idi. M\u0259kt\u0259blil\u0259r t\u0259til\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Biz t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259r da\u011fl\u0131q \u0259raziy\u0259 yax\u0131n oldu\u011fundan havalar \u00e7ox isti olmurdu. Dem\u0259k olar ki, \u0259ks\u0259r ail\u0259l\u0259r yay\u0131 \u00f6z evl\u0259rind\u0259 ke\u00e7irirdil\u0259r. Ham\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm t\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259ri olard\u0131. \u0130sti g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn ail\u0259 o t\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259rin alt\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015far, uzun-uzad\u0131 \u015firin s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r ed\u0259rdi. M\u0259nim ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 baxan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sinin d\u00fcz qaba\u011f\u0131nda uca, qocaman bir tut a\u011fac\u0131 var idi. G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r balaca u\u015faqlar o a\u011faca d\u0131rmanar, ax\u015famlar is\u0259 a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b m\u00fcxt\u0259lif oyunlar oynayard\u0131lar. M\u0259n h\u0259rd\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259riml\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 olsam da, \u00e7ox vaxt t\u0259k-t\u0259nha p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bay\u0131ra baxard\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, bu tut a\u011fac\u0131 m\u0259nim b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rdl\u0259rimd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdard\u0131r. H\u0259ddind\u0259n \u00e7ox romantik q\u0131z idim. Saatlarla tut a\u011fac\u0131na baxar, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 onunla s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rdim. Onun z\u0259rif yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 meh titr\u0259tdikc\u0259 san\u0131rd\u0131m ki, a\u011fac da m\u0259niml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2026 Yen\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda durub onun yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n \u0259l-ayaq tamam \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi, \u00e7ox ayd\u0131n v\u0259 sakit bir gec\u0259 idi. H\u0259rd\u0259n s\u0259rin k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sdikc\u0259 tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n yarpaqlar\u0131 yava\u015fca titr\u0259yir, m\u0259niml\u0259 birg\u0259 yol g\u00f6zl\u0259dikl\u0259rini s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2026Gec\u0259d\u0259n xeyli ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, o is\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k bilmirdi\u2026 \u0130ntizar dolu d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r uzand\u0131qca s\u0259brim daha da t\u00fck\u0259nirdi. El\u0259 bu vaxt k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259n onu ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 idar\u0259 etm\u0259yind\u0259n v\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n siqnal s\u0259sind\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcr\u0259yim b\u0259rkd\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131n bizim dalana t\u0259r\u0259f buruldu. El\u0259 hala d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onu uzaqdan g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 p\u0259rd\u0259nin arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259ndiyim halda bu d\u0259f\u0259 gizl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Donmu\u015f halda ona baxd\u0131m. Sanki, aylard\u0131r onu g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcm. N\u0259hay\u0259t, o, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131. Donuq halda ona baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir anl\u0131q saxlad\u0131 v\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc lap itirdim. N\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi bilm\u0259d\u0259n sakitc\u0259 ona baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Art\u0131q \u00fcr\u0259yim k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fg\u0259r o, birc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 yerind\u0259 dayansayd\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yim b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259hv\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131. O q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259can ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdim ki, o ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra saatlarla a\u011flay\u0131b, el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 yuxuya getdim. H\u0259min hadis\u0259d\u0259n sonra ondan qa\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Onlar\u0131n telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini a\u011fl\u0131ma yox, \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 h\u0259kk el\u0259mi\u015fdim. H\u0259min r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259r m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n sevimli r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259r idi. Yen\u0259, \u0259ll\u0259rim titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yim d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259min n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri y\u0131\u011fd\u0131m. Telefona \u00f6z\u00fc cavab verdi. Onun s\u0259si o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l, h\u0259lim mehriban idi ki\u2026 Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t onunla telefonda dan\u0131\u015fmaq bar\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy ets\u0259m d\u0259, lakin he\u00e7 vaxt bir q\u0259rara g\u0259l\u0259 bilmir, s\u00f6z tapm\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Var g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc toplay\u0131b, titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259 dill\u0259ndim:<\/p>\n

