{"id":49053,"date":"2024-10-18T10:00:00","date_gmt":"2024-10-18T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=49053"},"modified":"2024-10-18T11:07:53","modified_gmt":"2024-10-18T07:07:53","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-qonagin-q%c9%99ndihekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=49053","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”Qona\u011f\u0131n q\u0259ndi”(Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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\u00a0\u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyi G\u0259ncl\u0259r \u015euras\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan Jurnalistl\u0259r Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, \u201c\u0130lin g\u0259nci\u201d m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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         Q\u0131rx be\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 bir ki\u015fi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rki d\u00fcz\u0259nini pozmaq el\u0259 d\u0259 asan deyildi. Qohum-qon\u015fular\u0131n, h\u0259tta, ya\u015f\u0131 yetmi\u015fi \u00e7oxdan ke\u00e7mi\u015f anam\u0131n bel\u0259 evlilik haqda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n beynimin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259yim avtomobil siqnal\u0131 kimi adil\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. M\u0259n bu ya\u015fa q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 q\u0259hv\u0259 d\u0259ml\u0259m\u0259y\u0259,  penc\u0259yimin d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rini b\u0259rkitm\u0259y\u0259, k\u00f6yn\u0259yimin boynunu sulu d\u0259smal qoyaraq \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 kimins\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini a\u011fl\u0131ma da g\u0259tirm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Aradabir g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda s\u00fcd r\u0259ngi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ys\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdim. X\u0259yal\u0259 Sevilin kitab\u0131ndak\u0131 kimi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259s\u0259lli edirdim: \u201cSa\u00e7lar\u0131ma ay qonub\u201d. \u00d6z\u00fcn-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259s\u0259lli edib g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yinc\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259ki hissl\u0259rin ad\u0131 olmur. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m d\u0259, el\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, bu hissl\u0259rin ad\u0131 olmur. Yoxsa, \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n bir \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n yalan\u00e7\u0131 kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

         H\u0259, deyirdim ax\u0131, evlilik m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7oxdan getmi\u015fdi. Bu gedi\u015f bileti \u0259limd\u0259 yanan qatar\u0131n gedi\u015fi q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf do\u011furucu deyildi, durnalar\u0131n pay\u0131z yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131nca isti \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131tmas\u0131 kimi adi idi. \u00c7ox adi. Lakin, adiliyi yox etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yat m\u0259niml\u0259 \u015f\u0259rt k\u0259smi\u015fdi. Bu \u015f\u0259rtin n\u0259 vaxtsa qar\u015f\u0131ma qoyulaca\u011f\u0131, m\u0259ni sehr d\u00fckan\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259yini bilirdim. Q\u0259sd\u0259n gecikirdim. Sevm\u0259diyin bir qad\u0131n\u0131n sevdiyin r\u0259ngd\u0259 manto geyinm\u0259sini g\u00f6r\u00fcb ona g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f t\u0259yin etm\u0259k kimi idi evlilikl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fma\u011f\u0131m. Lakin, bir g\u00fcn ikic\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z m\u0259ni masaya oturma\u011fa v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn kartlar\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7araq sonuncu  inad\u0131mdan da ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 vadar el\u0259di. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

         Onda q\u0131\u015f g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Dov\u015fan ovu bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dli film\u0259 baxandan sonra h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259nib uzaq k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fayan qohumlar\u0131m\u0131zgil\u0259 gedib \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. K\u0259nd\u0259 ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Qonaq getdiyim ail\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 otuzu t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f olan g\u0259nc bir ata, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131da gizl\u0259y\u0259n g\u0259nc ana v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 bir o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131ndn ibar\u0259t idi. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin dolanbac k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rinin riyakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan uzaq bu k\u0259nd m\u0259sumlu\u011fu m\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259klik d\u0259 yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Arada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131m \u0259lliy\u0259 az qal\u0131b dey\u0259 bel\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yiyuxa olmu\u015fam?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

         Kas\u0131byana s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 birini b\u0259y\u0259nib  yediyim, o birin\u0259 m\u0131z qoydu\u011fum \u015firniyyatlardan he\u00e7 biri yox idi. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 q\u0259nd qab\u0131n\u0131n qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259fi \u00e7atlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259ki bir ovuc q\u0259nd \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 qab\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f oyuncaq kublara b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Bilmir\u0259m, niy\u0259 onda bu q\u0259ndqab\u0131na bel\u0259 \u00e7ox fikir vermi\u015fdim. Y\u0259qin, bu da Tanr\u0131  t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n veril\u0259n bir i\u015far\u0259t idi. Biz insanlar\u0131n h\u0259r birini sevgiyl\u0259 yaradan Tanr\u0131 biz\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi anlad\u0131r. Lakin, biz bunu g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259liriks\u0259, bir \u015fanss\u0131zl\u0131qla \u00fczl\u0259\u015finc\u0259, niy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc yox da, Tanr\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcnahland\u0131r\u0131r\u0131q?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

         Gec\u0259ni bu fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Tanr\u0131 v\u0259 onun biz\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi i\u015far\u0259tl\u0259rin h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za t\u0259siri, \u0259slind\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131n n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t oldu\u011fu bar\u0259d\u0259 o  q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, saat ne\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yad\u0131mda deyildi. Oyananda ilk baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m saat oldu. G\u00fcnortaya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u015fam\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda o q\u0259d\u0259r fikir verm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, indi  q\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u0259\u015finin g\u00f6zqama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259  \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ki\u00e7ik  bir aynab\u0259ndin oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.  Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b e\u015fiy\u0259 baxmaq ist\u0259yirdim ki,  e\u015fitdiyim s\u00f6zl\u0259r m\u0259ni \u00e7ar\u0259sizc\u0259  yerimd\u0259 donma\u011fa m\u0259cbur etdi. U\u015faq anas\u0131na deyirdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

-Ana, qona\u011f\u0131n q\u0259ndinin biyi yey\u0259 d\u00fcs\u00fcb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

         Donmu\u015fdum… \u00c7ar\u0259sizdim… Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni, qona\u011f\u0131n q\u0259ndi? Ax\u0131, bu evd\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u015firniyyat yoxdur? \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faqlar is\u0259 q\u0259ndi xart-xartla yem\u0259yi sevirl\u0259r. B\u0259s, bu e\u015fitdiyim? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc  \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259sdiql\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 yava\u015fca p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n aynab\u0259nd\u0259 boyland\u0131m. Anan\u0131n \u0259lin\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 q\u0259ndqab\u0131 vard\u0131. U\u015faq ki\u00e7ik ovcundak\u0131 bir d\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259ndi qald\u0131r\u0131b anas\u0131na uzatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u00fcrurqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q  t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf vard\u0131. V\u0259 ikisi bird\u0259n;  q\u00fcrur v\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf iki gil\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131na da qalib g\u0259lmi\u015f, onlar\u0131 anan\u0131n dumduru b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n yana\u011f\u0131na qovma\u011f\u0131  bacarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

         Dov\u015fan ovu h\u0259v\u0259simi  \u00f6z tariximin bir s\u0259hif\u0259sin\u0259 yaz\u0131b h\u0259min g\u00fcn o k\u0259ndd\u0259n ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar vermi\u015fdim. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7  ya\u015fl\u0131 o\u011flumun h\u0259yat\u0131n yoxluq v\u0259 varl\u0131q i\u015fv\u0259sini anlamas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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