{"id":33019,"date":"2019-10-21T01:00:27","date_gmt":"2019-10-20T21:00:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=33019"},"modified":"2019-10-21T09:06:36","modified_gmt":"2019-10-21T05:06:36","slug":"eldar-n%c9%99sib-sibiryel-secm%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=33019","title":{"rendered":"Eldar N\u0259sib S\u0130B\u0130RYEL.Se\u00e7m\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Torpaq n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si<\/p>\n

Ana torpaq, ilk m\u0259sk\u0259nim, son yerim
\nDa\u011f\u0131n, d\u0259r\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 arxa, h\u0259yand\u0131.
\nBoynub\u00fck\u00fck b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259l\u0259r-k\u0259d\u0259rim,
\nAlovlanan lal\u0259l\u0259rin-h\u0259yamd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dcf\u00fcql\u0259rin x\u0259yal\u0131m\u0131n yoludu,
\nH\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sdi, uludu,
\nYan\u011f\u0131m olsa, g\u00f6yl\u0259rinin buludu,
\n\u0130st\u0259yimi bir bax\u0131\u015fdan duyand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir z\u0259rr\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131,
\nYaddan \u00e7\u0131xsa bir yer ad\u0131, da\u015f ad\u0131-
\nK\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin yadda\u015f\u0131ma da\u015f atd\u0131,
\nM\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259n xatir\u0259l\u0259r oyand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Min il ke\u00e7s\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u0259n\u0259 yad olmaz,
\nS\u0259nsiz bir g\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 od olmaz,
\nN\u0259m duy\u011fular at\u0259\u015find\u0259n od almaz,
\nHa yelpikl\u0259, ha al\u0131\u015fd\u0131r, ha yand\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f a\u00e7mad\u0131m, he\u00e7 bu nec\u0259 sirr idi?
\nE\u015fqim d\u0259c\u0259l u\u015faq kimi k\u00fcr idi.
\nBir g\u00f6z\u0259li g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi kiridi,
\nAx\u015fam, s\u0259h\u0259r yollar\u0131nda dayand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ana torpaq susdurmaq\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni,
\nAl, g\u00fcll\u0259t\u0259k sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x m\u0259ni.
\nBir saz \u00fcst\u0259 z\u0259f\u0259r adl\u0131 n\u0259\u011fm\u0259ni,
\nSaz\u0131m, s\u00f6z\u00fcm bu d\u00fcnyaya yayand\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni<\/p>\n

\u00d6m\u00fcr ke\u00e7di, getdi …ulu t\u0259bi\u0259t
\n\u0130nanma, t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n yo\u011fura m\u0259ni.
\nBir bulud \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f eyl\u0259yib,
\n\u00c7il\u0259y\u0259 yar g\u0259l\u0259n c\u0131\u011f\u0131ra m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Yadda yox, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 axtard\u0131m eyib.
\nHaqq g\u0259zdim, d\u0259mird\u0259n \u00e7ar\u0131q da geyib.
\nTale gecikdirdi h\u0259r zaman, heyif…
\nH\u0259yatda qism\u0259t\u0259, u\u011furla m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

B\u0259xtim d\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 k\u0259cin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi.
\nM\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdim, o, g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi.
\nH\u0259yatda bir d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 \u00f6n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,
\nN\u0259 d\u0259 ki saxlad\u0131 ax\u0131ra m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259k adl\u0131 m\u00fclk\u00fcn var – dey\u0259,
\n\u0130ld\u0131r\u0131mdan a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fcn var – dey\u0259,
\n\u00d6nd\u0259 torpaq alt\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kin var – dey\u0259,
\nB\u00f6lm\u0259di y\u00fcng\u00fcl\u0259, a\u011f\u0131ra m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

H\u0259sr\u0259ti, m\u00f6hn\u0259ti yorub g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259nd-b\u0259r\u0259ni q\u0131r\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m,
\n\u00d6ls\u0259m, m\u0259zardan da durub g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m,
\nT\u0259ki ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ra m\u0259ni.
\nSibirel, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n n\u0259yini b\u00f6l\u0259k?!<\/p>\n

