{"id":39616,"date":"2021-09-16T08:00:00","date_gmt":"2021-09-16T04:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=39616"},"modified":"2021-09-16T13:55:37","modified_gmt":"2021-09-16T09:55:37","slug":"polsa-sairi-xalina-posvyatovskayanin-seirl%c9%99ri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=39616","title":{"rendered":"Pol\u015fa \u015fairi Xalina Posvyatovskayan\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259ri"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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M\u0259ni ad\u0131mla s\u0259sl\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259ni ad\u0131mla s\u0259sl\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 g\u0259lim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ey can\u0131mda olan\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259ni ad\u0131mla s\u0259sl\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sorma, ad\u0131m bir qu\u015fmu g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya da bir kol, k\u00f6k\u00fc sal\u0131bd\u0131r torpa\u011fa cayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

boyuyur qan r\u0259ngin\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259dir ad\u0131m, dey\u0259 soru\u015fma,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Axtar\u0131ram…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131m\u0131 axtar\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilir\u0259m \u0259g\u0259r e\u015fits\u0259m ad\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n haras\u0131nda olsam<\/p>\n\n\n\n

C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259min dibind\u0259 bel\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tap\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr\u0259m qar\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 yor\u011fun ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgili!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00fcnd\u00fcr bir k\u0259d\u0259rli canl\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259m,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b basacaqsanm\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131na?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259nmi q\u0259ddar bir taleyin sonunu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m gahdan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131ram gahdan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgid\u0259n, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259d\u0259n dolu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

                        bo\u015f-bo\u015f m\u0259ktublar\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gizl\u0259dir\u0259m odlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Odlar daha da alovlan\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgili!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Alovlara g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc dikdikc\u0259 fa\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgid\u0259n susuz olan \u00fcr\u0259yimin sonu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 nec\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131ndan g\u0259r\u0259k qorxamm\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Amma s\u0259nin m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tin yox<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu bumbuz qaranl\u0131q d\u00fcnyada<\/p>\n\n\n\n

t\u0259ki-t\u0259nha \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Arxanca <\/strong>g\u0259<\/strong>lir\u0259<\/strong>m<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin f\u0259ryad\u0131san,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ki, sonsuzad\u0259k gedir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir k\u00f6lg\u0259 min k\u00f6lg\u0259 boyunca<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir k\u00f6lg\u0259 ki ads\u0131z… \u00fcnvans\u0131z…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir \u00e7oxlu i\u015f\u0131q vard\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir \u00e7oxlu gec\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ulduzlar\u0131n\u0131 bird\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fcr\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Arxanca g\u0259lir\u0259m,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

buludlar\u0131n aras\u0131na axar\u0131ram s\u0259ni<\/p>\n\n\n\n

barmaqlar\u0131mla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qu\u015flar\u0131n qanadlar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan, yarpaqlardan…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 yaln\u0131z \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin sol\u011fun r\u0259ngli<\/p>\n\n\n\n

                      meydan\u0131 b\u0259llidir bu arada…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saxlamaq ist\u0259rs\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259ni<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saxlamaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259ni<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzat \u0259lini<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 saxlaya bil\u0259r m\u0259ni \u0259ll\u0259rinin istiliyi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r m\u0259ni,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015e\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saxlamaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259ni<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259sl\u0259 ad\u0131m\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259ri k\u0259sici<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u0259sici v\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131ndan nazik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saxlamaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259ni<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259l\u0259s!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ba\u011f\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yoxsa m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atmayacaq s\u0259sin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259l\u0259s l\u00fctf\u0259n!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gets\u0259m \u0259g\u0259r yan\u0131ql\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259rin n\u0259y\u0259 yarar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259 faydas\u0131 var planeti incitm\u0259yin,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sol\u011fun ad\u0131m\u0131 qumlara yazma\u011f\u0131nla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saxlamaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259ni<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzalt \u0259lini<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259f\u0259sini n\u0259f\u0259sim\u0259 ba\u011fla<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bo\u011fulan\u0131 xilas ed\u0259n kimi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7ox da \u00fcmid yolu qalmay\u0131b<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzun zamand\u0131r t\u0259nhal\u0131q m\u0259niml\u0259dir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Amma saxla m\u0259ni,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00fctf\u0259n!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn yox,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00e7\u00fcn saxla m\u0259ni!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fll\u0259rinin ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 var?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fll\u0259rinin ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 var?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Salx\u0131m-salx\u0131m a\u011faclar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma \u0259ll\u0259rini<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bahar olurlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yuxudan oyanm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6kl\u0259rinin iyi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yerin z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259si<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0131r\u0131r pay\u0131z\u0131n qoz belini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bahar\u0131n k\u00fcl\u0259yi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u0259qs edir qurumu\u015f barmaqlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u015f\u0131l boynumu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Daha da \u0259yir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu \u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck aras\u0131nda doluyam h\u0259v\u0259sd\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

