{"id":32305,"date":"2019-09-06T10:00:24","date_gmt":"2019-09-06T06:00:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=32305"},"modified":"2019-09-06T10:58:43","modified_gmt":"2019-09-06T06:58:43","slug":"xalq-sairi-r%c9%99sul-rza-secm%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=32305","title":{"rendered":"Xalq \u015fairi R\u0259sul RZA.Se\u00e7m\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a><\/p>\n

M\u0259n torpa\u011fam<\/p>\n

M\u0259n torpa\u011fam, m\u0259ni at\u0259\u015f yand\u0131rmaz;
\nt\u0259rkibimd\u0259 k\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcm var,
\nk\u00fcl\u00fcm var.
\nM\u0259n baharam \u00e7\u0259m\u0259n-\u00e7\u0259m\u0259n
\n\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yim var, g\u00fcl\u00fcm var.
\nM\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259m, \u0259sm\u0259s\u0259m,
\nkim bil\u0259r ki, m\u0259n varam.
\nM\u0259n buludam, s\u0259hralar\u0131 susuz g\u00f6r\u00fcb,
\na\u011flaram.
\nM\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259m, d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259m
\n\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n insanam,
\nsad\u0259 insan \u0259linin
\nyaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 nem\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259m
\n\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n i\u015f\u0131\u011fam – qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n q\u0259nimi,
\nM\u0259n insanam,
\nda\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram q\u0259lbimd\u0259
\nd\u00fcnyalar\u0131n sevincini, q\u0259mini.
\nMaraq dolu g\u00f6z\u0259m m\u0259n,
\nbaxmaya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.
\nQarl\u0131 da\u011fdan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n \u00e7ayam m\u0259n,
\naxmaya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n insanam,
\nv\u0259t\u0259nim var, elim var.
\n\u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259qiq\u0259ti,
\nazadl\u0131\u011f\u0131, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, nifr\u0259ti –
\ns\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 qadir olan
\ndilim var.
\nM\u0259n bir qranit\u0259m ki,
\nh\u0259r par\u00e7amda duyulur
\nb\u0259rkliyim,
\nd\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259mliyim,
\n\u00fclf\u0259td\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259kliyim.
\nM\u0259n insanam, \u00fclf\u0259tsiz –
\n\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tsiz, nifr\u0259tsiz –
\n\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n bula\u011fam,
\ntap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qla axm\u0131ram.
\nM\u0259n h\u0259yatam,
\nh\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yoldayam:
\nn\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259y\u0259m, arzudayam,
\nbax\u0131\u015fdayam, \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259y\u0259m, qoldayam.
\nM\u0259n torpa\u011fam, nem\u0259timi, var\u0131m\u0131
\nz\u0259hm\u0259t sev\u0259n insanlarla b\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259m, d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259m
\n\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

1963<\/p>\n

Torpaq<\/p>\n

Torpaq bomboz;
\nel\u0259 bil ki, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259
\nd\u0259mrov d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.
\nBir yanda \u00e7adar-\u00e7adar,
\nbir yanda doxsan ya\u015fl\u0131 qoca \u00fcz\u00fc kimi
\nb\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.
\nBir yanda anas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f u\u015faq kimi
\nsevincli, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kli,
\nbir yanda susuz.
\nBir yanda sudan bezar.
\nBir yanda qumu qaynar.
\nBir yanda \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc qar.
\nTorpaq h\u0259m \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k verir biz\u0259,
\nH\u0259m su.
\nH\u0259m son m\u0259nzilimiz\u0259 yer verir.
\nN\u0259sil-n\u0259sil q\u0259lbimizd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r
\nonu itirm\u0259k qorxusu.<\/p>\n

