{"id":39465,"date":"2021-09-03T07:00:00","date_gmt":"2021-09-03T03:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=39465"},"modified":"2021-09-03T09:22:32","modified_gmt":"2021-09-03T05:22:32","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-x%c9%99tir-ucun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=39465","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.&#8221;X\u018fT\u0130R \u00dc\u00c7\u00dcN&#8230;&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/sefa-veliyeva.jpg\" alt=\"This image has an empty alt attribute; its file name is sefa-veliyeva.jpg\" width=\"705\" height=\"700\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c<strong>G\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyi G\u0259ncl\u0259r \u015euras\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Jurnalistl\u0259r Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201c\u0130lin g\u0259nci\u201d m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>X\u0259trin \u0259ziz olsun, anam G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n V\u0259li&#8230; I Yenic\u0259 boy atan qoz a\u011fac\u0131 \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 v\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259n, pal\u0131dlardan f\u0259rql\u0259ndiyini hiss etdikc\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir utanc hissi ke\u00e7irirdi. Niy\u0259sini bilmirdi, amma bu \u201cniy\u0259\u201d h\u0259r n\u0259ydis\u0259, g\u00f6vd\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, k\u00f6kl\u0259rini g\u00f6yn\u0259dir, budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 \u00e7ataraq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc gizl\u0259m\u0259yin\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olurdu. Qoca pal\u0131d\u0131n ona z\u0259nl\u0259 bax\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259m\u0259si, kol armudunun b\u00fct\u00fcn meyv\u0259l\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fc ona t\u0259r\u0259f yox, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qayaq\u0131rtmel (qaya k\u0259rt\u0259nk\u0259l\u0259si) s\u0131\u00e7rayan qayaya baxaraq t\u00f6km\u0259si, qayan\u0131n x\u0131nal\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131nda gizl\u0259npa\u00e7 oynayan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131n\u0131n bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun, g\u00f6vd\u0259sini yada salmamalar\u0131 qoz a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u0259yirdi. H\u0259l\u0259 o g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259r\u0259nin dibind\u0259n burula-burula axan \u00e7aydan bir bal\u0131q ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi; yol\u00fcst\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b k\u00f6kl\u0259rini suya g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259n a\u011faclara baxm\u0131\u015f, n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259ri qoz a\u011fac\u0131na ili\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fczm\u00fc\u015f, anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir sirr, uyu\u015fmaz bir nax\u0131\u015f g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f kimi y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirib t\u0259l\u0259sik uzaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qoz a\u011fac\u0131 yen\u0259 budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qarmaql\u0131q etmi\u015f, \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya nec\u0259 yad oldu\u011funu daha d\u0259rind\u0259n anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131&#8230; *** G\u0259nc q\u0131z \u00f6z cehizlik xal\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 da b\u00fck\u00fcb \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 lent ba\u011flad\u0131qdan sonra \u00e7ax-\u00e7ax\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda yerini rahatlay\u0131b qaxl\u0131q yay almas\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259n anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131: \u2013 Ana! Ana! N\u0259n\u0259m toxuyan may xal\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 da \u0259liml\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131m, sa\u00e7aqlar\u0131n\u0131 darad\u0131m, b\u00fck\u00fcb q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131lad\u0131m. \u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131 el\u0259din, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm, day niy\u0259 qaran\u0259f\u0259s olursan ki?! \u2013 anas\u0131 sa\u011f \u0259liyl\u0259 l\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259ki alma diliml\u0259rini silk\u0259l\u0259di, sol \u0259liyl\u0259 d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na s\u0259rdiyi a\u00e7\u0131q xa\u015fal\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n bir x\u0131\u015fma \u00f6z\u0259k g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00e7ax-\u00e7ax\u0131n o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u00e7\u0259pi\u015f\u0259 atd\u0131. \u00c7\u0259pi\u015f narahat-narahat \u00f6z\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, bir-ikisini a\u011fz\u0131na al\u0131b yen\u0259 \u00e7ax-\u00e7ax\u0131n dibin\u0259 getdi, \u00fcrk\u0259-\u00fcrk\u0259 \u0259trafa baxd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n bir g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0259pi\u015fd\u0259, bir g\u00f6z\u00fc anas\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u2013 N\u0259 i\u015f buyurum dey\u0259mi g\u0259ldin el\u0259 \u00fct\u0259l\u0259k? Q\u0131z anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259fil diksin\u0259n kimi oldu: \u2013 Yoox&#8230; H\u0259&#8230; N\u0259 bilim, yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 n\u0259 dey\u0259siydim ey&#8230; \u2013 B\u0131y, ba\u015f\u0131ma xeyir, q\u0131z! Yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. Qay\u0131n danla\u011f\u0131 e\u015fitdin, yoxsa bald\u0131z dinaz\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn, yad\u0131n qurudu, a qaram? H\u0259l\u0259 y\u00fcyr\u00fckd\u0259 ninni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131ram ha&#8230; Anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki k\u00f6vr\u0259k \u015fuxluq q\u0131z\u0131n da \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yayd\u0131. \u018fliyl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kisind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan c\u0131\u011fas\u0131n\u0131 geri it\u0259l\u0259di, k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131ndak\u0131 butan\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallaya-s\u0131\u011fallaya dedi: \u2013 \u00c7\u0259pi\u015f\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi, ana. Hardan bilsin ki, gec\u0259 k\u0259sil\u0259c\u0259k, sabah ert\u0259 d\u0259 Usta \u0130brahimin qap\u0131s\u0131na pay olacaq&#8230; \u2013 Onunmu d\u0259rdin \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n? \u2013 anas\u0131 q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. \u2013 B\u0259 neyniyim, ana?! O da cand\u0131 da&#8230; Anas\u0131 g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n ya\u015faran g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0131\u00e7aq tutdu\u011fu \u0259linin arxas\u0131yla silib d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc: \u2013 H\u0259r can bir can\u0131n ruzisidi, dey\u0259rdi n\u0259n\u0259m. \u018fsas can da torpaqdad\u0131. Torpaq ota-\u0259l\u0259f\u0259 can verir, ot-\u0259l\u0259f qa\u00e7ana-u\u00e7ana, onlar da bizim kimi yeriyib-y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259n\u0259, biz d\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b can\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 torpa\u011fa qoyuruq. Bel\u0259 olur, qadan al\u0131m&#8230; D\u0259rd el\u0259m\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015feyi s\u0259n. Q\u0131z iki \u0259liyl\u0259 yanaqlar\u0131n\u0131 tutub can\u0131yananl\u0131qla \u00e7\u0259pi\u015f\u0259 baxa-baxa qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anas\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259ki i\u015fi dayand\u0131r\u0131b sa\u011f \u0259linin ba\u015f barma\u011f\u0131yla b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n k\u0259s\u0259rini yoxlad\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rmadan: \u2013 Bax, ay m\u0259nim qara q\u0131z\u0131m, olub-bit\u0259nin h\u0259r ucunda bir d\u0259rd tapsan, g\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015famayasan. Bir d\u0259 ki, bu \u00e7\u0259pi\u015fciy\u0259z sevinsin h\u0259l\u0259, H\u0259bibl\u0259 Arifin araq qonaql\u0131\u011f\u0131na pay olmur ha, bir ni\u015fanl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n cehiz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131na pay olur. Bundan ayr\u0131 n\u0259 umaca\u011f\u0131 olard\u0131 bu d\u00fcnyadan?! Zakir ki\u015finin g\u00f6y t\u0259k\u0259sinin t\u00f6r\u0259m\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 nisb\u0259td\u0259, onsuz da bir s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 t\u0259k\u0259 olammayacaq. Di\u015fi d\u0259 d\u00f6y ki, d\u00f6l tutaq, ya pendirini d\u0259l\u0259m\u0259l\u0259y\u0259k. Umaca\u011f\u0131ndan art\u0131\u011f\u0131na yaz\u0131l\u0131b yazq\u0131s\u0131&#8230; \u2013 Boy, ana&#8230; Y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc torpa\u011fa \u00e7evir, yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259. Heyvan\u0131n yazq\u0131s\u0131m\u0131 olur?! \u2013 Olur, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm&#8230; N\u0259t\u0259h\u0259r ki, c\u00fcml\u0259 al\u0259m o g\u00f6yd\u0259ki Ulunun n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259n can al\u0131b, dem\u0259li, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n da \u00f6z yazq\u0131s\u0131 var&#8230; \u2013 anas\u0131 bunu deyib yenid\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 giri\u015fdi. \u2013 Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ox qatma, ax\u015fama qax\u0131 k\u0259sim bitirim, m\u0259nsil dam\u0131nda yer d\u00fcz\u0259ldim, s\u0259rim, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 cunalay\u0131m. Yoxsa ax\u015fam Usum g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 umacl\u0131 a\u015f\u0131 yetir\u0259mm\u0259rik, ay\u0131bd\u0131, qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259ksiz qay\u0131tmas\u0131n. \u2013 M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7andan Usum odun k\u0259sib sat\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 kimin qap\u0131s\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, ana. M\u00fctl\u0259q d\u00f6y ki, bizd\u0259 umacl\u0131 a\u015f yesin. D\u0259d\u0259m pulunu verib yola\u011f\u0131zdan geri g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r. Anas\u0131 i\u015fini dayand\u0131r\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131, z\u0259nl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ayaqdan-ba\u015fa s\u00fczd\u00fc. Q\u0131z anas\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259n\u0259n qa\u015f\u0131ndan, bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015f dodaqlar\u0131ndan anlad\u0131 ki, n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u00fcz dem\u0259di. S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirdi: \u2013 Y\u0259ni \u00e7atd\u0131rmasaq&#8230; Gedim m\u0259n umac\u0131 qovurum, d\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 islad\u0131m&#8230; \u2013 Anas\u0131ndan cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n yay dam\u0131na y\u00f6n\u0259ldi&#8230; *** Qoz a\u011fac\u0131 bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 yuxudan k\u0259m oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131; ayda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 uzaqdan g\u0259l\u0259n taqq\u0131lt\u0131 s\u0259si onu bel\u0259c\u0259, ala-toranl\u0131qdan yuxudan oyad\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bel\u0259 s\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 qoca pal\u0131d\u0131n g\u00f6vd\u0259sind\u0259ki q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar d\u0259rinl\u0259\u015fir, v\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259rin can\u0131na