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F\u0259day\u0259 orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirm\u0259mi\u015f, onun\u00e7\u00fcn evl\u0259rin\u0259 yax\u0131ndan, uzaqdan el\u00e7il\u0259r g\u0259lirdi. O, qarag\u00f6zl\u00fc, uzun h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u00fc, cazib\u0259dar olmaqla b\u0259rab\u0259r, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 q\u0131z idi. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndak\u0131 xeyirxahl\u0131q, m\u0259sumluq, sad\u0259lik onu g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259ri heyran edirdi. Sev\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00fcn-g\u00fcnd\u0259n art\u0131rd\u0131. O is\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q vermir, yaln\u0131z ali t\u0259hsil almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn fikirl\u0259\u015firdi. Ali t\u0259hsil almaq, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olmaq onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck arzular idi. O, bu arzulara \u00e7atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259rsl\u0259rind\u0259n \u0259la qiym\u0259tl\u0259r al\u0131r v\u0259 imtahanlara m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l haz\u0131rl\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259yat \u00f6z axar\u0131 il\u0259 gedirdi.
F\u0259day\u0259nin \u00f6z sevdiyi var idi. Q\u0259lbind\u0259ki bu gizli hissd\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259sin x\u0259b\u0259ri yox idi. Yaln\u0131z onu sev\u0259n o\u011flandan ba\u015fqa\u2026Lakin ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmaq ikinci m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 idi onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.
Sevdiyi K\u0259m\u0259nd adl\u0131 o\u011flan onunla bir m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyurdu. K\u0259m\u0259nd h\u0259r g\u00fcn onu qarabaqara izl\u0259yir, e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 ki, kims\u0259 onu sevir, bir yol tap\u0131b ondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259, F\u0259day\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevgisini f\u0259da edirdi. Orta m\u0259kt\u0259b h\u0259yat\u0131na \u0259lvida dey\u0259n g\u0259ncl\u0259r \u00e7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di ki, ni\u015fanland\u0131lar. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t ni\u015fanl\u0131 qald\u0131qdan sonra is\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259rar verdil\u0259r. H\u0259r ikisi ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 daxil olmu\u015fdu. G\u0259nc ail\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olmaq n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin idis\u0259, o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli idi.
G\u00fcnd\u0259lik dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131q onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox c\u0259tin idi. F\u0259day\u0259 \u0259yani, K\u0259m\u0259nd is\u0259 qiyabi t\u0259hsil al\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcst\u0259lik kiray\u0259d\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131lar. Onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn v\u0259ziyy\u0259t ac\u0131nacaql\u0131 olsa da buna sin\u0259 g\u0259rm\u0259yi bacar\u0131rd\u0131lar. K\u0259m\u0259nd zavodda i\u015fl\u0259yirdi, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 az maa\u015f onlara \u00e7atmrd\u0131. He\u00e7 bir k\u0259sd\u0259n k\u00f6m\u0259yi olmayan F\u0259day\u0259nin is\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa \u00fcmid yeri yox idi.
\u0130ll\u0259r bel\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7irdi. Lakin F\u0259day\u0259 \u0259n c\u0259tin anlar\u0131nda bel\u0259 K\u0259m\u0259ndi incitm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 n\u0259 demir, gizli-gizli a\u011flay\u0131b, ovunurdu. Fikirl\u0259\u015firdi ki, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik h\u0259yat\u0131 qurtarar, h\u0259r ikisi i\u015fl\u0259yib, xo\u015fb\u0259xt ail\u0259 olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni ed\u0259c\u0259kdir. T\u0259ki sevgi birliyi, s\u00f6z birliyi olsun.
F\u0259day\u0259 K\u0259m\u0259ndi \u00e7ox sevirdi. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevgi daha b\u00f6y\u00fck zirv\u0259 idi. O, h\u0259r an K\u0259m\u0259ndi qoruma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Birlikd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r\u0259 sin\u0259 g\u0259rm\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 f\u0259xr bilirdi\u2026
K\u0259m\u0259ndin valideynl\u0259ri ona he\u00e7 bir k\u00f6m\u0259klik etmir, onlara qar\u015f\u0131 \u0259n ki\u00e7ik istilik, qay\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rmirdil\u0259r. Oz v\u0259zif\u0259l\u0259rini bitmi\u015f hesab ed\u0259n valideynl\u0259r nec\u0259 bacar\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z el\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131n, dem\u0259kl\u0259 canlar\u0131n\u0131 qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.
