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\u015e\u0259hidl\u0259r \u00f6lm\u00fcr, \u0259b\u0259di ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrl\u0259r!..<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yanvar – 2021<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bug\u00fcnl\u00fck sonuncu \u00e7\u0259kili\u015fl\u0259ri idi. \u00c7ox yorulmu\u015fdu. \u018fslind\u0259, onun yor\u011funlu\u011fu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc i\u015fin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan deyil, i\u00e7in\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259diyi a\u011fr\u0131lardan do\u011furdu. \u015e\u0259hid analar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxaraq sual verm\u0259k, \u015e\u0259hid atalar\u0131n\u0131n q\u00fcrurunda bo\u011fmaq ist\u0259diyi h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k, \u015e\u0259hid balas\u0131n\u0131n “Atam q\u0259hr\u0259mand\u0131r” dey\u0259r\u0259k, d\u00f6rd yanda atas\u0131n\u0131 axtarmas\u0131n\u0131 seyr etm\u0259k onu \u00e7ox a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bu a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259zil\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259ni ruhuna t\u0259slim olur, yorulurdu…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

…T\u0259xmin\u0259n \u0259lli ya\u015flar\u0131nda olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, qam\u0259ti \u0259yilmi\u015f, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin, dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131na q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f b\u0259st\u0259boy qad\u0131n jurnalistl\u0259ri mehribanl\u0131qla qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Bu q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar cadar torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 yenic\u0259 ya\u011fm\u0131\u015f leysandan sonra a\u00e7\u0131lan \u015f\u0131rnaqlara b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qara yayl\u0131qla ba\u011flasa da, a\u011farm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131 yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qad\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onlar k\u00f6hn\u0259 qap\u0131-p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 hasara al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f h\u0259y\u0259ti ke\u00e7\u0259r\u0259k, ki\u00e7ik eyvanda ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131lar v\u0259 dar\u0131sqal, lakin s\u0259liq\u0259li ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. Otaqdan \u00fc\u00e7 t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 qap\u0131 vard\u0131. Qap\u0131lar o biri otaqlara a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Ota\u011f\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259fini divan v\u0259 iki kreslo, o biri t\u0259r\u0259fini is\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131na stullar d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck masa tuturdu. Masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif c\u00fcr konfetl\u0259r v\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259l\u0259r vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r ke\u00e7ib divanda oturdu. Operator is\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259kil\u0259ri yer\u0259 qoyub, \u00e7\u0259kili\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rl\u0131qlara ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qad\u0131n \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. O \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sakit g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, titr\u0259k barmaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7aqlar\u0131n\u0131 durmadan didi\u015fdirir, h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcruz\u0259 verirdi. Ota\u011fa g\u0259nc, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n bir xan\u0131m v\u0259 onun arxas\u0131nca iki u\u015faq daxil oldu. Xan\u0131m:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Xo\u015f g\u0259libsiniz! – dey\u0259r\u0259k, qap\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 dayand\u0131. Qarayan\u0131z, iri qara g\u00f6zl\u00fc, q\u0131vr\u0131m sa\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yeddi-s\u0259kkiz ya\u015flar\u0131nda, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, q\u0259hv\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u00fc o\u011flan is\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd ya\u015flar\u0131nda olard\u0131. \u018fsm\u0259r \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc: “Bac\u0131-qarda\u015fd\u0131lar y\u0259qin. Ancaq bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 he\u00e7 b\u0259nz\u0259mirl\u0259r. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, q\u0131z atas\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yir, o\u011flansa anas\u0131na”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

U\u015faqlar ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na ke\u00e7ib dizl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131lar. Qad\u0131n onlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na tumar \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259nc xan\u0131ma tutdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Qonaqlara \u00e7ay g\u0259tir, ay bala, yoldan g\u0259libl\u0259r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Narahat olmay\u0131n xala, – \u018fsm\u0259r dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u0259nc xan\u0131m otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Q\u0131z\u0131m, n\u0259 narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q, \u0259ziz qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131zs\u0131n\u0131z. – Qad\u0131n bayaqdan b\u0259ri gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ehmalca sil\u0259r\u0259k dedi. Ota\u011fa s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Bu a\u011f\u0131r s\u00fckutu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u015firinind\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dadan, atas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259rini