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Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar v\u0259 Jurnalistl\u0259r Birlikl\u0259rinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidenti T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201cAzad q\u0259l\u0259m\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, ictimai-publisistik q\u0259zetinin v\u0259 \u201cAli Ziya\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii, elmi-publisistik jurnal\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sis\u00e7isi v\u0259 ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sveta, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131 il\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi – \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 lap b\u00f6y\u00fck sevincl\u0259. \u00c7\u00fcnki bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r iki \u2013\u00fc\u00e7 ild\u0259n bir ke\u00e7irils\u0259 d\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r bir yer\u0259 c\u0259m olmurdular. \u0130ndi is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131, r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u015f\u0259rtil\u0259, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 idil\u0259r. \u015eirin xatir\u0259l\u0259r bir-birini \u0259v\u0259z edirdi. Arada g\u00f6z\u0259l sa\u011fl\u0131qlar deyilir, h\u0259zin musiqi s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi.
B\u0259z\u0259n insan\u0131 xo\u015f duy\u011fular\u0131n qoynuna s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n, b\u0259z\u0259ns\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fin iztirablar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rladan n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259r bir-birini \u0259v\u0259z etdikc\u0259 \u015eahinin \u0259hval\u0131 da d\u0259yi\u015fir, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc Svetadan \u00e7\u0259kmirdi. Uzun ill\u0259rin ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sonra g\u0259nclik ill\u0259rind\u0259 ondan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevgi n\u0259\u015f\u0259si yenid\u0259n yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Xo\u015f anlar g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda canland\u0131qca ba\u015f\u0131 dumanlan\u0131r, ona yax\u0131nla\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u00fcrs\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Diqq\u0259ti daha \u00e7ox c\u0259lb etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn arabir bam\u0259z\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri, l\u0259tif\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 \u015f\u0259nliy\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259llik qat\u0131r, gah da
g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc Svetadan \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n sevgi \u015feirl\u0259ri s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi. N\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 etdiyini he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmir, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u00fcrs\u0259t axtar\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259clis q\u0131z\u0131\u015fanda ona n\u0259 vaxt yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fin n\u0259\u015f\u0259si par\u0131ldayan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 yenid\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131 ovsunlad\u0131, h\u0259lim s\u0259sl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
-Sveta, nec\u0259s\u0259n? \u00d6z aram\u0131zd\u0131, he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n ha\u2026H\u0259minki kimi g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n, can\u0131 yanm\u0131\u015f, – o, bir q\u0259d\u0259r susub \u0259lav\u0259 etdi, – amma q\u0131zlar\u0131n he\u00e7 atalar\u0131na ox\u015fam\u0131rlar.
Sveta \u0259li il\u0259 onun a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 tutdu, p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259:
– \u015eahin, indi onun vaxt\u0131 deyil. Bilir\u0259m niy\u0259 maraqlan\u0131rsan, vaxt\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, – dedi.
Musiqi s\u0259dalar\u0131 restoran\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin he\u00e7 biri bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ham\u0131 r\u0259qs edirdi. Sveta \u015eahinin qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda sanki h\u0259r \u015feyi, h\u0259tta q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 da unutmu\u015fdu. A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 Svetan\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131na dayayan \u015eahin yenid\u0259n s\u00f6z\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:
-H\u0259\u2026Sveta dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259k ke\u00e7mi\u015find\u0259n. Amma bir \u015feyi des\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131qlanma ha\u2026
-Yox, \u015eahin s\u0259ni h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7ox sevmi\u015f\u0259m. Neynim ki, \u0259lim s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atmad\u0131. Uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. \u0130ld\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f is\u0259 biz\u0259 b\u0259s etm\u0259di. N\u0259 des\u0259n, x\u0259trim\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z. Ax\u0131 s\u0259n q\u0259lbimd\u0259 ayr\u0131 bir iz qoymusan.
– Eybi yox, bu da b\u0259s idi.. Sad\u0259c\u0259 onu dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim ki, – o susdu, sonra yenid\u0259n s\u00f6z\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131, – s\u0259nin \u00e7ox adamla \u0259yl\u0259ndyini bilirdim. S\u0259n\u0259 olan hisl\u0259rim tamam f\u0259rqli idi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fs\u0259k d\u0259, s\u0259nd\u0259n tez uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259dim. D\u0259li e\u015fqini duydum. Hiss etdim ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011flan\u0131ram. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, uzaqla\u015fa bildim, yoxsa\u2026
– Yoxsa, n\u0259?
