{"id":47321,"date":"2023-10-21T08:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-10-21T04:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=47321"},"modified":"2023-10-21T08:53:14","modified_gmt":"2023-10-21T04:53:14","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-qurbaga-haqqinda-esse","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=47321","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.&#8221;Qurba\u011fa haqq\u0131nda esse&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full is-resized\"><a href=\"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/image-2.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/image-2.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-47333\" width=\"707\" height=\"702\" srcset=\"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/image-2.png 300w, https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/10\/image-2-150x150.png 150w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 707px) 100vw, 707px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201c<strong>G\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyi G\u0259ncl\u0259r \u015euras\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Jurnalistl\u0259r Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201c\u0130lin g\u0259nci\u201d m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>H\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram\u2026 Sonra da \u00f6z \u0259liml\u0259 \u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 yumuram ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bezdirm\u0259yim\u2026 X\u00fclas\u0259, \u00d6Z olmaq \u00e7\u0259tin m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259di\u2026<br>Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 qurba\u011falar\u0131n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 baxa-baxa qald\u0131m, \u0259n az\u0131, on d\u0259qiq\u0259\u2026 El\u0259 bilm\u0259yin ki, qurba\u011falar\u0131 sevmir\u0259m, yaxud \u0259lim\u0259 almaqdan qorxuram. U\u015faql\u0131qda o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6m\u00e7\u0259quyruq tutmu\u015fam arxdan\u2026 Divarlar\u0131n n\u0259m k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259n boz-q\u0259hv\u0259yi qurba\u011falar\u0131 \u0259liml\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131m da az olmay\u0131b. Na\u011f\u0131llardak\u0131, cizgi filml\u0259rind\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn qurba\u011falar\u0131 sevir\u0259m. Onlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yolg\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n v\u0259 m\u00fcdrik olurlar\u2026<br>Amma he\u00e7 vaxt qurba\u011fa haqq\u0131nda n\u0259s\u0259 yazmaq ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. A\u011fl\u0131m\u0131n ucundan da ke\u00e7m\u0259yib. He\u00e7 bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 qurba\u011falardan dan\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011fam: m\u0259n dura-dura qurba\u011fan\u0131n yaz\u0131mda n\u0259 i\u015fi var?!<br>Qurba\u011fa \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini n\u0259 masam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 kompyuterimin ekran\u0131na qoyub bax\u0131ram, h\u0259min o \u00fc\u00e7 \u015f\u0259kil facebook<code>dad\u0131r. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, eyni s\u0259hif\u0259y\u0259 girib eyni \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131ram, el\u0259 bil facebook<\/code>a daxil olan kimi onlara olan borcumu \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m\u2026 G\u0259r\u0259k vaxt ay\u0131ram, arada \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n soru\u015fam g\u00f6r\u0259m, niy\u0259 m\u0259n o qurba\u011fa \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 baxma\u011fa borcluyam? Bu borcu ha\u00e7an verdim \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259? Yoxsa, facebook`a borcluyam?<br>\u2026Facebookda \u00e7ox vaxt ke\u00e7ir\u0259nl\u0259r t\u0259nha, h\u0259yat\u0131nda he\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n, \u00fcmidsiz, h\u0259yat\u0131 bir az da bo\u015f ver\u0259n insanlard\u0131. Normal adamlar\u0131n profill\u0259rin\u0259 baxanda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, \u0259n tez \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u0259 bir status yaz\u0131rlar. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 ki, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, facebook var! Adam t\u0259nha olmur. H\u0259tta kimins\u0259 statusunu \u201clike\u201d ed\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259, adam \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259r\u0259kli say\u0131r b\u0259z\u0259n.<br>El\u0259-bel\u0259 yazd\u0131m bunu. \u201cLike\u201d el\u0259m\u0259s\u0259niz d\u0259 olar. \u00c7\u00fcnki ne\u00e7\u0259 kilometr uzaql\u0131qda m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 olan kimi hiss edib, z\u0259ng vuran adam telefonda s\u0259simin \u00f6lg\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcb: \u201cNec\u0259s\u0259n?\u201d-dem\u0259di. Telefonu ke\u00e7irdi. