{"id":48138,"date":"2023-12-19T08:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-12-19T04:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=48138"},"modified":"2023-12-20T13:35:38","modified_gmt":"2023-12-20T09:35:38","slug":"tutu-agayeva-goz%c9%99gorunm%c9%99zl%c9%99rin-gorun%c9%99n-v%c9%99-gorunm%c9%99y%c9%99n-t%c9%99r%c9%99fl%c9%99ri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=48138","title":{"rendered":"Tutu A\u011fayeva – “G\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259zl\u0259r”in g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n v\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259ri"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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H\u0259yat sanki bir \u00e7ay kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ax\u0131r, biz is\u0259 gah ax\u0131n istiqam\u0259tind\u0259, gah da onun \u0259ksin\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k sonsuz okeanda \u00e7ul\u011fala\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. H\u0259l\u0259<\/a> \u00e7ay\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda oturub, sad\u0259c\u0259 tama\u015fa ed\u0259n, qaya par\u00e7alar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqsiz, d\u00fcnyaya sad\u0259c\u0259 bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n baxan insanlar\u0131 demir\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259ni ham\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0259s g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131n \u0259n qaranl\u0131q t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, \u0259n b\u0259sit \u015feyl\u0259ri bel\u0259 unuduruq. Dostluq kimi, ail\u0259 kimi, duymaq, hiss etm\u0259k kimi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ri yadda\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7iskinli s\u0259mtl\u0259rin\u0259 h\u0259bs edirik. H\u0259yat\u0131n ehti\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 sirli-m\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 axtar\u0131r\u0131q. Halbuki, h\u0259r biri g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259dir. Biz “g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259yi” se\u00e7irik! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0259z\u0259n is\u0259 h\u0259yatdan “t\u0259crid” olman\u0131n yollar\u0131n\u0131 axtar\u0131r\u0131q. Bunun dig\u0259r ad\u0131 da, daha az “m\u00fchakim\u0259 olunmaq” ist\u0259yidir. V\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 hekay\u0259l\u0259r oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r\u0131q. Personajlarla \u00f6z aram\u0131zda “emosional ba\u011f” qururuq. Bu ba\u011f “\u015f\u00fcurlu” oldu\u011fu t\u0259qdird\u0259 h\u0259yata dair n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nirik. \u018fks halda qalan\u0131 aldan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r, yan\u0131l\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

O c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n, Nem\u0259t M\u0259tinin hekay\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salsaq, m\u00fc\u0259llifin q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 “g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcrt\u0259n, “\u00f6l\u00fc s\u00fckuta q\u0259rq olan”, “evin dam\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131ran”, mistik ovqata b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n, h\u0259r k\u0259sin u\u00e7a bildiyi c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 “u\u00e7a bilm\u0259y\u0259n” metaforlarla b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f, \u0259slind\u0259 h\u0259r birimizin \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131, amma niy\u0259s\u0259 xat\u0131rlama\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7m\u0259diyimiz, unutdu\u011fumuz q\u0259hr\u0259manlard\u0131r. M\u00fc\u0259llif hekay\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 tez-tez “boz” s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n a\u00e7ar kimi istifad\u0259 edir. Boz binalar, boz g\u00f6zl\u0259r v\u0259 s. Bu da insanlar\u0131n bozluq i\u00e7ind\u0259 q\u0259rq oldu\u011funun t\u0259c\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcd\u00fcr. B\u0259s, bu q\u0259hr\u0259manlar n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r “rasional” d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bilirl\u0259r? \u018fsas m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 buradad\u0131r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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M\u00fc\u0259llifin “\u0130nan\u0131lmaz t\u0259klif” hekay\u0259sin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salaq. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hekay\u0259ni diqq\u0259tl\u0259 oxuyanlar\u0131n y\u0259qin ki, n\u0259z\u0259rind\u0259n qa\u00e7may\u0131b, ilk c\u00fcml\u0259. “El\u00e7in S\u0259rvinaz\u0131 sevirdi”. Bu c\u00fcml\u0259 el\u0259 hekay\u0259nin a\u00e7ar n\u00f6qt\u0259sidir. “Sev\u0259n” t\u0259r\u0259f El\u00e7in, g\u00fccl\u00fc, dominant t\u0259r\u0259f is\u0259 S\u0259rvinazd\u0131r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

El\u00e7inin a\u011fl\u0131ndan sad\u0259c\u0259, “soyuna-soyuna” yata\u011fa girib, seksl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmaq ke\u00e7ir. G\u0259l\u0259k, S\u0259rvinaza. O, El\u00e7ini \u0259linin i\u00e7i kimi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, “z\u0259if” oldu\u011funu bildiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ona yataqda “inan\u0131lmaz t\u0259klif” edir. T\u0259klif d\u0259, “kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan qurtulmaq” \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn El\u00e7inin varl\u0131 bir qad\u0131nla m\u00fcnasib\u0259t qurmas\u0131d\u0131r. “G\u00fcnah” art\u0131q \u00f6z \u015f\u0259hv\u0259t dolu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc il\u0259 onlar\u0131 \u00e7oxdan a\u011fu\u015funa al\u0131b. M\u00fc\u0259llif burada onlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0259tinliyini, bel\u0259 bir t\u0259klifl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz qalmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi kimi “kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131” vur\u011fulay\u0131r. Amma m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q yox, f\u0259rqli duy\u011fular, “dad” axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259r insan\u0131n daxilind\u0259 gizli, qaranl\u0131q duy\u011fular var. Sad\u0259c\u0259 b\u0259zi insanlara bu t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rini \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, t\u0259tikl\u0259y\u0259n m\u0259qam laz\u0131m olur. S\u0259rvinaz\u0131 titr\u0259\u015fim\u0259 ke\u00e7ir\u0259n d\u0259, onlar\u0131n “kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q” lar\u0131d\u0131r. Y\u0259ni yoxsulluq burada sad\u0259c\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259tdir. \u00c7\u00fcnki, m\u0259n \u0259min\u0259m ki, onlar bolluq i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 olsalar bel\u0259, n\u0259 vaxtsa, bu t\u0259klifl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. El\u00e7in is\u0259 bu hekay\u0259nin S\u0259rvinaz t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n idar\u0259 olunan “kukla”s\u0131d\u0131r. El\u00e7in g\u00fccl\u00fc xarakter\u0259 malik olsayd\u0131, he\u00e7 vaxt, lap ac\u0131ndan da \u00f6ls\u0259, bu “t\u0259klif”i q\u0259bul etm\u0259zdi. Onun “sevgi”si d\u0259, m\u00fc\u0259llifin qeyd etdiyi kimi “bir evin a\u00e7ar\u0131n\u0131n qiym\u0259ti” q\u0259d\u0259rdir. S\u0259rvinaz\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 vurulmas\u0131, onunla m\u00fcnasib\u0259t qurmas\u0131 is\u0259 onun poliqam ruhlu oldu\u011funu g\u00f6st\u0259rir. V\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 bel\u0259 ail\u0259l\u0259r da\u011f\u0131lma\u011fa m\u0259hkumdur. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Papaq hekay\u0259sind\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r mistik \u00e7alarlar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259, bu hekay\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n ac\u0131 ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini \u015fill\u0259 kimi \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 vurur. “Papaq” burada simvoldur. G\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin, h\u0259yatla \u00fczl\u0259\u015f\u0259bilm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin, varolu\u015f qavram\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rk ed\u0259bilm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin simvolu. Q\u0259hr\u0259man burada \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 ziddiy\u0259td\u0259dir. Bir yandan atas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6y\u00fcr ki, onlar\u0131 at\u0131b gedib, he\u00e7 olmasa, anas\u0131na n\u0259s\u0259 yazard\u0131 kimi fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 gileyl\u0259nir. Dig\u0259r yandan is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc anas\u0131n\u0131 2 ildir ki, g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmir, onunla maraqlanm\u0131r, amma fahi\u015f\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 vaxt tap\u0131r. Q\u0259hr\u0259man atas\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 “papaq”la gedir. \u00c7\u00fcnki onunla \u00fczl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mir. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 daxil\u0259n bilir ki, h\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r atas\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 q\u0259z\u0259bi, kini varsa da, \u00f6z\u00fc el\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131n bir tay\u0131d\u0131r. Dili il\u0259 vur\u011fulay\u0131r: \u2014 m\u0259n yeralt\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n adam\u0131yam, g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259m yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bu da acizliyin bir t\u0259zah\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcr. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u0259ssam\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 ~ h\u0259yat m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259li bir al\u0259mdir. R\u0259ssamlar \u00f6z \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri il\u0259 insan\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259vi al\u0259mini z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fdirir, dol\u011funla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rlar. Hekay\u0259d\u0259 r\u0259ssam \u00f6z g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259n \u00fclvi hissl\u0259rini qeyd edir. \u00c7\u00fcnki orada s\u0259mimidir, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 h\u0259mah\u0259ngdir. Qar\u0131n ah\u0259ngl\u0259 ya\u011fmas\u0131n\u0131, d\u0259nizin onu x\u0259yal d\u00fcnyas\u0131na aparmas\u0131n\u0131, X\u0259zrinin onun r\u0259sminin ya\u015famas\u0131na icaz\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini bil\u0259-bil\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tind\u0259n d\u00f6nm\u0259yib r\u0259smi \u00e7\u0259km\u0259si, anas\u0131na olan ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 “\u00f6l\u00fcm”d\u0259n sonra onun r\u0259smini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k \u0259b\u0259dil\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259si (yeni bir ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn), K\u0259p\u0259zin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, t\u0259bi\u0259tin iki g\u00f6z\u0259lliyinin dumanla da\u011f\u0131n v\u0259hd\u0259tini bir arada verm\u0259si, sonda \u00f6z ist\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7atmas\u0131, \u0259n ax\u0131rda is\u0259 \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tinin qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olaraq, “g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259” \u00e7evril\u0259r\u0259k, b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc onu duyan h\u0259r k\u0259sin q\u0259lbind\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131r! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsanlar daha \u00e7ox unutma\u011f\u0131, sevdiyi bir \u00e7ox \u015feyi ikinci plana atma\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259yk\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259yi se\u00e7\u0259n varl\u0131qlard\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259yat\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 getm\u0259k, onunla qaynamaq h\u0259r k\u0259sin i\u015fi deyil. H\u0259r k\u0259s bu iqtidara sahib deyil!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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H\u0259yat sanki bir \u00e7ay kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ax\u0131r, biz is\u0259 gah ax\u0131n istiqam\u0259tind\u0259, gah da onun \u0259ksin\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k sonsuz okeanda \u00e7ul\u011fala\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda oturub, sad\u0259c\u0259 tama\u015fa ed\u0259n, qaya par\u00e7alar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqsiz, d\u00fcnyaya sad\u0259c\u0259 bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n baxan insanlar\u0131 demir\u0259m… G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259ni ham\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr.  B\u0259s g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r?! \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131n \u0259n qaranl\u0131q t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, \u0259n b\u0259sit \u015feyl\u0259ri bel\u0259 unuduruq. Dostluq kimi, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48138","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48138","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=48138"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48138\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":48154,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48138\/revisions\/48154"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=48138"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=48138"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=48138"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}