{"id":30583,"date":"2019-05-11T01:00:20","date_gmt":"2019-05-10T21:00:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=30583"},"modified":"2019-05-11T09:09:52","modified_gmt":"2019-05-11T05:09:52","slug":"sair%c9%99-publisist-n%c9%99cib%c9%99-ilkin-secm%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=30583","title":{"rendered":"\u015eair\u0259-publisist N\u0259cib\u0259 \u0130LK\u0130N.Se\u00e7m\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"ni\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar v\u0259 Jurnalistl\u0259r Birlikl\u0259rinin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidenti T\u0259qa\u00fcd F\u0259ndunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc,
\n\u201cAzad q\u0259l\u0259m\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, ictimai-publisistik q\u0259zetinin v\u0259
\n\u201cAli Ziya\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, elmi-publisistik jurnal\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sis\u00e7isi v\u0259 ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 Qaraba\u0123a
\nGed\u0259n h\u0259st\u0259tim yan\u0131r<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 intihara
\nYol gedir \u00fcmidl\u0259rim.
\nOgey bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131mda
\nG\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259nir d\u0259rdl\u0259rim.<\/p>\n

Azal\u0131r dodag\u0131mda
\nG\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcn saylar\u0131.
\nBir bir \u00f6l\u00fcb gedirl\u0259r
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin taylar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Gozl\u0259rimin i\u015f\u0131\u0123\u0131
\n\u0172r\u0259yimd\u0259n g\u00fcc al\u0131r.
\n\u018fll\u0259rimd\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n
\nArzular\u0131m qocal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259st\u0259tim\u0259 t\u00fcl tutub
\nD\u0259rdim\u0259 yor\u0123an sal\u0131r.
\nV\u0259t\u0259n g\u00f6y\u0259rd\u0259n arzum
\nYar\u0131 yollarda qal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Da\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r
\nAx\u015fama d\u00f6n\u0259n sabah.
\nV\u0259t\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259n dogulan
\nV\u0259t\u0259nsiz \u00f6l\u0259n sabah.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 Qaraba\u0123a
\nGed\u0259n h\u0259st\u0259tim yan\u0131r.
\nBu gec\u0259 \u00fcmidl\u0259rim
\nS\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 qalaqlan\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ay \u015eu\u015fam<\/p>\n

May 1997…..<\/p>\n

Bahar g\u0259lib yaz olurmu sin\u0259nd\u0259?
\nI\u015fv\u0259, \u0259da, naz olurmu sin\u0259nd\u0259?
\nBulaq \u00fcst\u0259 saz olurmu sin\u0259nd\u0259?
\nDill\u0259nirmi da\u011f\u0131n, da\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam?!<\/p>\n

Perikdimi b\u00fclb\u00fcll\u0259rin, qartal\u0131n?
\nM\u0259lul-m\u0259lul boylan\u0131rm\u0131 maral\u0131n?
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 qan a\u011flay\u0131r bu hal\u0131n,
\nHarda qald\u0131 ilk sirda\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam?!<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 ya\u015f oldun,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 bir \u0259rim\u0259z da\u015f oldun,
\nT\u0259rlan idin, bayquslara tu\u015f oldun
\nN\u0259 b\u0259lad\u0131r \u00e7\u0259kir ba\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam?!<\/p>\n

Durna k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fc yol salanda \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n,
\nNam\u0259 yaz\u0131b g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259ydim g\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259n,
\nKa\u015f b\u00f6l\u0259ydim nisgilimi s\u0259nl\u0259 t\u0259n,
\nN\u0259 bac\u0131n var, n\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam!<\/p>\n

Nat\u0259van\u0131n ruhu s\u0131zlar ah\u0259st\u0259,
\nVaqif yatmaz bu harayda, bu s\u0259sd\u0259,
\n\u00dczeyirin q\u0259mli notlar\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259,
\nXan oxusun \u00e7at\u0131b qa\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam!<\/p>\n

Bulaqlar\u0131n h\u0259zin-h\u0259zin a\u011flay\u0131r,
\nK\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in da\u011flay\u0131r,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 q\u0259m sirsira ba\u011flay\u0131r,
\nSil\u0259n yoxdu g\u00f6z\u00fcm ya\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam!<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar\u0131na duman olub b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259m,
\nTorpa\u011f\u0131nda dizin-dizin s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259m,
\nBirc\u0259 anl\u0131q yollar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259m,
\nBu h\u0259sr\u0259tin ataq da\u015f\u0131n, ay \u015eu\u015fam!<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcml\u00fc gec\u0259m<\/p>\n

\u0130slatd\u0131 d\u0259rdimi g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131mda,
\nQuca\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u0259tir\u0259n gec\u0259.
\nH\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc s\u0259sind\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan s\u0259h\u0259r,
\nK\u0259sdi k\u0259l\u0259yimi dan yerin\u0259c\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Donmu\u015f n\u0259f\u0259simd\u0259 \u015feh\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259ndi,
\nRuhumun can adl\u0131 s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131.
\nS\u0259n dem\u0259 d\u0259rd el\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259ndi,
\nA\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm qatlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Susdu kabus kimi, susdu o gec\u0259,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm k\u00fcl\u0259yinin \u0259sdi yell\u0259ri.
\nAsd\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n k\u0259f\u0259nliyimi,
\nA\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 q\u0259brimin q\u0259rib dill\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

Bir \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u0259tirdi m\u0259n\u0259 o gec\u0259,
\nBir \u00f6l\u00fcm oxudu \u00f6m\u00fcr pay\u0131ma.
\nM\u0259n can dil\u0259m\u0259dim, heyf bu \u00f6m\u00fcr-
\nCan ver\u0259 bilm\u0259di v\u0259t\u0259n hay\u0131na.<\/p>\n

04.05.2019<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar v\u0259 Jurnalistl\u0259r Birlikl\u0259rinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidenti T\u0259qa\u00fcd F\u0259ndunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201cAzad q\u0259l\u0259m\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, ictimai-publisistik q\u0259zetinin v\u0259 \u201cAli Ziya\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, elmi-publisistik jurnal\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sis\u00e7isi v\u0259 ba\u015f redaktoru Bu gec\u0259 Qaraba\u0123a Ged\u0259n h\u0259st\u0259tim yan\u0131r Bu gec\u0259 intihara Yol gedir \u00fcmidl\u0259rim. Ogey bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131mda G\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259nir d\u0259rdl\u0259rim. Azal\u0131r dodag\u0131mda G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcn saylar\u0131. Bir bir \u00f6l\u00fcb gedirl\u0259r \u00dcr\u0259yimin taylar\u0131. Gozl\u0259rimin i\u015f\u0131\u0123\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-30583","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30583","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=30583"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30583\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":30589,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/30583\/revisions\/30589"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=30583"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=30583"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=30583"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}