\u0130ll\u0259r aylar\u0131, aylar is\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259ri qovurdu\u2026G\u0259nc ail\u0259nin g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n bir-birin\u0259 ba\u011flanmas\u0131, sevgi tell\u0259rinin m\u00f6hk\u0259ml\u0259nm\u0259si onun g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini qoruma\u011fa s\u0259sl\u0259yirdi.
F\u0259day\u0259 is\u0259 K\u0259m\u0259ndi sevdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona h\u0259r an d\u0259st\u0259k olsun. K\u0259m\u0259nd d\u0259, q\u0131s\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 F\u0259day\u0259nin sevgisinin a\u011fu\u015funa. Art\u0131q onlar ali t\u0259hsili bitirib, i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. \u00d6vladlar\u0131 da d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.
\u00d6m\u00fcr pill\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 F\u0259day\u0259 K\u0259m\u0259ndl\u0259 add\u0131mlayanda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir pill\u0259 ondan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da olsun ki, laz\u0131m olan zamanlarda h\u0259yat y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 onun \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn. M\u0259hz buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259zablar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u0259zilir, zill\u0259tl\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Lakin ail\u0259sinin x\u0259trin\u0259 h\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tinliy\u0259 d\u00f6zm\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 borc bilirdi.
\u0130ll\u0259rin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Zaman-zaman \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u0259zablarla bo\u011fulur, yenid\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcc toplay\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131 \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k, \u0259rs\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o ya\u015famal\u0131 idi. H\u0259m m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir, h\u0259m d\u0259 ev qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirdi.
Art\u0131q \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r arxada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259m\u0259nd ist\u0259diyi m\u0259qama \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fdi. \u0130\u015fi, pulu, \u0259trafda tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131qlar\u0131, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi bir add\u0131m yox, F\u0259day\u0259d\u0259n daha \u00e7ox ir\u0259lid\u0259 gedirdi. Maddi c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n K\u0259m\u0259nd F\u0259day\u0259d\u0259n ir\u0259lid\u0259 olsa da, m\u0259n\u0259vi c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n geril\u0259yirdi. O, F\u0259day\u0259nin \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u0259zablar\u0131 qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirmir, m\u0259n\u0259m- m\u0259n\u0259mlik edirdi. Bu is\u0259 F\u0259day\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartsa da, dill\u0259nmir, h\u0259r \u015feyi zaman\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 burax\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki, onunla birlikd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u0259zablar\u0131 K\u0259m\u0259nd unutmu\u015f, he\u00e7 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.
F\u0259day\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r bir \u0259zab idi, bu haqs\u0131zl\u0131qlar.
Ax\u0131 K\u0259m\u0259nd onunla evl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xti hesab edirdi, guya onun d\u0259rdind\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 B\u0259s n\u0259 oldu, onu var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t sevdiyind\u0259n bel\u0259 tez uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131? Suallara g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 cavab verirdi F\u0259day\u0259\u2026 K\u0259m\u0259ndin bir pill\u0259 qabaqda olma\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259rid\u0259n, qab\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xan F\u0259day\u0259 bu g\u00fcn onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 k\u0259s idi.. Bu pill\u0259l\u0259r K\u0259m\u0259ndin yalan\u00e7\u0131, saxta m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tini d\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daha bir pill\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259yilib, F\u0259day\u0259y\u0259 baxmaq bel\u0259 ist\u0259mirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki g\u00f6zl\u0259ri daha yuxar\u0131 pill\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 idi.
F\u0259day\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, h\u0259r \u015fey onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bitmi\u015fdi. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 olan h\u0259yat\u0131 ona d\u0259rdd\u0259n-s\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey deyildi. Ax\u0131, \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259r\u0259 onunla bir sin\u0259 g\u0259rmi\u015f F\u0259day\u0259nin \u0259zablara d\u00fc\u00e7ar olmas\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn idi? Xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn eyni yolu ged\u0259n F\u0259ay\u0259nin haqq\u0131n\u0131 tapadalamaq g\u00fcnah deyildimi?
