{"id":39667,"date":"2021-09-17T21:00:00","date_gmt":"2021-09-17T17:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=39667"},"modified":"2021-09-17T21:55:40","modified_gmt":"2021-09-17T17:55:40","slug":"esits%c9%99k-ki-omur-yari-s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99li-yazir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=39667","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;E\u015fits\u0259k ki, \u00f6m\u00fcr &#8211; yar\u0131&#8230;&#8221; &#8211;\u00a0\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259li yaz\u0131r"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/181048_grdzq1ex04.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"759\" height=\"554\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/181048_grdzq1ex04.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-39668\" srcset=\"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/181048_grdzq1ex04.jpg 759w, https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/09\/181048_grdzq1ex04-300x219.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 759px) 100vw, 759px\" \/><\/a><figcaption>\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130<br>\u201c<strong>G\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyi G\u0259ncl\u0259r \u015euras\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Jurnalistl\u0259r Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201c\u0130lin g\u0259nci\u201d m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><br><strong>Bu il pay\u0131z\u0131 yaman g\u00f6zl\u0259dik&#8230; G\u0259ls\u0259, bir az h\u0259zin ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar ya\u011fsa, a\u011faclar yeti\u015f\u0259n meyv\u0259l\u0259rini az-az, ovuc-ovuc uzatsa a\u015fa\u011f\u0131&#8230; X\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259r topalansa s\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259, yeridikc\u0259 ayaqlayaq, x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259ri ruhumuzu ox\u015fasa&#8230; H\u0259, \u00e7ox g\u00f6zl\u0259dik biz pay\u0131z\u0131&#8230; G\u0259lm\u0259di&#8230; Aylardan sentyabr, a\u011faclarda adda-budda saralma\u011fa meyilli yarpaqlar, havada bozun min birinci \u0259das\u0131, amma pay\u0131z yox&#8230; Bu il pay\u0131z g\u0259lm\u0259di, a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 qap\u0131dan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 uzad\u0131b birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 boyland\u0131, geri \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259k yolu q\u0131\u015fa verdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 pay\u0131za qad\u0131n deyirdik. &#8220;Q\u0131\u015f\u0131n o\u011flan \u00e7a\u011f\u0131&#8221;yla ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131q \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri. B\u0259s indi? \u0130ndi pay\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l q\u0131\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259sini qad\u0131n n\u0259zak\u0259ti adland\u0131raq, yoxsa ki\u015fi h\u00f6km\u00fc? Bilmir\u0259m ki&#8230;\u00a0<\/strong><br>Sad\u0259c\u0259, yaz\u0131ram&#8230; &#8220;E\u015fq\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k g\u0259r\u0259k&#8221; deyirdi b\u00fct\u00fcn bayat\u0131lar, g\u0259lib &#8220;e\u015fq\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r&#8221;in axtar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamana \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Yox, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fik, kainat\u0131n nizam\u0131na s\u0259pilmi\u015f bir ovuc muncuq kimiyik, f\u0131rlan\u0131b, ax\u0131b boyumuz boyda bir yer tutmu\u015fuq xaotik bo\u015fluqda, amma g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz bizim olmayan yerl\u0259rd\u0259&#8230;\u00a0<br>\u015e\u0259kinin q\u0259dim m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n birind\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015fir\u0259m, ayaqlar\u0131ma d\u0259y\u0259n da\u015flar\u0131n hekay\u0259sini dinl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Hans\u0131 \u00e7ayda hans\u0131 bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n sevgi izhar\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259yib bu da\u015flar, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n? N\u0259 vaxt g\u0259tirilib bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259, bu boyu boyda yerd\u0259 ill\u0259rl\u0259 boynunu b\u00fck\u00fcb qalmaqdan \u015fikay\u0259t\u00e7idirmi? Da\u015f dill\u0259nmir, m\u0259ns\u0259 susa bilmir\u0259m&#8230; Kainata iddial\u0131 insan o\u011flu ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259slin ayaq izl\u0259rini yadda\u015f\u0131nda da\u015f\u0131yan bu da\u015f q\u0259d\u0259r \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr bilmir&#8230; Bilmir&#8230; Bilmirs\u0259, kimdi g\u00fcnahkar? Etdikl\u0259rimizi, etm\u0259dikl\u0259rimizi boynuna