{"id":35046,"date":"2020-03-26T05:00:00","date_gmt":"2020-03-26T01:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=35046"},"modified":"2020-03-26T12:52:35","modified_gmt":"2020-03-26T08:52:35","slug":"b%c9%99lk%c9%99-m%c9%99nim-serim-d%c9%99-s%c9%99nin-odan-kimi-dar-daginiqdi-n%c9%99-yapalim-%c9%99kb%c9%99r-qosali-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=35046","title":{"rendered":"B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nim \u015ferim d\u0259 s\u0259nin odan kimi dar-da\u011f\u0131n\u0131qd\u0131, n\u0259 yapal\u0131m… – \u018fkb\u0259r QO\u015eALI – \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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K\u00fcsk\u00fcn dostun divanisi<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gah co\u015fard\u0131n, gah susard\u0131n – hallar\u0131n hal deyildi,
T\u0259k s\u0259ndinmi bu d\u00fcnyada \u0259hdi-peyman eyl\u0259y\u0259n?..
H\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n t\u00fck \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, q\u00fcsur \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r birb\u0259bir,
S\u0259n deyildin yardan g\u0259l\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fc f\u0259rman eyl\u0259y\u0259n?..

E\u015fqin e\u015fqdi, neyn\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u00fcnyad\u0131 d\u00fcnya…
Yalan s\u0259sdi, deyir h\u0259rd\u0259n: yeni d\u00fcnyad\u0131 d\u00fcnya…
Ax\u0131r gedib bir yar sevdin – ad\u0131 D\u00fcnyad\u0131, D\u00fcnya,
O da dedi n\u0259 gec g\u0259ldin, a can\u0131 can eyl\u0259y\u0259n?

Get, get, ey \u0259li q\u0259l\u0259mli, d\u0259rdini fa\u015f eyl\u0259m\u0259,
H\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259n\u00e7\u00fcn, h\u0259r ged\u0259n\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015f eyl\u0259m\u0259…
Tanr\u0131ya ba\u011fla q\u0259lbini, q\u0259lbini da\u015f eyl\u0259m\u0259,
Yen\u0259 odur, yaln\u0131z odur d\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259rman eyl\u0259y\u0259n.

Bilmir\u0259m<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n ona h\u0259r g\u00fcn a\u015fiq\u0259m,
O m\u0259n\u0259\u2026 – bil\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.
X\u0259yal\u0131yla d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m,
\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259\u2026 – din\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.

\u201cCan\u201d deyir\u0259m, can\u0131m olmur,
Sevir\u0259m, sultan\u0131m olmur,
Olmur, b\u0259, ay can\u0131m, olmur,
K\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259n sil\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.

Desin \u018fkb\u0259r – bu n\u0259 hald\u0131? –
A\u011f \u00fcz\u0259 qara sevdad\u0131\u2026
Unutdum, do\u011fman\u0131-yad\u0131,
Dil \u0259zb\u0259rim olan ad\u0131\u2026
G\u0259l\u0259rmi din\u0259? – bilmir\u0259m\u2026

\u015eubat\u0131n son g\u00fcn\u00fc yaz\u0131lan \u015feir\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n


Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m r\u0259ssam,
D\u00fcn bir t\u0259sad\u00fcfl\u0259 odana g\u0259ldim –
Bir irig\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259,
Q\u00fcsura baxma, \u00f6z\u00fcn yoxk\u0259n girdik odana.
Yo-yoox he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259dik –
Baxmaq v\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 baxmaqd\u0131 i\u015fimiz\u2026
S\u0259ni divardak\u0131 r\u0259smind\u0259n tan\u0131d\u0131m –
Alt yaz\u0131s\u0131ndan bildim, \u0259slind\u0259 –
\u201c\u00d6zr\u0259sm\u201d dey\u0259 not ke\u00e7mi\u015fdin.
Daha do\u011frusu,
\u201cAvtoportret\u201d yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n s\u0259n,
M\u0259n bel\u0259 oxudum
\u0130rig\u00f6zl\u00fc etiraz etdi h\u0259m\u0259n:
– Yen\u0259 t\u00fcrk\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fcn tutub, dey\u0259s\u0259n\u2026
M\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259nci d\u0259f\u0259
t\u00fcrk\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fck tutmur, xan\u0131m \u0259f\u0259ndi,
o ya var, ya yox
dedim.
Q\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131 sad\u0259c\u0259
v\u0259 iri g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o biri \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 tak\u0131 verdi\u2026
N\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131m,
\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmis\u0259n –
dama\u011f\u0131nda siqar,
g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r
Q\u00fcllab\u0131n da
k\u0259d\u0259rin t\u0259k d\u0259rindi, r\u0259ssam qarda\u015f\u2026
Ancaq m\u0259nim irig\u00f6zl\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259rin olmaz.
(El\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng \u201cm\u0259nim\u201d deyir\u0259m,
Oysa n\u0259 s\u0259nin odan m\u0259nimdi, n\u0259 o irig\u00f6z\u2026
Olmayacaq da!..)
Sonra \u201cG\u00fcl\u0259n q\u0131z\u201d\u0131na baxd\u0131q
M\u0259nim irig\u00f6zl\u00fcm\u00fcn t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n
ki\u00e7ikdi m\u0259nc\u0259,
onun \u00fcz\u00fc boyu yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259\u2026
ancaq xo\u015fdu, g\u00f6z\u0259ldi.
(T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm var bir d\u00fcnyad\u0131,
G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f var bir \u00fcz boydad\u0131.)
S\u0259n d\u0259 at vur\u011funusan, qaliba, r\u0259ssam qarda\u015f,
H\u0259r iki \u015f\u0259klind\u0259n biri atd\u0131, atl\u0131d\u0131r, atlad\u0131\u2026
H\u0259l\u0259 o iki yor\u011fun at\u0131n var ha!.. –
verib ba\u015f-ba\u015fa\u2026
Vay, m\u0259nim hal\u0131ma, vay,
Neyl\u0259mis\u0259n, zal\u0131m.!?
\u0130st\u0259dim onlar\u0131n yor\u011fun do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan
ke\u00e7id al\u0131m s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259
irig\u00f6zl\u00fcm
\u201cadamlar v\u0259 a\u011faclar\u201d dey\u0259 bir \u015feyl\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259di n\u0259 is\u0259.
M\u0259n
\u201cb\u0259lk\u0259 adamlar v\u0259 atlar\u201d dey\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdim guya
\u00f6n\u0259m verm\u0259di
\u00f6yl\u0259sin\u0259 ke\u00e7di\u2026 –
iri g\u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u00fczd\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k\u2026
R\u0259ssam qarda\u015f,
Odan n\u0259 yaman da\u011f\u0131n\u0131qd\u0131 –
G\u00fccl\u0259 ke\u00e7irdik bir r\u0259smd\u0259n o birin\u0259
Arada bir \u0259lind\u0259n tutmaq ist\u0259yirdim onun,
amma n\u0259y\u0259 yarar?
S\u0259ssizc\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi \u0259lini v\u0259 iri g\u00f6zl\u0259rini\u2026
Sonra \u201cPikasso\u201d albomuna baxd\u0131q –
kirli dolabdan al\u0131b.
M\u0259n \u201cdolab\u201d dedim, ancaq irig\u00f6zl\u00fc
\u201c\u015fkaf\u201d dedi, t\u0259bii
v\u0259 x\u0259fifc\u0259 \u201ct\u00fcrk\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fcn tutdumu yen\u0259?\u201d – dedi
m\u0259n dinm\u0259dim bu d\u0259f\u0259\u2026
\u0259limi \u0259lin\u0259 toxundurmu\u015fdum o anda
dodaqlar\u0131m t\u0259pimi\u015fdi, qurumu\u015fdu bo\u011faz\u0131m –
lap u\u015faq kimiydim, vallah
zira
o hal\u0131mdan bildim
ona olan duy\u011fumun ad\u0131n\u0131\u2026
Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m r\u0259ssam,
odandan he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259dik,
amma
yen\u0259
ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla bizi… k\u00f6n\u00fcl, qoyma.
B\u0259lk\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259,
k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259
g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck bir \u015feyl\u0259r
o da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q odan\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259t nizam\u0131ndan\u2026
G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fcmidi il\u0259\u2026
B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nim \u015ferim d\u0259 s\u0259nin odan kimi dar-da\u011f\u0131n\u0131qd\u0131,
n\u0259 yapal\u0131m,
s\u0259nin r\u0259sml\u0259rind\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bizim,
bu \u015feir d\u0259 s\u0259nin halal\u0131n olsun\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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K\u00fcsk\u00fcn dostun divanisi Gah co\u015fard\u0131n, gah susard\u0131n – hallar\u0131n hal deyildi,T\u0259k s\u0259ndinmi bu d\u00fcnyada \u0259hdi-peyman eyl\u0259y\u0259n?..H\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n t\u00fck \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, q\u00fcsur \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r birb\u0259bir,S\u0259n deyildin yardan g\u0259l\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fc f\u0259rman eyl\u0259y\u0259n?.. E\u015fqin e\u015fqdi, neyn\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u00fcnyad\u0131 d\u00fcnya…Yalan s\u0259sdi, deyir h\u0259rd\u0259n: yeni d\u00fcnyad\u0131 d\u00fcnya…Ax\u0131r gedib bir yar sevdin – ad\u0131 D\u00fcnyad\u0131, D\u00fcnya,O da dedi n\u0259 gec g\u0259ldin, a can\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-35046","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-home"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35046","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=35046"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35046\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":35048,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35046\/revisions\/35048"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=35046"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=35046"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=35046"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}