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Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar v\u0259 Jurnalistl\u0259r Birlikl\u0259rinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidenti T\u0259qa\u00fcd F\u0259ndunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201cAzad q\u0259l\u0259m\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, ictimai-publisistik q\u0259zetinin v\u0259 \u201cAli Ziya\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, elmi-publisistik jurnal\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sis\u00e7isi v\u0259 ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan kimi dayanaca\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259f t\u0259l\u0259sdi. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 fikirli idi. \u00c7at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcn simas\u0131nda t\u0259bii g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u0259nardan baxan ist\u0259nil\u0259n adam bu q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7iynind\u0259 bir d\u0259rd y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc da\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss ed\u0259rdi. Qald\u0131 ki, R\u0259vana- onu dem\u0259k olar ki h\u0259r g\u00fcn add\u0131m-add\u0131m izl\u0259y\u0259n birinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bu gizli ah, k\u0259d\u0259r qa\u00e7as\u0131 deyildi. Qon\u015fu idil\u0259r N\u0259rgizl\u0259. Qibt\u0259 olunas\u0131 ziyal\u0131 bir ail\u0259nin \u00f6vlad\u0131 olsa da, bu m\u0259sum qon\u015fu q\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131, talehi onu \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u018flind\u0259 \u0259lac\u0131 olsa idi b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259- h\u0259m ev, h\u0259m d\u0259rsl\u0259rind\u0259, \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 is\u0259 onu \u00fcz\u00fcb \u0259ld\u0259n salan, i\u00e7ind\u0259n yey\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rind\u0259n bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn ac\u0131nacaql\u0131 hallar\u0131ndan xilas olmas\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rdi. Amma nec\u0259? He\u00e7 yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa bel\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259ti \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259rib\u0259 d\u0259 o idi ki, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n i\u00e7timai s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259, bayram g\u00fcnl\u0259ri il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259li olaraq binan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fan mehriban qon\u015fular\u0131n ke\u00e7irdiyi \u015f\u0259nlikl\u0259rd\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 olur, ordan-burdan s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. K\u0259narda is\u0259 ona yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7\u00fcr\u0259t etmirdi. N\u0259 desin, n\u0259yi b\u0259han\u0259 edib yax\u0131nla\u015fs\u0131n? \u201cN\u0259rgiz, olar sizi m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n ev\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm? Ya da, N\u0259rgiz, bu g\u00fcn hava yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 inistitutdan tez \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra bir az g\u0259z\u0259k? N\u0259rgiz, s\u0259nd\u0259 maraql\u0131 kitablar var? M\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 kitablar \u00e7oxdu. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fib n\u00f6vb\u0259 il\u0259 oxuyaq, m\u0259lumatlanaq d\u00fcnyadak\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n?\u201d B\u00fct\u00fcn bu suallarla h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorsa da, sonda yen\u0259 susaraq q\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259nardan izl\u0259m\u0259k olurdu qism\u0259ti. Evd\u0259kil\u0259r d\u0259 hiss etmi\u015fdi onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259ki d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi. \u2013 Bax h\u0259l\u0259, d\u0259rid\u0259n qab\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 bu u\u015faq. G\u00f6r p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n nec\u0259 pusur? \u2013 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k dedi M\u0259qbul\u0259. S\u0259rdar ki\u015fi a\u00e7\u0131q s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri sevm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ciddi qar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rini. \u2013 Burda pis he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. Evl\u0259n\u0259n vaxt\u0131d\u0131r. Se\u00e7imini \u00f6z\u00fc etsin. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 ki, N\u0259rgiz d\u0259 pis q\u0131z deyil. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb zavall\u0131. M\u0259n dan\u0131\u015faram Yaqubla. G\u00f6r\u00fcm bu i\u015f\u0259 nec\u0259 bax\u0131r, – t\u0259mkinl\u0259 cavab vermi\u015fdi. R\u0259van\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri is\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 binan\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 zill\u0259nib qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bilirdi ki, N\u0259rgiz d\u0259 onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc, m\u0259nan\u0131 anlay\u0131r. Amma bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n cavabs\u0131z oldu\u011fu qorxudurdu onu. T\u0259kc\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n ail\u0259sind\u0259ki ciddi probleml\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259r libas\u0131na b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc bildiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onu itirm\u0259k qorxusu yox idi \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259rgiz h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi d\u0259rsl\u0259rini haz\u0131rlayandan sonra m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Bula\u015f\u0131q qab-qacaqlar sanki s\u0259rgid\u0259 n\u00fcmayi\u015f olunacaq halda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Atas\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131 is\u0259 d\u0259rsl\u0259ri il\u0259 m\u0259\u015fqul idil\u0259r. Analar\u0131 bu evi t\u0259rk