x\u0259fif bir titr\u0259tm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. T\u0259kc\u0259 o k\u0259m qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yuxunun h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey hiss etmirdi; n\u0259 qorxur, n\u0259 d\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nirdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259 qabaq \u2013 yaz\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 qoca pal\u0131d insandan dan\u0131\u015fanda da he\u00e7 h\u0259y\u0259canlanmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u0259ksin\u0259, sanki n\u0259s\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f bir t\u0259mas\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 unutmam\u0131\u015f kimi k\u00f6kl\u0259rinin \u0259n inc\u0259 q\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131qlar\u0131nda \u015firin bir s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini anlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, tapmay\u0131nca da fikirli-fikirli suyun ax\u0131\u015f\u0131na dalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7alanda diksinmi\u015f, tezc\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymay\u0131b diqq\u0259tl\u0259 v\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259rin k\u0259d\u0259rli n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sini din\u015f\u0259mi\u015fdi. V\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259r oxuyurdular: &#8230;Onda qoca odun\u00e7u Cibl\u0259rini \u00e7evirdi&#8230; Baxd\u0131, l\u0259p\u0259 qalmay\u0131b, T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259 uflad\u0131&#8230; Bir na\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 Pal\u0131d\u0131n balas\u0131n\u0131 Do\u011frad\u0131 qoca zal\u0131m&#8230; Yorulanda dayand\u0131&#8230; Axan suda y\u0131xand\u0131&#8230; Torpa\u011f\u0131 da \u00e7evirdi V\u0259 \u00f6z k\u0259ndin\u0259 getdi&#8230; Yen\u0259 bir s\u0259h\u0259r ert\u0259 \u018flind\u0259 qoz tingiyl\u0259 G\u0259ldi qoca odun\u00e7u&#8230; Bir qoz \u0259kdi pal\u0131d\u0131n K\u00f6rp\u0259sinin yerind\u0259&#8230; Pal\u0131d g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 Gizl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259rind\u0259 \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qoz g\u00f6y\u0259rdi&#8230; &#8230;V\u0259 bu q\u0259rib qozu da Qoca insan unutdu&#8230; Yaman da tez unutdu&#8230; Qoz a\u011fac\u0131 n\u0259\u011fm\u0259nin s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki q\u0259mi d\u0259 d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli tan\u0131yammad\u0131, \u0259slind\u0259, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ona yad n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 baxan v\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259rin s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 inanmad\u0131; ta ki qoca pal\u0131d asta-asta dill\u0259n\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k: \u2013 S\u0259nin can\u0131n insan xofuna ad\u0259t edib, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 eynin\u0259 g\u0259lmir. Bizims\u0259 can\u0131m\u0131z o taqq\u0131lt\u0131dan v\u0259lv\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. \u0130nsan bizim yan\u0131m\u0131zdan ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259lini biz\u0259 s\u00fcrtm\u0259yib, buda\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 budamay\u0131b, dibimiz\u0259 su t\u00f6km\u0259yib. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz insan \u0259lind\u0259 qalmay\u0131b. Y\u00fcz d\u0259f\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m buda\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7\u0259tirini ba\u015f\u0131n \u00fcstd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131m, yarpa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n birc\u0259ciyi d\u0259 g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb g\u00f6y\u0259rm\u0259sin. Di g\u0259l, nakam balam g\u0259lib durur g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m ki, bu da qarabaxtd\u0131 da, bu da anas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f balad\u0131. Odununu do\u011fray\u0131b y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc tutandan sonra bir ovuc l\u0259p\u0259 yesin dey\u0259, zal\u0131m odun\u00e7u s\u0259ni d\u0259 anandan ay\u0131r\u0131b, g\u0259tirib q\u00fcrb\u0259t\u0259 \u0259kib. \u0130ndi d\u0259 insan bu me\u015f\u0259nin o ba\u015f\u0131ndan ba\u015flay\u0131b bizim n\u0259slimizi k\u0259s\u0259-k\u0259s\u0259 g\u0259lir. M\u0259n ta qocalm\u0131\u015fam, bu il k\u0259sm\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r, g\u0259l\u0259n il\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin qalam, quruyub ged\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Birc\u0259 balam\u0131 da odun\u00e7u balta il\u0259 do\u011frayandan sonra c\u00fcc\u0259r\u0259mm\u0259dim ta&#8230; D\u0259rdd\u0259nmi, yoxsa balam\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n ay\u0131ran o soyuq baltadan \u00fc\u015f\u0259ndiyimd\u0259nmi c\u00fcc\u0259r\u0259mm\u0259dim, bilm\u0259dim&#8230; H\u0259r g\u00fcn budaqlar\u0131m\u0131n quruyan uclar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 \u00e7evirib dua edir\u0259m ki, k\u00f6k\u00fcn-n\u0259slin g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259sin buralar\u0131. Yoxsa o insan tamah\u0131 s\u0259nin t\u00f6r\u0259m\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 yer a\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn burdak\u0131 a\u011faclar\u0131n n\u0259slini k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259k&#8230; O g\u00fcnd\u0259n bu yana qoz a\u011fac\u0131 \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 daha laqeyd olmu\u015fdu: yay\u0131n bu g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7ay boyunca a\u00e7an \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r d\u0259, aradabir ya\u011fan \u00e7obanaldadan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra buludlar\u0131 o t\u0259r\u0259f-bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131b belin\u0259 \u0259lvan qur\u015faq ba\u011flayan g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc d\u0259 daha ona \u0259vv\u0259lki ill\u0259rd\u0259ki sevincd\u0259n, ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 budaqlar\u0131nda adda-budda g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131l yumrular da onun eynin\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi&#8230; S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r qu\u015flar\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 oyan\u0131r, ax\u015famacan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131y\u0131b suda \u0259ks olunan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131n\u0131n asta-asta s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin\u0259 bax\u0131r, arada g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yumub m\u00fcrg\u00fc d\u00f6y\u00fcr, s\u0259b\u0259bsizc\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 ya qoca odun\u00e7uya, ya da amans\u0131z bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ona zill\u0259yib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259y\u0259n pal\u0131da qar\u011fay\u0131rd\u0131. Gah bu qar\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan utan\u0131r, gah da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 ki, odun\u00e7u onu q\u00fcrb\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tirib, pal\u0131d da ona q\u00fcrb\u0259ti anlad\u0131b&#8230; Amma uzun m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259m\u0259nin sonunda yen\u0259 q\u0259rara g\u0259l\u0259mmirdi ki, hans\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131 daha \u00e7oxdu: odun\u00e7unun, ya pal\u0131d\u0131n? &#8230;Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc taqq\u0131lt\u0131 bir az yax\u0131ndayd\u0131, el\u0259 bil getdikc\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bir azdan yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ql\u0131qda q\u0131m\u0131ldayan qaralt\u0131lar g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 qoca pal\u0131d\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 daha da d\u0259rinl\u0259\u015fdi, v\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259r p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131na \u00e7oxluca \u201cah\u201d qatd\u0131lar, me\u015f\u0259 f\u0131st\u0131\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u00fcb asta-asta h\u0259l\u0259 tam yeti\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f meyv\u0259l\u0259rini s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Qoca pal\u0131d s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259 il\u0259 q\u0131m\u0131ldayanlara bax\u0131b dedi: \u2013 F\u0131st\u0131q, el\u0259m\u0259&#8230; N\u00fcbar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6y t\u00f6km\u0259, g\u00fcnahd\u0131. Me\u015f\u0259 f\u0131st\u0131\u011f\u0131 astaca p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131: \u2013 B\u0259s neyniyim, n\u0259n\u0259 pal\u0131d?! Bir buda\u011f\u0131n pay\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6y t\u00f6k\u00fcr\u0259m ki, ba\u015flar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131larda qar\u0131\u015fs\u0131n bu n\u0259fsin\u0259 yenikl\u0259rin. Ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rsalar, b\u00fct\u00fcn budaqlar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rpacaqlar, barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q etm\u0259kl\u0259ri o yana dursun, bir d\u00fcym\u0259 d\u0259 qoymayacaqlar yaxamda. Ax\u0131rda da bir-ikisini di\u015fl\u0259riyl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b, kal oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb, ayaqlaya-ayaqlaya \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. B\u0259ri ba\u015fdan \u00f6z\u00fcm t\u00f6k\u00fcm bir ovuc, bu biri budaqlara d\u0259ym\u0259sinl\u0259r bar\u0131&#8230; Qoz a\u011fac\u0131 bu s\u00f6hb\u0259ti e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259, sad\u0259c\u0259, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. V\u0259 yaln\u0131z indi, m\u0259hz bu g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259ri hiss el\u0259di&#8230; \u00dcr\u0259yinin \u0259n d\u0259rinind\u0259 budaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 t\u0259k-t\u00fck meyv\u0259l\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qorxdu, onlar\u0131 nec\u0259 qoruya bil\u0259r dey\u0259, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Tezc\u0259 d\u0259 pal\u0131d\u0131n og\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u00f6zl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlad\u0131: \u201cH\u0259r g\u00fcn budaqlar\u0131m\u0131n quruyan uclar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 \u00e7evirib dua edir\u0259m ki, k\u00f6k\u00fcn-n\u0259slin g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259sin buralar\u0131. Yoxsa o insan tamah\u0131 s\u0259nin t\u00f6r\u0259m\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 yer a\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn burdak\u0131 a\u011faclar\u0131n n\u0259slini k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259k&#8230;\u201d \u018fn uzaqdak\u0131 k\u00f6k q\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131qlar\u0131ndan tutmu\u015f, \u0259n h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259ki buda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucundak\u0131 yarpaq pu\u00e7uruna q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259rib\u0259 bir gizilti ke\u00e7di can\u0131ndan: o da dua etm\u0259k ist\u0259di. Amma pal\u0131d kimi b\u0259d dua yox, xo\u015f dua etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131; budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcc\u00fc yetdikc\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 uzad\u0131b duas\u0131na ba\u015flad\u0131&#8230; &#8230;Baltas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 at\u0131b \u0259liyl\u0259 g\u0259nc a\u011faclar\u0131n g\u00f6vd\u0259sini yoxlaya-yoxlaya ir\u0259lil\u0259y\u0259n Usumun qulaqlar\u0131 uzaqdan tan\u0131\u015f