{"id":32929,"date":"2019-10-16T07:00:26","date_gmt":"2019-10-16T03:00:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=32929"},"modified":"2019-10-16T09:44:05","modified_gmt":"2019-10-16T05:44:05","slug":"s%c9%99fa-eyvaz-secm%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=32929","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa EYVAZ.Se\u00e7m\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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T\u0259hsil Probleml\u0259ri \u0130nstitutunun Kurikulum M\u0259rk\u0259zinin b\u00f6y\u00fck elmi i\u015f\u00e7isi, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n M\u0259sul katibi<\/strong><\/p>\n

Qorxu…<\/p>\n

Qorxaq do\u011fulduq bu h\u0259yata…
\nqorxaq.
\ndaha g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz a\u00e7\u0131lmadan
\n\u00fcsyan etdik h\u0259yata, qorxularla
\ns\u0259simizl\u0259…
\nqorxduq h\u0259yat\u0131n biz\u0259 haz\u0131rlad\u0131qlar\u0131ndan…
\nb\u0259lk\u0259 daha do\u011fular-do\u011fulmaz,
\n\u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131za vurulan buxovlar qorxutdu bizi…
\nh\u0259yat bu olsa g\u0259r\u0259k…
\nbizi azadl\u0131qdan ay\u0131ran b\u0259l\u0259k.
\nb\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259.<\/p>\n

Qorxaq do\u011fulduq h\u0259yata…
\nyetm\u0259di, qorxaq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fck…
\nu\u015faqk\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rimiz\u0259 vurdular
\n\u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimiz\u0259 toxundu\u011fumuzda,
\nistiy\u0259 toxunduq… oddan qorxduq,
\ny\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131q, yerim\u0259kd\u0259n…
\nh\u0259yata ilk add\u0131mlar atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda.<\/p>\n

Qorxaq do\u011fulduq h\u0259yata…
\nqorxduq.
\nqar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131xan t\u0259p\u0259l\u0259ri da\u011f sand\u0131q,
\nki\u00e7icik baryerl\u0259ri y\u00fcks\u0259k divarlar…
\n\u00f6yr\u0259ndik laz\u0131ms\u0131zlar\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259y\u0259
\nbel\u0259c\u0259 aldand\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz d\u0259…
\nqorxaq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fck…<\/p>\n

Qorxmamaq laz\u0131md\u0131 halbuki…
\nqorxmamaq.
\nbarma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131ra bildiyimiz\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zla tutunmaq
\nsava\u015fa bilm\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rimizi yand\u0131ran odla,
\nm\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparmaq dizimizi s\u0131y\u0131ran
\nda\u015fla-torpaqla…
\nyenm\u0259k qorxular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131
\nir\u0259liy\u0259 add\u0131mlamaq, ancaq ir\u0259li
\nh\u0259tta b\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z bahas\u0131na…
\nbacarmad\u0131q…<\/p>\n

Biz h\u0259yata qorxaraq do\u011fulduq…
\nqorxaraq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fck…
\nqorxaraq \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yik
\n\u018fc\u0259l adl\u0131 z\u0259ngin son s\u0259das\u0131ndan…<\/p>\n

n\u0259 idi qorxu, qorxmaq?!
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qorxmaq, qorunmaqd\u0131 yox olmaqdan…
\nkim bilir???<\/p>\n

11 sentyabr 2012…<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Soyuq olur torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fc unutmu\u015fam…
\nH\u0259r ax\u015fam g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131ndan sonra
\nqaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n dizl\u0259rin\u0259 ba\u015f qoyuram.
\nyuxum g\u0259lmir,
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimin qaras\u0131nda
\ndaldalan\u0131b
\ngec\u0259ni sabaha u\u011furlay\u0131ram…
\nQebirlerin fonunda
\ng\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015fqa olur…
\nAds\u0131z q\u0259birl\u0259rl\u0259 doludu d\u00f6rd yan\u0131m.
\nham\u0131 kimi menim de
\n\u00fcnvans\u0131zd\u0131 ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131m…
\nr\u0259smim yoxdu, g\u00fcnahd\u0131.
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 yazmay\u0131n
\ndedim ax\u0131…
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fc unutmu\u015fam…
\n_2013_<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

T\u0259hsil Probleml\u0259ri \u0130nstitutunun Kurikulum M\u0259rk\u0259zinin b\u00f6y\u00fck elmi i\u015f\u00e7isi, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n M\u0259sul katibi Qorxu… Qorxaq do\u011fulduq bu h\u0259yata… qorxaq. daha g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz a\u00e7\u0131lmadan \u00fcsyan etdik h\u0259yata, qorxularla s\u0259simizl\u0259… qorxduq h\u0259yat\u0131n biz\u0259 haz\u0131rlad\u0131qlar\u0131ndan… b\u0259lk\u0259 daha do\u011fular-do\u011fulmaz, \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131za vurulan buxovlar qorxutdu bizi… h\u0259yat bu olsa g\u0259r\u0259k… bizi azadl\u0131qdan ay\u0131ran b\u0259l\u0259k. b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259. Qorxaq do\u011fulduq h\u0259yata… yetm\u0259di, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32929","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32929","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=32929"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32929\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":32939,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32929\/revisions\/32939"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=32929"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=32929"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=32929"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}