{"id":33754,"date":"2019-12-02T03:00:41","date_gmt":"2019-12-01T23:00:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=33754"},"modified":"2019-12-03T11:20:13","modified_gmt":"2019-12-03T07:20:13","slug":"xalq-sairi-r%c9%99sul-rza-secilmis-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=33754","title":{"rendered":"Xalq \u015fairi R\u0259sul RZA.Se\u00e7ilmi\u015f \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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ANAMIN G\u018fL\u0130N QIZI<\/p>\n

Bilmir\u0259m ki, tabutun
\n\u015famd\u0131r, yoxsa ar\u00e7and\u0131r.
\nS\u0259nin son s\u0259f\u0259rindir;
\nbizim s\u0259f\u0259r ha\u00e7and\u0131r?!
\nS\u0259ninl\u0259 biz,
\nbir ar\u00e7an \u0259kmi\u015fdik
\nm\u0259hl\u0259mizd\u0259;
\nyas\u0259m\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259yib,
\nq\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcll\u0259r a\u00e7anda.
\nM\u0259n bilmir\u0259m tabutun
\no ar\u00e7andan \u00e7\u0259kilib,
\nsar\u0131 k\u0259hr\u0259badand\u0131r,
\nya m\u0259rcandan \u00e7\u0259kilib.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 qan ya\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr
\nonu m\u0259rcan t\u0259k g\u00f6r\u0259n,
\nanam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131.
\nyad\u0131ndam\u0131, bir \u015feyin
\nad\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259,
\nidey-idey dey\u0259rdin
\nT\u00fclk\u00fc toplan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcy\u00fcn
\ntutub qulaqlar\u0131ndan,
\nq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 pap\u0131\u015flar\u0131
\n“Al gey!
\nDi gey!”- dey\u0259rdin
\nToplan m\u0131r\u0131ldanard\u0131,
\nm\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259rdim s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259.
\nYumruqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrt\u00fcb
\nq\u0259\u015f\u0259ng, qonur g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259,
\ns\u0259n a\u011flayard\u0131n onda.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi m\u0259n a\u011flay\u0131ram
\nGed\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z yolunda.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bilmir\u0259m, tabutun
\nqovaqd\u0131r, ya ar\u00e7and\u0131r.
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm ham\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn var.
\nAncaq vaxt\u0131 ha\u00e7and\u0131r,
\nBir bil\u0259n yoxdur bunu,
\nHam\u0131 bils\u0259 d\u0259 onun
\nqa\u00e7\u0131lmaz oldu\u011funu.
\nXatirimd\u0259 canlan\u0131r;
\nill\u0259rin o tay\u0131nda,
\n\u0259limd\u0259 bir balaca,
\novxarl\u0131
\nd\u0259hr\u0259 vard\u0131.
\nBir vuranda
\nSanki bir qu t\u00fck\u00fcd\u00fcr
\nonunla
\nOrtas\u0131ndan k\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259
\nbir dir\u0259yi.
\n(Unutmu\u015fdum h\u0259r \u015feyi
\ns\u0259ni, \u00e7ay\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi).
\nBird\u0259n
\nd\u0259hr\u0259ni vurdum,
\n\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc ba\u015f barma\u011f\u0131m.
\n\u00c7al xoruz uddu onu.
\nS\u0259nin:
\n“Xoruz dada\u015f\u0131n
\nbarma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 apard\u0131”
\ndeyib,
\n\u0259vv\u0259l qorxdu\u011fun,
\nsonra g\u00fcl\u00fcb getdiyin;
\nqay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z, u\u011fun-u\u011fun<\/p>\n

indi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr yad\u0131ma.
\nXatir\u0259l\u0259rin s\u0259si
\nna\u015f\u0131, xaric xal kimi
\nqar\u0131\u015f\u0131r f\u0259ryad\u0131ma,
\ng\u0259lib uzaq yollar\u0131n
\ns\u0259f\u0259rind\u0259n yorulub.
\nAncaq
\nbu xatir\u0259l\u0259r
\nel\u0259 bil,
\nd\u00fcn\u0259n olub.
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131,
\no a\u011fr\u0131ya b\u0259nz\u0259mir
\nindi duydu\u011fum a\u011fr\u0131
\nSin\u0259md\u0259ki bu \u00fcr\u0259k
\ntabutundan a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm, dilim,
\ndoda\u011f\u0131m
\nuzaq-uzaq o g\u00fcnd\u0259
\nyaralanm\u0131\u015f barma\u011f\u0131m,
\ninl\u0259yir ba\u011f\u0131r-ba\u011f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259
\nqorxurdun
\nqan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb.
\nO qanl\u0131 barmaq hara,
\nbu sakit \u00f6l\u00fcm hara!
\nTabutun k\u00f6lg\u0259 sal\u0131b,
\nindi q\u0259mli yollara.<\/p>\n

