{"id":36505,"date":"2020-08-28T01:00:00","date_gmt":"2020-08-27T21:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=36505"},"modified":"2020-08-28T09:41:55","modified_gmt":"2020-08-28T05:41:55","slug":"s%c9%99fa-eyvaz-secilmis-seirl%c9%99r-iii-hiss%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=36505","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa EYVAZ.Se\u00e7ilmi\u015f \u015feirl\u0259r (III hiss\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
\"This<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259hsil Probleml\u0259ri \u0130nstitutunun Kurikulum M\u0259rk\u0259zinin b\u00f6y\u00fck elmi i\u015f\u00e7isi, Az\u0259rbaycan D\u00f6vl\u0259t Pedaqoji Universitetinin m\u00fc\u0259llimi, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n M\u0259sul katibi<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00f6rp\u0259m<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Oturub \u00f6n\u00fcmd\u0259 
muncuq g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259yat i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131
\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n daha g\u00f6z\u0259l bir k\u00f6rp\u0259.
Bax\u0131r minbir sualla,
K\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259.
Gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam, al\u0131narm\u0131?!
Bilmir\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bax\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki m\u0259sum suala,
\u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram az da olsa g\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259,
\u0130nanmad\u0131n bilir\u0259m,
inanma, k\u00f6rp\u0259m…
A\u011fr\u0131lar asanca yox olub getmir,
B\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcnc\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m indi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc,
M\u0259nim k\u0259d\u0259rim\u0259 \u015fahid olursan…
Dilim susa bil\u0259r…
ruhum kirimir.
T\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259
U\u015faq qal, k\u00f6rp\u0259m,
B\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sevinc g\u0259tirmir…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tanr\u0131dan bir dil\u0259k haqq\u0131m olsayd\u0131 \u0259g\u0259r,
Y\u0259qin bu d\u00fcnyadan q\u0259mi alard\u0131m…
Y\u0131\u011f\u0131b xo\u015f anlar\u0131, xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcnl\u0259ri,
K\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayard\u0131m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130ndi a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 s\u0131x\u0131b di\u015fim\u0259, 
\u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 dodaqla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir\u0259m.
G\u00f6zl\u0259rim g\u00fclm\u0259di bunu bilirs\u0259n, 
Bilirs\u0259n v\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q vermirs\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259m…
G\u00fcl k\u00f6rp\u0259m, q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259rin d\u00fcnyaya d\u00f6ns\u00fcn,
g\u00fcl ki, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin d\u0259rman kimidi…
g\u00fcl ki, m\u0259nim yorulmu\u015f ruhum,
b\u0259lk\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b kiridi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

11.05.2018<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7oxmu maraql\u0131d\u0131r s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259yim var?!
Qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q yuxular\u0131m var,
\u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rim.
Yollarda ili\u015fib qalan yor\u011fun
bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m var,
yerli-yersiz u\u015faqca \u00fcmidl\u0259rim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7oxmu maraql\u0131d\u0131r s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra nec\u0259di h\u0259yat?!
Dumanl\u0131 s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r var, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259r
\u015e\u0259h\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc alm\u0131\u015f qara buludlar.
Fikirli ba\u015flayan m\u0259nas\u0131z g\u00fcnl\u0259r,
Bird\u0259 s\u0259ni x\u0259yal ed\u0259n \u00fczg\u00fcn ax\u015famlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2015<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k var… bacarsan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k var bir d\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018ftrin hopmu\u015f bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u0259sr\u0259tli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

y\u0131\u011f\u0131b k\u00fcncd\u0259n, bucaqdan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kims\u0259siz d\u00f6ng\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0131xmaq var susqunlu\u011fu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Di\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k var bir d\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ged\u0259 bils\u0259n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k var<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0259nd\u0259n,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6m\u00fcr dediyin uzun deyil,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nin bir yerind\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn  ba\u011flar q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yenid\u0259n sevm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00fcc\u00fc yetmir \u00fcr\u0259yin<\/p>\n\n\n\n

qopub s\u0259nd\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yeni liman axtars\u0131n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k var,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

amma<\/p>\n\n\n\n

getm\u0259yin d\u0259 n\u00f6v\u00fc var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Unudulmaq itkidir,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Unutmaqsa intihar!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k var,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k… bacarsan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2015-2018<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259nhalar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kims\u0259siz bir adad\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu d\u00fcnyada t\u0259nhalar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sa\u011f\u0131-solu sevgidi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgiy\u0259 add\u0131m atmaq,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259nhal\u0131\u011fa \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00fcbariz\u0259 ist\u0259yir,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yeni \u00f6mr\u0259 ba\u015flamaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kims\u0259siz bir adad\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu d\u00fcnyada t\u0259nhalar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sa\u011f\u0131-solu sevgidi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgi b\u0259z\u0259n qazancd\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgi b\u0259z\u0259n itkidir…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu d\u00fcnyada sevginin<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7oxlu\u011fu da qorxudu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsan b\u0259z\u0259n lap el\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgid\u0259n d\u0259 bo\u011fulur…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