1965<\/p>\n

Soru\u015f<\/p>\n

Od n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,
\nk\u00fcld\u0259n soru\u015f!
\nBa\u015f n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,
\ndild\u0259n soru\u015f!
\n\u0130\u015f\u0259 susuz barmaqlar\u0131n
\nk\u0259d\u0259rini insan bilir.
\nN\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rin h\u0259sr\u0259tini
\nbir q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f teld\u0259n soru\u015f!
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tin yollar\u0131nda
\nda\u015fa l\u0259pir salsa ayaq,
\ng\u00fcn n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,
\nild\u0259n soru\u015f!
\nZ\u00fclm\u0259tliyin m\u00f6hn\u0259tini
\nkor s\u00f6yl\u0259sin!
\nB\u0259m xallar\u0131n f\u0259ryad\u0131n\u0131
\nzild\u0259n soru\u015f!
\nM\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259siz ba\u011f g\u00f6rm\u0259dim,
\nEl d\u0259rdi t\u0259k da\u011f g\u00f6rm\u0259dim,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumub a\u00e7d\u0131m
\nne\u00e7\u0259 dostu sa\u011f g\u00f6rm\u0259dim.
\nN\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kdi \u00e7aylaq da\u015f\u0131
\nseld\u0259n soru\u015f!
\nYollar uzun, m\u0259nzil uzaq.
\nS\u0259rt da\u015flara d\u00f6zm\u00fcr ayaq.
\nD\u00f6zs\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k.
\nD\u00f6zs\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k.
\nKim zirv\u0259y\u0259 qalxar, deyin,
\nYollar boyu h\u0259r pill\u0259ni
\nbirg\u00fcnl\u0259ri, y\u00fczill\u0259ri
\nq\u0259lbimizl\u0259,
\nbeynimizl\u0259
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fczl\u0259
\ndoldurmasaq.
\nM\u0259n yol\u00e7uyam
\nOd n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,
\nk\u00fcld\u0259n soru\u015f!
\nhans\u0131 \u015ferim,
\nhans\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcm
\nya\u015fayacaq m\u0259nd\u0259n sonra?
\nM\u0259n bilmir\u0259m,
\neld\u0259n soru\u015f!<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131, yanvar, 1964<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131sall\u0131q<\/p>\n