x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc odun yolda\u015f\u0131na \u2013 G\u00fcmana tutub dedi: \u2013 Dey\u0259s\u0259n, Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sand\u0131ql\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tapd\u0131m. Buralarda qoz a\u011fac\u0131 var. \u2013 Burda? \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm d\u0259r\u0259si\u201dnd\u0259?! \u2013 G\u00fcman g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259r\u0259ld\u0259r\u0259k Usuma bax\u0131b di\u015fl\u0259rini a\u011fartd\u0131. \u2013 Deyirdil\u0259r, Usum h\u0259r da\u015f\u0131n, h\u0259r kolun dilini bilir, ta bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 olmaz! Yeri bir f\u0131st\u0131q k\u0259s, apar ver Afiq\u0259, pulunu al. Qoz a\u011fac\u0131 var\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, Usumnan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f&#8230; Ha-ha&#8230; G\u00fcman \u0259lini g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u00fck eliyib u\u011funmu\u015fdu, Usumsa onun g\u0259v\u0259z\u0259l\u0259yini eynin\u0259 almay\u0131b x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131ya diqq\u0259t k\u0259silmi\u015fdi. El\u0259 bil bu x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni duyurdu: \u201cNola, g\u00fcn\u00fcn, ay\u0131n xo\u015f vaxt\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259&#8230; Bar\u0131m\u0131n b\u0259hr\u0259sini dadmam\u0131\u015f bir odun\u00e7u g\u0259l\u0259, k\u0259sib m\u0259ni apara&#8230; Bir u\u015fa\u011fa be\u015fik, bir cehizd\u0259 sand\u0131q olam&#8230; Buralarda qar\u011f\u0131\u015f yiy\u0259si olunca oralarda alq\u0131\u015f yiy\u0259si olam&#8230; Nola&#8230; Bir odun\u00e7u g\u0259l\u0259&#8230;\u201d *** Usta \u0130brahim h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259ki iri da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 pitik d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259 at\u0131b oturmu\u015fdu. R\u0259nd\u0259sini, b\u0131\u00e7k\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, yey\u0259sini\u2013 b\u00fct\u00fcn hacatlar\u0131n\u0131 yan\u0131na d\u00fcz\u00fcb mat-mat h\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f odunlara bax\u0131rd\u0131. Afiq demi\u015fdi ki, qoz a\u011fac\u0131d\u0131, Usum \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm d\u0259r\u0259si\u201dnd\u0259n g\u0259tirib. \u018fvv\u0259l-\u0259vv\u0259l bunu da Usumun s\u00f6yl\u0259ntil\u0259rind\u0259n biri san\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u201ch\u0259\u201d dey\u0259rc\u0259sin\u0259 yell\u0259mi\u015f, sonra da Afiq\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n xeyir i\u015fi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6zayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 vermi\u015f, toyacan sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 haz\u0131r ed\u0259c\u0259yini v\u0259d etmi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 metr yar\u0131m uzununda s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 k\u0259silmi\u015f odunlara bax\u0131r, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011facdan \u00e7\u0259k\u0259mmirdi. Ya\u015f\u0131 altm\u0131\u015fa \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131 bu pay\u0131z, d\u00fcz\u0259ltdiyi tax\u00e7alar\u0131n, sand\u0131qlar\u0131n, r\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rin, \u0259l\u0259k-x\u0259lbirl\u0259rin, \u015fadaralar\u0131n say\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015fdu. Cavanl\u0131qda d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259c\u0259yi \u0259\u015fya \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011fac\u0131 da \u00f6z\u00fc axtarar, se\u00e7\u0259r, \u00f6z\u00fc k\u0259sib g\u0259tir\u0259rdi. Ya\u015fland\u0131qca hiss el\u0259di ki, daha n\u0259f\u0259si \u00e7atm\u0131r me\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri tala-tala g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259. Ad\u0131n\u0131 tutub \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n a\u011fac\u0131 da \u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259l\u0259rini xahi\u015f etdi. Onun bu xahi\u015fi \u0259n \u00e7ox k\u0259ndin odun\u00e7ular\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fin\u0259 yarad\u0131; ham\u0131 onlara \u00fcz tutdu: \u2013 A M\u0259sim, bir be\u015fiklik a\u011fac da tap, borcundan \u00e7\u0131xaram. \u2013 A K\u0259rim, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm, g\u00f6r bir qalotluq n\u0259 tap\u0131rsan?! \u2013 Zakir ki\u015fi, hey, ad\u0259, bir hay ver! Sabah \u201cSat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131n me\u015f\u0259si\u201dn\u0259 ged\u0259sis\u0259nmi\u015f, bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259rl\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131, m\u00f6hk\u0259m f\u0131st\u0131q a\u011fac\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r. Savaba batarsan, q\u0131z\u0131n cehizi sand\u0131qdan k\u0259m qal\u0131b. Bir d\u0259, Usta \u0130brahim dedi, cavan a\u011fac olsa, daha yax\u015f\u0131 olar&#8230; Ad\u0131n\u0131 tutub \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 \u201ch\u0259\u201d dem\u0259k bu k\u0259ndin sakinl\u0259rinin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l ad\u0259tiydi&#8230; Bu \u201ch\u0259\u201dni yar\u0131tmamaqsa dill\u0259rin\u0259 yox, bell\u0259rin\u0259 daha ba\u011fl\u0131 olmaqlar\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi: he\u00e7 kim belin\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. El\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 odun\u00e7u Usumun Usta \u0130brahim\u0259 laz\u0131m olan a\u011fac\u0131 tap\u0131b g\u0259tirm\u0259si, qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda da, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi, metr hesab\u0131 yox, el\u0259 x\u0259tir hesab\u0131 pul alma\u011f\u0131 k\u0259ndin yaz\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f qanunlar\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131na yaman tez yaz\u0131ld\u0131&#8230; \u0130\u015f yiy\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7ox, Usta \u0130brahim Usumdan raz\u0131l\u0131q el\u0259yirdi, toyda-yasda deyirdi: \u2013 Sa\u011f olsun, el\u0259 bil \u0259liyl\u0259 qoymu\u015f kimi tap\u0131r laz\u0131m olan a\u011fac\u0131. \u018flin\u0259 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fc vers\u0259n, bel\u0259 d\u0259qiq k\u0259sm\u0259z ha! Bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 hesabd\u0131, \u0259linic\u0259 vurur, a\u011facla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r el\u0259 bil&#8230; &#8230;\u0130ndi d\u0259 Usum ona laz\u0131m olan a\u011fac\u0131 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi; cavan, d\u00fcy\u00fcns\u00fcz, m\u00f6hk\u0259m qoz a\u011fac\u0131&#8230; Usta bu k\u0259ndd\u0259ki, h\u0259l\u0259 k\u0259ndin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 \u2013 m\u0259kt\u0259bin ba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 qoz a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131 da birc\u0259-birc\u0259 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Bilirdi ki, hans\u0131ndan taxt, hans\u0131ndan tax\u00e7a, hans\u0131ndan be\u015fik olar. Amma bu a\u011fac\u0131 he\u00e7 tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131; bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l, h\u0259m d\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r yaban\u0131 bir qoz a\u011fac\u0131 ha?! H\u0259m, Afiqin dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, Usum oralarda ikinci qoz a\u011fac\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi, birc\u0259 buyuymu\u015f, bunu da k\u0259sib g\u0259tirib. Baxa-baxa qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 Usta \u0130brahim&#8230; \u018fll\u0259ri i\u015f\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sir, \u00fcr\u0259yi i\u015fini yar\u0131tma\u011fa h\u00f6vll\u0259nir, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yaban\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259n doymad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyirdi. \u00dc\u00e7 yol ayr\u0131c\u0131nda dayanan Ustan\u0131n \u0259lac\u0131 olsa, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc yolu \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi; a\u011fac\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259d\u0259r, o me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 Usumdan ne\u00e7\u0259 il qabaq kimin aya\u011f\u0131 d\u0259ydiyini, onu o q\u00fcrb\u0259t\u0259 kimin apard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259rdi. Bunu el\u0259 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131, el\u0259 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131, \u015e\u0259yird \u018fhm\u0259din yar\u0131ma\u011f\u0131l o\u011flunun tutmas\u0131 tutub yay\u0131n ortas\u0131nda qar arzulamas\u0131 bunun yan\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259yiydi&#8230; O g\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259lini a\u011faca vurub i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flayammad\u0131 Usta \u0130brahim. Ax\u015fam\u0131 da fikirli-fikirli yola sald\u0131, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda heyr\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n \u0259min idi, amma bilm\u0259di ki, bu heyr\u0259tamiz olan n\u0259 idi? Hans\u0131 sehr, hans\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lmaz qap\u0131, hans\u0131 h\u00f6r\u00fcktutmaz sa\u00e7 idi? An\u015f\u0131rdammad\u0131&#8230; Gec\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fct\u0259kk\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259yib yatanda da a\u011fac\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, q\u0259fil getdiyi yuxudan bayqu\u015f s\u0259sin\u0259 diksinib oyananda da a\u011fac a\u011fl\u0131ndayd\u0131. Yerinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 oturub bayqu\u015fun ulart\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sayd\u0131; sonunda t\u0259k g\u0259ldi. Durub \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 su vurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn e\u015fiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda dan a\u011far\u0131rd\u0131. Odunlar h\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131ndak\u0131 ala-qaranl\u0131qda g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc r\u0259ngd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Usta bir odunlara, bir ax\u015famdan e\u015fikd\u0259 qal\u0131b n\u0259m \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f pitik d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259sin\u0259, bir d\u0259 hacatlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b rahlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ay\u0131n-oyun dam\u0131n\u0131n qaralan t\u0259kg\u00f6z p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdikd\u0259n sonra d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b dizini odunlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda yer\u0259 qoydu, \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 odunlar\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259r s\u0131\u011falda ovuclar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 inc\u0259 bir do\u011fmal\u0131q duydu; sanki a\u011fac bilirdi ki, bu qap\u0131ya sand\u0131q olma\u011fa \u2013 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc bir insan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 qatma\u011fa g\u0259lib&#8230; *** Afiqin qap\u0131s\u0131nda y\u00fckl\u0259n\u0259n cehiz ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fc G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u2013 \u00fc\u00e7 gec\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131nan q\u0131z toyu d\u00fcn\u0259n ba\u015fa \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ax\u015famdan o\u011flan evinin yar\u0131s\u0131 yol ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, g\u0259lind\u0259n qabaq \u00e7at\u0131b darvazan\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q qoyma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259smi\u015fdi. Yar\u0131s\u0131 da bu g\u00fcn g\u0259lini