X\u0259yallar i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259yatn\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc anbaan unudan F\u0259day\u0259in,bu haqs\u0131zl\u0131qlar\u0131 sakitc\u0259 izl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u015fqa \u00e7ar\u0259si yox idi. Zaman \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l hakim idi\u2026 Lakin zaman da b\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6z t\u0259k\u0259rini d\u00fcz f\u0131rlatm\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fz\u0259ni \u0259zir, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi\u2026 Suallar i\u00e7ind\u0259 suala d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc F\u0259day\u0259\u2026
K\u0259m\u0259nd bu zirv\u0259d\u0259 ik\u0259n, ke\u00e7mi\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlayacaqm\u0131, dey\u0259 fikirl\u015firdi. Fikirl\u0259r onu yax\u0131n ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 aparsa da, onu sev\u0259n insan\u0131n bunlara qay\u0131tmas\u0131, onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n olmamas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259yatdan \u0259lini \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259rd\u0259n bu ac\u0131l\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259ri yada salanda K\u0259m\u0259ndin ona qulaq asmama\u011f\u0131, onu e\u015fitm\u0259k bel\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259si F\u0259day\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259r g\u00fcn daha \u00fcmidsizliy\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yirdi.B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara baxmayaraq F\u0259day\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131 x\u0259trin\u0259 s\u0259brin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b\u2026
Vicdan\u0131nda bir z\u0259rr\u0259 d\u0259, olsa \u0259dal\u0259t, etibar, insanl\u0131\u011fa h\u00f6rm\u0259t v\u0259 haqqa inam\u0131 varsa, ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259k, dey\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7apalad\u011f\u0131 fikirl\u0259rin, x\u0259yallar\u0131n qanad\u0131nda u\u00e7ur, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli axtar\u0131rd\u0131 F\u0259day\u0259.
K\u0259m\u0259nd is\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u0259yi\u015fir, var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t, \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t onu tamam ba\u00e7qa bir al\u0259m\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. O al\u0259m ki, orada n\u0259 sevgi vard\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 insanl\u0131q\u2026 \u015eeytani hissl\u0259rin covlan etdiyi bir al\u0259m idi. F\u0259day\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n amans\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, sevdiyinin etibars\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan yorulmu\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u00fcnyada ik\u0259n, ruhu onu t\u0259rk edtmi\u015fdi sanki\u2026
G\u00fcnl\u0259r bir-birini qovurdu\u2026 G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na h\u0259md\u0259m olan qad\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259mi\u015fdi\u2026 Orda haqq-\u0259dal\u0259t axtar\u0131rd\u0131\u2026 N\u0259 zamansa g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131\u2026
Bir g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259 olark\u0259n i\u015f telefonuna g\u0259l\u0259n z\u0259ng onu x\u0259yallar\u0131ndan ay\u0131rd\u0131. E\u015fitdiyi x\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259lind\u0259ki telefon d\u0259st\u0259yi yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131 F\u0259day\u0259ni \u0259l\u0259 almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131lar. Telefon d\u0259s\u0259t\u0259yini \u0259lin\u0259 alan i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131 z\u0259ng g\u0259l\u0259n yerd\u0259n n\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259c\u0259yi bar\u0259d\u0259 soru\u015fanda hal\u0131 pis oldu. K\u0259m\u0259ndin q\u0259za t\u00f6r\u0259tm\u0259si bar\u0259d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259n onun yax\u0131n dostu idi.
Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatdan sonra ham\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259xanada idi. K\u0259m\u0259ndin yan\u0131nda F\u0259day\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Qohumlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r tutsa da he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. T\u0259kc\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r F\u0259day\u0259nin i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131, bac\u0131-qarda\u015flar\u0131, bir d\u0259 ail\u0259vi dostlar\u0131 idi. K\u0259m\u0259nd m\u00f6hk\u0259m \u0259zilmi\u015fdi. V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r idi.
H\u0259kim ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b soru\u015fdu\u2026
-Xan\u0131m, siz h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?
-B\u0259li.
-T\u0259cili \u0259m\u0259liyyat olunmal\u0131d\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259niz.
Yoxsa x\u0259st\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259 bil\u0259r.
F\u0259day\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b,titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259\u2026
-H\u0259kim xahi\u015f edir\u0259m,n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rsa, \u0259linizd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259yin. T\u0259ki K\u0259m\u0259nd sa\u011f-salamat olsun.
\u018fm\u0259liyyat iki saat \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bu m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u0259rzind\u0259 F\u0259day\u0259nin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 sel\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Onu saxlamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmurdu. Onun K\u0259m\u0259nd\u0259 olan sevgisini \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n, bir d\u0259 Allahdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 k\u0259s duya bilm\u0259zdi. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 Allah\u0131na yalvar\u0131r, onun sa\u011falmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dualar edirdi.
Bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 n\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131 bel\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r tutsa da g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hans\u0131 ki, K\u0259m\u0259nd onlar\u0131n yolunda h\u0259r \u015fey etmi\u015fdi v\u0259 edirdi d\u0259. Bac\u0131s\u0131 is\u0259 h\u0259r zaman onlar\u0131n ail\u0259 i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fmaqla, onlar\u0131n bu d\u0259li sevgisin\u0259 \u0259ng\u0259l olmaqla F\u0259day\u0259nin q\u0259lbini q\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, ona olan ist\u0259yini \u0259lind\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
F\u0259day\u0259nin hal\u0131 pisl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. Tez-tez \u00fcr\u0259yi tutan F\u0259day\u0259ni h\u0259kiml\u0259r bir t\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bimi\u015fdil\u0259r.
K\u0259m\u0259ndin bir aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259smi\u015fdi h\u0259kiml\u0259r. B\u0259d\u0259ninin \u00e7ox yerl\u0259ri sar\u0131ql\u0131 idi. Onu reanimasiya ota\u011f\u0131na apard\u0131lar. Yan\u0131na he\u00e7 k\u0259si buraxm\u0131rd\u0131lar. T\u0259kc\u0259 F\u0259day\u0259 yalvar-yax\u0131\u015fla qalma\u011fa icaz\u0259 ala bildi. Gec\u0259nin bir zaman\u0131 K\u0259m\u0259nd g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259\u2026Suzundan ciy\u0259rim yan\u0131r.F\u0259day\u0259 limonlu su il\u0259 pamb\u0131\u011f\u0131 islad\u0131b onun qurumu\u015f dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 islatd\u0131.
D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259m\u0259liyyat ke\u00e7irmi\u015f F\u0259day\u0259 sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7oxunu itirs\u0259 d\u0259, K\u0259m\u0259ndin yolunda yenid\u0259n h\u0259r \u0259zaba qatla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Onun aya\u011fa durmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
K\u0259m\u0259nd h\u0259r g\u00fcn F\u0259day\u0259nin etdiyi bu yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kir, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxma\u011fa bel\u0259 utan\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259tta F\u0259day\u0259nin vaxtil\u0259 gizlin ax\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na da m\u0259h\u0259l qoymamas\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bimirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 yenid\u0259n xat\u0131rlayan K\u0259m\u0259nd \u00e7\u0259kdiyi vicdan \u0259zab\u0131ndan qurtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir g\u00fcn\u2026
-F\u0259day\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 etdikl\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 Allah m\u0259ni bel\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131rd\u0131. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. S\u0259n m\u0259nim \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin an\u0131mda m\u0259n\u0259 dayaq durmusan. M\u0259n\u0259 ata-ana, bac\u0131-qarda\u015f olmusan. M\u0259n is\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 layiq d\u0259y\u0259r ver\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259ni yenid\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya qaytard\u0131n. M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla\u2026
F\u0259day\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 K\u0259m\u0259ndin ona qar\u015f\u0131 etdiyi haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 susmu\u015f, he\u00e7 zaman s\u0259sini bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yaln\u0131z a\u011flamaqla \u00fcr\u0259yini sakitl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi.\u00d6z sevgisin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nan polad irad\u0259li, z\u0259rif q\u0259lbli F\u0259day\u0259
h\u0259r zamank\u0131 kimi yen\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131\u2026.
Xalid\u0259 Nuray. 05.04.2017.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

F\u0259day\u0259 orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirm\u0259mi\u015f, onun\u00e7\u00fcn evl\u0259rin\u0259 yax\u0131ndan, uzaqdan el\u00e7il\u0259r g\u0259lirdi. O, qarag\u00f6zl\u00fc, uzun h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u00fc, cazib\u0259dar olmaqla b\u0259rab\u0259r, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 q\u0131z idi. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndak\u0131 xeyirxahl\u0131q, m\u0259sumluq, sad\u0259lik onu g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259ri heyran edirdi. Sev\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00fcn-g\u00fcnd\u0259n art\u0131rd\u0131. O is\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q vermir, yaln\u0131z ali t\u0259hsil almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn fikirl\u0259\u015firdi. Ali t\u0259hsil almaq, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olmaq onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck arzular […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-37629","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/37629","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=37629"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/37629\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":37656,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/37629\/revisions\/37656"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=37629"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=37629"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=37629"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}