Uzun ill\u0259r s\u0131xd\u0131 m\u0259ni:
\ngah \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259rim –
\nb\u0259z\u0259n uzunu, b\u0259z\u0259n eni il\u0259,
\nGah \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n il\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf\u00fcm.
\nGah \u00fcmidim, yeni il\u0259.
\nGah d\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u0259rdi, q\u0259mi s\u0131xd\u0131 m\u0259ni,
\ngah corablar\u0131m\u0131n bo\u011faz\u0131,
\nGah al\u00e7aq buludlar\u0131n qal\u0131n p\u0259rd\u0259si;
\nGah bir nadan q\u0259l\u0259mind\u0259n
\nt\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n yaz\u0131.
\nGah avtomat q\u0259l\u0259min bahal\u0131\u011f\u0131.
\nGah s\u00f6z\u00fcn ucuzlu\u011fu.
\nGah k\u00f6yn\u0259yimin yaxal\u0131\u011f\u0131.
\nQ\u0131r\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259dim
\n“olar”, olmaz” \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sind\u0259n.
\nDedil\u0259r yox, yox!
\nD\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259, qaydalara gir!
\nV\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259ri, ad\u0259tl\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259!
\nS\u0131\u011fall\u0131 dill\u0259 yaz!
\nS\u0131xd\u0131lar m\u0259ni,
\nmadd\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259, s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259\u2026
\n\u0130\u015f ota\u011f\u0131m
\non iki metr yar\u0131m.
\nAlt\u0131s\u0131nda
\nm\u0259n,
\nyaz\u0131 masam,
\nh\u0259sr\u0259tim, \u00fcmidim.
\nSabir.
\nHeminquey.
\nTavandan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n damc\u0131lar\u0131n izi.
\nBricid Bordonun
\nb\u0131\u011fs\u0131z, pi\u015fik \u00fcz\u00fc.
\nFalk, Mikay\u0131l,
\nTa\u011f\u0131,
\nB\u0259hlulun n\u0259v\u0259si.
\n\u0130lk s\u0131rada olmaq
\nv\u0259 qalmaq h\u0259v\u0259si.
\nAlt\u0131 metr bel\u0259.
\nAlt\u0131 yar\u0131m:
\nkitablar, kitablar, kitablar\u0131m.
\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r s\u0131xd\u0131 m\u0259ni
\nuzunsov d\u00f6rdbucaqda g\u00f6st\u0259rib
\nk\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin evl\u0259rl\u0259 s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259nmi\u015f yar\u011fan\u0131n\u0131.
\nMa\u015f\u0131nlar s\u0131xd\u0131 m\u0259ni
\nmarkalar\u0131na m\u00fcnasib.
\nS\u0131xd\u0131 m\u0259ni vaqonlar\u0131n
\ng\u00fczg\u00fcl\u00fc kupel\u0259ri v\u0259
\nyol hesabat\u0131n\u0131 yoxlayan m\u00fchasib.
\nM\u0259saf\u0259l\u0259r metrl\u0259rl\u0259,
\ni\u015f\u0131q kilovatlarla doldurulub.
\nN\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259r oktava i\u00e7ind\u0259
\nX\u0259st\u0259l\u0259rin h\u0259rar\u0259ti
\nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259l\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259.
\n\u0130ri meyv\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259,
\n\u00fcz\u00fcm-g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 gil\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dolub.
\n\u015e\u0259h\u0259rimin ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131
\n\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcb, bi\u00e7ilib
\nsal\u0131n\u0131b r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259r\u0259.
\nDa\u011flar dar\u0131x\u0131b g\u00f6y\u0259 qalx\u0131b
\nd\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb yer\u0259.
\nDar\u0131x\u0131r insan
\nh\u00fcdudlar, \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259.
\nYayda uzun g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r,
\nq\u0131\u015fda uzun gec\u0259l\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259.
\nDeyir\u0259m:
\n\u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259, at\u0131n
\n\u0259n d\u0259rin d\u0259ryaya m\u0259ni;
\nqald\u0131r\u0131b buludlardan yuxar\u0131!
\nSon yolum uzun,
\nson m\u0259nzilim geni\u015f olsun bar\u0131
\nYox, yox.
\n\u018fn d\u0259rin d\u0259ryalar da
\nsahill\u0259rin \u00e7\u0259nb\u0259ri i\u00e7ind\u0259dir.
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr,
\ndar\u0131sqall\u0131q k\u0259narda deyil;
\nh\u0259r meyv\u0259nin tumunda,
\nh\u0259r canl\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fcceyr\u0259sind\u0259,
\nh\u0259r binan\u0131n da\u015f\u0131nda, k\u0259rpicind\u0259dir.
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr,
\nyolumuz budur.
\nZ\u0259rur\u0259ti d\u0259rk etm\u0259yinc\u0259
\ngedirik, ged\u0259c\u0259yik
\nDar\u0131sqall\u0131qdan ke\u00e7\u0259-ke\u00e7\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

1967<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u0259n torpa\u011fam M\u0259n torpa\u011fam, m\u0259ni at\u0259\u015f yand\u0131rmaz; t\u0259rkibimd\u0259 k\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcm var, k\u00fcl\u00fcm var. M\u0259n baharam \u00e7\u0259m\u0259n-\u00e7\u0259m\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yim var, g\u00fcl\u00fcm var. M\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259m, \u0259sm\u0259s\u0259m, kim bil\u0259r ki, m\u0259n varam. M\u0259n buludam, s\u0259hralar\u0131 susuz g\u00f6r\u00fcb, a\u011flaram. M\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259m, d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259m \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259n insanam, sad\u0259 insan \u0259linin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 nem\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259m \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259n i\u015f\u0131\u011fam – qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n q\u0259nimi, M\u0259n insanam, da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram q\u0259lbimd\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32305","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32305","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=32305"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32305\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":32320,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32305\/revisions\/32320"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=32305"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=32305"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=32305"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}