{"id":4031,"date":"2013-08-08T11:10:09","date_gmt":"2013-08-08T11:10:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=4031"},"modified":"2013-11-16T13:20:44","modified_gmt":"2013-11-16T13:20:44","slug":"sevinc-h%c9%99mz%c9%99yeva-bu-omur-sevincd%c9%99n-suzul%c9%99n-k%c9%99d%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=4031","title":{"rendered":"Sevinc H\u018fMZ\u018fYEVA.”Bu \u00f6m\u00fcr sevincd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259r…”."},"content":{"rendered":"

Bu \u00f6m\u00fcr sevincd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259r…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

(R\u00fcst\u0259m Behrudinin \u015feirl\u0259ri \u0259sas\u0131nda)<\/p>\n

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Milyon ildir torpaq g\u00f6y\u0259 boylan\u0131r<\/p>\n

\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259.<\/p>\n

Milyon ildir p\u0259rvan\u0259l\u0259r oda yan\u0131r<\/p>\n

a\u015fiql\u0259r at\u0259\u015f\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131qlara yand\u0131m.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/em><\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131q fani adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131n, \u0259slind\u0259 is\u0259 fani olan c\u0259miyy\u0259tin xarakteristikas\u0131d\u0131r. N\u0259d\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131q yoxdur ki… Yer G\u00f6yd\u0259n aral\u0131, Ay G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259n ayr\u0131, \u0130nsanlar s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259rl\u0259 ayr\u0131… M\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcd\u0259, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif formada \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259l\u0259ri qoymu\u015fuq onsuz da \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259li h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za. Din, dil, torpaq, mill\u0259t ar\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 qoydu\u011fumuz, qanun kimi q\u0259bul el\u0259diyimiz \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259 deyilmi?!<\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131qda bir t\u0259nhal\u0131q… T\u0259nhal\u0131qda bir s\u00fckut… S\u00fckutda bir s\u0259s…<\/p>\n

B\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259h\u0259r… Ki\u00e7ik bir ev…<\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259 yaln\u0131zl\u0131q \u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yini ox\u015fama\u011fa<\/p>\n

G\u00f6yd\u0259n m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz ill\u0259rdir, m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rin \u00e7iynind\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259t enir Yer k\u00fcr\u0259sin\u0259. Az qala inanm\u0131\u015f\u0131q bu na\u011f\u0131la. \u0130nsan g\u00f6yd\u0259n aral\u0131, m\u0259l\u0259k insandan aral\u0131, tanr\u0131 m\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259n aral\u0131…<\/p>\n

K\u00f6n\u00fcl daha \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 var,<\/p>\n

Hara d\u00f6ns\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131q var.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131xd\u0131 m\u0259ni ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fcm, xo\u015f g\u0259ldin, xo\u015f g\u0259ldin.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6nl\u00fcm qapan\u0131r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259. Var\u0131r, vard\u0131qca axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ayr\u0131lar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tap\u0131r:<\/p>\n

Soru\u015fma kim\u0259m, n\u0259y\u0259m?<\/p>\n

A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 divan\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131n\u0131n el\u00e7isiy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 s\u0259sim var.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259s hardan g\u0259ldi bel\u0259?! Bu n\u0259 s\u0259sdir, s\u00f6z yaratd\u0131. S\u00f6z yarand\u0131, c\u00fcml\u0259 – cahan tabe oldu h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z Tanr\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259ti,<\/p>\n

Ah\u0131 da\u015f\u0131 d\u0259libdis\u0259.<\/p>\n

G\u0259r\u0259k yen\u0259m, m\u0259n qul olam<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259n g\u0259libdis\u0259.<\/p>\n

Min ill\u0259rdir, s\u00f6z m\u0259sk\u0259ni g\u00f6yl\u0259r insanlar\u0131n dua yeri, \u00fcmid, p\u0259nah\u00a0 yeridir. Min ill\u0259rdir g\u00f6yl\u0259r ucal\u0131q, pakl\u0131q, xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik yeridir.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131m, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f bayra\u011f\u0131m…<\/p>\n