aparacaq, cehiz ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131na yol g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259kdi. Q\u0131z evi is\u0259 sabah yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b birisig\u00fcn ba\u015flayacaq o\u011flan toyuna \u00e7atacaqd\u0131. K\u0259nardan baxana el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdi ki, bu qar\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131qda he\u00e7 n\u0259 yerini tapmaz, ala \u015fala qar\u0131\u015far, ya\u015f\u0131l q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 yey\u0259r. \u018fslind\u0259 is\u0259, kainat\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc kimi k\u0259l\u0259fi dola\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n k\u0259nd toylar\u0131n\u0131n nizam\u0131n\u0131n sirri h\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6z i\u015fini bilm\u0259si, bu i\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u015fqas\u0131ndan buyruq g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259m\u0259siydi. B\u00fct\u00fcn toylar\u0131n kalap\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 Anbardar V\u0259li, dolmas\u0131n\u0131 Leyli arvad, dov\u011fas\u0131n\u0131 \u00c7\u0259m\u0259n, kompotunu da S\u0259n\u0259m bi\u015fir\u0259rdi. Ma\u011far\u0131 bu il \u0259sg\u0259rliy\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k olan o\u011flanlar qurar, masalar\u0131 g\u0259nc q\u0131zlar b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259r, g\u0259lin-b\u0259y gu\u015f\u0259sini ni\u015fanl\u0131lar nizamlayard\u0131lar. B\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0131zlar\u0131n, qad\u0131nlar\u0131n yaxas\u0131nda G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin tikdiyi \u00f6nl\u00fckl\u0259r, oca\u011f\u0131n q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 nax\u0131\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131, h\u00f6v\u0259l\u0259diyi qazantutan olard\u0131&#8230; &#8230;H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bliydi G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n, amma k\u0259ndd\u0259 az adam tap\u0131lard\u0131 ki, Xat\u0131n arvad demi\u015f, \u201cc\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n yamamas\u0131n\u201d. El\u0259 Xat\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 gah \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn, gah \u0259rinin, gah da birc\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n pal-paltar\u0131n\u0131 qoltu\u011funa vurub G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ngilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirirdi: \u2013 Ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259m, a G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n, anana deyn\u0259n, s\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 bir \u0259t\u0259k yun did\u0259r\u0259m m\u0259n, ki\u015ficiy\u0259zin g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259sinin astar\u0131 dart\u0131l\u0131b c\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b, bir onu b\u0259rkit&#8230; Yaxud: \u2013 Bax, ki\u015ficiy\u0259z\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m, bu d\u0259f\u0259 me\u015f\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259zgilin q\u0259\u015f\u0259ngind\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131b g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k&#8230; Q\u0131z d\u00fcn\u0259n m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya g\u0259lib ki, donumun k\u00f6v\u0259si s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb, u\u015faqlar g\u00fcl\u00fcb&#8230; D\u0259rdin da\u011fdak\u0131 da\u011fda\u011fana, g\u00f6r neynirs\u0259n&#8230; Pay\u0131za toy niyy\u0259tl\u0259y\u0259n yazdan G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ngil\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r, \u00f6nl\u00fck, qazantutan, s\u00fcfr\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn hans\u0131 par\u00e7adan al\u0131naca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259ri ba\u015fdan ona g\u0259n\u0259\u015f\u0259rdi. H\u0259l\u0259 haz\u0131r al\u0131nmayan cehizlikl\u0259rin \u0259skik qalanlar\u0131, toy \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, vay \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn geyinil\u0259c\u0259k bay\u0131rl\u0131qlar\u0131n tikilm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin qara ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdir\u0259nl\u0259r olurdu&#8230; B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ilin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi; indi kimd\u0259n soru\u015fsan ki, ilk d\u0259f\u0259 kimin toyunda G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n \u00f6nl\u00fck tikib, yaxud \u0259n birinci kim\u0259 tikdiyi qazantutanlardan, kis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n pay verib, he\u00e7 kim xat\u0131rlamazd\u0131. G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin qara ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 insanlar\u0131n h\u0259yatlar\u0131na el\u0259 daxil olmu\u015fdu ki, sanki ham\u0131 onun t\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bir s\u0259h\u0259r&#8230; Sad\u0259c\u0259, o s\u0259h\u0259ri Tanr\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131 xo\u015f v\u0259d\u0259sind\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin\u0259 calam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, bilmirdil\u0259r&#8230; Toylarda ma\u011far\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u2013 g\u0259lin-b\u0259y gu\u015f\u0259sind\u0259n as\u0131lan, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 pamb\u0131qla \u201cXO\u015e G\u018fLM\u0130\u015eS\u0130N\u0130Z\u201d yaz\u0131lan yerliyi saya q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olan \u0259n iri g\u0259v\u0259 d\u0259 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ngild\u0259ydi&#8230; \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n birba\u015fa mismar \u00e7al\u0131nan g\u0259v\u0259y\u0259 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n indi q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng ilg\u0259kl\u0259r tikmi\u015fdi, toya g\u0259v\u0259 y\u0131\u011fanlara da b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk tap\u015f\u0131rard\u0131 ki, ilg\u0259kl\u0259rin say\u0131na uy\u011fun mismar vurub, g\u0259v\u0259ni ilg\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n ass\u0131n&#8230; Son vaxtlar bu xat\u0131rlatmas\u0131na g\u0259r\u0259k qalm\u0131rd\u0131; art\u0131q ham\u0131 yerliyi saya q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u0259v\u0259nin ilg\u0259kl\u0259ri aras\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015fdi&#8230; &#8230;B\u00fct\u00fcn bu nizam\u0131n, yerli-yerind\u0259 olan h\u0259r \u015feyin bir d\u0259 ucalan s\u0259si vard\u0131; \u00fcz\u00fcyuxar\u0131 Kamandar \u00e7ay\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131 bu s\u0259s, \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 Tatara ged\u0259n yolun ba\u015f\u0131na&#8230; O qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bu g\u00fcn ham\u0131n\u0131n dilind\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn toyu \u00e7al\u0131nan g\u0259ncl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 yar\u0131nisgil, yar\u0131g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f dolu xatir\u0259l\u0259r burum-burum burulard\u0131. Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n toyundak\u0131 yegan\u0259 \u0259skiklik k\u0259nd adamlar\u0131n\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda b\u0259yl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 he\u00e7 bir xatir\u0259 olmamas\u0131yd\u0131; o\u011flan evind\u0259n he\u00e7 kimi tan\u0131mayan h\u0259mk\u0259ndlil\u0259rin g\u00fcc\u00fc el\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, qo\u00e7aql\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131: \u2013 Ay q\u0131z, yad\u0131ndam\u0131, m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 anas\u0131 sa\u00e7 tapmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda h\u00f6r\u0259, ucunu ba\u011flaya? \u2013 H\u0259l\u0259 onu deyirs\u0259n, Zemfiran\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n toyunda ortaya \u00e7\u0259kdim ki, g\u0259l oyna, utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan a\u011flad\u0131. Bir ba\u015fqas\u0131 oca\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131ndan s\u0259s verirdi: \u2013 Seyfinin o\u011flunun toyundan geri qay\u0131dan qara qazan\u0131m var\u0131yd\u0131, apard\u0131m bula\u011fa, s\u00fcrt ki s\u00fcrt\u0259s\u0259n, a\u00e7\u0131lmad\u0131 hisi. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, y\u0131\u011fval\u0131 a\u011farm\u0131\u015f, budu, g\u0259lir. El\u0259 birc\u0259 \u201cyorulmuyasan\u201d dedi, \u00e7\u0259kdi qazan\u0131 ald\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259n, n\u0259t\u0259h\u0259r el\u0259di, neyn\u0259di, ikic\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kdi, qazan oldu a\u011fappaq. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k do\u011frayanlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n biri dill\u0259nirdi: \u2013 O t\u0259h\u0259ri q\u0131z\u0131 da verdil\u0259r q\u00fcrb\u0259t el\u0259, el\u0259 bil k\u0259ndd\u0259 o\u011flan yoxuydu&#8230; S\u00f6z\u00fcn bu yerind\u0259 Leyli arvad\u0131n s\u0259si q\u0131l\u0131nc kimi havan\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 yar\u0131rd\u0131: \u2013 Kiri\u015fin bir hovur! G\u00fcn\u00fc-baxt\u0131 a\u011f olsun, aya\u011f\u0131 sayal\u0131, \u0259li x\u0131nal\u0131 olsun! Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lmaqdan ya\u011fdan d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn, barxanas\u0131n\u0131n mitili \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n, t\u0259z\u0259 paltar\u0131 c\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131n, t\u0259z\u0259 donlu\u011fu qat k\u0259sm\u0259sin! B\u0259xt yazan \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131las\u0131n! Amin! Ham\u0131 \u0259lini i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kib bir a\u011f\u0131zdan: \u201cAmin!\u201d deyirdi&#8230; Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u0259ssizlik \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, sonra kims\u0259 yen\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131: \u2013 Yad\u0131nda qalar s\u0259nin, ay \u015e\u00fckuf\u0259, \u0130man\u0131n toyunda nec\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 do\u011fram\u0131\u015fd\u0131 dov\u011fan\u0131n g\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fc yar\u0131m\u0131\u015f&#8230; &#8230;Bel\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, bel\u0259 sona \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n toyu. Bir iri y\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131nda cehiz gedirdi, bir balaca ma\u015f\u0131nda da cehiz bo\u015faldanlar. Y\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fmayan b\u0259z\u0259kli, nax\u0131\u015fl\u0131, i\u00e7i dolu cehiz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 balaca ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ke\u00e7i q\u0131l\u0131ndan h\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f nehr\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131lar\u0131yla b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131nlar siqnal ver\u0259-ver\u0259 d\u00f6ng\u0259ni d\u00f6n\u00fcb arxalar\u0131nca anl\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259r kimi tozanaq qoyanda yen\u0259 s\u0259s-k\u00fcy ba\u015flad\u0131: \u2013 G\u00f6rd\u00fcnm\u00fc, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131?! \u2013 B\u0259 n\u0259! Usta \u0130brahimin \u0259ll\u0259ri q\u0131z\u0131ld\u0131, g\u0259l\u0259n il\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 birini q\u0131za d\u00fcz\u0259ltdir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u2013 B\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r, ki\u015finin n\u0259f\u0259si t\u0259ngiyir, n\u0259t\u0259h\u0259r d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi bu dar zamanda bu yek\u0259likd\u0259 