isti can\u0131m\u0131n d\u0259risini<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rinin alt\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

hiss edir\u0259m!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

qu\u015flar u\u00e7anda<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qu\u015flar u\u00e7anda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6nd\u00fc ulduzlar,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilm\u0259dim hans\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qorxunu, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya da sevgini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bax, \u0259ll\u0259rim \u00e7ar\u0259sizc\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir-birisin\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131rlar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 s\u00f6n\u00fckd\u00fcr dodaqlar\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131-\u00fcnvan\u0131 olmadan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ba\u015f\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259rir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 h\u0259tta daha yax\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131-\u00fcnvan\u0131 olmadan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yer \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259rir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259niml\u0259 ortaq ol,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcnd\u0259lik t\u0259nhal\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yim\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doldur varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nla<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Olmayan divarlara…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yol ol<\/p>\n\n\n\n

olmayan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qap\u0131 ol,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q qoya bil\u0259c\u0259k<\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn qap\u0131lar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131m Julit<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259nim ad\u0131m Julit,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130yirmi \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dadm\u0131\u015fam bir d\u0259f\u0259 sevginin dad\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ac\u0131 q\u0259hv\u0259 dad\u0131ndayd\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcm\u00fc y\u00fcks\u0259ldirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Diri can\u0131m\u0131 divan\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Diqq\u0259timi da\u011f\u0131d\u0131b<\/p>\n\n\n\n

getdi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259nim ad\u0131m Julit<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Durmu\u015fam Ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f durumda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qay\u0131t dey\u0259 hayq\u0131r\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259sl\u0259nir\u0259m ki qay\u0131t…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sanc\u0131ram dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u0131xar\u0131ram qan\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

o yen\u0259 d\u0259 qay\u0131tmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259nim ad\u0131m Julit,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Min ya\u015f\u0131ndayam<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 diriy\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 etdi: \u00dcmid N\u018fCCAR\u0130<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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M\u0259ni ad\u0131mla s\u0259sl\u0259 M\u0259ni ad\u0131mla s\u0259sl\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 g\u0259lim Ey can\u0131mda olan\u0131m. M\u0259ni ad\u0131mla s\u0259sl\u0259, Sorma, ad\u0131m bir qu\u015fmu g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259. Ya da bir kol, k\u00f6k\u00fc sal\u0131bd\u0131r torpa\u011fa cayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131 boyuyur qan r\u0259ngin\u0259 G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc. N\u0259dir ad\u0131m, dey\u0259 soru\u015fma, \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Axtar\u0131ram… Ad\u0131m\u0131 axtar\u0131ram. Bilir\u0259m \u0259g\u0259r e\u015fits\u0259m ad\u0131m\u0131 D\u00fcnyan\u0131n haras\u0131nda olsam C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259min dibind\u0259 bel\u0259 Tap\u0131b […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-39616","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39616","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=39616"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39616\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":39621,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39616\/revisions\/39621"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=39616"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=39616"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=39616"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}