Bir \u00fcz\u00fc iblisdir, bir \u00fcz\u00fc m\u0259l\u0259k.
\n\u018fg\u0259r dar etm\u0259s\u0259 yerimi f\u0259l\u0259k,
\nB\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259mm\u0259z fa\u011f\u0131ra m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 p\u0259rvan\u0259 i\u015f\u0131\u011fa g\u0259lm\u0259z,
\nBu gec\u0259 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m soyuq kimidir,
\nBu gec\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim rahatl\u0131q bilm\u0259z,
\nTufanlar qoynunda qay\u0131q kimidir.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 qaranl\u0131q g\u00fcmanlar\u0131m\u0131,
\nNurland\u0131ra bilm\u0259z ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da.
\nBu gec\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli umanlar\u0131m\u0131n,
\nM\u0259n\u0259m b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259c\u0259l u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 da.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 t\u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fc i\u00e7\u0259ri t\u0259p\u0259n
\nK\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r bay\u0131rda narahat g\u0259z\u0259r.
\n\u015eirin xatir\u0259m\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 s\u0259p\u0259n
\nBuludlar bu gec\u0259 duzlu dad g\u0259z\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 tale d\u0259 yaz\u0131m\u0131 bilm\u0259z,
\nSalar b\u0259dxahl\u0131\u011f\u0131n boran, qar\u0131na,
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim q\u0131z\u0131na bilm\u0259z,
\n\u0130lk e\u015fqin ilahi bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 qayat\u0259k susar haray\u0131m
\nBo\u011fulub bataram bu sukutda m\u0259n.
\nBu gec\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc nec\u0259 aray\u0131m
\nDo\u011fma \u00fcnvanda m\u0259n, do\u011fma adda m\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 – \u00f6n\u00fcmd\u0259 qaralan hasar,
\n\u0130\u015f\u0131\u011fa tutaram, h\u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fc u\u00e7maz.
\nBu gec\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i yollar\u0131m azar,
\nSay\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin m\u00fcrg\u00fcs\u00fc u\u00e7maz.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyim q\u0259ml\u0259r, \u0259zablar
\nBa\u015f a\u00e7a bilm\u0259r\u0259m, kim\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259l\u0259r.
\nBu gec\u0259 ist\u0259yi \u00e7\u0259tin tap\u0131lar.
\n\u018flidolu ilham \u0259libo\u015f g\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 g\u00f6yl\u0259r d\u0259 s\u0259rxo\u015f kimidir,
\nBir q\u0259d\u0259h ulduzu salar \u0259lind\u0259n.
\nBirc\u0259 dan yerin\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb \u00fcmidim
\nM\u0259ni bu gec\u0259nin alar \u0259lind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n k\u00f6hn\u0259 ki\u015fiy\u0259m…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n k\u00f6hn\u0259 ki\u015fiy\u0259m, bala,
\nNuh adl\u0131 sird\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.
\nHara t\u00fcrk aya\u011f\u0131 d\u0259yib,
\nM\u0259n h\u0259min yerd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bir az \u015faman duas\u0131yam,
\nBir az g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcas\u0131yam,
\nG\u0259l\u0259n \u0259srin havas\u0131yam,
\n\u00d6t\u0259n \u0259srd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Doda\u011f\u0131mda t\u00fcrk\u00fc, \u015f\u0259rqi,
\nDolanm\u0131\u015fam q\u0259rbi, \u015f\u0259rqi.
\nYa c\u00fct, ya t\u0259k, eh…n\u0259 f\u0259rqi
\nHans\u0131 s\u0259brd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bu da\u011flar t\u0259rs, avand yerim.
\nQayalar\u0131 sapand yerim.
\nH\u0259r \u015f\u0259hid q\u0259bri – and yerim…
\nG\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 pird\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m?!<\/p>\n

37 a\u011fr\u0131m, ac\u0131m.
\nBu taled\u0259n hara qa\u00e7\u0131m?!
\nQalmay\u0131b \u00f6zg\u0259 \u0259lac\u0131m,
\nAds\u0131z q\u0259bird\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

T\u0259brizim arzum, muraz\u0131m.
\nTaleyimd\u0259 qara yaz\u0131m.
\nBir az s\u0259br et, xan Araz\u0131m,
\nM\u0259n d\u0259li K\u00fcrd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Sibirel, s\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nam.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7an yuxunam,
\nS\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259 qalan ruhunam,
\nQarl\u0131 Sibird\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Torpaq n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si Ana torpaq, ilk m\u0259sk\u0259nim, son yerim Da\u011f\u0131n, d\u0259r\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 arxa, h\u0259yand\u0131. Boynub\u00fck\u00fck b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259l\u0259r-k\u0259d\u0259rim, Alovlanan lal\u0259l\u0259rin-h\u0259yamd\u0131. \u00dcf\u00fcql\u0259rin x\u0259yal\u0131m\u0131n yoludu, H\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sdi, uludu, Yan\u011f\u0131m olsa, g\u00f6yl\u0259rinin buludu, \u0130st\u0259yimi bir bax\u0131\u015fdan duyand\u0131. Bir z\u0259rr\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131, Yaddan \u00e7\u0131xsa bir yer ad\u0131, da\u015f ad\u0131- K\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin yadda\u015f\u0131ma da\u015f atd\u0131, M\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259n xatir\u0259l\u0259r oyand\u0131. Min il ke\u00e7s\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-33019","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33019","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=33019"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33019\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":33027,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33019\/revisions\/33027"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=33019"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=33019"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=33019"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}