– Alo!..<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, o, m\u0259nim h\u0259yacan\u0131m\u0131 duydu, m\u0259ni tan\u0131d\u0131 v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim daha da b\u0259rkd\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fc. D\u0259st\u0259yi asmaq ist\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 asmad\u0131m. U\u015faq vaxtlar\u0131mda \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 bir xasiyy\u0259tim var idi; qar\u015f\u0131ma hans\u0131 m\u0259qs\u0259di qoysam, n\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6z vers\u0259m ki, ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, o i\u015fi m\u00fctl\u0259q edirdim. Odur ki, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t toplay\u0131b, yen\u0259 dedim:<\/p>\n

– Alo!..<\/p>\n

O, mehriban bir s\u0259sl\u0259 cavab verdi:<\/p>\n

– B\u0259li, e\u015fidir\u0259m. Kimdir?<\/p>\n

Ka\u015f soru\u015fmazd\u0131 kimdir? Ax\u0131, m\u0259n nec\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q verim. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m:<\/p>\n

– Bi-lir-siniz, m\u0259n si-zi ta-n\u0131-y\u0131-ram\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l, n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7\u2026 \u2013 dedim. Daha he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. O, m\u0259n\u0259 yenid\u0259n sual verdi:<\/p>\n

-S\u0259nin ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var?<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259dim ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ox deyim, amma yalan dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259dim. O, m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dikib dedim:<\/p>\n

– On \u00fc\u00e7\u2026<\/p>\n

– Kim\u0259 z\u0259ng etmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– Siz\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

– E\u015fidir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn var?<\/p>\n

– He\u00e7 n\u0259, m\u0259n siz\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, \u2013 bir az susdum, o is\u0259 s\u0259brl\u0259 m\u0259nim cavab\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Onun g\u00f6zl\u0259diyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb yenid\u0259n dill\u0259ndim: \u2013 M\u0259n siz\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 z\u0259ng vururam.<\/p>\n

\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, onun g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fidirdim. Sonra mehriban bir s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

– Dem\u0259li, z\u0259ng edib telefonda susan s\u0259ns\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259! Bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7ox c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259 cavab verdim. O, m\u0259nim c\u0259sar\u0259timi g\u00f6r\u00fcb bir q\u0259d\u0259r susduqdan sonra soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– D\u0259rsl\u0259rind\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 al\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

– Be\u015f. \u018fla\u00e7\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

– \u0130nstitutda oxumaq fikrin var?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, oxuyacam.<\/p>\n

– Hans\u0131 institutda?<\/p>\n

– AM\u0130-d\u0259.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, dem\u0259li h\u0259kim olmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. Yax\u015f\u0131 fikirdir. Q\u0131z\u0131m, onda niy\u0259 vaxt\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 itirirs\u0259n, get d\u0259rsl\u0259rini oxu, yax\u015f\u0131m\u0131?<\/p>\n

Onun \u00abq\u0131z\u0131m\u00bb s\u00f6z\u00fc sanki \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 ox kimi sanc\u0131ld\u0131. El\u0259 birc\u0259 onu bilir\u0259m ki, \u00abxudahafis\u00bb, \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k d\u0259st\u0259yi asd\u0131m. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u00e7ox qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131 h\u0259rl\u0259ndim. Ondan yamanca incimi\u015fdim. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdim ki, bir d\u0259 ona z\u0259ng etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. He\u00e7 yolunu da g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Lakin \u00fcr\u0259yim durmur, onu birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k, s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirdim.<\/p>\n

