{"id":41825,"date":"2022-11-02T03:00:00","date_gmt":"2022-11-01T23:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=41825"},"modified":"2022-11-02T10:33:03","modified_gmt":"2022-11-02T06:33:03","slug":"yagis-butun-izl%c9%99ri-yumurmus-seirl%c9%99r-cahan-seyidzad%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=41825","title":{"rendered":"Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn izl\u0259ri yumurmu\u015f…\u00a0– \u015eeirl\u0259r. Cahan SEY\u0130DZAD\u018f"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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“…yaz, q\u0131z\u0131m, yaz”<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yanvar ay\u0131 idi, t\u0259til\u0259 getmi\u015fdim. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdik atamla. M\u0259n, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, “ya\u011f\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn izl\u0259ri yuyur” c\u00fcml\u0259sini i\u015fl\u0259tdim. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qeyri-ixtiyari, sanki n\u0259yis\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f kimi bu c\u00fcml\u0259ni iki d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259krarlad\u0131. Sonra dedi ki, “Bu adda film var, 79-cu ild\u0259 (1979, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259 – C.S.) “Az\u0259rbaycan” kinoteatr\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, festival filmi idi”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00fcjetini dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O ill\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131 sanki. Dedim, “Ata, ist\u0259s\u0259n tapa bil\u0259rik o filmi. Tez filmin ad\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131b \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa rus dilind\u0259 bir dublyaj\u0131n\u0131 tapa bildim. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb dolu sevinci h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oturub izl\u0259di, sonra da t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr etdi m\u0259n\u0259. 30 ild\u0259n sonra, bir zamanlar g\u0259nc kimi baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 film\u0259 yenid\u0259n baxd\u0131. Kim bilir, n\u0259l\u0259ri xat\u0131rlad\u0131, hans\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Bel\u0259c\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 xatir\u0259 qoymu\u015f oldu, h\u0259m d\u0259 sanki son n\u0259sih\u0259tini verdi: “Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn izl\u0259ri yuyur”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn izl\u0259ri yumurmu\u015f, Ata!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0259ksin\u0259 yadda\u015f\u0131n d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259ki<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn izl\u0259ri,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yaralar\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsan ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar ya\u011fanda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn olub-ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri xat\u0131rlay\u0131b<\/p>\n\n\n\n

son bir \u015fans \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Allaha yalvar\u0131b-yaxar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qaranl\u0131q divarlar aras\u0131nda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0259ll\u0259rin\u00e7\u00fcn, s\u0259sin\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n

a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ox olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra h\u0259r \u015fey,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sonra h\u0259r \u015fey,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sonra h\u0259r \u015fey,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir-bir yox olur…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Anlay\u0131ram ki,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“m\u0259n h\u0259r yerd\u0259 s\u0259nin t\u0259krar\u0131nam…”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ki, s\u0259hran\u0131n ortas\u0131ndayam,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00fcz\u0259rim\u0259 \u0259liq\u0131l\u0131ncl\u0131,\u00fcr\u0259yi i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z insanlar g\u0259lir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

m\u0259ns\u0259 \u0259liyal\u0131n,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0259hran\u0131n susuz qumlu\u011funa zorla \u0259kdiyim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

toxumu sulay\u0131ram g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131mla<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ist\u0259yir\u0259m \u00f6ls\u0259m d\u0259, onun yolunda \u00f6l\u00fcm…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6z h\u0259yat\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 yox,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yeni bir h\u0259yat u\u011frunda…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fn xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcnl\u0259rimizin \u015fahidi pi\u015fikl\u0259r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, indi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bak\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 payla\u015f\u0131r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He\u00e7 x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri d\u0259 yoxdur ki,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018ftraf\u0131m\u0131zda he\u00e7 vaxt<\/p>\n\n\n\n

            anlaya bilm\u0259diyimiz v\u0259 bizi anlamayan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

insanlar qayna\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 biz indi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ancaq o insanlar\u0131n xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rik…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bak\u0131n\u0131n qala divarlar\u0131d\u0131r s\u0259nin yoxlu\u011fun<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu boyda \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259si buraxm\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yaln\u0131z v\u0259 t\u0259nha dola\u015f\u0131ram<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt vidala\u015fd\u0131m,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hans\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hans\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259nin b\u0259lk\u0259sind\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hans\u0131 yad\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sahild\u0259y\u0259m,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00f6rd bir yan\u0131nda g\u00fcnahkar ruhlar\u0131n p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 dola\u015fan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bir adada s\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259ni aparma\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f g\u0259mi is\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc bo\u015fald\u0131b, xeyli q\u0259nim\u0259tl\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aram-aram uzaqla\u015fmaqda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259 apar\u0131r o g\u0259mi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu soyuq v\u0259 kims\u0259siz ada(m)dan?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fll\u0259ri olurmu\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u0259mil\u0259rin<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00e7iyinl\u0259ri<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00fcnahlar\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