edib getdiyi g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri N\u0259rgiz b\u00fct\u00fcn ev i\u015fl\u0259rini \u00f6z \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. A\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7iynin\u0259 alm\u0131\u015f, u\u015faqlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259sini ist\u0259mirdi. Atas\u0131 h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r evd\u0259n gedir, ax\u015fam qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Zeyn\u0259b \u0259rini, u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rk edib ged\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri korluq verm\u0259mi\u015fdi Yaqub ev\u0259. Amma m\u0259n\u0259vi dayaq ola bilmirdi \u00f6vladlar\u0131na. He\u00e7 buna zaman\u0131 da \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 ki, onun t\u0259bi\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r evd\u0259 soyuducu a\u011fz\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r dolu idis\u0259, dem\u0259k h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131nda idi. N\u0259rgizi is\u0259 bel\u0259 h\u0259yat qane etmirdi. Tez-tez atas\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259n z\u0259rif qad\u0131n \u0259tirl\u0259rinin qoxusu, k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259ki r\u0259ngli dodaq boyalar\u0131n\u0131n izi atas\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 h\u0259yat s\u00fcrm\u0259sind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259li q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmir, ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilib saatlarla a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Getdikc\u0259 adil\u0259\u015fdi h\u0259r \u015fey. B\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc, ya\u015f\u0131ndan tez kamill\u0259\u015fdi. Atas\u0131n\u0131n da bir insan kimi qay\u011f\u0131ya ehtiyac\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk etdi. \u201c\u018fg\u0259r o yad bir qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirib biz\u0259 ana ets\u0259ydi, bu daha a\u011f\u0131r d\u0259rd olmazd\u0131m\u0131\u201d- dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli tap\u0131rd\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki, anas\u0131 qay\u0131tmayacaq. Qay\u0131tsa da yenid\u0259n ail\u0259nin bir \u00fczv\u00fc kimi q\u0259bul olunmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdi. Atas\u0131ndan soru\u015fma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259ti \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Anas\u0131n\u0131n niy\u0259 ail\u0259ni t\u0259rk etiyini, hara getdiyini soru\u015fma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259ti \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Qon\u015fu qad\u0131nlar\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259 g\u0259tirib ota\u011fa sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t, dedi-qodulardan onun yad bir ki\u015fi il\u0259 sevi\u015f\u0259r\u0259k evi t\u0259rk etdiyin\u0259 is\u0259 inana bilmirdi. Ham\u0131 kimi o da sevirdi anas\u0131n\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n bir an da olsa \u00e7\u0259kilmirdi. Gec\u0259l\u0259r \u0259ll\u0259rini bac\u0131-qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k qay\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259sirg\u0259mir, sonra t\u0259krar \u0259ll\u0259rini sa\u00e7lar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Ana n\u0259vazi\u015fin\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qalmaq \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r d\u0259rddir \u00f6vlad\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Yoxlu\u011fu h\u0259zm etm\u0259k olur gec-tez. Bu yoxluq is\u0259 h\u0259zm edil\u0259si deyildi. M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 ana haqq\u0131nda \u015feirl\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259, in\u015fa yaz\u0131landa bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 yer tapm\u0131rd\u0131. X\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Anas\u0131n\u0131n etdiyi ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanmaz s\u0259hvin g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131, \u0259zab\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcb-dirilirdi. U\u015faql\u0131qdan b\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259kdiyi ac\u0131lar beynind\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259nib qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 davam ed\u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fc ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 ona d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 imkan vermirdi. \u018fll\u0259rini ba\u015f\u0131na tutub dayan\u0131r, bu a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n ke\u00e7ib getm\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u015eidd\u0259tli a\u011fr\u0131lar ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r bu a\u011frlar be\u015f-on d\u0259qiq\u0259 davam edirdis\u0259, getdikc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rin say\u0131 da \u00e7oxalm\u0131\u015f, onu narahat etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fcn \u0259rzin\u0259 damarlar\u0131nda d\u00f6vr ed\u0259n qan\u0131n beynind\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ili\u015fib qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yuband\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q-ayd\u0131n hiss edirdi. N\u0259 vaxtsa anas\u0131 il\u0259 qovu\u015faca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc, bu a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n da ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.-Salam N\u0259rgiz, – ax\u015fam anas\u0131 il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n sonra g\u00fcc toplay\u0131b yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 q\u0131za R\u0259van. N\u0259rgiz d\u00f6n\u00fcb baxsa da \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki ifad\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259di. Dilucu salam verdi.