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u201csa\u011f ol\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 dedim ki, el\u0259 bil, s\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 pul verdim.<br>\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n soru\u015fdu\u011fum suallar o q\u0259d\u0259rdir ki\u2026 Bir \u201cNec\u0259s\u0259n?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u00fcnvanlaya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259mmi?! Oh\u2026 Bir bil\u0259n ola ha, bu sual\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ver\u0259nd\u0259 nec\u0259 s\u0259mimi oluram\u2026<br>\u2026Niy\u0259 insanlar a\u011flark\u0259n \u201cg\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m\u201d deyir? G\u00fcl\u0259rk\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 kimi bir buluda sar\u0131l\u0131rlar? \u201c\u00c7\u00fcnkisi\u201d \u00e7ox asan tap\u0131l\u0131r \u0259slind\u0259\u2026 VAR olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn! V\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00d6Z\u00dc kimi olmamaq x\u0259trin\u0259\u2026 Guya \u00f6zl\u0259ri kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259l\u0259r, onlara da m\u0259nim kimi D\u018fL\u0130 dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r\u2026<br>Sonunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z b\u00fct\u00fcn add\u0131mlar\u0131n zamanla s\u0259hv kimi \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131lmamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yegan\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu \u00fcr\u0259yimizin s\u0259sin\u0259 qulaq asmaqd\u0131r. B\u0259z\u0259n bir \u00fcr\u0259yin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ill\u0259rl\u0259 p\u00fcsk\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n vulkan da yata bilir, ya da sakit-sakit \u0259sm\u0259yiyl\u0259 ehtiraslar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259n bahar n\u0259simi. H\u0259r halda b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n ah\u0259ngind\u0259 ke\u00e7ir insan h\u0259yat\u0131. Ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rimizl\u0259 yaz\u0131lan \u00f6m\u00fcr kitab\u0131n\u0131n el\u0259 epizodlar\u0131 var ki, orada etdiyimiz s\u0259hvl\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259 proloqda, n\u0259 d\u0259 epiloqda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckd\u0259 is\u0259 ya\u015fam roman\u0131m\u0131z el\u0259 bu s\u0259hvin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qurulur b\u0259z\u0259n. Sanki \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131na kimi bir notu k\u0259d\u0259rli, bir notu sevincli n\u0259\u011fm\u0259dir insan h\u0259yat\u0131. Hayq\u0131r\u0131r\u0131q, \u00fcsyan edirik taleyimizin verdikl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131. Amma \u00c7ingiz Aytmatov demi\u015fk\u0259n, h\u0259rd\u0259n susmaq da laz\u0131md\u0131r. B\u0259zi m\u0259tl\u0259bl\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259yimizd\u0259 sirli saxlama\u011f\u0131m\u0131z h\u0259yat\u0131 maraql\u0131 edir. Ax\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlar \u00f6z\u00fc haqda olanlar\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fsa, onda t\u0259dqiqat\u00e7\u0131lara v\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lara ehtiyac qalmazd\u0131 ki\u2026 Yaxud da, bir \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu axtar\u0131lan gizli h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259r olmaz, h\u0259yat\u0131n d\u0259y\u0259ri it\u0259rdi. Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan h\u0259yat kitab\u0131n\u0131n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 bir az k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 p\u00fcnhan saxlayaq ki, sabah\u0131nda oxudu\u011fumuzda fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 olsun.<br>\u2026Uzaqdan, \u00e7ox uzaqdan bir s\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259r, el\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, kims\u0259 s\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. D\u00f6n\u00fcb baxarsan geriy\u0259, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na d\u0259y\u0259n \u00f6z u\u015faql\u0131q \u015f\u0259klin olar. Orda, o \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n ovuclar\u0131nda oturmu\u015f, boynunu d\u00fcz saxlaya bilm\u0259y\u0259n bir oyunca\u011fab\u0259nz\u0259r k\u00f6rp\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nd\u0259rib qa\u00e7maq, uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n. Bird\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259nin s\u0259si daha da c\u0131rla\u015far\u2026 K\u00f6rp\u0259 dil a\u00e7ar, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rar:<br>-Eyyy\u2026\u015e\u0259-fa V\u0259-li!