v\u0259 qanadlar\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

U\u00e7urmu\u015f g\u0259mil\u0259r yelk\u0259nl\u0259riyl\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259mas\u0131nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilirs\u0259n,  h\u0259rd\u0259n adalar da a\u015fiq olur<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u0259mil\u0259r\u0259,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

qu\u015flara,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

h\u0259rd\u0259n inan\u0131r ada(m)lar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

d\u0259nizd\u0259 yolunu azm\u0131\u015flara…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bura harad\u0131r, ey can?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259nin diyar\u0131n hardad\u0131r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Harad\u0131r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kimdir s\u0259ni ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0259ni \u00f6z yurdundan did\u0259rgin salan?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259dir s\u0259b\u0259b bu ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u0259yin h\u0259sr\u0259tini da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rsan, ey can?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Niy\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qat\u0131rsan d\u00fcny\u0259vi olanla<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Niy\u0259 unudursan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259ni yaradan harda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259nin Yaradan\u0131n harada<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259g\u0259r s\u0259n d\u0259 inan\u0131rsanm\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O s\u0259ni \u00f6z c\u0259nn\u0259tind\u0259n s\u00fcrg\u00fcn edib?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

o…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n\u0259 yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn c\u0259nn\u0259t ba\u011f\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an<\/p>\n\n\n\n

suyu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

odu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

havan\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

torpa\u011f\u0131 b\u0259x\u015f ed\u0259n,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u0259x\u015fi\u015f ed\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u015f\u0131l\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

b\u0259yaz\u0131,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

mavini<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yaradan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn olmazlara<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“ol” dey\u0259n!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259ni nec\u0259 s\u00fcrg\u00fcn ed\u0259 bil\u0259r, ey can?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n\u0259 nec\u0259 “get” dey\u0259 bil\u0259r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, ey can!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fcrg\u00fcn etmis\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sevgilinin c\u0259nn\u0259tind\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n ki onun s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259 barda\u015f qurub,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

onun nem\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 qonaq olmusan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yind\u0259n yeyib,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Suyundan i\u00e7ib,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Havas\u0131ndan udub,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Torpa\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer-yurd salm\u0131san<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n ki sevgilinin misafiris\u0259n,ey can?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevgili s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259n qovmaz he\u00e7 kimi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn uzaqla\u015fm\u0131san onun \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259n ac qoymusan \u00d6Z`\u00fcn\u00fc…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ruhumda p\u0259rvaz ed\u0259n s\u0259maz\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00f6nd\u00fckc\u0259 d\u00fcnyam\u0131 da d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcr<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bil v\u0259 agah ol!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sa\u011f \u0259liyl\u0259 Sevgilid\u0259n ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sol \u0259liyl\u0259 ruhuma s\u0259pir…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qoru m\u0259ni, ey Sevgili!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259ni s\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131ra bil\u0259c\u0259k h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qoru!..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ziv\u0259d\u0259ki ip\u0259zorlar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yeni m\u0259hkumlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7acaq<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u0259 udacaq uclar\u0131ndan geyiml\u0259ri…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kim bilir, ne\u00e7\u0259 \u0259srdir biz d\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131q<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn suyu o q\u0259d\u0259rdir ki,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qurumaq bilmirik ki<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmirik…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259n odla s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fcm<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimin yan\u011f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 s\u0259pirdim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

at\u0259\u015f dal\u011falar\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ciy\u0259rl\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O qad\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kims\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lmirdi ciy\u0259rl\u0259rimin t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 v\u0259 m\u0259n yaln\u0131z bel\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli tap\u0131rd\u0131m:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“El g\u00f6l\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u00f6rd\u0259kl\u0259r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7oxdan u\u00e7ublar uzaqlara<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130ndi El g\u00f6l\u00fc d\u0259<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0259n az m\u0259nim q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259nhad\u0131r…”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u0259l, \u0259zizim, g\u0259l<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qa\u011fay\u0131lar indic\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0259niz g\u0259zintisind\u0259n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ah, o balaca, \u0259zizim,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

U\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ona da ver\u0259rs\u0259nmi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

qanadlar\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u0259l, \u0259zizim, g\u0259l<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r indic\u0259 oyan\u0131b<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259h\u0259r yuxusundan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ah, o balaca, \u0259zizim,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dayanmadan a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onu da kirid\u0259rs\u0259nmi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yalanlar\u0131nla?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Toxumlar \u00f6lm\u0259dil\u0259r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yenid\u0259n c\u00fcc\u0259rdil\u0259r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

itdikl\u0259ri yerd\u0259n…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ah b\u0259s s\u0259n, s\u0259n, \u0259zizim,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu torpaqda<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bit\u0259rs\u0259nmi yenid\u0259n?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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