- Bilir\u0259m ki, indi dedikl\u0259rim \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Amma dem\u0259yim m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tdi. Bilirs\u0259n ki…- N\u0259? N\u0259yi bilm\u0259liy\u0259m? M\u0259nd\u0259n xo\u015fun g\u0259ldiyini? M\u0259niml\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini? M\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259si bu f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259n istifad\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 qoymaram. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n? \u0130mkan verm\u0259r\u0259m. Ax\u0131 anam\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259num h\u0259yat\u0131m il\u0259 n\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259si? \u00d6l\u00fcb! \u00d6l\u00fcb o insan. Yoxdu. Anlay\u0131rs\u0131z, – ixtiyars\u0131z bir s\u00f6z\u0259 b\u0259nd imi\u015f kim \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 q\u0131z. R\u0259van s\u00f6z tapa bilm\u0259di. Onun dedikl\u0259ri is\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t verdi o\u011flana.- S\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? Bu n\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tdi? G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259zdim s\u0259nd\u0259n. S\u0259ni a\u011f\u0131r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li bir q\u0131z bilirdim. Yax\u0131nla\u015fmaqda is\u0259 pis he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. Onu da qeyd edim ki, s\u0259n d\u00fczg\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u0259n.- Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri saxla t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 dostlar\u0131nla ed\u0259rs\u0259n. D\u0259rs\u0259 ge\u00e7ikir\u0259m. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla,- deyib uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. R\u0259van\u0131n arxadan dediyi s\u00f6zl\u0259r qula\u011f\u0131nda cingild\u0259di.- Anamla atam ax\u015fam siz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.Ax\u015fam d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nda onun valideyinl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259n q\u0131z i\u015fin ciddiliyini bildi. H\u00f6rm\u0259t xatirin\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 onlar\u0131. Az ke\u00e7mi\u015f atas\u0131 da g\u0259ldi. Bir saat davam ed\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n sonra mehriban qon\u015fular xo\u015f davran\u0131\u015fla sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131lar. \u0130ndi atas\u0131n\u0131n ota\u011fa g\u0259lib ona dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. El\u0259 d\u0259 oldu.-Ax\u0131 m\u0259n indi o halda deyil\u0259m, ata. H\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bir az vaxt ver onlara. Bu bar\u0259d\u0259 bir az d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259liy\u0259m, – \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n dedi.-Bu t\u0259biidir. S\u0259n gec-tez ail\u0259 qurmal\u0131san. R\u0259van yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011fland\u0131. S\u0259ni qay\u011f\u0131dan k\u0259narda saxlamaz. \u018fmin\u0259m buna,- yaz\u0131q g\u00f6rk\u0259m ald\u0131 Yaqub. Sevinmi\u015f olsa da g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki k\u0259d\u0259ri gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259di.-Yax\u015f\u0131, bir s\u00f6z demir\u0259m. Amma, o g\u0259sin. Sonra… \u2013 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bitirm\u0259d\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131.-O, g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. G\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n q\u0259bul etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r. Gec\u0259n xeyr\u0259 qals\u0131n.N\u0259rgiz bilirdi anas\u0131 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Ondan he\u00e7 bir x\u0259b\u0259r olmasa da sa\u011f oldu\u011funa \u0259minlik var idi i\u00e7ind\u0259. Onun geri- ail\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yi g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131. Hava q\u0259bul etm\u0259k ist\u0259di. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri yen\u0259 d\u0259 R\u0259van\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 toqqu\u015fdu. D\u0259rhal p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni ba\u011flay\u0131b, p\u0259rd\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259kdi. Yen\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tli a\u011fr\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qald\u0131. \u201cYox, bel\u0259 olmaz. Atama a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m bar\u0259d\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259liy\u0259m. Niy\u0259? Ax\u0131 niy\u0259 deyim? Bils\u0259 d\u0259rhal m\u0259ni h\u0259kim\u0259 aparacaq. M\u0259n is\u0259 ist\u0259mir\u0259m, ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m\u201d p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldayaraq \u00fcz\u00fc \u00fcst\u0259 yata\u011fa uzan\u0131b a\u011flad\u0131.Son z\u0259ng t\u0259dbiri bit\u0259nd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra N\u0259rgiz\u0259 ni\u015fan tax\u0131ld\u0131. Qara buludlar bu ni\u015fan \u015famlar\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u00f6l\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 birg\u0259 ail\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. Qon\u015fular ehtiramla hal-\u0259hval tutur, \u0259vv\u0259lki g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 nisb\u0259t\u0259n xo\u015f davran\u0131rd\u0131lar. Aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f qohumlar\u0131n da ayaq izl\u0259ri tan\u0131\u015f evin otaqlar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Toya haz\u0131rlaq gedir, ail\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri m\u00fczakir\u0259 olunurdu. N\u0259rgiz bu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f- el\u0259 bil b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, daha da g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u00d6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n, h\u0259r gec\u0259 onlar\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 narahat olub d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n Yaqubun da q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. R\u0259van tez-tez N\u0259rgizl\u0259 birg\u0259 g\u0259zintiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, xo\u015f