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M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259d\u0259biyyat ruhumdak\u0131 obrazlar dem\u0259kdir, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmc\u0259min m\u0259ni yordu\u011fu varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sirrind\u0259 gizlidir. \u018fd\u0259biyyat insan\u0131 h\u0259m
\nformala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t kimi yeti\u015fdirir.<\/p>\n

AD G\u00dcN\u00dcM <\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 idi s\u0259ssizlik \u0259traf\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259trafa boylanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. S\u0259ssizlik davam edirdi. Yataqdan qalx\u0131b add\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 asta-asta basaraq ir\u0259lil\u0259dim. He\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yimin tez-tez d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259sinin s\u0259b\u0259bini anlam\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu q\u0259rib\u0259 qorxu m\u0259ni yeyib bitirirdi. Haradas\u0131z? sual\u0131 beynimd\u0259 v\u0259 ir\u0259lil\u0259diyim s\u0259ssizlikd\u0259 dolan\u0131b dururdu. Niy\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131mda he\u00e7 k\u0259s yoxdu? Bu sual s\u0259ssizliy\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcbariz\u0259d\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259d\u0259 uduzurdu. \u00d6z \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 bir ah \u00e7\u0259kdim, anam\u0131n, atam\u0131n harada oldu\u011funu bilmirdim. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m evd\u0259ki v\u0259ziyy\u0259t burada dahada a\u011f\u0131r idi. Orada da he\u00e7 k\u0259s yox idi, sonra bird\u0259n \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yuxudayam deyib t\u0259ss\u0259lli verirdim. D\u0259li kimi ora- bura boylan\u0131b kimi axtaraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmirdim. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7evirdim v\u0259qar\u015f\u0131mda qoca bir qad\u0131n peyda oldu. Q\u0259rib\u0259 halda m\u0259n\u0259 baxaraq dilinin ucunda n\u0259s\u0259 t\u0259krarlay\u0131rd\u0131. Qocan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxanda sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bird\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259bsizc\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Qorxub qar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutaraq sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, amma h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Sakitl\u0259\u015f dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m. Qar\u0131 susub a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131 m\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00fcnahkaram\u0131\u015f kimi ondan \u00fczr ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o m\u0259ni n\u0259 e\u015fidir, n\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, amma hiss ed\u0259 bilirdi, onun \u0259ll\u0259rini h\u0259l\u0259 buraxmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Qad\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 yorulmu\u015f \u0259ll\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259haradansa tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259lirdi. Onun \u0259ll\u0259rini burax\u0131b hara ged\u0259c\u0259yimibilm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k yoluma davam etdim. Qad\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b a\u011flama\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n, s\u0259si is\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131mdan getmirdi, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131ll\u0131olmayaraq \u00e7evrilib arxama baxd\u0131m. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 var idi. Ya\u015fl\u0131 bir ki\u015fi qar\u0131ya \u201cg\u0259l-g\u0259l ged\u0259k burada he\u00e7 k\u0259s yoxdu\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k, aparma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Onlar\u0131n ard\u0131nca getdim. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fi qad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 idi. Onan\u0259s\u0259 dey\u0259r\u0259k apar\u0131rd\u0131. Qar\u0131 is\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm dey\u0259r\u0259k a\u011flay\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259rinin yan\u0131 il\u0259 ir\u0259lil\u0259yirdi. Ki\u015fi yolda dayanaraq qar\u0131ya n\u0259s\u0259 dedi v\u0259 d\u00fckana girdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra \u0259lind\u0259 iki g\u0259r\u0259nfil v\u0259 bir g\u0259lincikl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qoluna gir\u0259r\u0259k ged\u0259k dedi. Onlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca ged\u0259r\u0259k bir m\u0259zarl\u0131\u011fa g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki hiss bura ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259ldiyimi deyirdi, amma bilirdim ki, bu bel\u0259 deyil. Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259rin m\u0259zarlar\u0131na baxaraq gedir v\u0259 qorxu hissi hissi ke\u00e7irirdim. Qar\u0131 il\u0259 qoca ki\u015fi bir m\u0259zar\u0131n yan\u0131nda dayanaraq dua oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u00d6l\u0259nin onlar\u0131n yax\u0131nlar\u0131, h\u0259tta u\u015faqlar\u0131 ola bil\u0259c\u0259yini anlad\u0131m. Bir az da ir\u0259li ged\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6l\u0259nin kim oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. Ola bilm\u0259z!.. Bu m\u0259nim m\u0259zar\u0131m idi. M\u0259zar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind eyni do\u011fum v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm tarixi yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259tta, o tarix bu g\u00fcn\u0259 aid idi. Qar\u0131 \u201cq\u0131z\u0131m, q\u0131z\u0131m\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 silirdi. O an anlad\u0131m ki, onlar m\u0259nim s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m valideyinl\u0259rim idil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Qoca ki\u015fi ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki q\u0259r\u0259nfill\u0259ri qoydu v\u0259 sonra \u0259lind\u0259ki g\u0259linciyi qoyub do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259brik etdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, bu g\u00fcn m\u0259nim do\u011fum v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u00fcr. \u018flind\u0259kil\u0259ri qoyub qoca ki\u015fi qar\u0131ya \u201cBu q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259sdir ged\u0259k\u201d \u2013dey\u0259r\u0259k, add\u0131mlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. M\u0259n is\u0259 gedib m\u0259zar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 oturub onlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca uzun-uzun baxd\u0131m. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259d\u0259biyyat ruhumdak\u0131 obrazlar dem\u0259kdir, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmc\u0259min m\u0259ni yordu\u011fu varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sirrind\u0259 gizlidir. \u018fd\u0259biyyat insan\u0131 h\u0259m formala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t kimi yeti\u015fdirir. AD G\u00dcN\u00dcM S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 idi s\u0259ssizlik \u0259traf\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259trafa boylanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. S\u0259ssizlik davam edirdi. Yataqdan qalx\u0131b add\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 asta-asta basaraq ir\u0259lil\u0259dim. He\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yimin tez-tez d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259sinin s\u0259b\u0259bini anlam\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[52],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-30535","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-zerifkolgeler"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30535","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=30535"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30535\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":30543,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30535\/revisions\/30543"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=30535"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=30535"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=30535"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}