D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t dolu g\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259
\nbax\u0131rd\u0131n qarda\u015f\u0131na.
\nN\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n,
\nn\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn,
\nn\u0259 h\u0259lq\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fcn,
\nyara\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131na.
\nTabutunun taxtas\u0131
\no g\u00fcn yar\u0131 b\u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm
\ndir\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilibs\u0259,
\nsa\u011f \u0259limi bil\u0259kd\u0259n
\nniy\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m etm\u0259dim.
\nYa dir\u0259yi do\u011fray\u0131b
\no zaman
\ntik\u0259-tik\u0259,
\ntala\u015falar\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b
\n\u00e7ay \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 getm\u0259dim!
\nAtmad\u0131m
\ndo\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131m par\u00e7alar\u0131
\nArvana.
\n\u0130ndi qalm\u0131\u015fam bel\u0259
\ng\u00f6yn\u0259yib yana-yana
\nBilir\u0259m ki, tabut\u00e7un
\ntaxta azl\u0131\u011f\u0131 deyil,
\nN\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 tabutunun
\nh\u0259r par\u00e7as\u0131,
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259
\no dir\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f
\ntaxtalard\u0131r el\u0259 bil,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n, g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nTabutun n\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcld\u00fcr,
\nMat\u0259min n\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r.
\n\u00c7iynimd\u0259ki c\u0259naz\u0259n
\nsanki bir qu t\u00fck\u00fcd\u00fcr
\nQ\u0259lbimd\u0259ki yoxlu\u011fun
\nm\u0259ni yaman a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n qapqarayd\u0131.
\nQa\u015flar\u0131n qapqarayd\u0131
\nBax\u0131\u015f\u0131n ip\u0259k kimi
\nhan\u0131 ki\u00e7ik, sevimli
\nqara, g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rin,
\ng\u0259lib indi
\nq\u0259lbimin
\nyaras\u0131n\u0131 sarayd\u0131.
\nHan\u0131 dodaqlar\u0131nda,
\nnovruz\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi kimi –
\nq\u0259fild\u0259n do\u011fan g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f
\nTabutun n\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r
\nEl\u0259 bil ki, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n
\nb\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rdi, mat\u0259mi
\nd\u00f6n\u00fcb bir qur\u011fu\u015funa
\ntabutuna b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcb,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nOn ild\u0259n art\u0131q olur
\nbu \u015feri ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m
\nYaz\u0131b-yaz\u0131b pozuram
\nhe\u00e7 qurtara bilmir\u0259m.
\nYan\u0131ql\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259r
\nhey g\u0259lir ax\u0131n-ax\u0131n.
\nHara qa\u00e7\u0131m onlardan
\nhara, hara bilmir\u0259m!
\n\u00dcnvan\u0131n\u0131 bils\u0259ydim
\nd\u00fcz yan\u0131nda g\u0259l\u0259rdim
\nS\u0259n getdiyin yollardan
\nkim geri qay\u0131d\u0131b, kim!
\nBirc\u0259 anl\u0131q inansam
\no d\u00fcnyaya,
\nc\u0259nn\u0259t\u0259,<\/p>\n