ya\u015fayan u\u015faqlar da pozmaq ist\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Siz \u015e\u0259hidimizin anas\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, el\u0259mi? – \u018fsm\u0259r verdiyi sual\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u0259zil\u0259r\u0259k soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– H\u0259, qadan al\u0131m, h\u0259! M\u0259n qarag\u00fcnl\u00fc, m\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f onun anas\u0131yam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra qad\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7ay sinisi i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n g\u0259nc xan\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bu is\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131d\u0131, qarayayl\u0131q g\u0259linim… – dey\u0259r\u0259k, d\u0259rind\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kdi, – u\u015faqlar da onundu…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gizlin-gizlin silm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259sinin ayaqlar\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259nib g\u0259l\u0259n qonaqlar\u0131 matd\u0131m-matd\u0131m izl\u0259yirdi. Onun rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan n\u0259n\u0259sinin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdiyi hiss olunurdu. Q\u0131zsa bir yerd\u0259 durmur, gah n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 suallar verir, gah da kameraya, mikrofona toxunur, d\u0259c\u0259llik edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– \u018fsm\u0259r, n\u0259n\u0259 qadan\u0131 als\u0131n, bir yerd\u0259 dur, qonaqlar\u0131m\u0131z k\u00fcs\u0259r bizd\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0259c\u0259l q\u0131z maraq v\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm dolu n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 baxaraq g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc. Onun yanaqlar\u0131nda bir c\u00fct q\u0259mz\u0259 – \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259k \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u018fsm\u0259r \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc: “\u0130lahi, n\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng q\u0131zd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 bir bunun yanaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259mz\u0259sin\u0259 bax. Tanr\u0131m, nec\u0259 q\u0131y\u0131rsan u\u015faqlar\u0131n atas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sin\u0259?”. D\u0259rind\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 astadan:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u00fcharib\u0259ni l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lsin! – dedi. Onun p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kims\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259di. Sonra balaca \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k: – Yox, k\u00fcsm\u0259rik. He\u00e7 s\u0259nin kimi q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng q\u0131zdan k\u00fcsm\u0259k olar? – dedi v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc. – M\u0259n d\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259m, ada\u015f\u0131q. G\u0259l, g\u0259l bura. – \u018flini q\u0131za t\u0259r\u0259f uzatd\u0131. Q\u0131z \u00fcrk\u0259k add\u0131mlarla qona\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u018fsm\u0259r onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fayaraq yana\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259mz\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Balaca \u018fsm\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131y\u0131b:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ada\u015f n\u0259di? – soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Y\u0259ni ikimizin d\u0259 ad\u0131m\u0131z \u018fsm\u0259rdi. Adlar\u0131 eyni olan adamlara ada\u015f deyirl\u0259r. Bilirs\u0259nmi, \u018fsm\u0259r n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– H\u0259, bilir\u0259m, – balaca q\u0131z\u0131n yanaqlar\u0131nda yenid\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259k \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– \u018fsm\u0259r qara ki\u015fmi\u015f dem\u0259kdi. Atam m\u0259n\u0259 “qara ki\u015fmi\u015fim” deyir. S\u0259nin d\u0259 atan s\u0259n\u0259 “qara ki\u015fmi\u015fim” deyir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n yanaqlar\u0131ndan bir d\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 sakit s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– H\u0259, m\u0259nim d\u0259 atam m\u0259n\u0259 “qara ki\u015fmi\u015fim” deyir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“M\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 “qara ki\u015fmi\u015fim”dey\u0259n var\u0131yd\u0131. Bir zaman m\u0259n d\u0259 kimin\u00e7\u00fcns\u0259 qara ki\u015fmi\u015fiydim”, – d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt unutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, lakin ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kd\u0259n qorxdu\u011fu Orxan\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, “Orxan” des\u0259, dili yanar. Yanan dili b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nini qarsar v\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259ki sirri fa\u015f olar. Bu ad\u0131n sahibi onun Tanr\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131, s\u0259cd\u0259gah\u0131yd\u0131. O, Tanr\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, s\u0259sini e\u015fitmi\u015f, h\u0259nirini duymu\u015fdu. Tanr\u0131 ona sevgi olaraq rast g\u0259lmi\u015f, sevgi \u015f\u0259klind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sonra onlar ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Tanr\u0131 onun \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259, ruhunda ya\u015fad\u0131… \u0130lk \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131na basanda Tanr\u0131n\u0131 