<br>Dar\u0131xarsan, sad\u0259c\u0259, \u201cikinci q\u0131z\u201d \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n zamanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026 O zamanlar ki, he\u00e7 xat\u0131rlaya da bilmirs\u0259n\u2026<br>\u2026He\u00e7 vaxt imkan verm\u0259yin ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz \u00f6z \u0259linizl\u0259 \u00f6z ya\u015fam ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131z. Yen\u0259 h\u0259yat davam ed\u0259c\u0259k, amma i\u00e7inizd\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259n \u00fcmidl\u0259rin yas\u0131n\u0131 saxlamaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 o yasla g\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u015flama\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qal\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z\u2026<br>He\u00e7 kimin \u00d6Z\u00dc olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fcnyada varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00f6yd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz birc\u0259 \u00fcnvan var\u2026 H\u0259rd\u0259n qurba\u011fa \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 baxa-baxa ona \u00fcz tuturam v\u0259 deyir\u0259m:<br>-Bir k\u00f6n\u00fcl x\u0259st\u0259sin\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyadan getm\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259r tutan h\u0259sr\u0259t ixtisasl\u0131 vicdan h\u0259kimi\u2026 Bir s\u0259ns\u0259n, bir s\u0259ns\u0259n oldu\u011fu kimi\u2026<br>\u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, telefonuma z\u0259ng g\u0259lib ill\u0259rin o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n\u2026 A\u00e7masam, inciy\u0259r, g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 deyir:<br>-Alo?<br>-Dur g\u0259l biz\u0259\u2026Ortal\u0131qda bir ovuc k\u00fcl var, t\u00f6k\u0259k bir-birimizin ba\u015f\u0131na\u2026<br>-Kimin oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcd\u00fc o el\u0259?<br>-B\u0130Zim\u2026<br>-B\u0130Zim ocaq var idi?<br>-H\u0259\u2026M\u0259mm\u0259rz\u0259 qalam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 da\u011flar\u0131n o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259\u2026<br>-K\u00fcl\u00fc burda n\u0259 g\u0259zir?<br>-Yiy\u0259siz oca\u011f\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc k\u00fcl\u0259k da\u015f\u0131yar\u2026<br>-K\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 den\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rs\u0131n!!!!<br>-Hara?<br>-\u2026\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259\u2026H\u0259kiml\u0259r deyir \u00fcr\u0259yinin damarlar\u0131nda tromb var\u2026<br>-K\u00fcl\u0259k neyniy\u0259c\u0259k?<br>-Qan\u0131m\u0131 da\u015f\u0131yacaq\u2026<br>-Allah \u015e\u0259fan\u0131 versin\u2026<br>\u2026\u0130nsanlar anlam\u0131rlar ki, \u00f6z uydurduqlar\u0131 yalanla \u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015fqa kimis\u0259 aldada bilmirl\u0259r b\u0259z\u0259n. B\u0259z\u0259nl\u0259rin \u00e7ox oldu\u011fu yerd\u0259 uzaqlar\u0131 yax\u0131n etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259lir biz\u0259. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, n\u0259 vaxtsa sonunu bildiyim bir yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131nca, niy\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o yolu t\u0259mir ed\u0259-ed\u0259 getmi\u015f\u0259m? Sonunda divar oldu\u011funu \u00fcr\u0259yim s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi. S\u0259n\u0259 vaxt\u0131nda qulaq asmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, \u00fcr\u0259yim. Vallah, bu ba\u015f s\u0259nin qulundu bundan sonra. Ayaqlar da ba\u015f\u0131n. Apar, hara ist\u0259s\u0259n\u2026<br>P.S: Qurba\u011falar e\u015fitm\u0259sin, ay\u0131bd\u0131; o yolu yax\u015f\u0131 ki, t\u0259mir etmi\u015f\u0259m\u2026<br>\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259li (2019)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyi G\u0259ncl\u0259r \u015euras\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Jurnalistl\u0259r Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201c\u0130lin g\u0259nci\u201d m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru H\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram\u2026 Sonra da \u00f6z \u0259liml\u0259 \u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 yumuram ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bezdirm\u0259yim\u2026 X\u00fclas\u0259, \u00d6Z olmaq \u00e7\u0259tin m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259di\u2026Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 qurba\u011falar\u0131n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 baxa-baxa qald\u0131m, \u0259n az\u0131, on d\u0259qiq\u0259\u2026 El\u0259 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-47321","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47321","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47321"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47321\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47334,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47321\/revisions\/47334"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47321"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47321"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47321"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}