s\u0259ni orda axtarar
\norda soraqlayard\u0131m,
\nBils\u0259ydim ki, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131
\nm\u0259ni yetir\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259,
\ngec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz yorulmaz,
\nill\u0259rl\u0259 a\u011flayard\u0131m.
\nC\u0259nn\u0259t yax\u015f\u0131 adamlar
\ng\u00fcnahs\u0131zlar\u0131nsa,
\ns\u0259n inan\u0131ram ki,
\norda,
\ny\u0259qin ki, c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259s\u0259n.
\nBir bils\u0259ydim hardasan,
\ng\u0259l\u0259rdim qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a.
\nYolum \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n bel\u0259
\nke\u00e7\u0259r olsa, g\u0259l\u0259rdim.
\nYol boyu
\ngec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz
\nyeyib-i\u00e7diyim ancaq
\nz\u0259h\u0259r olsa g\u0259l\u0259rdim,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nS\u0259n be\u015fikd\u0259 yat\u0131rd\u0131n,
\ng\u0259ldi qara bir x\u0259b\u0259r.
\nMirz\u0259 \u0130brahim \u00f6ld\u00fc!
\nBak\u0131da d\u0259fn etdil\u0259r.
\nY\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 bir azarm\u0131\u015f,
\ndeyirdil\u0259r, azar\u0131.
\nQ\u0259rib m\u0259zarl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda,
\nq\u0259rib qald\u0131 m\u0259zar\u0131.
\n(\u0130ndi n\u0259 o q\u0259bristan,
\nn\u0259 q\u0259bird\u0259n var ni\u015fan.
\nBa\u015fda\u015f\u0131 itkin olub,<\/p>\n

torpa\u011f\u0131 p\u0259r-p\u0259ri\u015fan)
\nS\u0259n anan\u0131n qurumu\u015f
\nd\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc sora-sora qald\u0131n,
\nS\u00fcdd\u0259n doymad\u0131n
\nYa\u015f\u0131n tamam deyildi,
\nevimizd\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259n
\nas\u0131ld\u0131 qara p\u0259rd\u0259
\nN\u0259 bil\u0259ydin ki, getdi,
\ninsan getdi d\u00fcnyadan
\nNec\u0259 \u015f\u0259rik olayd\u0131n
\n\u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bu d\u0259rd\u0259.
\nS\u0259n bilmirdin ki, getdi,
\n\u0130nsan getdi d\u00fcnyadan –
\nBiz\u0259 yetim ad\u0131n\u0131
\nverib, yox olan atan,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nBir il ged\u0259 bilm\u0259din
\nBuzovna ba\u011flar\u0131na.
\n\u00dcmidli, intizarl\u0131
\nbir s\u0259b\u0259b vard\u0131 buna.
\nBiz getdik.
\nAy ke\u00e7m\u0259di.
\nayd\u0131n il\u0131q bir s\u0259h\u0259r,
\n\u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259ldi ora
\nyeni, sevincli x\u0259b\u0259r.
\nEl\u0259 lap darvazadan
\ns\u0259s g\u0259ldi:
\nO\u011flan!
\nO\u011flan!
\nSa\u011fl\u0131q!
\nMu\u015ftuluq, filan!<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 sevincimizin
\ng\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 qurumam\u0131\u015f,
\nh\u0259min g\u00fcn,
\nax\u015fam \u00e7a\u011f\u0131,
\nya\u011fd\u0131 g\u00fccl\u00fc bir ya\u011f\u0131\u015f.
\nQara bulud k\u00f6lg\u0259si
\nbir anda \u00f6rtd\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131.
\nDarvazan\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcl\u0259r
\nQ\u0259lbimizi d\u00f6yd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nQara bir ilan kimi
\nat\u0131ld\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259,
\nbir x\u0259b\u0259r,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Otaq.
\nMasa.
\nMasan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259
\nbir c\u0259naz\u0259
\nhans\u0131 h\u0259yat l\u00f6vh\u0259si,
\nhans\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259t \u0259s\u0259ri
\nvar ki\u2026
\nbir an i\u00e7ind\u0259
\n\u00e7\u00f6k\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r da\u011f kimi,
\ninsan\u0131 bird\u0259n \u0259z\u0259.
\nC\u0259naz\u0259-sapsar\u0131 mum.
\nM\u0259n bir yanda qurudum
\nBir yanda,
\nbir yanda da\u2026
\n\u018fg\u0259r allah var is\u0259,
\nK\u00fclli ixtiyar is\u0259,
\ng\u0259r\u0259k
\nbu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb
\nqan a\u011flayayd\u0131.
\n\u018fzraili yetmi\u015f il
\nbel\u0259 cinay\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn –
\n\u0259li, qolu z\u0259ncirli
\ndustaqda saxlayayd\u0131
\n\u018fg\u0259r allah var is\u0259,
\nk\u00fclli ixtiyar is\u0259,
\na\u011fsa\u00e7l\u0131 bir anan\u0131n
\nqar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb,
\ng\u0259r\u0259k \u00fczr ist\u0259y\u0259ydi,
\n“Yoxdur,
\nyoxdur x\u0259b\u0259rim
\nBu, \u015feytani-l\u0259inin
\n\u0259m\u0259lidir” dey\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