Aradan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn ke\u00e7di\u2026Hava yava\u015f-yava\u015f qaral\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u015faqlar\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b oynay\u0131r, s\u0259s-k\u00fcy edirdil\u0259r. M\u0259n d\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min qaba\u011f\u0131nda \u2013 tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 taxtadan d\u00fcz\u0259dilmi\u015f skamyada \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, u\u015faqlara bax\u0131rd\u0131m. O vaxtlar ham\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 qaz saxlayard\u0131. Bir n\u0259f\u0259rin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 he\u00e7 olmasa on-on be\u015f qaz olard\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 qazdan yaman qorxard\u0131. Qazlar \u00abf\u0131ss\u00bb el\u0259yib adam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ondan b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259r qorxard\u0131, o da qala u\u015faqlar. H\u0259min o ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc d\u0259 bir d\u0259st\u0259 qaz yen\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259ki u\u015faqlara \u00abqan uddururdu\u00bb. Onun ki\u00e7ik q\u0131z\u0131 Lamiy\u0259 d\u0259 totuq, son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng bir u\u015faq idi. Onda Lamiy\u0259nin t\u0259xmin\u0259n iki ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131. Lamiy\u0259ni el\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdim ki, ondan ayr\u0131 dura bilmirdim. U\u015faq da m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc biz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r, m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda olard\u0131. Yen\u0259 evl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir vaxt onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, qazlar Lamiy\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 cumdular. Yaz\u0131q u\u015faq el\u0259 qorxdu ki, qorxusundan yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 ucadan a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Yerimd\u0259n nec\u0259 qalx\u0131b u\u015fa\u011fa sar\u0131 y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc hiss etm\u0259dim. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131b, quca\u011f\u0131ma alaraq ba\u011fr\u0131ma el\u0259 basd\u0131m, \u0259traf\u0131mda ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri bel\u0259 hiss etm\u0259dim. M\u0259ni h\u0259min qorxudan onun xo\u015f s\u0259si oyatd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol. Lamiy\u0259ni qazlardan xilas el\u0259din. Af\u0259rin! S\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259rk qa\u00e7\u0131rsanm\u0131\u015f\u2026 m\u0259ni qabaqlad\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. H\u0259y\u0259candan dilim tutulmu\u015fdu. M\u0259nim bu hal\u0131ma bax\u0131b, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k dedi:<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 qorxursan? S\u0259n ki, b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259kim olmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. H\u0259kim \u00fcr\u0259kli olar.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc lap itirdim. Ayd\u0131n oldu ki, z\u0259ng ed\u0259nin kim oldu\u011funu o bilir. Tez u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 verib ev\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131m\u2026 Daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r, onlara z\u0259ng etmirdim. Sonralar biz h\u0259min rayondan ba\u015fqa bir rayona k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259li olduq. Bir daha onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259dim\u2026 \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn meylimi kitablara sal\u0131m, kitablar m\u0259nim dostum, sirda\u015f\u0131m, h\u0259md\u0259mim idi. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n onu unudur, h\u0259yat\u0131n axar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm. N\u0259hay\u0259t, orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirdim. H\u0259kim olmaq arzusu da bir \u00e7ox arzular\u0131m kimi \u0259l\u00e7atmaz oldu. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rimi ba\u015fqa ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 verdim, ali t\u0259hsil ald\u0131m, i\u015f\u0259 girdim, \u015f\u0259xsi h\u0259yat\u0131mda bir \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259r oldu\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026 B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259dbir\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ziyal\u0131lar\u0131n birg\u0259 haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu t\u0259dbird\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f ed\u0259c\u0259k aliml\u0259r bar\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259 haz\u0131rlamal\u0131 idim. H\u0259min aliml\u0259rin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 onun da ad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 bir anl\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc itirdim. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 inanmaq ist\u0259yir, lakin inana bilmirdim\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026 Yen\u0259 d\u0259 on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm\u2026 Yen\u0259 on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi \u015f\u0131ltaq bir q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz idim\u2026 Yen\u0259 d\u0259 on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi yanaqlar\u0131m q\u0131zar\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259yim b\u0259rkd\u0259n-b\u0259rkd\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 H\u0259r \u015fey on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi idi; birc\u0259 \u015feyd\u0259n ba\u015fqa, on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l m\u0259n onunla bel\u0259 yax\u0131n olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 onun aras\u0131nda azac\u0131q m\u0259saf\u0259 var. Biz \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259yik\u2026 Biz bir-birimizl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirik\u2026 M\u0259n onu on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcr, e\u015fidir, dinl\u0259yirdim. Bu, o idi\u2026 Lakin\u2026 Lakin x\u0259yallar al\u0259mind\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fanda bu on be\u015f ilin bizl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi s\u0259rtliyi g\u00f6r\u00fcr, t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf edirdim ki, o, niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015fib. Fikirl\u0259\u015firdim: \u0130lahi, insan da bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259rmi? Zaman\u0131n n\u0259 ac\u0131 s\u0131naqlar\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f. \u018fg\u0259r onun ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259s\u0259ydim, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131mda oturan bu insan\u0131n bir vaxt m\u0259nim k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimi \u0259zablara d\u00fc\u00e7ar ed\u0259n \u015f\u0259xs oldu\u011funa inanmazd\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