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131? H\u0259l\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259k-d\u00fcz\u0259yini demir\u0259m&#8230; \u2013 Qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k, c\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131na-c\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131na g\u00fcl, ay q\u0131z, iraq olsun, nolub ki Usta \u0130brahim\u0259? Qoca ki\u015fidi, arada n\u0259f\u0259si t\u0131nc\u0131x\u0131r, a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. K\u0259ndin tutan \u0259lidi, he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmas\u0131n den\u0259n. \u2013 B\u0131y aaa&#8230; Dem\u0259dim ki, n\u0259s\u0259 olsun. M\u0259n dem\u0259kn\u0259ndi?! H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm onun \u0259lind\u0259di, u\u015faq \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 bir iri taxt d\u00fcz\u0259ltdir\u0259m g\u0259r\u0259k. Kas\u0131b Allahverdinin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir, ondan cehiz umammaram m\u0259n&#8230; S\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ki\u015fi-qad\u0131n, qoca-cavan g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n \u201c\u015f\u0131pp\u201d dey\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259 dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u201cArs\u0131z\u201d l\u0259q\u0259bi alm\u0131\u015f Nar\u0131ng\u00fcl arvad ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ovuc bu\u011fdaya u\u00e7u\u015fan s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 baxa-baxa dedi: \u2013 Anas\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259si o sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaman doldurdu, ba\u015f\u0131 ucad\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n. Onu-bunu bilmir\u0259m, m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 \u0259n urvatd\u0131 cehiz el\u0259 o sand\u0131qd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 yax\u0131ndan baxd\u0131m, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 z\u00fcmr\u00fcd qu\u015funun q\u0131z\u0131l qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi Usta \u0130brahim. II G\u0259nc\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n sol sahilind\u0259ki dar d\u00f6lm\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 aparan x\u0131rl\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 ayaq basmazdan qabaq g\u0259r\u0259k bil\u0259s\u0259n ki, hans\u0131 qap\u0131 kimindi. Yoxsa ayaqlar\u0131n kimi fikirl\u0259rin d\u0259 dola\u015far, d\u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 girdiyini yad\u0131na salsan da, ha\u00e7an dolan\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlayammazsan. \u018fg\u0259r yolu oraya d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bir nab\u0259l\u0259d adam varsa, m\u00fctl\u0259q \u018fttarlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259ki bal\u0131q ma\u011fazas\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda dayanmal\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131dan ir\u0259li uzad\u0131b Mikay\u0131l ki\u015fiy\u0259: &#8220;Bazar olsun!&#8221; \u2013 dem\u0259lidi. S\u0259birl\u0259 Mikay\u0131l ki\u015finin handan-hana bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131tlay\u0131b: \u2013 Kimi axtar\u0131rsan? \u2013 sual\u0131n\u0131 verm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259lidi. \u018fttarlardan \u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7aya yemlik yarpa\u011f\u0131 kimi h\u0259zinc\u0259 burulan d\u00f6lm\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 kim\u0259 hans\u0131 qap\u0131 laz\u0131md\u0131, \u00fcst\u0259lik, o qap\u0131n\u0131 saat ne\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 d\u00f6ym\u0259k daha urvatl\u0131 olar, Mikay\u0131l ki\u015fi bunlar\u0131 ham\u0131dan yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi. Sakinl\u0259rin \u201cAdam k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc\u201d dediyi \u201cD\u0259mir k\u00f6rp\u00fc\u201dd\u0259n basala\u011fa gir\u0259nl\u0259rin is\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 st\u0259kanla g\u00fcn\u0259baxan tumu, t\u00fcrk f\u0131st\u0131\u011f\u0131 satan Haqq\u0131 arvad\u0131n yan\u0131nda ayaq saxlamalar\u0131 b\u0259s edirdi; bu t\u0259r\u0259fin s\u0259mt a\u011fac\u0131 da o idi&#8230; T\u0259kc\u0259 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n n\u0259 Mikay\u0131l ki\u015finin bal\u0131q ma\u011fazas\u0131n\u0131n, n\u0259 d\u0259 Haqq\u0131 arvad\u0131n vedr\u0259sinin yan\u0131nda ayaq saxlam\u0131rd\u0131; ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b fikirli-fikirli \u018fttarlardan girib k\u00f6rp\u00fcd\u0259n o yana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, yeni tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. Yol boyu beynind\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 almad\u0131\u011f\u0131 maa\u015f\u0131 q\u0259piyin\u0259c\u0259n \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb-bi\u00e7ir, d\u00f6rd balas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259y\u0259r-\u0259skiyin\u0259 yar\u0131m-yamalaq da olsa, \u00e7atd\u0131ramm\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc demi\u015f, \u201cy\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259-y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259\u201d \u00fcr\u0259yini Yaradan\u0131na a\u00e7\u0131b-t\u00f6k\u00fcr, h\u0259r ay sonunda yar\u0131s\u0131 kredit\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lan t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc alanda iki d\u0259f\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edirdi: biri \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259, biri d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc bankomata&#8230; Ax\u015fam geri qay\u0131danda is\u0259 hava art\u0131q toranla\u015f\u0131r, d\u00f6lm\u0259d\u0259 oynayan u\u015faqlar evl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilir, yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n e\u015fiy\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f yem\u0259k \u0259triyl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r, televizorlar\u0131n s\u0259sl\u0259ri ax\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 olmayan d\u00f6lm\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n \u0259l\u00e7im-\u0259l\u00e7im i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n havas\u0131na yeyin add\u0131mlarla ev\u0259 \u00e7atma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 burnuna d\u0259y\u0259n yem\u0259k \u0259tirl\u0259rini se\u00e7ir, evind\u0259 hans\u0131 yem\u0259yi bi\u015firm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259yin olub-olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yad\u0131na salma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. K\u0259l\u0259m dolmas\u0131 qoxusu alsa, yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, d\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fc var, \u0259ti yox&#8230; Bir ba\u015fqa g\u00fcn is\u0259 buzluqda bir b\u00fck\u00fcm \u00e7\u0259kili \u0259t oldu\u011funa sevin\u0259n kimi dolmal\u0131q k\u0259l\u0259m alma\u011fa pulu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; Bel\u0259c\u0259, g\u00fcnl\u0259ri bir-birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6z \u00f6m\u00fcr divar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259rkitdiyini san\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcmidi onayd\u0131 ki, balalar\u0131 \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin anlar\u0131nda \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini bu divara s\u00f6yk\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r&#8230; &#8230;Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 \u018fttarlardan girib \u201cAdam k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc\u201dn\u0259 \u00e7atma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. Aya\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 par\u00e7a ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 nazilmi\u015fdi dey\u0259s\u0259n; iri x\u0131rlar aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaman incidirdi. G\u0259r\u0259k bu ayk\u0131 maa\u015f\u0131n hesab\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir ayaqqab\u0131 da alayd\u0131. Almal\u0131yd\u0131, amma beynind\u0259ki hesabda hans\u0131 balas\u0131n\u0131n pay\u0131ndan k\u0259sm\u0259liydi? Bu an d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin sual\u0131 bu idi G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn&#8230; Bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6lm\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atanda qeyri-ixtiyar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u0259rdi, birc\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f b\u0259s el\u0259di ki, dizl\u0259rind\u0259n da\u015f as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kimi yerind\u0259c\u0259 quruyub qals\u0131n. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yumdu, sonra da ehtiyatla a\u00e7d\u0131; s\u0259hv g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi&#8230; Mavi darvazan\u0131n e\u015fiyind\u0259ki sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131&#8230;Tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131, amma hardan? \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259k bir nisgil burula-burula qalxd\u0131, yadda\u015f a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259-t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259 silk\u0259l\u0259di, xatir\u0259l\u0259rinin dola\u015fm\u0131\u015f, bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f k\u0259l\u0259finin i\u00e7ind\u0259n tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259r dilinin ucundan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fiy\u0259 atd\u0131: \u2013 Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n z\u00fcmr\u00fcd qu\u015flu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131&#8230; Bir ist\u0259di gedib mavi darvazan\u0131 d\u00f6ys\u00fcn, Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fsun, q\u0259fild\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n fikird\u0259n \u00fcrp\u0259ndi: \u2013 Sa\u011f olsayd\u0131, qoyard\u0131m\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 darvazadan e\u015fiy\u0259?! \u2013 dey\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yoluna davam etdi&#8230; *** G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131na bir inilti \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ill\u0259rin o tay\u0131ndan&#8230; Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi, e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015fdi bel\u0259 inilti, e\u015fits\u0259ydi, xat\u0131rlayard\u0131. Bu inilti n\u0259n\u0259 pal\u0131d\u0131n bala d\u0259rdini yad\u0131na sald\u0131 onun, b\u00fct\u00fcn budaqlar\u0131n\u0131n, bar\u0131n\u0131n-b\u0259hr\u0259sinin x\u0259trin\u0259 bir buda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rini qurban ver\u0259n f\u0131st\u0131q a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc&#8230; Yaln\u0131z indi anlad\u0131 ki, ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi arzusuna \u00e7atma\u011f\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyind\u0259, sad\u0259c\u0259, xumarlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. H\u0259, \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm d\u0259r\u0259si\u201dnin sa\u011f yaxas\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259rib g\u0259ncliyind\u0259 budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla dil\u0259diyin\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc bir insan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 calam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi&#8230; Usum onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 a\u015fiq olmu\u015fdu, naz\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 do\u011fram\u0131\u015fd\u0131 budaqlar\u0131n\u0131, ovcunun i\u00e7ind\u0259ki qabarlar\u0131 g\u00f6vd\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u0259-s\u00fcrt\u0259 \u00f6l\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 cib