{"id":29574,"date":"2019-01-17T11:00:48","date_gmt":"2019-01-17T07:00:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=29574"},"modified":"2019-01-17T11:55:14","modified_gmt":"2019-01-17T07:55:14","slug":"s%c9%99rb%c9%99t%c9%99li-mahmudov20-yanvarin-agrili-acili-xatir%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=29574","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259rb\u0259t\u0259li MAHMUDOV. “20 YANVARIN A\u011eRILI-ACILI XAT\u0130R\u018fS\u0130”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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1990-c\u0131 il yanvar\u0131n 19-dan 20-n\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n gec\u0259ni \u00e7ox narahat yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. S\u0259h\u0259r yata\u011f\u0131mdan qalx\u0131b, tez eyvana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. G\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fc buludlu idi. \u00dcf\u00fcqd\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f t\u00fcnd q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zart\u0131 qara buludlara sar\u0131l\u0131b x\u00fcsusi bir m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ala-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, topa-topa buludlar bir-birini qovurmu\u015f kimi \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131r, s\u0259mada toparla\u015faraq daha t\u00fcnd r\u0259ngd\u0259 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tuturdu. Havadan r\u00fctub\u0259t qoxusu g\u0259lirdi, sanki bu qara buludlar dolu olub yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r.
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qara buludlar\u0131n seyr\u0259kl\u0259\u015fm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259 daldalan\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Buludlarsa sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k bilmirdi, sanki g\u00f6y a\u011flams\u0131n\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fccl\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. Buludlar bir q\u0259d\u0259r seyr\u0259kl\u0259\u015fdikc\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 g\u00f6z vururmu\u015f kimi arabir b\u0259rq vurur, yen\u0259 buludlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z olurdu.
\nM\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bu vaxtlar qoyunlar\u0131 t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b n\u00f6vb\u0259y\u0259 qo\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u0259ndin i\u00e7\u0259ril\u0259rin\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131m. Burada h\u0259mk\u0259ndlil\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, hal-\u0259hval tuturdum. Bu g\u00fcn is\u0259 onlar m\u0259ni qabaqlad\u0131lar. Onlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 qorxu, t\u0259la\u015f, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 bir \u015fa\u015fq\u0131nl\u0131q vard\u0131. N\u0259s\u0259 soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 biri:
\n– M\u00fc\u0259llim, e\u015fitmis\u0259n Bak\u0131da q\u0131r\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011funu? Ruslar ordu g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r.
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, \u00e7oxlu \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r var, yaralananlar\u0131n is\u0259 say\u0131-hesab\u0131 yoxdu. Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 el\u0259yirl\u0259r ax\u0131? Cavan-cavan u\u015faqlar\u0131 niy\u0259 al-qanlar\u0131na q\u0259ltan edirl\u0259r? G\u00f6r\u0259n bizd\u0259n n\u0259 ist\u0259yirl\u0259r bunlar?
\nM\u0259n yerimd\u0259c\u0259 donub qald\u0131m. He\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 des\u0259m d\u0259, b\u0259rk qorxdum. N\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi bilm\u0259dim. Bak\u0131da t\u0259hsil alan u\u015faqlar\u0131m bir anda g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Ba\u015f\u0131m h\u0259rl\u0259ndi, el\u0259 bil bir q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u011flams\u0131nan buludlar dolu olub \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc birt\u0259h\u0259r \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b:
\n– Ax\u0131 kim deyir bunlar\u0131? Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni q\u0131r\u011f\u0131n olub? Erm\u0259nil\u0259rdi?
\n– N\u0259 bil\u0259k, ay m\u00fc\u0259llim, biz d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi, d\u0259qiq bilmirik. \u201cElektri\u00e7ka\u201d il\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n f\u0259hl\u0259l\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Biz d\u0259 ucundan-qula\u011f\u0131ndan n\u0259 e\u015fitmi\u015fik onu deyirik.
\nTez-t\u0259l\u0259sik ev\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. Qon\u015fular\u0131n da bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, ta tab\u0131m qalmad\u0131. Tez paltar\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib Bak\u0131ya yol ald\u0131m. \u018fn \u00e7ox o\u011flum Az\u0259rd\u0259n narahat idim. \u0130n\u015faat M\u00fch\u0259ndisl\u0259ri \u0130nstitutunda oxuyurdu. E\u015fitmi\u015fdim ki, \u00abXalq c\u0259bh\u0259si\u00bb adlanan qrumun \u00fczvl\u0259ri g\u0259ncl\u0259ri, x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259ri n\u00fcmayi\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 c\u0259lb edir, k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc qo\u015fulanlar da olurdu. Az\u0259r d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 idi, ikinci kursda oxuyurdu. Y\u0259qin ki, o da t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131ndan k\u0259narda qalmazd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131m \u015e\u0259lal\u0259 is\u0259 Tibb Unimversitetinin sonuncu kurslar\u0131nda idi. H\u0259r ikisi Bil\u0259c\u0259rd\u0259 kiray\u0259d\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131.