yenid\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u0259trini duydu, s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi… Sonra ikinci \u00f6vlad\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc Tanr\u0131… V\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259, Tanr\u0131 ona daha \u00e7ox yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, o, Tanr\u0131ya daha \u00e7ox sar\u0131ld\u0131. O, tanr\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 – balalar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131qca Orxan\u0131 unudurdumu? Orxan\u0131n yoxlu\u011funu bu varl\u0131qlar doldururdumu? Bu suala he\u00e7 vaxt cavab tapa bilmirdi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Oktyabr – 2008<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 Ruhiyy\u0259 bu binaya sentyabr ay\u0131ndan k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Onlar ya\u015fl\u0131 \u0259r-arvad\u0131n kiray\u0259\u00e7il\u0259ri idil\u0259r. Ev sahibl\u0259ri sakit, mehriban adamlar idi. Qarayan\u0131z, ar\u0131q, el\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli olmayan \u018fsm\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, Ruhiyy\u0259nin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc g\u00f6zox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Onun ip\u0259k kimi sar\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131, iri \u015fabal\u0131d\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, nazik olsa da, \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 yara\u015fan dodaqlar\u0131, dolu, lakin m\u00fct\u0259nasib b\u0259d\u0259n qurulu\u015fu vard\u0131. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r xarici g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259n doymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi, dinl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 \u015firin l\u0259hc\u0259sind\u0259n qopa bilmirdi. Ruhiyy\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015f\u0259n q\u0131z idi. Harda olur-olsun, diqq\u0259t m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131zlar universitet\u0259 bir gedir, bir d\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

…Qon\u015fuluqdak\u0131 qara\u015f\u0131n, ar\u0131q, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259skik olmayan, g\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259 yanaqlar\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259k \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n o\u011flan tez-tez onlar\u0131n yoluna \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki o, yanaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259mz\u0259ni ham\u0131ya g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn hey g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. O\u011flan k\u00f6lg\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259r g\u00fcn q\u0131zlar\u0131 universitet\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, g\u00fcnortalar is\u0259 ev\u0259 qaytar\u0131rd\u0131. Onlar eyni binan\u0131n ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 bloklar\u0131nda ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qald\u0131qlar\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259 d\u0259 eyni idi – s\u0259kkizinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Soyuq v\u0259 dumanl\u0131 bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc idi. H\u0259min g\u00fcn \u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259rsd\u0259n tez \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, universitetin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaraq ma\u015f\u0131n yolunu ke\u00e7di v\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sik halda parka t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131. Evl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259n k\u0259s\u0259 yol buradan ke\u00e7irdi. S\u0131ralanan \u00e7inar a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndak\u0131 park\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra b\u00f6y\u00fck idman meydan\u00e7as\u0131na gir\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 oradan da binalar\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f ged\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qara, ar\u0131q o\u011flan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi, park\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6vd\u0259li \u00e7inar a\u011fac\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. O, \u018fsm\u0259rin t\u0259k g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb duruxdu v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ani bir sevinc yarand\u0131, yanaqlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u018fsm\u0259r ona fikir verm\u0259d\u0259n yan\u0131ndan \u00f6tm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 dedi:        <\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Salam!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Salam! – \u018fsm\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259\u0259-n… – o\u011flan k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131, – m\u0259n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ruhiyy\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259di bir saata \u00e7\u0131xacaq. – \u018fsm\u0259r q\u0131sa cavab ver\u0259r\u0259k, parka t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ruhiyy\u0259? Hans\u0131 Ruhiyy\u0259?