{"id":32961,"date":"2019-10-17T08:00:47","date_gmt":"2019-10-17T04:00:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=32961"},"modified":"2019-10-17T13:59:09","modified_gmt":"2019-10-17T09:59:09","slug":"ceyhun%c9%99-mehman-yeni-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=32961","title":{"rendered":"Ceyhun\u0259 MEHMAN.Yeni \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n G\u0259nc\u0259basar B\u00fcrosunun R\u0259hb\u0259ri<\/strong><\/p>\n

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U\u00e7uq daxma kimis\u0259n,
\nT\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131ma.
\nN\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n, ay adam,
\nBu it\u0259n yadda\u015f\u0131ma?!<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 q\u0131\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259
\nT\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259yib qar pay\u0131.
\nS\u0259n\u0259 yer yox evimd\u0259,
\nT\u0259kadaml\u0131q \u00e7arpay\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 birlikd\u0259 h\u0259yat var,
\nN\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011fa yerimiz.
\n\u00c7oxdan intihar edib,
\nQo\u015fa \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rimiz.<\/p>\n

Ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, indi get,
\nGet! aldatma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni unutmu\u015fam,
\nXat\u0131rlatma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc…<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259diyi
\nf\u0259sill\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131,
\nYadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 muharib\u0259d\u0259 itir\u0259n qoca.
\nQ\u0131\u015f \u00e7oxdan haqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f d\u0259 t\u0259sir etmirdi
\nkipriyin q\u0131rovuna.
\nQ\u0259rib\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri vard\u0131;
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259r-d\u0259niz
\nUlduzlar-bal\u0131q idi,
\nV\u0259 h\u0259r gec\u0259 g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 tilov atard\u0131,
\nBirc\u0259 “bal\u0131q” d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zdi tilovuna<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 soyuqlu\u011fun c\u0259llada d\u00f6n\u00fcb,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 almad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ne\u00e7\u0259 can durur?
\nS\u0259nin buz \u00fcr\u0259yin, q\u0131\u015f n\u0259f\u0259sinmi
\nM\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi bel\u0259 dondurur?<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr, h\u0259tta
\n\u0130sti g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 hiss ed\u0259 bilmir.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bir soba d\u0259rd qalasam da,
\nSoyuq \u00fcr\u0259yimi isid\u0259 bilmir.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 uzaqla\u015f\u0131r getdiyim qatar,
\nArxamca ha s\u0259sl\u0259n, ha y\u00fcy\u00fcr indi.
\nSoyuyub arzum da, x\u0259yallar\u0131m da,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn xatir\u0259l\u0259r \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr indi.<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q y\u00fck olurmu s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259,
\n\u018fzablar\u0131m sol \u00e7iynini \u0259yirmi?
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n m\u0259ni bitir\u0259n bu suallar,
\nS\u0259nin birc\u0259 cavabina d\u0259yirmi?!<\/p>\n

N\u0259 dem\u0259dim s\u0259n\u0259 “unut”, “ayr\u0131laq”,
\nN\u0259 dem\u0259dim, “d\u0259li kimi sev m\u0259ni”
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n yen\u0259 t\u00f6vb\u0259 edib gec\u0259l\u0259r,
\nG\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri pozursanm\u0131 t\u00f6vb\u0259ni?!<\/p>\n

Fikirl\u0259rin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131 arabir,
\nX\u0259yallar\u0131n yen\u0259 duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc?
\nM\u0259nim burda itirdiyim yuxular,
\nS\u0259nin orda yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 de\u015firmi?<\/p>\n