\nM\u0259n birba\u015fa Bak\u0131ya \u2013 q\u0131r\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f verdiyi XI Q\u0131z\u0131l Ordu dair\u0259sin\u0259, indiki 20 Yanvar metrosu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. Yolda ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u2013 avtobusu saxlad\u0131lar. Bak\u0131ya rayonlardan g\u0259l\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n burax\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdil\u0259r. Bil\u0259c\u0259rinin yoxu\u015funu piyada \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131 oldum. \u00ab\u015eamaxinka\u00bbya \u00e7atanda g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 inana bilm\u0259dim. G\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimi s\u00f6zl\u0259 ifad\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. S\u0131n\u0131q-s\u00f6k\u00fck, \u0259zik-\u00fcz\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131nlardan sanki barrikadalar d\u00fcz\u0259ldilib. Asfalt\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f d\u0259mir, taxta, \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 par\u00e7alar\u0131, tanklar\u0131n t\u0131rt\u0131llar\u0131 alt\u0131nda \u0259zilib bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018ftraf uzun ill\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259ri t\u0259mizl\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015f zibilxanan\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131.
\nXI Q\u0131z\u0131l Ordu dair\u0259sin\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259si buraxm\u0131rd\u0131lar. M\u0259n m\u0259cburiyy\u0259t qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qal\u0131b Bil\u0259c\u0259riy\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. U\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131n kiray\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 evi axtar\u0131b tapd\u0131m. Evin qap\u0131s\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 idi. Qon\u015fulardan u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fdum. Gec\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259dikl\u0259rini s\u00f6yl\u0259dil\u0259r. M\u0259n daha da vahim\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u015e\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259r beynimi sanki ovub da\u011f\u0131d\u0131rr, qara-qorxulu fikirl\u0259r m\u0259ni rahat buraxm\u0131rd\u0131. \u018flimd\u0259n is\u0259 he\u00e7 bir i\u015f g\u0259lmirdi. Onda mobil telefon da yox idi. U\u015faqlardan nec\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r tuta bil\u0259rdim. Fikir v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al\u0131b harasa aparmaq ist\u0259yir, m\u0259ns\u0259 el\u0259 hals\u0131z olmu\u015fdum ki, bir a\u011f\u0131r da\u015f kimi s\u0259kiy\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb qald\u0131m. Handan-hana kims\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, qolumdan tutub qald\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259skinlik verm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. A ki\u015fi, s\u0259brli ol, Allah k\u0259rimdir. M\u0259nim qay\u0131n\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 da s\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131nla oxuyur. O da g\u0259lm\u0259yib. Y\u0259qin ki, bir yerd\u0259dirl\u0259r. Harda olsalar indi g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xarlar. Dur, dur ke\u00e7\u0259k bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7, uzaqdan g\u0259lmis\u0259n, bir az dincini al, yor\u011funlu\u011fun \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n.
\nBiz birm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li ev\u0259 ke\u00e7dik. Haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m adam Vaqif ki\u015fi idi. Tez \u00e7ay g\u0259tirtdi. \u00c7ay i\u00e7\u0259-i\u00e7\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 ba\u015flayan Vaqif ki\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 qorxu, t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. \u00d6t\u0259n gec\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259 s\u0259sind\u0259n, top, fi\u015f\u0259ng at\u0259\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n yata bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rini t\u0259la\u015fla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bu vaxt m\u0259nim arxa t\u0259r\u0259fimd\u0259ki p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rinin \u00e7ilikl\u0259nib t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259si il\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n lap dibind\u0259n ke\u00e7ib, \u00f6n divar\u0131 de\u015f\u0259n g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259rin s\u0259si bir anda ba\u015f verdi. Allah\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bir az yana t\u0259rp\u0259tmi\u015f olsayd\u0131m, narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdiyim t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131ma h\u0259sr\u0259t qalacaqd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik\u2026 Tez dalda yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kildik… M\u0259n\u0259 bir st\u0259kan su verdil\u0259r. Suyu i\u00e7ib, oran\u0131 t\u0259rk etdik.
\nBir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatdan sonra Vaqif ki\u015fi x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259tirdi ki, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 q\u0131zlar bu gec\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 kimi yaral\u0131lar\u0131 \u00abSema\u015fko\u00bb adlanan x\u0259st\u0259xanaya da\u015f\u0131maqla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olublar. S\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131n \u015e\u0259lal\u0259 d\u0259 orada olub. Salamatd\u0131rlar! Ancaq Az\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri yoxdur. Q\u0131zlar deyirl\u0259r ki, yaral\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131nda Az\u0259r\u0259 rast g\u0259lm\u0259yibl\u0259r.