Lakin\u2026
\nn\u0259 allah vard\u0131,
\nn\u0259 onun m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259ti.
\nBir tabut!
\nBir c\u0259naz\u0259!
\nBir d\u0259 ki\u2026
\nyoxlu\u011funun
\namans\u0131z h\u0259qiq\u0259ti.
\nBir d\u0259\u2026
\np\u0259ri\u015fan sa\u00e7l\u0131,
\ntabutun d\u00f6rd yan\u0131n\u0131
\ndizin-dizin s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n,
\ngah h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz duran,
\ng\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 quruyan,
\nmahir bir s\u0259n\u0259tkar\u0131n
\nqara da\u015fdan yondu\u011fu
\nq\u0259m heyk\u0259li:
\n\u00fcmidsiz,
\nyaral\u0131 bir ana var,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nSon m\u0259nzilin\u0259 gedir,
\nyeriyir yava\u015f-yava\u015f
\nbir a\u011f\u0131r q\u0259m qatar\u0131.
\nG\u0259lin, \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k onu,
\nd\u00fcnyan\u0131n insanlar\u0131!
\nG\u0259lin, K\u00fcbra, Sara v\u0259 Sur\u0259
\ns\u0259n d\u0259, s\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259l, Nigar!
\nQald\u0131raq c\u0259naz\u0259ni
\nba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan h\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259!
\nYox!
\nTabutu apars\u0131n
\ntan\u0131\u015flar v\u0259 yax\u0131nlar.
\nOnlar\u0131n qollar\u0131nda
\nh\u0259l\u0259 bir az q\u00fcvv\u0259t var.
\nG\u0259lin, bac\u0131lar, g\u0259lin!
\nS\u0259n d\u0259, s\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259l, Nigar!
\nS\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259k dizin-dizin.
\nYollar\u0131 hamar olsun
\nincikli Tur\u0259mizin.
\nNe\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 il ke\u00e7ib
\no g\u00fcnd\u0259n
\nv\u0259 bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n.
\n\u00dcr\u0259k y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fm\u0259yib
\nbu itkinin y\u00fck\u00fcnd\u0259n.
\nToy da, bayram da olur,
\n\u015f\u0259nlik d\u0259, ad g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259.
\nAncaq ki, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259
\ndam\u011fa yan\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi
\nqal\u0131b,
\ns\u0259nsiz anan\u0131n,
\n“Verin m\u0259nim balam\u0131!”.
\ndey\u0259n f\u0259ryad g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131,
\nka\u011f\u0131zda, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259
\nne\u00e7\u0259 layih\u0259n vard\u0131
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u0259ldi,
\nbir anda,
\ny\u0131\u011fd\u0131,
\nb\u00fckd\u00fc,
\napard\u0131.
\n“Bak\u0131da k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r var
\nn\u0259 ensizdir” deyirdin
\nYeni evl\u0259r var, \u00e7oxu
\nc\u00fct \u0259kizdir deyirdin.
\nA\u011fac az,
\ng\u00fcl, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k az,
\nba\u011f\u00e7a-ba\u011f,
\nya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131q az.
\nSonra inaml\u0131, q\u0259ti
\ndeyirdin:
\n“Bel\u0259 qalmaz!”
\nM\u0259n!
\nLayih\u0259m!
\nDemirdin.
\nSevm\u0259yirdin
\n“m\u0259n”, “m\u0259n”i
\nBiz yax\u015f\u0131 anlay\u0131rd\u0131q
\n\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni.
\nDeyirdin: “Evl\u0259r olsun –
\np\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri geni\u015f.
\nBir otaq da qalmas\u0131n
\nbir bucaq da qalmas\u0131n
\ng\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f.
\nYeri var,
\nqiym\u0259ti var,<\/p>\n