\u015eahin s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259di:
– Sveta, x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259sin, siz erm\u0259ni q\u0131zlar\u0131 adam\u0131 el\u0259 tora sal\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z ki, \u00e7\u0131xmaq olmur. Bu m\u0259qs\u0259ddimi, sevgidimi, anlamaq \u00e7\u0259tin olur. Amma, \u00f6z aram\u0131zd\u0131, bu, sevgid\u0259n \u00e7ox\u2026 arxas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n. Bizim q\u0131zlarda is\u0259 \u0259ksin\u0259\u2026
– M\u0259n o vaxt s\u0259ni \u00f6z toruma sala bilm\u0259dim. Heyifsil\u0259nir\u0259m.
Svetan\u0131n q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 il\u0259 dediyi bu s\u00f6z \u015eahin\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259ldi.
– N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, o tora d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m\u2026 Siz erm\u0259ni q\u0131zlar\u0131 \u00f6z ki\u015fil\u0259rinizd\u0259n \u00e7ox t\u00fcrk ki\u015fil\u0259rin\u0259 meyillisiniz. Ax\u0131 niy\u0259?
-Sevgini millil\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259 d\u0259, \u015eahin. Sevgi insan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n g\u0259lir. Bizims\u0259 t\u00fcrk ki\u015fil\u0259rin\u0259 meyill\u0259nm\u0259yimizin s\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7ox ba\u015fqa t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259ri var,- Sveta ona daha b\u0259rk s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131, – g\u0259l bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmayaq, ke\u00e7mi\u015f sevgimizin \u0259trini alaq bir-birimizd\u0259n.
-M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu sevgi yox, \u0259slind\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nm\u0259k idi, g\u00f6z\u0259l Sveta. Ax\u0131 s\u0259n ham\u0131n\u0131n sevgilisi ola bilm\u0259zdin.
-Oras\u0131 do\u011frudur. M\u0259n d\u0259 bilir\u0259m kiminl\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nmk laz\u0131md\u0131r. Ax\u0131 s\u0259n d\u0259 savadl\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015fux qam\u0259tli idin.
-Aha, ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. Bax, m\u0259qs\u0259dinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 indi g\u0259lirs\u0259n. Dem\u0259li, erm\u0259ni q\u0131zlar\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 toxumluq axtar\u0131rlar.
Sveta susma\u011fa \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck verdi. Yenid\u0259n \u015eahinin qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda uyudu. Bird\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131 Seymurun
v\u0259 Sahibin quca\u011f\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b r\u0259qs ed\u0259n q\u0131zlar\u0131na sata\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259:
-Eybi yox, qoy g\u00f6zl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131q b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcnl\u0259r, – deyib r\u0259qsin\u0259 davam etdi.
\u015eahin qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131na g\u00f6z vuraraq \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Svetaya tutdu:
-N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 sizin mill\u0259t\u0259 ox\u015fada bilm\u0259dim. \u018frini yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m, taksisin\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r minmi\u015fik ki, s\u0259ninl\u0259, – o bu s\u00f6z\u00fc x\u00fcsusi intonasiya il\u0259 dedi.
Sveta g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc:
-H\u0259, el\u0259dir\u2026\u0259lacs\u0131z qal\u0131b ona getdim. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 r\u0259dd el\u0259tdirdim. Toyumuza q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Toyumuzdan az sonra i\u015f yerind\u0259n Kislovodsk \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rildim. S\u0259rb\u0259st olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259rimin m\u0259niml\u0259 getm\u0259sini ist\u0259m\u0259dim\u2026
Orada bir oglanla tan\u0131\u015f oldum. Az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 idi. Bir-birimizi \u00e7ox sevdik. Fizika-riyaziyyat \u00fczr\u0259 elml\u0259r namiz\u0259di idi. H\u0259r g\u00fcn sevgi dolu g\u00fcnl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131q. M\u0259n ondan hamil\u0259 qald\u0131m\u2026
Geri qay\u0131danda hamil\u0259 oldu\u011fumu bil\u0259n \u0259rim \u00e7ox sevindi. H\u0259, n\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m oldu. Bayaq s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyim b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131z\u0131m h\u0259qiqi atas\u0131n\u0131n davam\u00e7\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r, riyaziyyat-fizika fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 t\u0259hsil al\u0131r. \u00c7ox savadl\u0131d\u0131r.