b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131yla laz\u0131mi yerd\u0259 c\u0131z\u0131q a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, sonra balta \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Usta \u0130brahim h\u0259r hacata \u0259lini atanda \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc birinci g\u00f6y\u0259 tutmu\u015f: \u2013 Yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, Ulu Tanr\u0131! \u2013 demi\u015fdi&#8230; Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131 onu ilk g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 sevincind\u0259n a\u011flam\u0131\u015f, dizl\u0259rini yer\u0259 qoyub sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259rmi\u015fdi. \u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259n qiym\u0259tli \u015feyl\u0259rini ona \u0259man\u0259t etmi\u015f, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki z\u00fcmr\u00fcd qu\u015fu r\u0259smini yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucuyla astaca tumarlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131&#8230; Qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 bir toz d\u0259n\u0259si qona&#8230; Qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 q\u0131z-g\u0259lin bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259 sil\u0259nd\u0259 hikk\u0259sini onun balaca \u00fc\u00e7k\u00fcnc ayaqlar\u0131na \u00e7\u0131rpa&#8230; Bel\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi ill\u0259r&#8230; Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 qapa\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b-\u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, he\u00e7 saymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 da&#8230; N\u0259inki o\u011ful-u\u015faq, h\u0259r n\u0259v\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259, bu yax\u0131nda ilk n\u0259tic\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 pay \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onun i\u00e7ind\u0259n. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 d\u0259 Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131 dilind\u0259 min \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259, dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda k\u00f6vr\u0259k bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131 qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, el\u0259 h\u0259min \u015f\u00fckranl\u0131qla da ehmalca qapa\u011f\u0131 yerin\u0259 qaytarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 xo\u015f \u00f6mr\u0259 calanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, Ulu Tanr\u0131&#8230; \u0130ndi bilirdi qoz a\u011fac\u0131&#8230; \u0130ndi&#8230; M\u0259hz el\u0259 bu g\u00fcn&#8230; Bu sabah&#8230; *** \u0130\u015fd\u0259 \u0259lini n\u0259y\u0259 at\u0131rd\u0131sa el\u0259 bil ill\u0259rin o tay\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131 qabarl\u0131 barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucu G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin&#8230; Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 o mavi darvazan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri y\u00fcz d\u0259f\u0259 o k\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131; gah Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n toyunda qol qald\u0131r\u0131b oynam\u0131\u015f, gah Nar\u0131ng\u00fcl arvad\u0131n sand\u0131q haqq\u0131nda dediyi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fitmi\u015f, gah \u00f6z cehiz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00fcnk\u00fc kimi doluxsunmu\u015f, el\u0259 o vaxtk\u0131 kimi d\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa utanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131&#8230; B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n f\u00f6vq\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 yetm\u0259diyini anlam\u0131\u015f, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb-dolan\u0131b ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi ki, qay\u0131danba\u015f mavi darvazan\u0131 d\u00f6ys\u00fcn, qap\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131xana \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131tmadan o sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 ist\u0259sin&#8230; Amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dans\u0131tma\u011fa da ayaq yeri saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259: \u2013 Apar\u0131b hara qoyas\u0131yam ey?! He\u00e7 \u00f6z g\u0259linimin cehizini yerl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259mmir\u0259m, yaz\u0131q qudam borc-x\u0259rcl\u0259 n\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l cehiz al\u0131b. Bu kiray\u0259d\u0259n o kiray\u0259y\u0259 da\u015f\u0131n\u0131b q\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131n dey\u0259, yar\u0131mb\u00fck\u0259l\u0259k yar\u0131s\u0131 o bac\u0131m\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131nda, yar\u0131s\u0131 o qohumun zirz\u0259misind\u0259 qal\u0131b&#8230; Tozunu sildiyi h\u0259r masada, h\u0259r komp\u00fcterd\u0259 \u00f6z sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tapm\u0131\u015f kimi hiss edirdi bu g\u00fcn&#8230; H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi c\u0259ld i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259mmirdi, el\u0259 bil masaya d\u0259smal\u0131 bir az b\u0259rk \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259, sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki topa \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259rin r\u0259ngi solacaqd\u0131&#8230; \u2013 \u00c7\u0259hray\u0131yd\u0131 o topa g\u00fcll\u0259r&#8230; H\u0259&#8230; \u2013 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q \u0259minlikl\u0259 deyil\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259rin t\u0259kzibi d\u0259 gecikmirdi. \u2013 \u00c7\u0259hray\u0131yd\u0131m\u0131? B\u0259lk\u0259, nar\u0131nc\u0131yd\u0131? N\u0259ys\u0259, bir c\u00fcr\u0259 r\u0259ngiydi m\u0259nim sand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdak\u0131 topa g\u00fcll\u0259r&#8230; Gah da \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131na h\u0259s\u0259d apar\u0131rd\u0131: \u2013 Nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l saxlay\u0131b sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131&#8230; Usta \u0130brahimin \u0259lind\u0259n d\u00fcn\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f kimiydi. Bir nax\u0131\u015f\u0131 da \u0259yilm\u0259yib, bir boyas\u0131 da r\u0259ng verm\u0259yib ill\u0259r\u0259. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, ist\u0259s\u0259m, g\u0259lini onu m\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259rmi? E\u015fiy\u0259 qoyublarsa, ya bu g\u00fcn-sabah G\u0259nc\u0259\u00e7ay\u0131n q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 zibil \u00e7uxuruna atacaqlar, ya da el\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f yuyub \u2013 g\u00fcn qurudub hay\u0131f el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k&#8230; \u2013 tezc\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u00f6vll\u0259n\u0259n nisgilin d\u0259rman\u0131n\u0131n Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 boynuna al\u0131rd\u0131. \u2013 Yox ey&#8230; M\u0259n Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mir\u0259m&#8230; M\u0259ni \u00f6z sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n q\u0259drini bilm\u0259m\u0259yim yand\u0131r\u0131r&#8230; Bel\u0259 vurdu g\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fa G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n; g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 bulud dolub-bo\u015fald\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 \u015fim\u015f\u0259k \u00e7axd\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcr pay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcf\u00fcql\u0259rind\u0259n&#8230; \u0130\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda bir ist\u0259di bu g\u00fcn yolunu d\u0259yi\u015fsin: \u201cAdam k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc\u201dn\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259sin, el\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcyuxar\u0131 qalx\u0131b \u201cKukla teatr\u0131\u201dn\u0131n k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7sin, Nizaminin heyk\u0259linin yan\u0131ndan da \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015f Sabir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sin\u0259 girib kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ev\u0259 el\u0259 getsin. Di g\u0259l, \u00fcr\u0259yi onu sand\u0131\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u0259kdi, ayaqlar\u0131 bir d\u0259 sand\u0131\u011fa \u00e7atanda dayand\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bir \u0259l\u00e7im i\u015f\u0131qda f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131 ki, sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yumaq kimi b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir qar\u0131 oturub, k\u00fcr\u0259yini mavi darvazaya s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da sa\u011f \u00e7iyninin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259yib&#8230; *** &#8230;\u00d6m\u00fcr dolaylar\u0131n\u0131n lap a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015f bir xatir\u0259 \u015f\u0259kli asm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 o g\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6lm\u0259 \u00f6z yaxas\u0131na&#8230; Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yumrulan\u0131b oturan qar\u0131 el\u0259 bilirdi ki, yen\u0259 Bada t\u00fcrkl\u0259rinin \u0259cdadlar\u0131n\u0131n izini itirdiyi o k\u0259ndd\u0259di, G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n g\u0259lib ki, onu qu\u015f\u0259pp\u0259yi y\u0131\u011fmaq\u00e7\u00fcn \u201ctikili\u015fin yan\u0131na\u201d getm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n&#8230; \u015e\u0259klin G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc, Afiqin qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259l cehiz ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131, ard\u0131nca da \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sand\u0131q ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f balaca ma\u015f\u0131n yol al\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 o ma\u015f\u0131nlar ard-arda tini burulub g\u00f6zd\u0259n itmirdi, ha gets\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, sand\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc; \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259lliyiyl\u0259&#8230; \u2013 S\u0259n d\u0259 mi G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 y\u00f6n sald\u0131n, a G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n? \u2013 dedi Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131&#8230; G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, n\u0259inki m\u0259saf\u0259l\u0259rin o biri ucunda, \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6t\u00fcb-ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rin d\u0259 \u0259l\u00e7atmazl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda qoyub g\u0259ldiyi o k\u0259ndin s\u0259sini e\u015fidir; hardasa bir bulaq ax\u0131r, bir balaca kol k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n \u00fc\u015f\u0259nib budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qarmaqlay\u0131r, bu qarmaqlanan budaqlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda da bir bir\u0259bitd\u0259n qu\u015fu cikkild\u0259yir&#8230;V\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b bir bayat\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fcr, yumrulan\u0131r, k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131r&#8230; \u018fzizim, b\u0259ndim ol, g\u0259l, \u015e\u0259k\u0259rim, q\u0259ndim ol, g\u0259l&#8230; \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fc ya\u015fama\u011fa \u015e\u0259h\u0259rim, k\u0259ndim ol, g\u0259l&#8230; S\u00f6zl\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n h\u00f6vll\u0259nir, bo\u011faz\u0131nda d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259nirdi G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin&#8230; Di