z\u00f6vq\u00fcn d\u0259,
\nbiliyin d\u0259
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259likl\u0259r \u00e7ox olsun
\nd\u0259niz \u00e7im\u0259rliyind\u0259
\nY\u00fcz \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb, bir bi\u00e7\u0259k biz
\nh\u0259r a\u011fac\u0131n yerini
\n\u018flvan r\u0259ngl\u0259r, bi\u00e7iml\u0259r
\n\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n bir-birini”,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r arzun vard\u0131,
\ni\u015fin, \u00fcmidin vard\u0131,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u0259ldi,
\nbir anda,
\ny\u0131\u011fd\u0131,
\ns\u00f6kd\u00fc,
\napard\u0131.
\nDo\u011frudur,
\nm\u0259n bilir\u0259m,
\nqurtarmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131r h\u0259yat.
\nBu t\u0259s\u0259lli
\nq\u0259lbimi ovundurmay\u0131r, heyhat.
\nBilir\u0259m t\u0259k deyildin,
\nbir ordu n\u0259f\u0259riydin,
\nAncaq kim dey\u0259rdi ki,
\nbel\u0259 bahar \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda,
\nbu ya\u015fda, bu h\u0259v\u0259sd\u0259
\nbel\u0259 tez s\u0259f\u0259riydin,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn qurur, yarad\u0131r
\nne\u00e7\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259tda\u015flar\u0131n<\/p>\n

Ancaq s\u0259nin \u0259lin\u0259
\nbiliyin\u0259, \u0259qlin\u0259
\nehtiyac\u0131 var yen\u0259
\nne\u00e7\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sizliyin,
\nne\u00e7\u0259 binas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n,
\nne\u00e7\u0259 hamarlanmam\u0131\u015f,
\nsaray, m\u0259kt\u0259b, d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rg\u0259,
\nev olmam\u0131\u015f da\u015flar\u0131n,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\nQ\u0259zetl\u0259r
\nmat\u0259mind\u0259
\n“Vaxts\u0131z \u00f6ld\u00fc”
\nyazd\u0131lar.
\n\u0130nsanlar aras\u0131nda
\nbu q\u0259rib\u0259 ad\u0259t var.
\nT\u0259bi\u0259tin h\u00f6km\u00fcd\u00fcr
\nbilmir\u0259m, ya taleyin,
\ninsan n\u0259 vaxt\u0131 \u00f6ls\u0259
\nvaxts\u0131z \u00f6lm\u00fcrm\u00fc, deyin?
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!
\ndey\u0259rdin: “S\u0259n \u015fer yaz,
\nM\u0259n layih\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kim”.
\n\u0130ndi s\u0259nsizliyinin
\nd\u0259rdini nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kim?
\nNiy\u0259 pozdun
\no b\u00f6y\u00fck, o yax\u015f\u0131 and\u0131m\u0131z\u0131,
\nAnam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131!<\/p>\n

Zu\u011fulba, 1959-1970<\/p>\n

75-95 \u00dc\u00c7N\u018fN<\/p>\n

Yeddi be\u015f-doqquz be\u015f
\n\u00fc\u00e7n\u0259n,
\nh\u0259rl\u0259ci \u00e7\u0259kdim.
\nQula\u011f\u0131m\u0131, \u0259limi yand\u0131rd\u0131 d\u0259st\u0259k.
\n\u2026a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259dir.
\n\u2026 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259!<\/p>\n

Pill\u0259l\u0259r –
\ns\u00fcr\u0259tli qatar alt\u0131ndan
\ny\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n
\ndir\u0259kl\u0259r kimi
\nke\u00e7di ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndan.
\nAsfalt sanki eskalatora d\u00f6nd\u00fc,
\narxaya qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a
\nYen\u0259 pill\u0259l\u0259r –<\/p>\n

Di\u015fli \u00e7arx,
\nuzun-uzun yolla
\nqald\u0131rd\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcy\u0259 m\u0259ni.
\nOtaq!
\nYataqda mum heyk\u0259l.
\nYolu k\u0259silmi\u015f n\u0259f\u0259sin
\nx\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131 s\u0259si.
\nBir yan\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f
\np\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 p\u0259rd\u0259si.
\nAyaqlar\u0131mda
\nqur\u011fu\u015fun!
\nSin\u0259md\u0259 qur\u011fu\u015fun!
\nDilimd\u0259 qur\u011fu\u015fun!
\nQ\u0259lbimd\u0259 \u00fcmidin c\u0259naz\u0259si,
\narzu qurumu\u015fu.
\nDoktorlar\u0131n yer\u0259 dikilmi\u015f
\nbax\u0131\u015flar\u0131
\nba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r bir-bir:
\nm\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdir, m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259!
\nYoxsa n\u0259 \u0259lac,
\nn\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q ucu var.
\nM\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259!
\n\u00dcmid –
\nbir-y\u00fcz\u0259.<\/p>\n