04.05.2018<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f deyils\u0259n ki?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yen\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n yad\u0131ma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cNec\u0259s\u0259n, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bay\u0131rda deyils\u0259n ki?!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yen\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb pla\u015f\u0131ma,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259n\u0259 soyuq deyil ki?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yen\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yad\u0131ma, yadda\u015f\u0131ma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan qoxun g\u0259lir,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f deyils\u0259n ki?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

06.06.2016<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Na\u011f\u0131l<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Na\u011f\u0131l kimi olacaq h\u0259r \u015fey…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n sonunda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00f6yd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 alma
yen\u0259 s\u0259nin olacaq…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259ns\u0259 nam\u0259rd ipiyl\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zlar\u0131 \u0259sir saxlayan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Divl\u0259rin quyusuna en\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu m\u00fcdhi\u015f na\u011f\u0131llarda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zlar\u0131 divl\u0259r apar\u0131r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu na\u011f\u0131l m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00fcmidl\u0259rin can\u0131 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n\u0259 qalan bu na\u011f\u0131ldan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

saxlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00fcmid,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir d\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

k\u0259silmi\u015f k\u0259d\u0259rli ipl\u0259r olacaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yax\u015f\u0131 ki na\u011f\u0131llar insafl\u0131 olur,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn qaranl\u0131qlar\u0131n sonu s\u0259h\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n d\u0259 bu na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n \u201cqurban\u0131\u201d kimi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir Simurq qu\u015funu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcz\u00fclm\u0259 na\u011f\u0131l adam\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sonu n\u0259 olur olsun<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu qorxulu na\u011f\u0131lda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00fc\u00e7 alma ir\u0259lis\u0259n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

13.07.2018<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tanr\u0131m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yor\u011fun \u00fcr\u0259yimi d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

h\u00fczuruna g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, Tanr\u0131m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

o q\u0259d\u0259r yolu yor\u011fun yolda\u015fla g\u0259lm\u0259k nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tindir,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bilirs\u0259nmi?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n


bir k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n perikib<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00fcrkm\u00fc\u015f arzular\u0131m\u0131 toplay\u0131b g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00f6r\u0259 bilirs\u0259nmi, Tanr\u0131m, ne\u00e7\u0259sini itirmi\u015f\u0259m?<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u00fcmidl\u0259rim qalaqlan\u0131b,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sat\u0131n alan yoxdu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0259limd\u0259 qal\u0131b, Tanr\u0131m,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

al\u0131rsanm\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

t\u00fck\u0259ndim, Tanr\u0131m,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259nmi?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

t\u00fck\u0259ndim…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

06.07.2018<\/p>\n\n\n\n


***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m da s\u0259ssizl\u0259\u015fib bu aralar,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dinl\u0259y\u0259n olsa e\u015fid\u0259r s\u0259sini<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0131z\u0131ldayan s\u0259ssizliyin…<\/p>\n\n\n\n


M\u0259n bu g\u00fcn yoxam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

uzun ill\u0259rin ard\u0131ndan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

itirdiyim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 boylan\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kimdi o q\u0131z?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u018flimd\u0259 qalan n\u0259di,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

n\u0259l\u0259ri itirmi\u015f\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

soyuq q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259siy\u0259m indi m\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


daha umidl\u0259rim incim\u0259z,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ne\u00e7\u0259sini ist\u0259yirsiniz<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131n, “adamlar”, s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

donan hissl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss etmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

indi soyuq q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259si,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ruhu itmi\u015f biriy\u0259ms\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

n\u0259 anlam\u0131 qal\u0131r ki,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

n\u0259l\u0259ri itirmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

indi bu s\u0259ssizlikd\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir qurd ulay\u0131r i\u00e7imd\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn yoxluqlar\u0131 k\u0259ndir el\u0259yib<\/p>\n\n\n\n

t\u0259nha k\u0259d\u0259rind\u0259n as\u0131r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

06.07.2018<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

T\u0259hsil Probleml\u0259ri \u0130nstitutunun Kurikulum M\u0259rk\u0259zinin b\u00f6y\u00fck elmi i\u015f\u00e7isi, Az\u0259rbaycan D\u00f6vl\u0259t Pedaqoji Universitetinin m\u00fc\u0259llimi, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n M\u0259sul katibi K\u00f6rp\u0259m Oturub \u00f6n\u00fcmd\u0259 muncuq g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259yat i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n daha g\u00f6z\u0259l bir k\u00f6rp\u0259.Bax\u0131r minbir sualla,K\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259.Gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam, al\u0131narm\u0131?!Bilmir\u0259m… Bax\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki m\u0259sum suala,\u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram az da olsa g\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259,\u0130nanmad\u0131n bilir\u0259m,inanma, k\u00f6rp\u0259m…A\u011fr\u0131lar asanca yox olub getmir,B\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcnc\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n… Gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-36505","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36505","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=36505"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36505\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":36520,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36505\/revisions\/36520"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=36505"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=36505"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=36505"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}