\nD\u00fcz\u00fc, bir q\u0259d\u0259r rahatlad\u0131m. Ax\u015fama az qal\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n geri qay\u0131tmal\u0131, evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 bir x\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7atd\u0131rmal\u0131 idim. Ax\u0131 analar\u0131 \u00e7ox nigaran idi\u2026
\nBak\u0131dan rayonlara ged\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar da yolda he\u00e7 k\u0259si g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259li avtomatl\u0131 h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131 bir-bir yoxlay\u0131b, sonra getm\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 icaz\u0259 verirdi. H\u0259min h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259r yerli – az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r deyildi. \u00c7ox qorxunc, q\u0259z\u0259bli simalar\u0131 vard\u0131, el\u0259 bil g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n qan dam\u0131rd\u0131. H\u00fcnd\u00fcr boylu, iri c\u00fcss\u0259li idil\u0259r. Adi \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdil\u0259r. Sonradan \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdim ki, onlar x\u00fcsusi t\u0259lim g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f partizan-zabitl\u0259rmi\u015f.
\nYolu piyada getm\u0259li oldum. X\u0131rdalan dair\u0259sin\u0259 yax\u0131n d\u0259miryolu k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7atmaqda idim. H\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259r bir qara minik ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda saxlad\u0131b yoxlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar, dayan\u0131b dincimi almaq ist\u0259dim. H\u0259m d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, saxlan\u0131lan bu ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sahibi b\u0259lk\u0259 r\u0259hm el\u0259yib m\u0259ni \u00f6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na mindirdi. M\u0259n bu fikird\u0259 ik\u0259n, n\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259m yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r? H\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259rd\u0259n biri avtomat\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 tu\u015flay\u0131b, \u00abDayanma, yoxsa g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m!\u00bb dey\u0259 uca s\u0259sl\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nD\u00fcz\u00fc oradan nec\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 indi d\u0259 t\u0259ss\u0259v\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Qorxu n\u0259 yaman olurmu\u015f\u2026 Saxlad\u0131lan minik ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da yan\u0131mdan \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7di. Birt\u0259h\u0259r X\u0131rdalan q\u0259bristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 olan t\u0259p\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131m.
\nHava art\u0131q qaralmaqda idi. Yaln\u0131z t\u0259kbir g\u0259l\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolu i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Yolun i\u00e7i il\u0259 getm\u0259k d\u0259 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li idi. Arxadan g\u0259l\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n adam\u0131 vura bil\u0259rdi. Kim kim\u0259 idi, kimin kimd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri olacaqd\u0131 ki?! Yoldan k\u0259nar ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 adam\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na ili\u015fm\u0259y\u0259n da\u015f, k\u0259s\u0259k, m\u0259ftil v\u0259 daha n\u0259l\u0259r qalm\u0131rd\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00fcdr\u0259yib y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m da. Haldan d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 bil Allah\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 r\u0259hmi g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Bir avtobus yan\u0131m\u0131zda dayand\u0131. M\u0259ni v\u0259 yolda olan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sumqay\u0131ta gedirdi. Sumqay\u0131t\u0131n gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259ki dair\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li oldum. Bir n\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Rayona t\u0259r\u0259f ma\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131q. Bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n yor\u011funluq, yuxusuzluq dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n o\u011flum Az\u0259rd\u0259n nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc on il arxaya atd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259 deyildim. O gec\u0259 ev\u0259 nec\u0259 g\u0259ldiyim yad\u0131mda deyil. S\u0259h\u0259ri \u00f6yr\u0259ndim ki, m\u0259niml\u0259 avtobusdan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n adam rast g\u0259ldiyi ma\u015f\u0131nla m\u0259ni k\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259tirib, \u00f6z\u00fc sonra Siy\u0259z\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131bm\u0131\u015f.
\nGec\u0259 qaranl\u0131q oldu\u011fundan m\u0259n onu tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. O is\u0259 m\u0259ni tan\u0131y\u0131b, kim oldu\u011fumu bilibmi\u015f. Bu da Allahdand\u0131r. Allah yax\u015f\u0131 insanlar\u0131 darda qoymas\u0131n.