Otaq!
\nD\u00f6rd yan\u0131mda
\nbas\u0131m presl\u0259ri.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n
\nqara r\u0259ngi.
\nBu qaranl\u0131qdan
\nke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 bir a\u011fr\u0131,
\ng\u00f6yn\u0259k p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Burda \u015fahmat oynayard\u0131q!
\nBurda yeni \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rini oxuyard\u0131q.
\nBurda g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin
\nt\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259rdi s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259,
\ntikanl\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259r kimi.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

-Allo!
\n-Allo!
\n-Kimi?
\nYoxdur!
\nYoxdur!
\nYoxdur!
\nQocalm\u0131\u015f Eminin s\u0259si!
\nQulaqlar\u0131mda gup-gup,
\nd\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr qan damar\u0131.
\nBir x\u0259zri \u0259s\u0259ydi,
\nbir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131nayd\u0131 bar\u0131!
\nQar\u015f\u0131mda a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259r:
\neni\u015fli-yoxu\u015flu \u00f6mr\u00fcn
\nsevincli-k\u0259d\u0259rli f\u0259sill\u0259ri.
\nMirz\u0259 C\u0259lilin, \u018fl\u0259kb\u0259r Sabirin
\namans\u0131z s\u00f6z n\u0259sill\u0259ri!
\nVaraq-varaq s\u00f6z metal\u0131
\nq\u0259f\u0259s\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 durur
\nd\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 haz\u0131r,
\nb\u00f6l\u00fck-b\u00f6l\u00fck \u0259sg\u0259r kimi
\nSand\u0131\u011fa bas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f,
\nat\u0259\u015f\u0259 haz\u0131r g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259r kimi
\nBir al\u0259m i\u00e7ind\u0259y\u0259m,
\nh\u0259r yan\u0131m Sabit g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc!<\/p>\n

Sabit yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131!
\nSabit if\u015fas\u0131!
\nSabit lirikas\u0131!
\nSabit s\u0259daq\u0259ti!
\nSabit s\u0259n\u0259tinin klassikas\u0131!
\nOrtada mum heyk\u0259l!
\nDa\u015f s\u00fckut!
\nSabit yoxlu\u011funun
\na\u011f\u0131r yas\u0131!
\n\u00c7oxmu s\u00fcr\u0259r
\nbu ayr\u0131l\u0131q d\u0259rdi
\nbu g\u00f6yn\u0259k, bu k\u0259d\u0259r,
\nqarda\u015f\u0131m Sabit?
\nH\u0259msevinc, h\u0259md\u0259rd, dost, \u0259lvida!
\n\u018flvida!
\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

ANAMIN G\u018fL\u0130N QIZI Bilmir\u0259m ki, tabutun \u015famd\u0131r, yoxsa ar\u00e7and\u0131r. S\u0259nin son s\u0259f\u0259rindir; bizim s\u0259f\u0259r ha\u00e7and\u0131r?! S\u0259ninl\u0259 biz, bir ar\u00e7an \u0259kmi\u015fdik m\u0259hl\u0259mizd\u0259; yas\u0259m\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259yib, q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcll\u0259r a\u00e7anda. M\u0259n bilmir\u0259m tabutun o ar\u00e7andan \u00e7\u0259kilib, sar\u0131 k\u0259hr\u0259badand\u0131r, ya m\u0259rcandan \u00e7\u0259kilib. B\u0259lk\u0259 qan ya\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr onu m\u0259rcan t\u0259k g\u00f6r\u0259n, anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131! Anam\u0131n g\u0259lin q\u0131z\u0131. yad\u0131ndam\u0131, bir \u015feyin ad\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-33754","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33754","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=33754"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33754\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":33771,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33754\/revisions\/33771"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=33754"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=33754"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=33754"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}