g\u0259l, Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z ad\u0131 n\u0259ydi, xat\u0131rlayamm\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; Bilirdi ki, bir g\u00fcl ad\u0131d\u0131, amma hans\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcn? B\u00fct\u00fcn bildiyi g\u00fcl adlar\u0131n\u0131 yan-yanam\u0131 d\u00fczs\u00fcn indi, yoxsa el\u0259 bildiyi adlam\u0131 \u2013 \u201cAfiqin q\u0131z\u0131\u201d dey\u0259mi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 bu do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6l\u0259zimi\u015f hal\u0131n\u0131? \u00c7ar\u0259si \u00f6l\u0259ziy\u0259n do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6s\u00f6v\u00fcn\u00fc k\u00fcld\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa qald\u0131&#8230; \u2013 \u201cDeyirdin, G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 kama yet\u0259rs\u0259n, indi bu m\u0259n, bu s\u0259n, bu da ki G\u0259nc\u0259&#8230;\u201d \u2013 deyirdi yaz\u0131q M\u0259hs\u0259ti&#8230; \u2013 B\u0259xt dediyin bir da\u015f at\u0131m\u0131d\u0131, atan f\u0259l\u0259yin \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 hara d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini bilmir&#8230; \u2013 Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7inar yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131n x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 kimiydi&#8230; \u2013 H\u0259&#8230; \u2013 dedi G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n&#8230; &#8230;N\u0259 vaxt s\u00f6z\u0259 unutduqlar\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131qlar\u0131, amma unutmad\u0131qlar\u0131 k\u0259ndd\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131lar, bir-birinin \u00f6m\u00fcr yoluna birc\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f atmadan, birc\u0259 \u201cheyif\u201d dem\u0259d\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt qocal\u0131\u011fa \u00e7atd\u0131lar, bilm\u0259dil\u0259r, sad\u0259c\u0259, s\u00f6zl\u0259r bir-birinin arxas\u0131na d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, yadda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki dola\u015f\u0131q k\u0259l\u0259f adda-budda \u00e7\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259nirdi&#8230; \u2013 Nabat arvad yad\u0131ndad\u0131m\u0131? \u2013 H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259-k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f geyin\u0259rdi&#8230; Bir g\u00fcn qoltu\u011funda iki top donluq qap\u0131ya g\u0259ldi. Dedi, bunlardan m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng don tik. Yan\u0131mda oturdu, ba\u015flad\u0131m \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb-bi\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259. M\u0259n \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u0259ri ald\u0131qca yana-yana dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u00c7ardaxl\u0131ya \u00f6l\u00fc yerin\u0259 gedibmi\u015f. Ged\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb ki, \u00f6l\u0259n arvad \u0259n t\u0259z\u0259 donunu geyinib durub qap\u0131da. Deyib, \u201cb\u0131y ba\u015f\u0131ma xeyir, b\u0259 biz \u00f6l\u00fc yerin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fik ax\u0131?!\u201d Evin g\u0259lini d\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b ki, \u201cday \u00f6l\u00fcb gedib d\u0259 qay\u0131nanam. A\u00e7d\u0131m sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, el\u0259 baxd\u0131m, bu don q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng su g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r, evi-e\u015fiyi sildim. D\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259sil\u0259n a\u011faca tax\u0131b qoymu\u015fam g\u00fcn\u0259 qurusun\u201d. Nabat arvad da bir \u0259ynind\u0259ki iyirmi illik donuna bax\u0131b, bir taxtadak\u0131 dona, bir d\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda qoyulmu\u015f \u015f\u0259kl\u0259&#8230; Ev\u0259 \u00e7atan kimi a\u00e7\u0131b sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, iki top par\u00e7a g\u0259tirib ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn olan-qalan\u0131n\u0131 geyinib c\u0131rs\u0131n, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lin\u0259 n\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 don, n\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 donluq qalmas\u0131n&#8230; \u2013 Ulu Tanr\u0131 s\u0259ni qorusun, ay G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n&#8230; \u2013 \u0130nanm\u0131ram ki, Ulu Tanr\u0131 yaza biz\u0259 bu qara g\u00fcn\u00fc&#8230; Yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n e\u015fiy\u0259 boylanan sar\u0131sa\u00e7, sin\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131q cavan g\u0259lin q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra\u2013 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131na tutmu\u015fdu: \u2013 Ay arvad, orda ona-buna az qeyb\u0259t el\u0259, g\u0259l, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini ye. Bir azdan serial\u0131m ba\u015flayacaq, sonra m\u0259ni yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qald\u0131rma divandan! G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n asta-asta \u018fttarlara t\u0259r\u0259f yoluna davam etmi\u015fdi. Aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda hiss el\u0259diyi h\u0259r iri x\u0131r d\u0259n\u0259si \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; *** &#8230;H\u0259r ax\u015fam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6lm\u0259nin yaxas\u0131ndan as\u0131lan a\u011f-qara \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yeni bir xatir\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259rirdi&#8230; El\u0259 ki G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin k\u00f6hn\u0259 par\u00e7a ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 ita\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f kimi c\u00fctl\u0259nirdi, Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 aln\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n iki t\u0259k-bir c\u00fct a\u011f sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na it\u0259l\u0259yir, xatir\u0259 dolab\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259nd siyirm\u0259sin\u0259 \u00fcz tutur, i\u00e7ind\u0259n kimi tapsa, onun ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirdi: \u2013 Bir M\u0259rv\u0259 arvad da var\u0131yd\u0131&#8230; T\u00fcrk K\u00fcbran\u0131n anas\u0131&#8230; \u2013 Yaz\u0131q&#8230; Onunku ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr d\u0259rdiydi \u00e7\u0259kirdi&#8230; \u2013 N\u0259t\u0259h\u0259r demi\u015fdi yaz\u0131q g\u00fcnl\u00fc? \u2013 Ax\u0131sqa qa\u00e7q\u0131nlar\u0131yd\u0131lar yaz\u0131qlar&#8230; Bir \u0259l Ax\u0131skadan F\u0259rqan\u0259y\u0259 s\u00fcrg\u00fcn olunmu\u015fdular, bir \u0259l d\u0259 F\u0259rqan\u0259d\u0259n Az\u0259rbaycana. Bir g\u00fcn K\u00fcbra dedi ki, ana, \u0259rimin b\u00fct\u00fcn qohumlar\u0131 Sar\u0131t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259di, birc\u0259 bizik, bir d\u0259 s\u0259nin bac\u0131n o\u011fludu bu k\u0259ndd\u0259. Biz Al\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 Sar\u0131t\u0259p\u0259y\u0259 \u2013 onun qohumlar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259liyik&#8230; M\u0259rv\u0259 arvad bir xeyli \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00fcst\u2013 \u00fcst\u0259 qoyub fikr\u0259 getdi, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, iki qap\u0131 aras\u0131nda qal\u0131b, bilmir, hans\u0131ndan ke\u00e7sin. Bir q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131, bir \u0259lini cibin\u0259 at\u0131b bac\u0131s\u0131ndan qalan toxunma d\u0259smal\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi, handan-hana dedi: \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131m, he\u00e7 m\u0259nim x\u0259trim yox?\u201d \u2013 N\u0259 a\u011flamal\u0131 d\u0259rdiymi\u015f&#8230; Bir k\u0259r\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturub a\u011flamam\u0131\u015f\u0131q&#8230; \u2013 A\u011flama\u011fa ya\u015f da var\u0131yd\u0131 o vaxtlar&#8230; \u2013 Ya\u015f d\u0259rdi yuyurdu san\u0131rd\u0131m, yumur, a G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n&#8230; \u2013 D\u0259rdin yediyi kimi adam\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yemir&#8230; \u2013 D\u0259li Quma\u015f da xatirin\u0259 g\u0259lirmi he\u00e7? \u2013 H\u0259&#8230; Amma qovuram onu xatirimd\u0259n&#8230; \u2013 El\u0259 od qalad\u0131 ki, b\u0259db\u0259xtin q\u0131z\u0131, qovsam da, getmir, inan\u0131rsanm\u0131? \u2013 Qovduqca g\u0259lib oturur g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda&#8230; El\u0259 hey giley el\u0259yirdi ki, u\u015faqlar\u0131m nax\u0259l\u0259fdi. Ham\u0131 bir a\u011f\u0131zdan: \u201cKiri!\u201d \u2013 deyirdi, he\u00e7 dey\u0259ni olmad\u0131 ki: \u201cBir hovur dan\u0131\u015f, ba\u011fr\u0131n \u00e7atdamas\u0131n&#8230;\u201d Alt\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n hans\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na gedirdi, yerd\u0259 qalan be\u015fi y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b ora g\u0259lir, \u201cpensiyandan biz\u0259 d\u0259 ver\u201d \u2013 deyib dava sal\u0131rd\u0131lar. O da na\u0259lac qal\u0131b qay\u0131d\u0131r \u00f6z evin\u0259, t\u0259k-t\u0259nha pill\u0259k\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131nda oturur, qonum-qon\u015funun ovcunda g\u0259tirdiyini yeyirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi qaynad\u0131qca da u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259m\u0259yind\u0259n, g\u0259linl\u0259rin pulunu x\u0259rcl\u0259yib onu b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n, q\u0131zlar\u0131n da ancaq ya y\u00fckd\u0259n bir yor\u011fan, ya da \u0259ldam\u0131ndan bir mis s\u0259rnic aparmaq\u00e7\u00fcn qap\u0131dan girdiyind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131. \u201cD\u0259li Quma\u015f\u201d deyirdil\u0259r, amma yaz\u0131q g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc anlad\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; Yad\u0131mdad\u0131, \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k arvad\u0131n n\u0259v\u0259si Yusif qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a x\u0259b\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ki, Quma\u015f arvad \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc armud a\u011fac\u0131ndan \u015f\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131yla as\u0131b, anam dizl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6ym\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc&#8230; L\u0259l\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259la\u011fac\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259nib demi\u015fdi: \u201cCan\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb getdi b\u0259d\u0259sil \u00f6vladlar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n yaz\u0131q&#8230; Ta bilirdi ki, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 laz\u0131m d\u00f6y&#8230;\u201d \u2013 N\u0259 pis \u015feyiymi\u015f he\u00e7 kim\u0259 laz\u0131m olmamaq, a G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n&#8230; Yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n hikk\u0259yl\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131lan ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n dinm\u0259z-s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259z \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirir, add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yeyinl\u0259dirdi&#8230; *** Bel\u0259c\u0259, g\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7ir, G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n h\u0259r ax\u015fam yuxuya getm\u0259zd\u0259n qabaq kiray\u0259 evl\u0259rd\u0259 yer tapmad\u0131qca o qap\u0131ya-bu qap\u0131ya g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bir r\u0259ng itirmi\u015f, bir az da y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fmi\u015f tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. O\u011flunun k\u00f6hn\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259n