Yolunda dev duran bir yol\u00e7uyam m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Qoymurlar \u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259k g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcm, Allah!<\/p>\n

Hara \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m gedim bu yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

Yer \u00fcz\u00fc qov\u011falar, dava yeridir. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n pis xisl\u0259ti onu \u00e7irkaba bulay\u0131b. Yer adam\u0131 oldun, dem\u0259k g\u00fcnahlara batd\u0131n art\u0131q. Yer adam\u0131 oldunsa, dem\u0259k enmis\u0259n ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan…<\/p>\n

M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ruhdusa \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259, son da,<\/p>\n

Ey Tanr\u0131m, q\u0259rib\u0259 i\u015find\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u0130ztirab yeridir bu Yer k\u00fcr\u0259si;<\/p>\n

\u018fzabi t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n do\u011fulub \u00f6lm\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Bezdim yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259… O g\u00f6yl\u0259r niy\u0259<\/p>\n

E\u015fitmir? S\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 ax\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz ildi, min ildi \u00fcz\u00fcm g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259…<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc \u2013 sakitlik, dinclik m\u0259sk\u0259ni… G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc safd\u0131r, t\u0259mizdir. G\u00f6yd\u0259n uca n\u0259 var ki, M\u0259ns\u0259… m\u0259ns\u0259, h\u0259r add\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 rastla\u015fan, h\u0259r add\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259zablara qatla\u015fan sad\u0259 bir b\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259m, \u201c\u0259zab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 do\u011fulan adam\u201dam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n kim\u0259m? C\u0259zamd\u0131 b\u0259nd\u0259 do\u011fulmaq,<\/p>\n

Min illik oca\u011f\u0131n qovurdu\u011fu k\u00fcl…<\/p>\n

S\u0259n kims\u0259n? N\u0259 vaxtsa yad bax\u0131\u015flarla<\/p>\n

\u018fyilib titr\u0259y\u0259n, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan k\u00f6n\u00fcl.<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259nd\u0259liyi b\u0259x\u015f etdi. Sad\u0259 bir b\u0259nd\u0259lik \u2013 s\u0259hv etm\u0259k, s\u0259hv ed\u0259\u2013ed\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259kdir. Amma g\u00fcnahkar bir b\u0259nd\u0259nin g\u00fcnahs\u0131z ruhu olarm\u0131\u015f. \u201cRuhum m\u0259nim\u201d<\/p>\n

Qorxuram ruhuma qo\u015fulum gedim,<\/p>\n

Gedim g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259nim m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 buraxm\u0131rsan, g\u00fcnahkar can\u0131m,<\/p>\n

De niy\u0259 qorxursan t\u0259mizliyind\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Can bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sakini, cisim qorxu \u0259siri. Ruhumuzla ya\u015faya bilm\u0259k… \u2013 S\u0259ad\u0259t olar ki… Ruha hakimiyy\u0259t g\u0259r\u0259k deyil. O s\u0259rb\u0259stdir, azadd\u0131r, m\u0259kana, zamana s\u0131\u011fmazd\u0131r…<\/p>\n

Ey ruhum, aya\u011fa dur,<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn tilsimi q\u0131r!<\/p>\n

Zaman m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259.<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 s\u00f6z… Yen\u0259 s\u00f6zm\u00fc sald\u0131 sehrin\u0259 maddi d\u00fcnyan\u0131?! S\u00f6z \u2013 hakim, s\u00f6z \u2013 h\u00f6km! S\u00f6z \u2013 m\u0259na! S\u00f6z \u2013 yaradan, s\u00f6z \u2013 yaranan!!!<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnah i\u00e7ind\u0259y\u0259m, ruhum did\u0259rgin.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnah\u0131n son ucu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u00f6vb\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n boylanan bu t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131m<\/p>\n

Ruhumun \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 sonuncu t\u00f6vb\u0259.<\/p>\n

T\u00f6vb\u0259 deyir\u0259m g\u00fcnahlar\u0131ma \u2013 bir savab \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. T\u0259nhal\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 yumaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131 did\u0259rgin ruhum \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u2013 S\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259!<\/p>\n