anlar ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Sevdiyi insan\u0131 bir an da olsa qay\u011f\u0131dan k\u0259narda saxlam\u0131rd\u0131. Onu \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu sev\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259, anas\u0131z ke\u00e7irdiyi o ac\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259ri unutduraca\u011f\u0131a q\u0131za s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi. N\u0259rgizin a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 is\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. R\u0259van bunun yax\u015f\u0131 bir \u0259lam\u0259t olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyub q\u0131z\u0131n tez-tez \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n getm\u0259sini evd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u00f6y\u00fck qanqara\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa s\u0259b\u0259b oldu m\u00fczakir\u0259l\u0259r. S\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t Yaquba \u00e7atanda is\u0259 ail\u0259nin sora\u011f\u0131 klinikadan g\u0259ldi. N\u0259rgiz ciddi h\u0259kim n\u0259zar\u0259ti alt\u0131nla saxlan\u0131lmal\u0131, g\u00fccl\u00fc m\u00fcalic\u0259 olunmal\u0131 idi. Bir s\u0259h\u0259r is\u0259 h\u0259kimin qoydu\u011fu diaqnoz ail\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 son qoydu.-Onsuz da \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k. Bunu bil\u0259-bil\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 xal salmayaq. Qoy son saatlar\u0131n\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xt ya\u015fas\u0131n bar\u0131, – k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259r\u0259k dedi S\u0259rdar.N\u0259rgizd\u0259n ba\u015fqa h\u0259r k\u0259s onun bu a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259liyinin ad\u0131n\u0131 bilirdi. R\u0259van\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox bu b\u0259xtsiz sevgilisin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi yan\u0131rd\u0131. Tale onun ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t arzusunu \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 bo\u011fdu. Q\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131ndan bir an bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmir, onu \u00fcm\u00fcdl\u0259ndirirdi. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r is\u0259 N\u0259rgiz he\u00e7 n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r, n\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 he\u00e7 bir reaksiya vermirdi. Ancaq bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 baxb axtar\u0131r, axtar\u0131r, onu cavan ik\u0259n d\u0259rd\u0259 salan insan\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131. Bu arzu il\u0259 d\u0259 R\u0259van\u0131n qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 itirdi.Toya haz\u0131rla\u015fan b\u00fct\u00fcn qohumlar d\u0259fnd\u0259 i\u015ftirak etdi. N\u0259rgizi g\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k d\u0259st\u0259lri il\u0259 torpa\u011f\u0131n qoynuna g\u0259lin k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r.R\u0259van uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qapand\u0131. Sevdiyi insan\u0131n yoxlu\u011funu h\u0259zm ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Onun ist\u0259yi il\u0259 N\u0259rgizin qara m\u0259rm\u0259rd\u0259n olan ba\u015f da\u015f\u0131na \u201cNi\u015fanl\u0131 m\u0259zar. Ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131 R\u0259vandan \u0259b\u0259di xatir\u0259\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259rini h\u0259kk edildi. Tez-tez g\u0259lib m\u0259zar\u0131 ziyar\u0259t edir, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ax\u0131daraq t\u0259skinlik tap\u0131rd\u0131. Bu qara m\u0259rm\u0259r Yaqubun v\u0259 R\u0259van\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ksini \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Do\u011fmalar\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 bil m\u0259rm\u0259rd\u0259n boylanan \u015f\u0259kil g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi, m\u0259mnun idi. Bu bax\u0131\u015flara bir \u00e7\u00fct g\u00f6z d\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. Ham\u0131dan x\u0259lv\u0259t q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 seyr ed\u0259n, pe\u015fiman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 yanb, qovrulan, hissl\u0259rinin qurban\u0131na \u00e7evrilmi\u015f Zeyn\u0259bin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 idi. \u0130ndi N\u0259rgiz \u00e7ox rahat uyuyurdu. Anas\u0131n\u0131n isti g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 axd\u0131qca ruhu sevinirdi.Son<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar v\u0259 Jurnalistl\u0259r Birlikl\u0259rinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidenti T\u0259qa\u00fcd F\u0259ndunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201cAzad q\u0259l\u0259m\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, ictimai-publisistik q\u0259zetinin v\u0259 \u201cAli Ziya\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, elmi-publisistik jurnal\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sis\u00e7isi v\u0259 ba\u015f redaktoru Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan kimi dayanaca\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259f t\u0259l\u0259sdi. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 fikirli idi. \u00c7at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcn simas\u0131nda t\u0259bii g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u0259nardan baxan ist\u0259nil\u0259n adam bu q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7iynind\u0259 bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-36479","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36479","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=36479"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36479\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":36482,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36479\/revisions\/36482"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=36479"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=36479"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=36479"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}