Qa\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gec\u0259l\u0259ri kabusdan,
\nVerirs\u0259nmi yuxularda n\u0259zir s\u0259n?
\nBax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n soyunurmu \u0259ksimi,
\nYoxsa yen\u0259 ham\u0131da m\u0259n g\u0259zirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n s\u0259h\u0259ri,
\nGizli-gizli p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015f\u0131r ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar.
\nN\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, \u0259g\u0259r geri qay\u0131tsan,
\nTanr\u0131 s\u0259ni g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131ma ba\u011f\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, soyuyubdur g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m
\nYana\u011f\u0131ma k\u0259d\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131r, qar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 iki d\u00fcnya qovu\u015fur,
\nDoda\u011f\u0131mda \u00f6l\u00fcm nec\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ham\u0131n\u0131n
\nM\u0259nim il\u0259 davas\u0131 var, d\u0259rdi var.
\n\u00c7oxdand\u0131r ki, taleyimin y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc,
\nDa\u015f\u0131yamm\u0131r \u00f6m\u00fcr adl\u0131 n\u0259rdivan.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, bu bitm\u0259y\u0259n \u0259zablar
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimi ac qurd kimi yeyirl\u0259r.
\nB\u0259nizimd\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tindi saralan,
\nH\u0259kiml\u0259rim “qanazl\u0131\u011f\u0131” deyirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259m s\u0259ni unudan,
\nS\u0259ns\u0259n m\u0259ni h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az itir\u0259n.
\nN\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb,
\nYava\u015f-yava\u015f k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcr xatir\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Yurd yuvas\u0131 talanm\u0131\u015f yax\u0131n \u015e\u0259rq \u00f6lk\u0259siy\u0259m,
\nS\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131\u011fmayan bir d\u0259rdin k\u00f6lg\u0259siy\u0259m.
\nBilm\u0259m, kimin “ka\u015fki”si,
\n kiml\u0259rin “b\u0259lk\u0259”siy\u0259m
\nKiml\u0259rin d\u00fcn\u0259niy\u0259m, kimin sabah\u0131yam m\u0259n…<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ovcuma t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m,
\nA\u00e7\u0131lmayan bo\u011f\u00e7at\u0259k i\u00e7imd\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m
\nGec\u0259l\u0259r edam olub, \u00e7arm\u0131xa \u00e7\u0259kilir\u0259m,
\nKimins\u0259 duas\u0131yam, kimins\u0259 “ah\u0131”yam m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Bilm\u0259m, harda itirdim o vicdan\u0131 qaln\u0131m\u0131?!
\nBilm\u0259m, harda unutdum o \u00fcr\u0259yi yaln\u0131m\u0131?!
\nYoxlu\u011funu b\u00fct edib, s\u00f6yk\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m aln\u0131m\u0131,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahs\u0131zlar\u0131n ortaq g\u00fcnah\u0131yam m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz bu bo\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259, bu \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131z evd\u0259y\u0259m.
\nT\u0259rk edilmi\u015f kils\u0259y\u0259m, g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f k\u0259b\u0259y\u0259m,
\n“\u0130ncil”d\u0259ki yasa\u011fam, “T\u00f6vrat”dak\u0131 t\u00f6vb\u0259y\u0259m
\nN\u0259 deyim, bu h\u0259sr\u0259tin, d\u0259rdin Allah\u0131yam, m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

G\u0259lm\u0259<\/p>\n

G\u0259lm\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm,
\ng\u0259lm\u0259, soyuq bir da\u015fam.
\nT\u0259rk edilmi\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259m,
\nitirilmi\u015f yadda\u015fam.<\/p>\n

T\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcm yarpaq-yarpaq,
\ns\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcm ilm\u0259-ilm\u0259.
\nG\u0259lm\u0259, d\u0259rdim, d\u0259rman\u0131m,
\n\u00f6l\u00fcm f\u0259rman\u0131m, g\u0259lm\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bilm\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm,
\nbilm\u0259, kim\u0259m, n\u0259\u00e7iy\u0259m.
\n\u00d6z d\u0259rdini yamayan,
\n\u0259n na\u015f\u0131 pin\u0259\u00e7iy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

G\u0259lm\u0259, sirrim, s\u00f6hb\u0259tim,
\nQ\u0259lbimd\u0259 qalan\u0131msan.
\n\u018fn yalan h\u0259qiq\u0259tim,
\n\u0259n ger\u00e7\u0259k yalan\u0131msan.<\/p>\n

Bilm\u0259, nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b,
\ns\u0259nsiz nec\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin yox, a zal\u0131m,
\nh\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn din\u0259c\u0259k inan,
\nq\u0259lbind\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131lar.
\nS\u0259ni incitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\nBu nax\u0259l\u0259f do\u011frular.<\/p>\n

Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, \u0259n do\u011fma,
\n\u0259n yax\u0131n, k\u0259sin yoxdur.
\nY\u0259ni intihar ets\u0259n,
\nipini k\u0259s\u0259n yoxdur.<\/p>\n

Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, bu d\u00fcnya,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.
\nAtmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n tilova,
\n“Q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131q” d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, s\u0259ninki,
\nYalquzaq t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131.
\nd\u0259ryaya atacaqsan
\nO g\u00fcn “q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131\u011f\u0131”.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni incitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\ni\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259r z\u00fcl\u00fcml\u0259r.
\nAdil\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259k inan,
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131qlar, \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259r..<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rin dolsa bel\u0259
\nh\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb susacaqsan.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn pe\u015fmanl\u0131qlar\u0131
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qusacaqsan.<\/p>\n

Tutacaq \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n
\nke\u00e7mi\u015fin \u0259sa kimi
\n\u00c7\u0259kil\u0259c\u0259k \u00e7arm\u0131xa,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yin “\u0130sa” kimi.<\/p>\n

D\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dins\u0259,
\nS\u0259n bu “a\u011f-qara” fonu
\nBa\u011flanacaq p\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259r,
\nBu da filmin sonu…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n G\u0259nc\u0259basar B\u00fcrosunun R\u0259hb\u0259ri * * * U\u00e7uq daxma kimis\u0259n, T\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131ma. N\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n, ay adam, Bu it\u0259n yadda\u015f\u0131ma?! H\u0259l\u0259 q\u0131\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 T\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259yib qar pay\u0131. S\u0259n\u0259 yer yox evimd\u0259, T\u0259kadaml\u0131q \u00e7arpay\u0131. N\u0259 birlikd\u0259 h\u0259yat var, N\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011fa yerimiz. \u00c7oxdan intihar edib, Qo\u015fa \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rimiz. Ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, indi get, Get! […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-32961","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32961","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=32961"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32961\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":32980,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/32961\/revisions\/32980"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=32961"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=32961"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=32961"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}