Sveta bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyib yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u015eahin d\u0259 ona qo\u015fuldu.
– H\u0259, dem\u0259li atas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcl balas\u0131\u2026
– H\u0259, \u015eahin neynim ki, \u00f6z atas\u0131ndan olsayd\u0131, \u015fofer olacaqd\u0131 da\u2026Ha-ha-ha\u2026
– Ay s\u0259ni\u2026 \u00c7oxbilmi\u015fs\u0259n, \u00e7oxbilmi\u015f\u2026 Sizin bu \u201csavad\u0131n\u0131z\u201d bizd\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt olmad\u0131 da\u2026
– S\u0259n\u0259 \u0259lim \u00e7atmad\u0131, birini d\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259si idim\u2026
– B\u0259s o biri q\u0131z\u0131n kimd\u0259ndir?
Sveta yenid\u0259n q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi, bir az toxdayandan sonra dedi:
– H\u0259, \u0259zizim. B\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131z\u0131m olandan iki il sonra yen\u0259 t\u0259kmill\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259 institutuna g\u00f6nd\u0259rildim, bu d\u0259f\u0259 is\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259. X\u0259st\u0259xanada olark\u0259n bir h\u0259kim o\u011flanla tan\u0131\u015f oldum.
O da az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 idi. N\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259diyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Tez bir zamanda ona el\u0259 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki\u2026 H\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131q. Bir ay tamam olanda geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Bax bu q\u0131z\u0131ma hamil\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130ndi o da h\u0259kim olma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r.
– B\u0259s yolda\u015f\u0131ndan \u00f6vlad\u0131n yoxdu?
– Yooox, bu vacibdi m\u0259g\u0259r?! Ax\u0131 bayaq \u00f6z\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6z dedin: g\u00f6z\u0259l, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, savadl\u0131 toxum.
H\u0259r ikisinin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc salonu ba\u015f\u0131na alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u00f6z al\u0259ml\u0259rind\u0259 idil\u0259r.
Bird\u0259n Sveta ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 azac\u0131q qald\u0131r\u0131b p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131:
– Yolda\u015f\u0131m h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 bilir ki, u\u015faqlar ondand\u0131r. Amma arada zarafata sal\u0131b deyir:
– Sveta, \u00f6z aram\u0131zd\u0131, o q\u0259d\u0259r orda-burda oldun ki, u\u015faqlar da m\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015famad\u0131 ey. M\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m\u2026.
\u015e\u0259nlik ba\u015fa \u00e7atmaq \u00fczr\u0259 idi. \u015e\u0259nliyi t\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259n Vasifin kobud s\u0259si e\u015fidil\u0259nd\u0259 ham\u0131 susdu. O:
-H\u0259, dostlar, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz g\u0259l\u0259n il bu vaxt yen\u0259 burda olacaq, – deyib ham\u0131n\u0131 xatir\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etdi.
Sveta \u015eahind\u0259n qopmaq ist\u0259m\u0259di, \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdir\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 onunla yana\u015f\u0131 dayand\u0131. Bunu g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015eahin onun qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131:
-Sveta, evd\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259si q\u0131z\u0131m, evl\u0259n\u0259si o\u011flum var ax\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259
yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 demir\u0259m.
Sveta \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di, nazland\u0131:
-G\u0259l q\u0131zlar\u0131mdan birini o\u011fluna al, n\u0259 olar. S\u0259n d\u0259 rahat g\u0259lib-ged\u0259rs\u0259n biz\u0259.
\u015eahin t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi bird\u0259n \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:
-S\u0259n d\u0259lis\u0259n? Birc\u0259 o qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, bir erm\u0259ni fahis\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 o\u011fluna al\u0131b dey\u0259 la\u011f el\u0259sinl\u0259r?
Sveta \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ciddi g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k ist\u0259di:<\/p>\n\n\n\n