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Nec\u0259 hans\u0131? – \u018fsm\u0259r ciddi g\u00f6rk\u0259m ald\u0131, ona t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildi v\u0259: – G\u00f6zl\u0259diyin q\u0131z\u0131 deyir\u0259m d\u0259, h\u0259r g\u00fcn yolunda durdu\u011fun… – dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259\u0259-\u0259n? M\u0259n onun yolunda durmuram, ax\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onun cavab\u0131 \u018fsm\u0259ri \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dedi: “Bu adam ya axmaqd\u0131, ya da m\u0259ni axmaq yerin\u0259 qoyub”. Sonra ucadan:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– B\u0259s kimin yolunda durursan? M\u0259nim? – hirsl\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc birba\u015fa dem\u0259yi v\u0259 k\u0259skin cavablar\u0131 sevirdi. Qrupda ham\u0131 ona “ac\u0131dil”, qohumlar aras\u0131nda is\u0259 “z\u0259h\u0259r tulu\u011fu” deyirdi. Amma bu ac\u0131dil, i\u015fv\u0259-naz\u0131 sevm\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131 tamam f\u0259rqli idi. \u018fsl \u018fsm\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259ri, essel\u0259ri oxumaq laz\u0131m g\u0259lirdi. O \u015feirl\u0259r sevgi, h\u0259yat dolu, \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n bir q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yinin s\u0259siydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yerind\u0259 dayanaraq, ki\u00e7ik gil\u0259l\u0259ri qapqara olan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o\u011flana zill\u0259di. Bu qara, “ar\u0131q-uruq” dey\u0259 la\u011fa qoyduqlar\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndak\u0131 i\u015f\u0131q, sanki g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qama\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. O i\u015f\u0131\u011fa boyland\u0131. O\u011flan\u0131n i\u00e7ini ayd\u0131nca g\u00f6rd\u00fc: nec\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yat dolu, saf, t\u0259miz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc… Sonra a\u011faclar, skamyalar, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r, qu\u015flar, adamlar, b\u00fct\u00fcn G\u0259nc\u0259 i\u015f\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u018fsm\u0259r yerind\u0259c\u0259 donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– H\u0259, sizin yolunuzda dururdum! – O\u011flan\u0131n titr\u0259k s\u0259sind\u0259 bir q\u0259tiyy\u0259t vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259\u0259nim? – \u018fsm\u0259rin d\u0259 s\u0259si titr\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131, – Niy\u0259? M\u0259nim niy\u0259?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bilmir\u0259m! – Orxan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirmi\u015fdi. H\u0259y\u0259candan tir-tir \u0259sirdi. O\u011flana cavab verm\u0259d\u0259n geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc v\u0259 dayanaca\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131. O\u011flan onun arxas\u0131nca:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ad\u0131m Orxand\u0131r! – des\u0259 d\u0259, \u018fsm\u0259r onu e\u015fitmirdi. Dayanacaqdak\u0131 ilk avtobusa \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259k, \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, yanaqlar\u0131 indic\u0259 od tutub al\u0131\u015facaq v\u0259 ham\u0131 onun i\u00e7ind\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Orxan is\u0259 \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n halda \u018fsm\u0259rin arxas\u0131nca boylan\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Sentyabr – 2008<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Orxan K\u0259nd T\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131 Akademiyas\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu kursunda oxuyurdu. Evin bir o\u011flu idi. Ata-anas\u0131 onu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fcts\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, ar\u0131q, \u00e7\u0259limsiz olaraq qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Arzusu h\u0259rb\u00e7i olmaq idi. Lakin atas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259kidi il\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rini akademiyaya vermi\u015fdi. Bilirdi ki, akademiyan\u0131 bitir\u0259n m\u0259zunlara h\u0259rbi r\u00fctb\u0259 verilir. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259br ed\u0259r\u0259k t\u0259hsilinin bitm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir, h\u0259rbi h\u0259yata can at\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Atas\u0131 Qaraba\u011f d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015ftirak etmi\u015f, m\u00fcharib\u0259nin a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, birc\u0259 balas\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259rbid\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259y g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259, o\u011flu bununla raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131r, “M\u0259nim torpa\u011f\u0131m erm\u0259ninin ayaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131ndad\u0131, qarda\u015f-bac\u0131lar\u0131m d\u0131\u011falar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 \u0259sirdi. M\u0259n az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 oldu\u011fumla f\u0259xr etdiyim halda, bunu dilim\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259mmir\u0259m. Niy\u0259? N\u0259d\u0259n? Yox, m\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q h\u0259rb\u00e7i olacam. Qaraba\u011f i\u015f\u011faldan azad olmay\u0131nca, m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q yoxdur!” – deyirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

…H\u0259min g\u00fcn Orxan d\u0259rsd\u0259n yor\u011fun g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Eyvandan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin izdiham\u0131n\u0131 izl\u0259yirdi. Sol t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259s\u0259 boyland\u0131. Qon\u015fu eyvanda iki q\u0131z m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edirdi. Biri sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n sa\u00e7l\u0131, dolu b\u0259d\u0259nli, o birisi is\u0259 qara sa\u00e7l\u0131, ar\u0131q. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, hans\u0131sa bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 onu yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 qoymurdu. Q\u0131zlar is\u0259 ona fikir vermir, m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 davam edirdil\u0259r. Sonra bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259ri k\u0259sdi v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. El\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u0259-g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. Sonralar Orxan q\u0131zlar\u0131n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olduqlar\u0131n\u0131, burada kiray\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndi. \u00d6z al\u0259mind\u0259 q\u0131zlara ad da qoymu\u015fdu. “Qara ki\u015fmi\u015f” v\u0259 “Sar\u0131 q\u0131z”. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r sad\u0259c\u0259 onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fs\u0259 d\u0259, sonra bu hissin b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u00e7ini sard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etmi\u015fdi. “Qara ki\u015fmi\u015f” onun \u00fcr\u0259yini el\u0259 bir \u015firinlikl\u0259 doldururdu ki, bu sehrd\u0259n qopa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini d\u0259rk edirdi. O, “Qara ki\u015fmi\u015fi” g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi. H\u0259r g\u00fcn q\u0131zlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca universitet\u0259 gedir, onlar qay\u0131danda d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u0259rs\u0259 gecikir, sonuncu d\u0259rsd\u0259n is\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. N\u00fcmun\u0259vi t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rinin d\u0259yi\u015fdiyin\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb edirdi. Q\u0131zlar da onun m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259tin\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Orxan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015f\u0131r, \u015faqqanaq \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Fevral – 2009<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u0259min o dumanl\u0131 pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u018fsm\u0259rin d\u0259 qon\u015fu o\u011flana mara\u011f\u0131 oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Tez-tez balkona \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, qon\u015fu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 boylan\u0131rd\u0131. Ruhiyy\u0259 d\u0259 bunu sezir, g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k deyirdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ax\u0131r ki, s\u0259nin d\u0259 a\u015fiq oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fck. Aaz, saa demerdimmi, g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259j\u0259h s\u0259n d\u0259 sevdalanajaxsan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r ona susaraq cavab verirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Son zamanlar Orxan q\u0131zlara yax\u0131nla\u015fmaqdan \u00e7\u0259kinmirdi. Dem\u0259k olar ki, dostla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 Ruhiyy\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 Orxan\u0131 t\u0259k qoymaq ist\u0259mi\u015f, amma q\u0131z r\u0259fiq\u0259sinin qolundan yap\u0131\u015faraq buraxmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ruhiyy\u0259 rayonda idi. \u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259rs\u0259 t\u0259k gedib-g\u0259lirdi. Orxan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ona yax\u0131nla\u015fmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0131z qa\u00e7\u0131b avtobusa minmi\u015f, ondan uzaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn is\u0259 qa\u00e7mad\u0131, h\u0259tta Orxan\u0131n yan\u0131na \u00e7atanda add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u0131td\u0131 v\u0259 asta s\u0259sl\u0259 salam verdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r Ruhiyy\u0259nin yan\u0131nda \u00e7ox s\u0259rb\u0259st olurdu. Deyib-g\u00fcl\u00fcr, zarafatlar edirdi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 susqun, \u00fcrk\u0259k idi. Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0259sar\u0259tini Ruhiyy\u0259nin \u015faqraq g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n al\u0131rd\u0131 bu q\u0131z…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– \u018fsm\u0259r, s\u0259ninl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131yam. – Orxan dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Buyur!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259n s\u0259nin bar\u0259nd\u0259 anama demi\u015f\u0259m. O \u00e7ox sevindi. Atama da dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259rin yanaqlar\u0131 q\u0131zard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Orxan davam etdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Siz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. Atam deyir ki, ni\u015fanlan v\u0259 ixtisas\u0131na uy\u011fun i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l. M\u0259n is\u0259 h\u0259rbiy\u0259 getm\u0259k, h\u0259rb\u00e7i olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. S\u0259n h\u0259rb\u00e7iyl\u0259 ail\u0259 qurarsan?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131, yanaqlar\u0131 q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015fdu. Orxan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259rb\u00e7i olma\u011f\u0131 arzu edirdim. Ail\u0259miz buna raz\u0131 olmad\u0131. \u00c7ox sevir\u0259m h\u0259rbi geyimi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Orxan sevinc\u0259k dedi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Dem\u0259k, h\u0259! H\u0259\u0259\u0259, s\u0259n h\u0259rb\u00e7iyl\u0259 ail\u0259 qurarsan!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259n tutaraq onunla yana\u015f\u0131 add\u0131mlad\u0131. Onlar \u00e7inar a\u011faclar\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259hat\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f park\u0131 gerid\u0259 qoyub, \u0259slind\u0259, arak\u0259sm\u0259, lakin ke\u00e7ilm\u0259kd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259r\u0259k yola\u011fa d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f c\u0131\u011f\u0131rdan ke\u00e7ib meydan\u00e7aya daxil oldular. Meydan\u00e7a boyunca sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f oturacaqlardan birind\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r.  \u018ftrafda kims\u0259 yox idi. Arabir meydan\u00e7an\u0131n i\u00e7ini k\u0259s\u0259 yol ed\u0259n yerli adamlar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Orxan \u018fsm\u0259rin \u0259lini h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 buraxmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r ikisinin \u00fcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc e\u015fidilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Akademiyan\u0131 bitir\u0259n kimi h\u0259rbiy\u0259 yollanacam. – Orxan s\u00fckutu pozdu. – \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m o\u011flum da m\u0259nim kimi torpaq h\u0259sr\u0259tiyl\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcn. Bilirs\u0259nmi, \u018fsm\u0259r, bizim ordumuz \u00e7ox g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr. Biz m\u00fcharib\u0259ni uduzmam\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Sad\u0259c\u0259, dayand\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Zaman bel\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b edir. H\u0259r \u015feyin \u00f6z vaxt\u0131 var. Atam deyir ki, erm\u0259ni ordusunda vuru\u015fanlar erm\u0259nil\u0259r deyildi, \u00e7oxusu ruslar\u0131yd\u0131. Rus onlara d\u0259st\u0259k olmasa, erm\u0259ni kimdi ki, biz\u0259 g\u00fcc g\u0259lsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O, h\u0259rbid\u0259n, d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7ox h\u0259rar\u0259tl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Onun s\u0259s tonundan, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n, iti bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan hiss olunurdu ki, qorxmaz, q\u0259hr\u0259man bir zabit olacaq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Sentyabr – 2009<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

…Orxan dediyi kimi d\u0259 el\u0259di, akademiyan\u0131 bitirdi v\u0259 h\u0259rbiy\u0259 yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r valideynl\u0259ri etiraz ets\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, sonda o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259rb\u00e7i olmaq ist\u0259yi il\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. O, vaxta\u015f\u0131r\u0131 m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lir, \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u018fsm\u0259r d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc kursda oxuyurdu. Onlar evl\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u018fsm\u0259rin universiteti bitirm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

…Yen\u0259 d\u0259 idman meydan\u00e7as\u0131nda – h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki oturacaqlar\u0131nda yana\u015f\u0131 oturmu\u015fdular. Orxan qolunu \u018fsm\u0259rin belin\u0259 dolayaraq:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ay qara ki\u015fmi\u015fim, – dedi, – toyumuzdan sonra k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015famaq s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin olmayacaq ki? – Xidm\u0259t etdiyi s\u0259rh\u0259d b\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259ki k\u0259ndi n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tuturdu. – Bax, da\u011f yeridi oralar, h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi burdak\u0131 kimi deyil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Olsun d\u0259\u0259, s\u0259n yan\u0131mda ol, lap Murovun ba\u015f\u0131nda da ya\u015fayaram. – \u018fsm\u0259r Orxan\u0131n fura\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b qapqara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. – S\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox yara\u015f\u0131r ee, h\u0259rbi forma. El\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259y g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n ki?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259n formas\u0131z da yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131yam, – Orxan g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc. Yanaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259k bir az da d\u0259rinl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ayy, nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n raz\u0131san! – \u018fsm\u0259r dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, raz\u0131yam. G\u00f6r m\u0259n kimin sevdiyi o\u011flanam. S\u0259nin ee, s\u0259nin. – O, g\u00fccl\u00fc qollar\u0131 il\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259ri \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f s\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259 yana\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Yava\u015f! Yava\u015f! Adamlar var, g\u00f6r\u0259rl\u0259r. – \u018fsm\u0259r \u00fcrk\u0259k bax\u0131\u015flarla meydan\u00e7aya boyland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– G\u00f6rs\u00fcnl\u0259r d\u0259\u0259, sevdiyim q\u0131z\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131ma bas\u0131ram. Anam deyir ki, bayramda el\u00e7i getm\u0259k d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rli olur. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 marta saxlay\u0131r ni\u015fan\u0131. Deyir ki, martda ni\u015fanlananlar\u0131n ilk \u00f6vlad\u0131 o\u011flan olur, – Orxan ucadan q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. \u018fsm\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131 v\u0259 utancaq \u015f\u0259kild\u0259:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Onda g\u0259l apreld\u0259 ni\u015fanlanaq, – dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Niy\u0259\u0259? – Orxan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Qoy birincisi q\u0131z olsun! – \u018fsm\u0259r Orxan\u0131n sin\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Mart – 2010<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bahar\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fiyl\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259t oyanm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 canlanma, h\u0259yat e\u015fqi ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Orxan mart\u0131n s\u0259kkizin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi. Bayramda ni\u015fanlar\u0131 olacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Son zamanlar Ruslan ad\u0131nda bir o\u011flan \u018fsm\u0259rin k\u00f6lg\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O\u011flan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ona yax\u0131nla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, r\u0259dd cavab\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018fsm\u0259rin valideynl\u0259ri d\u0259 el\u00e7il\u0259r\u0259 “Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z kimi ist\u0259s\u0259, ona ver\u0259c\u0259yik. Ali t\u0259hsilli q\u0131zd\u0131. Ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6z\u00fc ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 quracaq” – demi\u015fdil\u0259r. \u018fsm\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 Orxana yazmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, “h\u0259rbid\u0259dir, fikrini qatmay\u0131m, g\u0259l\u0259r, h\u0259r \u015feyi dey\u0259r\u0259m”, – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

O g\u00fcn… \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 Ruhiyy\u0259 universitetd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f gedirdil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda a\u011f r\u0259ngli ma\u015f\u0131n dayand\u0131. Ruslan v\u0259 daha iki o\u011flan \u018fsm\u0259ri birc\u0259 an\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 qamarlayaraq ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f apard\u0131lar. \u018fsm\u0259rin q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259trafa yay\u0131ld\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259l he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlamayan Ruhiyy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra “Qoymay\u0131n, q\u0131z\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131lar!” – dey\u0259 haray \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 d\u0259, ma\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6zd\u0259n itmi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra valideynl\u0259ri Ruslanla \u018fsm\u0259ri T\u00fcrkiy\u0259y\u0259 yola sald\u0131lar. \u018fsm\u0259rin ail\u0259si il\u0259 bar\u0131\u015f\u0131q olmu\u015f, diplom i\u015fi is\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259ti il\u0259 saxlad\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Toy T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 olacaqd\u0131. T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6n\u0259mli i\u015f adam\u0131 kimi tan\u0131nan Ruslan \u018fsm\u0259rin ana-atas\u0131n\u0131n, qarda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n sevgisini qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ham\u0131 bu izdivaca sevinir, ham\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi. T\u0259kc\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015fqa…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Yanvar – 2011<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn dostlar\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259ni k\u0259smi\u015fdi. Yaln\u0131z h\u0259rd\u0259n Ruhiyy\u0259y\u0259 z\u0259ng edirdi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toparlayaraq soru\u015fmu\u015fdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ondan n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ruhiyy\u0259 is\u0259:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– H\u0259rbid\u0259di, – demi\u015fdi, – zvaniyas\u0131 y\u00fcks\u0259lib. Deyirl\u0259r, siz T\u00fcrkiy\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259n iki g\u00fcn sonra g\u0259lib. E\u015fid\u0259n kimi Ruslangil\u0259 gedib, “Han\u0131 o?” – dey\u0259 oralar\u0131 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Dostlar\u0131 onu g\u00fcc-b\u0259layla oradan apar\u0131blar. S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra c\u0259mi bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u018fsm\u0259r, bir g\u00f6rs\u0259ydin nec\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u018fvv\u0259lki Orxandan \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Salamla\u015fd\u0131q v\u0259 birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 dedi: “\u018fsm\u0259ri g\u00f6rs\u0259n, de ki, biz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik…”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r is\u0259:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ay Ruhiyy\u0259, ax\u0131 s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n, h\u0259r \u015feyi… – dey\u0259r\u0259k h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qay\u0131natas\u0131 \u018fsm\u0259rin diplomunu alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ruslan is\u0259, “Diplomdu d\u0259\u0259, alm\u0131san. Onsuz da s\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k deyil. S\u0259nin i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n yoxdur”, – demi\u015fdi. H\u0259min g\u00fcnd\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k s\u00f6hb\u0259tin\u0259 son qoyulmu\u015fdu. Sonra ard-arda iki q\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015f, evd\u0259 u\u015faqlara baxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n Az\u0259rbaycandak\u0131 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif q\u0259zet v\u0259 jurnallara k\u00f6\u015f\u0259l\u0259r yaz\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130mzas\u0131 tan\u0131n\u0131r, h\u0259tta sevilirdi. \u018fri avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131nda h\u0259lak olandan sonra Az\u0259rbaycana g\u0259lmi\u015f, atas\u0131 evin\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u0130\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Atas\u0131 ona:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Q\u0131z\u0131m, Allah \u00f6m\u00fcr versin s\u0259nin balalar\u0131n\u0131 da b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m q\u0131z\u0131m bir yox, \u00fc\u00e7d\u00fcr. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc evd\u0259 oturmal\u0131 deyils\u0259n. Ali t\u0259hsilli q\u0131zsan, istedad\u0131n, bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131n var. U\u015faqlara n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri baxacaq. S\u0259ns\u0259 ist\u0259diyin yerd\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l, – demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fsm\u0259r iki il\u0259 yax\u0131n idi ki, televiziyada h\u0259rbi proqramlar departamentind\u0259 m\u00fcxbir kimi \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, q\u0259hr\u0259man h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 reportajlar haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015fini \u00e7ox sevirdi. H\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259rl\u0259 bir arada olmaq onun i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc qalm\u0131\u015f arzular\u0131n\u0131n \u0259trini g\u0259tirirdi, sanki. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 bel\u0259 etiraf etm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kins\u0259 d\u0259, i\u00e7ind\u0259 daim bir \u00fcmid k\u00f6z\u0259rirdi: “N\u0259 vaxtsa Orxanla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015faca\u011fam…”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Az\u0259rbaycan h\u0259rbi v\u0259 siyasi tarixin\u0259 \u015fanl\u0131 h\u0259rfl\u0259rl\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f 44 g\u00fcnl\u00fck m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n sonra, Birinci v\u0259 \u0130kinci Qaraba\u011f d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259, Az\u0259rbaycan V\u0259t\u0259n m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131qlar g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015f, qazi olmu\u015f, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015f\u0259hid ad\u0131n\u0131 qazanm\u0131\u015f o\u011fullar\u0131m\u0131zdan s\u00f6z a\u00e7an bir layih\u0259y\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r r\u0259hb\u0259rlik edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Yanvar – 2021<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015e\u0259hid anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si \u018fsm\u0259ri x\u0259yaldan ay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– R\u0259hm\u0259tlik ki\u015fi \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 ayr\u0131 ad qoymaq ist\u0259yirdi. Sonralar bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, Orxan… – d\u0259rind\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kdi, – Orxan q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u018fsm\u0259r qoymaq ist\u0259yir…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Orxan” ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 otaq \u018fsm\u0259rin ba\u015f\u0131na f\u0131rland\u0131, sanki. O, ill\u0259rdir i\u00e7ind\u0259 gizl\u0259tdiyi ad\u0131 dilin\u0259 g\u0259tirdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Orxan?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, dili od tutub al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Alov \u018fsm\u0259rin b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nini sard\u0131. Art\u0131q h\u0259r yer al\u0131\u015f\u0131b-yan\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fsm\u0259r is\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nini qarsan alovun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 “Orxan! Orxan! Orxan…” – dey\u0259, t\u0259krarlay\u0131rd\u0131. O, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Orxan dedikc\u0259 alov daha da g\u00fccl\u0259nir, n\u0259f\u0259si tutulur, ayaqlar\u0131 sustal\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

…Orxan anas\u0131n\u0131n yan otaqdan g\u0259tirdiyi q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 lentli \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Yanaqlar\u0131nda bir c\u00fct \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259k \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. O, yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcr, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u0259trafa i\u015f\u0131q yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. O i\u015f\u0131q \u0259vv\u0259l ota\u011f\u0131, sonra is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. \u018fsm\u0259r Orxan\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fidirdi: “Ay qara ki\u015fmi\u015f, bax, biz yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck…”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

7 fevral 2021<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u015e\u0259hidl\u0259r \u00f6lm\u00fcr, \u0259b\u0259di ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrl\u0259r!.. Yanvar – 2021 Bug\u00fcnl\u00fck sonuncu \u00e7\u0259kili\u015fl\u0259ri idi. \u00c7ox yorulmu\u015fdu. \u018fslind\u0259, onun yor\u011funlu\u011fu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc i\u015fin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan deyil, i\u00e7in\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259diyi a\u011fr\u0131lardan do\u011furdu. \u015e\u0259hid analar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxaraq sual verm\u0259k, \u015e\u0259hid atalar\u0131n\u0131n q\u00fcrurunda bo\u011fmaq ist\u0259diyi h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k, \u015e\u0259hid balas\u0131n\u0131n “Atam q\u0259hr\u0259mand\u0131r” dey\u0259r\u0259k, d\u00f6rd yanda atas\u0131n\u0131 axtarmas\u0131n\u0131 seyr etm\u0259k onu \u00e7ox a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-38509","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38509","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=38509"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38509\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":38511,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/38509\/revisions\/38511"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=38509"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=38509"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=38509"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}