tikdiyi yast\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 axan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259qiqiliyin\u0259 inanmayaraq \u0259liyl\u0259 yoxlaya-yoxlaya da yuxuya gedir, bir d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r ert\u0259 su satan R\u0259c\u0259bin ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n t\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na oyan\u0131r, i\u015f\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. &#8230;Sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 kimin qap\u0131s\u0131na qoymu\u015fdu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131? \u0130\u00e7ini t\u0259miz bo\u015faltm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u0131? Bu g\u00fcn yuxudan durandan bu suallar beyninin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir-birini qovur, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri bir bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131ndan girib, o biri bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcman\u0131 yen\u0259 uzaqdak\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131na g\u0259ldi, bils\u0259-bils\u0259, sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerini o, bil\u0259rdi; q\u0259rib xatir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 yaman h\u0259ssas idi. \u018flini telefona uzad\u0131b q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n n\u00f6mr\u0259sini y\u0131\u011fmaq ist\u0259di, tezc\u0259 d\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131 ki, q\u0131z\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 yuxuda olar. Z\u0259ng edib oyatma\u011fa q\u0131ymad\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, ha\u00e7an \u00f6z\u00fc y\u0131\u011fsa, s\u00f6zaras\u0131 soru\u015far. \u018flac\u0131 yen\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259y\u0259 qald\u0131: \u2013 Bel\u0259 q\u0259fil soru\u015fsam, bunu da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rd ed\u0259r u\u015faq&#8230; Dey\u0259r, g\u00f6r\u0259n, anam\u0131n n\u0259yi itib o sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n yen\u0259? Fikrinin bir ucunu q\u0131z\u0131na ba\u011flay\u0131b evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, q\u0259fild\u0259n anas\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qay\u0131d\u0131b g\u0259linin\u0259 dedi: \u2013 O\u011flum ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 soru\u015f, g\u00f6r, bu h\u0259ft\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt bo\u015f olar? D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn anam\u0131n ilidi, i\u015fd\u0259n icaz\u0259 alaram, q\u0259bir \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ged\u0259rik. \u2013 Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259, ana. Dey\u0259r\u0259m, lap o da i\u015fd\u0259n icaz\u0259 alar h\u0259min g\u00fcn. G\u0259lininin Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259z\u0259-k\u00f6hn\u0259 g\u0259linl\u0259rin\u0259 ox\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ed\u0259-ed\u0259 pill\u0259l\u0259ri endi, darvazaya \u00e7ata\u00e7atda d\u00f6n\u00fcb geri baxd\u0131. G\u0259lin m\u0259tb\u0259xin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n bax\u0131b g\u00fc\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. O da g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di&#8230; &#8230;\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki o xo\u015f v\u0259 \u015f\u00fckranl\u0131q dolu t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcyl\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fa vurub \u201cAdam k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc\u201dn\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131. Haqq\u0131 arvad\u0131n yan\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fan arvadlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir tutaml\u0131q sar\u0131 k\u0259kil d\u0259ydi, add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yeyinl\u0259tdi. \u018fg\u0259r z\u0259nni do\u011fruydusa, Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131yla bir az art\u0131q s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdi; bu g\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259yi doluydu, anas\u0131 yaman yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u2013 A G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n&#8230; S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r, bilirs\u0259nmi? El\u0259 ki qo\u015fa h\u00f6r\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 at\u0131b o toyun k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc ke\u00e7irdin, \u0259midostum qay\u0131dard\u0131 ki, G\u00fcl D\u0259r\u0259nin G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ni yen\u0259 gedir g\u00fcl d\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259&#8230; \u2013 Barat\u0259li babamgil\u0259 gedirdim o toya&#8230; \u2013 Bilirdik&#8230; Amma \u0259midostum el\u0259 dem\u0259liydi&#8230; Dem\u0259s\u0259ydi, olmazd\u0131&#8230; \u2013 \u00dc\u00e7 solmaz \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi var evd\u0259 yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda&#8230; K\u0259ndd\u0259n y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m&#8230; \u2013 &#8230;Anan dururmu? \u2013 Bu d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn ilidi&#8230; \u2013 Yaman x\u0259tir ist\u0259y\u0259n arvad\u0131yd\u0131&#8230; \u2013 Ondan sonra x\u0259trini \u00f6l\u00e7\u0259c\u0259yim adam tapm\u0131ram bir ildi&#8230; &#8230;H\u0259r ikisi susdu&#8230; \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6lm\u0259 nimda\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan silk\u0259l\u0259nib ay\u0131lmaq ist\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi G\u0259nc\u0259\u00e7aydan \u00fcz\u00fcb\u0259ri \u0259s\u0259n s\u0259rin k\u00fcl\u0259yi qucaqlay\u0131b sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xmaq ist\u0259di; k\u00fcl\u0259k d\u0259 dinc durmad\u0131, yerd\u0259n bir ovuc toz qald\u0131r\u0131b mavi darvazan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri atd\u0131. Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131 s\u0259ks\u0259n\u0259n kimi oldu, \u0259yilmi\u015f barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 birc\u0259-birc\u0259 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131b dilinin alt\u0131nda n\u0259s\u0259 oxudu, sonra h\u0259r iki \u0259liyl\u0259 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallaya-s\u0131\u011fallaya dedi: \u2013 M\u0259nim x\u0259trim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn&#8230; \u2013 &#8230;Bu d\u00f6lm\u0259l\u0259r k\u0259ndimiz\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r bir az&#8230; \u2013 Sabah g\u0259l, bu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 apar&#8230; X\u0259trim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn&#8230; \u2013 &#8230;Havas\u0131 da s\u0259rinl\u0259yir buralar\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259s-n\u0259f\u0259s&#8230; \u2013 S\u0259ninl\u0259y\u0259m&#8230; A G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n, sabah bu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 apar, yiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x. D\u00f6lm\u0259nin ucunda bir tutam sar\u0131 k\u0259kil g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n dinm\u0259zc\u0259 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131. Ev\u0259 ged\u0259-ged\u0259 beynind\u0259 yen\u0259 \u00f6z sand\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sand\u0131\u011f\u0131na ox\u015fayan nax\u0131\u015flar axtar\u0131r, gah nax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 eynil\u0259\u015fdirir, gah da r\u0259ngl\u0259ri bir-birin\u0259 yara\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00f6hn\u0259 Sabir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin aya\u011f\u0131na \u00e7atanda telefonu z\u0259ng \u00e7ald\u0131, baxd\u0131, uzaqdak\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. \u2013 Alo? Anam? \u2013 Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir&#8230; Neynirsiniz? \u2013 N\u0259n\u0259m yaman yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Tikdiyi tikm\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n varm\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259? \u2013 Biri qal\u0131b&#8230; \u2013 O vaxt sand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm m\u0259n. \u2013 H\u0259r q\u0131z \u00f6z pay\u0131n\u0131 apard\u0131, s\u0259ninki qal\u0131b m\u0259nd\u0259. \u2013 Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da xalam\u0131n \u0259ri do\u011fray\u0131b toyuq tax\u00e7as\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi o ili&#8230; N\u0259n\u0259min tikm\u0259l\u0259ri, bizim k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z da ondan sonra did\u0259rgin d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc&#8230; \u2013 &#8230; \u2013 &#8230;Dey\u0259s\u0259n, yorulmusan, sa\u011folla\u015faq, sabah yen\u0259 y\u0131\u011faram&#8230; Telefon ke\u00e7di&#8230; Amma G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin qula\u011f\u0131na sand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259n tax\u00e7alardak\u0131 toyuqlar\u0131n qanad \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131, bir d\u0259 Afiqin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi: \u201cM\u0259nim x\u0259trim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn&#8230; Bu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 apar&#8230; Yiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x&#8230;\u201d Bu s\u0259sl\u0259rin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259n sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 qoyma\u011fa yer axtar\u0131rd\u0131; g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bas\u0131r\u0131q evd\u0259 o sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 hara qoya bil\u0259rdi? *** \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u00f6lm\u0259d\u0259ki mavi darvazadan \u00e7\u0131xan orta ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015finin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 yar\u0131k\u0259d\u0259r, yar\u0131heyr\u0259t bir ifad\u0259 vard\u0131. Sanki o, n\u0259yis\u0259 \u2013 \u00e7ox qiym\u0259tli bir \u015feyi itirmi\u015fdi, axtar\u0131rd\u0131, amma harda axtaraca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdi. Bir az o yana-bu yana d\u00f6y\u00fck\u00fcb sa\u011f \u0259lini darvazaya s\u00f6yk\u0259di, sol \u0259liyl\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc tutub yan\u011f\u0131l\u0131 bir \u201cah\u201d \u00e7\u0259kdi&#8230; Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 adda-budda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n ulduzlara baxd\u0131. \u018flini darvazadan \u00e7\u0259kib salavat \u00e7evirdi, s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259di, birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sald\u0131&#8230; Yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q aynadan sar\u0131sa\u00e7 bir g\u0259lin boyland\u0131: \u2013 Papa, papu\u015fka&#8230; Mamu\u015fka deyir ki, ma\u011fara z\u0259ng el\u0259din? Ki\u015fi astaca: \u2013 \u0130ndi y\u0131\u011f\u0131ram&#8230; \u2013 dedi. Sonra telefonunu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b bir n\u00f6mr\u0259 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131, qula\u011f\u0131na tutub dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131: \u2013 Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir&#8230;\u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 sa\u011fl\u0131q, anam indic\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getdi&#8230; H\u0259, el\u0259 ma\u011far \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn z\u0259ng el\u0259mi\u015fdim. \u0130ndid\u0259n qurulsa, gec\u0259 yol g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r haz\u0131r s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259rdi&#8230; Yax\u015f\u0131&#8230; Yar\u0131m saatam\u0131? E\u015fikd\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m&#8230; N\u0259 yoxdu? 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