y\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015eeytanm\u0131? \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn haras\u0131nda, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn hans\u0131 duy\u011fusundad\u0131 \u015eeytan? Tan\u0131y\u0131r\u0131qm\u0131 onu? Tan\u0131ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131qm\u0131? Yox&#8230; G\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bax\u0131r\u0131q&#8230;\u00a0<br>B\u00fct\u00fcn bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131b ke\u00e7ir\u0259m komp\u00fcterimin arxas\u0131na, \u015fair qarda\u015f\u0131m K\u0259nan Ayd\u0131n\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259riyl\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qal\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131\u015fa t\u0259slim ed\u0259n pay\u0131zdan da, \u015eeytan axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan da \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Amma &#8220;k\u00f6n\u00fcld\u0259n k\u00f6n\u00fcl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n yollar&#8221;daym\u0131\u015fam:\u00a0<br><strong>\u015eeytan\u0131n g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 var,<br>B\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259r yolunu azana kimi?!\u00a0<\/strong><br>\u015eeytan\u0131n m\u0259sumlu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 ancaq \u015fairdi bu d\u00fcnyada. \u015e\u0259kinin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayan\u0131b sentyabr\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259rkl\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r duman\u0131n\u0131, gec\u0259l\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259n da\u011flar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259md\u0259n. \u0130ndic\u0259 K\u0259nan Ayd\u0131n\u0131n &#8220;Da\u011flar\u0131n \u0259z\u0259m\u0259ti \u015fairl\u0259r\u0259 yaz\u0131ld\u0131&#8230;&#8221; \u00a0misras\u0131n\u0131 oxumu\u015fam. \u00a0B\u0259xtiyar Vahabzad\u0259nin do\u011fuldu\u011fu ev k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin o ba\u015f\u0131ndad\u0131. Aya\u011f\u0131ndan \u00a0d\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259n m\u0259hl\u0259d\u0259 doqquz il B\u0259xtiyar da\u011fla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayan\u0131b. H\u0259min anlarda o bax\u0131\u015flardan n\u0259 oxunurdu, kims\u0259 bilm\u0259z, birc\u0259 o da\u011fdan savay\u0131. \u00a0Yad\u0131nda n\u0259 saxlay\u0131b o doqquz ild\u0259n \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli da\u011f? Soru\u015fsam, s\u00f6yl\u0259rmi, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n? Hans\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259 ox\u015famal\u0131yam bu da\u011f\u0131? B\u0259lk\u0259 B\u0259xtiyardan bir b\u0259nd \u015feir dem\u0259liy\u0259m? \u00a0Bilmir\u0259m&#8230; Amma o da\u011f\u0131 o m\u0259hl\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri K\u0259nan Ayd\u0131n\u0131n bir misras\u0131 dilimd\u0259 \u0259zb\u0259r olub: &#8220;Bu torpa\u011f\u0131n da\u015f\u0131nda \u015feir yazmaq g\u00f6z\u0259ldi&#8230;&#8221;\u00a0<br>Di g\u0259l, birc\u0259 misra da do\u011fulmur h\u0259l\u0259 ruhumun sanc\u0131s\u0131ndan. Ululardan \u00fcz\u00fcb\u0259ri min bayat\u0131da, min bir \u015feird\u0259 c\u0259lallanan da\u011flar birc\u0259 \u015feirimd\u0259 boy g\u00f6st\u0259rmir h\u0259l\u0259&#8230; G\u00fcnahkar axtar\u0131ram \u015feirsizliyim\u0259, tap\u0131ram K\u0259nan qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259: &#8220;\u015eairl\u0259rin \u00f6z baxt\u0131 var!&#8221; Bu andak\u0131 \u015feirsizliyiml\u0259-b\u0259xtsizliyiml\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131ma bax\u0131ram; \u015feir kitab\u0131m\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259yir\u0259m, essel\u0259rimi ard-arda d\u00fcz\u00fcr\u0259m, &#8220;Ulduz&#8221;un iyul say\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131xan hekay\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam e\u015fitdiyim xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259ri xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram.\u00a0<br>G\u00f6z\u0259l xatir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015famaq xofu \u00f6z k\u00f6lg\u0259sini sala bilir. T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7il\u0259nir bir ovuc qorxu; ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015flar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 ged\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259ndi ax\u0131&#8230; H\u0259, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za sevinir, g\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l ba\u015flay\u0131r, amma \u00a0ax\u015famlar &#8220;bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 bel\u0259 getdi&#8230;&#8221; &#8211; deyib pe\u015fman-pe\u015fman \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 