\n\u0130ndi o g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n 29 il \u00f6t\u00fcb. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, Allah m\u0259ni yenid\u0259n ya\u015fad\u0131b. O v\u0259h\u015fi h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259rin g\u00fcll\u0259sin\u0259 tu\u015f g\u0259tirm\u0259yib. Bir d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n g\u00fcll\u0259sind\u0259n \u00f6ls\u0259ydim onda m\u0259nim d\u0259 al qan\u0131m azadl\u0131q f\u0259dail\u0259rinin qan\u0131na \u2013 \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin qan\u0131na qar\u0131\u015fard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm \u015f\u0259hid say\u0131lmasayd\u0131m da, qan\u0131m V\u0259t\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0259r\u0259nfill\u0259rt\u0259k b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259r, qan izl\u0259rim ana torpa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sind\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, nax\u0131\u015f olub, qalard\u0131. O ana q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6m\u00fcr, sonralar ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u00fcz \u00f6mr\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rdi b\u0259lk\u0259…
\nBir d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, Allah\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdiyi bu 29 illik \u00f6mr\u0259 niy\u0259 bel\u0259 ac\u0131mas\u0131z yana\u015f\u0131ram ki… \u015e\u0259hidlik d\u0259 bir Allah qism\u0259tidir… Y\u0259qin ki, Allah bel\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bilib, m\u0259ni bug\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131b. Balalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n t\u0259hsili, t\u0259rbiy\u0259si i\u015fini davam etdirm\u0259yini r\u0259va g\u00f6r\u00fcb…
\n …X\u0259yal\u0131m yen\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7ox uzaqlara \u00e7\u0259kib apar\u0131r. Vaxtil\u0259 qarda\u015f sovet respublikalar\u0131, s\u00fclhsev\u0259r Sovet Ordusu adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z v\u0259h\u015fil\u0259rin barbarl\u0131q h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lir. \u00abB\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u00bb dedikl\u0259rimizin t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi v\u0259h\u015filiyi he\u00e7 c\u00fcr anlamaq olmur. Bu \u00abb\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u00bb\u0131n \u0259liyal\u0131n \u00abki\u00e7ik\u00bb bac\u0131 v\u0259 qarda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 nec\u0259 qanlar\u0131na q\u0259ltan etdiyini, Bak\u0131n\u0131n nefti-benzini il\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n tank, top v\u0259 pulemyotlar\u0131n g\u00fcnahs\u0131z insanlara, m\u00fclki v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015flara, h\u0259tta u\u015faqlara at\u0259\u015f a\u00e7malar\u0131na, yaral\u0131lar\u0131 da\u015f\u0131yan t\u0259cili yard\u0131m ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259-baran etm\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 n\u0259 ad, n\u0259 qiym\u0259t verm\u0259k olar? Bu v\u0259h\u015filiyi b\u0259\u015f\u0259r \u00f6vlad\u0131 \u2013 insan adlanan m\u0259xluq ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Bu olsa, olsa erm\u0259ni terrorizminin t\u00fcrk xalqlar\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 y\u00f6n\u0259ldilmi\u015f, planl\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irm\u0259k ist\u0259diyi m\u0259nfur siyas\u0259tinin m\u0259hsuludur. O vaxtk\u0131 Sovet imperiyas\u0131n\u0131n azsayl\u0131 mill\u0259tl\u0259rin azadl\u0131q ideyalar\u0131n\u0131 be\u015fikd\u0259c\u0259 bo\u011fmaq siyas\u0259tinin astar \u00fcz\u00fcd\u00fcr. Amma buna nail ola bilm\u0259dil\u0259r, q\u0259hr\u0259man \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin qan\u0131 bahas\u0131na da olsa, biz azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qazand\u0131q. \u015e\u0259hidl\u0259rimiz barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z qanlar\u0131na bat\u0131raraq, \u00abV\u0259t\u0259n\u201d, \u201cAzadl\u0131q\u00bb k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259rini yazaraq, \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fckl\u0259rini \u0259b\u0259dil\u0259\u015fdirdil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n ruhlar\u0131 daima m\u00fcst\u0259qil Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131r. Allah \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259miz\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin. Onlar\u0131n ruhlar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ba\u015f \u0259ym\u0259k h\u0259r bir Az\u0259rbaycan v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s borcudur. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

1990-c\u0131 il yanvar\u0131n 19-dan 20-n\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n gec\u0259ni \u00e7ox narahat yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. S\u0259h\u0259r yata\u011f\u0131mdan qalx\u0131b, tez eyvana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. G\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fc buludlu idi. \u00dcf\u00fcqd\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f t\u00fcnd q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zart\u0131 qara buludlara sar\u0131l\u0131b x\u00fcsusi bir m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ala-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, topa-topa buludlar bir-birini qovurmu\u015f kimi \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131r, s\u0259mada toparla\u015faraq daha t\u00fcnd r\u0259ngd\u0259 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tuturdu. Havadan r\u00fctub\u0259t qoxusu g\u0259lirdi, sanki bu qara […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-29574","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29574","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=29574"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29574\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":29582,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29574\/revisions\/29582"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=29574"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=29574"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=29574"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}