– Xan\u0131m, n\u0259 yaman fikr\u0259 getdiniz?<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni x\u0259yallardan onun s\u0259si ay\u0131ltd\u0131. Qeyri-ixtiyari dedim:<\/p>\n

– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz harada qald\u0131?<\/p>\n

– Siz m\u0259n\u0259 sual verdiniz ki, g\u0259ncliyinizi nec\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Bilirsiniz, m\u0259nim g\u0259ncliyim \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 olub\u2026<\/p>\n

O, dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca fikirl\u0259\u015firdim ki, m\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131. Y\u0259qin m\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259r\u0259m d\u0259\u2026 Ax\u0131 onda d\u0259c\u0259l, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z bir q\u0131z idim. M\u0259n onda nec\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt idim\u2026 Eh\u2026 ill\u0259r\u2026ill\u0259r\u2026 \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc el\u0259 sevirdim ki\u2026 saatlarla g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda durar, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxard\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, ham\u0131dan g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259m\u2026 H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m: y\u0259qin m\u0259n\u0259 f\u0259l\u0259yin ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutdu. Zaman\u0131n \u0259n s\u0259rt \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 qism\u0259t el\u0259di. Ax\u0131 on be\u015f il n\u0259dir ki? \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m bu on be\u015f il nec\u0259 ke\u00e7ib? Zaman\u0131 dayand\u0131ra, geri d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259 bils\u0259ydim\u2026<\/p>\n

U\u015faql\u0131q \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131mdan doymam\u0131\u015f ya\u015fa doldum\u2026 O da m\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

– Xan\u0131m, jurnalist olmaq sizin u\u015faql\u0131q arzunuz olub?<\/p>\n

– Xeyr, u\u015faql\u0131qda h\u0259kim olmaq ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim cavab\u0131mdan sonra o, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b diqq\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259ni s\u00fczd\u00fc v\u0259:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, h\u0259kimlik siz\u0259 yara\u015fard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 u\u015faq h\u0259kimi. Ax\u0131, siz u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00e7ox sevirdiniz. Lamiy\u0259 d\u0259 bu il s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rini Tibb Universitetin\u0259 verib, \u2013 dedi:<\/p>\n

M\u0259n daha he\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Sad\u0259c\u0259, sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b, aya\u011fa durdum. O is\u0259 yerind\u0259c\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, yar\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131, yar\u0131 x\u0259yal dolu bax\u0131\u015flarla m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n hiss edirdim ki, o da on be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb\u2026 \u0130ndi onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131 qap-qarad\u0131r\u2026 O, xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcnl\u0259rini ya\u015fay\u0131r\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7 k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 ona ata dey\u0259nd\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ham\u0131dan xo\u015fb\u0259xt san\u0131r\u2026 M\u0259ni d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u2026 on \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 qarayan\u0131z, d\u0259c\u0259l bir q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

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