dayan\u0131r\u0131q&#8230; K\u0259nan Ayd\u0131n bu an\u0131 da \u015feirl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilib:\u00a0<br><strong>E\u015fits\u0259k ki, \u00f6m\u00fcr &#8211; yar\u0131,<br>Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan t\u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xar&#8230;\u00a0<\/strong><br>T\u0259bii, bu c\u00fcr &#8220;faniliyin d\u0259rki il\u0259&#8221; sabahk\u0131 g\u00fcn\u0259 olan \u00fcmid\u0259 sar\u0131la, o \u00fcmidin qoxusuyla yuxuya ged\u0259 bilm\u0259zdik, t\u0259s\u0259lli \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tutaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r-misralar olmasayd\u0131:\u00a0<br><strong>\u00d6m\u00fcr bitm\u0259yib ki, ya\u015famaq olar,<br>H\u0259yat\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259si var.\u00a0<\/strong><br>Filosofluq el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, \u00a0q\u0131\u015f\u0131n a\u011f k\u00fcrk\u00fcn\u00fcn boz sa\u00e7aqlar\u0131 sallanan havan\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259md\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 r\u00fcb\u0259nd \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m-p\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259rimi ba\u011flay\u0131ram. Komp\u00fcterimin ekran\u0131na bir d\u0259st\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k \u015f\u0259kli yerl\u0259\u015fdirir\u0259m, sonra da o d\u0259st\u0259nin yarpaqlar\u0131nda sar\u0131l\u0131q axtar\u0131ram. \u0130\u015f\u0259 bax, c\u0259mi bir sar\u0131 yarpaq varm\u0131\u015f&#8230; Yen\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcr\u0259m K\u0259nan Ayd\u0131n\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rin\u0259, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m an\u0131n \u015f\u0259klini tap\u0131ram misralar\u0131n aras\u0131nda: &#8220;\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin e\u015fqin\u0259 \u015feir oxuyan m\u0259n\u0259m&#8230;&#8221; Saralm\u0131\u015f v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rini d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131mla aralad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kitablar g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131ma, qoxular\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m. Durub bir kitab g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m \u0259lim\u0259, t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259 bax, Mahmud \u0130smay\u0131lovun &#8220;Az\u0259rbaycan tarixi&#8221; kitab\u0131ym\u0131\u015f \u0259l uzatd\u0131\u011f\u0131m&#8230; Ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m Mahmud \u0130smay\u0131lovun \u015f\u0259kili oldu\u011funu. Saralm\u0131\u015f v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rin qoxusunu \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m burnuma, oxudu\u011fum elektron kitablar\u0131n q\u0131na\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyuram komp\u00fcterin x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n&#8230; \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259ra\u0259t qazand\u0131rmaq\u00e7\u00fcn K\u0259nan\u0131n misralar\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259yim\u0259 g\u0259lir:\u00a0<br><strong>Masam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bu g\u00fcn<br>Bir d\u0259n\u0259 kitab qalmay\u0131b&#8230;\u00a0<\/strong><br>Elektron kitablar\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259limd\u0259ki kitab\u0131 komp\u00fcterin arxas\u0131na qoyuram. Qoxusu g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, yet\u0259r&#8230;\u00a0<br>K\u0259nan Ayd\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rinin birind\u0259 &#8220;G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 Sumqay\u0131t &#8211; bir az yuxulu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r&#8230;&#8221; &#8211; deyir. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, Sumqay\u0131t bu misran\u0131 t\u0259rif kimi q\u0259bul edir, yoxsa d\u0259c\u0259lliyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 danlanm\u0131\u015f \u00a0u\u015faq kimi \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bir q\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr? Sonuncu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 k\u00fcsk\u00fcn d\u0259ydi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 Sumqay\u0131t. \u0130yulun b\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc insanlar\u0131n laqeydliyin\u0259, yaxas\u0131ndak\u0131 sonuncu a\u00e7\u0131q d\u00fcym\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00a0X\u0259z\u0259rin k\u00fcl\u0259yinin e\u015fqin\u0259 ba\u011flam\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; \u0130ki ayd\u0131 ki, Sumqay\u0131ta dem\u0259y\u0259, onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc alma\u011fa bir s\u00f6z axtar\u0131ram. Amma n\u0259? 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