Duanda t\u00f6vb\u0259 var,<\/p>\n

dilind\u0259 n\u0259 d\u0259 and\u0131n<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz and\u0131mdan ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m<\/p>\n

m\u0259n divan\u0259, m\u0259n ars\u0131z<\/p>\n

M\u0259n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, pozdu\u011fum<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6z\u0259 inand\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Do\u011fru s\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259l olmur,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6z etibars\u0131z.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u0259l olmaz do\u011fru s\u00f6z… Bir do\u011fruluqda bir ac\u0131l\u0131q ya\u015fayar. O\u011ful g\u0259r\u0259k bu ac\u0131n\u0131 yey\u0259 bilsin, o\u011ful g\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259qiq\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u0259 bilsin. Ax\u0131,<\/p>\n

Yalana s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b d\u00fcz<\/p>\n

Yalan d\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fczl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 yalan, yalana s\u0131\u011f\u0131nan d\u00fcz… Ac\u0131s\u0131ndan dadmaq olmur, \u015firinind\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n yolun ad\u0131<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcm ust\u0259 od qalad\u0131<\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259 c\u00fcr e\u015fq sevdad\u0131<\/p>\n

D\u0259rd qay\u0131d\u0131r, d\u0259rman olur<\/p>\n

Yaland\u0131 \u00a0ya, d\u00fczd\u00fc sevgi? Haqd\u0131 ya, nahaqd\u0131 sevgi? Amma… bir \u015fey var ki, daim, yarad\u0131r, ya\u015fad\u0131r sevgi…<\/p>\n

E\u015fq n\u0259ymi\u015f? \u0130lahi, a\u00e7\u0131lmaz bu sirr<\/p>\n

Yer deyir, g\u00f6y deyir, deyir, haqq deyir<\/p>\n

Dilini bildiyim ot, yarpaq deyir:<\/p>\n

N\u0259 s\u0259n m\u0259nimkis\u0259n, n\u0259 m\u0259n s\u0259ninki.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 s\u0259n m\u0259nimkis\u0259n, n\u0259 m\u0259n s\u0259ninki, Amma…<\/p>\n

Pay\u0131zda<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259mi yudu.<\/p>\n

Pay\u0131zda \u00e7\u0131lpaq yarpaqlar torpa\u011f\u0131n ruhudu,<\/p>\n

Sapsar\u0131 yarpaqlar a\u011faclar\u0131n…<\/p>\n

Sapsar\u0131 yarpaqlar<\/p>\n

A\u011faclar\u0131n ruhudu \u2013<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259nim!..<\/em><\/p>\n

Ruhum oldun, i\u00e7imd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan can\u0131m oldun. H\u00fczuruna g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. Ya \u00e7\u0259k m\u0259ni \u00f6z yan\u0131na xilas el\u0259 \u0259zablardan, ya da… Yox…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnahl\u0131, g\u00fcnahs\u0131z bu d\u00fcnya, al\u0259m<\/p>\n

Qiyam\u0259t g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n bu haqq…<\/p>\n

Yer g\u00f6y\u0259 qovu\u015far qiyam\u0259t g\u00fcn\u00fc<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 qovu\u015fa bilm\u0259r\u0259m ancaq…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bu \u00f6m\u00fcr sevincd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259r… (R\u00fcst\u0259m Behrudinin \u015feirl\u0259ri \u0259sas\u0131nda)   Milyon ildir torpaq g\u00f6y\u0259 boylan\u0131r \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259. Milyon ildir p\u0259rvan\u0259l\u0259r oda yan\u0131r a\u015fiql\u0259r at\u0259\u015f\u0259 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131qlara yand\u0131m.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ayr\u0131l\u0131q fani adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131n, \u0259slind\u0259 is\u0259 fani olan c\u0259miyy\u0259tin xarakteristikas\u0131d\u0131r. N\u0259d\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131q yoxdur ki… Yer G\u00f6yd\u0259n aral\u0131, Ay G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259n ayr\u0131, \u0130nsanlar s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259rl\u0259 ayr\u0131… M\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcd\u0259, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif formada […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4031","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4031","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4031"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4031\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4033,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4031\/revisions\/4033"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4031"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4031"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4031"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}