{"id":50528,"date":"2026-02-16T06:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-02-16T02:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=50528"},"modified":"2026-02-16T08:56:31","modified_gmt":"2026-02-16T04:56:31","slug":"xanim-anela-transformasiya","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=50528","title":{"rendered":"Xan\u0131m ANELA.”TRANSFORMAS\u0130YA”"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Sara! Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7, Sara!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 N\u0259 olub, ay q\u0131z\u0131m? Niy\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcrs\u0259n? \u2013 qon\u015fu qad\u0131n \u00f6z qap\u0131s\u0131ndan t\u0259la\u015fla boyland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Sara… Saran\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n olub s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n? \u2013 Fidan qad\u0131n\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259birsizl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Yox… D\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. Amma s\u0259n ax\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259, m\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u0259lirdim… D\u00fcn\u0259n he\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 deyildi… Telefona cavab vermir, indi d\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131r, \u2013 deyib barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 hirsl\u0259 \u00e7eyn\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Hara gedirik?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 G\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259… amma…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saran\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131 balaca m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131na ili\u015fdi. Niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r balaca idi? Boz r\u0259ngli m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259 balaca bir insan \u015f\u0259kli sanki oyulmu\u015fdu. \u00c7ox balaca idi. Q\u0259bir d\u0259 balaca idi \u2013 sanki yeni do\u011fulmu\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 aid idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 G\u00f6zl\u0259! \u2013 dey\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131da ged\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7atma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu Fidan\u0131n s\u0259si idimi? Yox… sanki \u00f6z s\u0259si idi. \u00d6z g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc. Qar\u015f\u0131da ged\u0259n Fidan idi, amma deyildi d\u0259. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn daha balacaboy, daha y\u00fcng\u00fcl, daha qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z variant\u0131. Fidan h\u00fcnd\u00fcrboy idi ax\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0259biristanl\u0131qda adamlar vard\u0131, amma Sara onlar\u0131n \u00fczl\u0259rini se\u00e7\u0259 bilmirdi. Ham\u0131s\u0131 sanki siluet idi. Q\u0259birl\u0259ri tapdalamamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn diqq\u0259tl\u0259 add\u0131mlay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cAtam da burda olmal\u0131d\u0131r…\u201d dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u201cOnun yan\u0131na da ged\u0259r\u0259m. Amma… m\u0259nim m\u0259zar\u0131m hardad\u0131r?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 G\u0259l, \u2013 dedi qar\u015f\u0131da ged\u0259n\u0259. \u2013 Ged\u0259k m\u0259nim m\u0259zar\u0131ma. Bir az k\u0259nardad\u0131r…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara n\u0259hay\u0259t ona \u00e7atd\u0131. Dig\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox k\u0259nardayam… Uzaqdayam. G\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259yib he\u00e7 kim ziyar\u0259t\u0259. Bax\u0131ms\u0131z qal\u0131b m\u0259zar\u0131m… y\u0259qin…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri Sara dedi, yoxsa yan\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201co\u201d? S\u0259si \u00f6z qula\u011f\u0131na yad g\u0259ldi sanki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259yi s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u018flind\u0259ki fotoplyonkan\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b yenid\u0259n burdu, y\u0131\u011fd\u0131. Sanki vaxt\u0131 geri qaytarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn mexaniki bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ayaqlar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Add\u0131m ata bilmirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yan\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201c\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn\u201d qorxusunu hiss etmi\u015f kimi sakit s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ka\u015f h\u0259yat da fotoplyonka kimi geri qaytar\u0131la bil\u0259ydi… Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259n kimi Sara k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n, tam \u00fcr\u0259yinin arxas\u0131ndan bir \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259 hiss etdi v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Sara!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Qap\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131raq!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 K\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kilin!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131n o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259r g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara qalx\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Fidan onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi boynuna sar\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox qorxdum! \u00c7ox qorxutdun m\u0259ni!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 M\u0259n d\u0259… \u2013 Sara p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 v\u0259 onu qucaqlad\u0131. Sanki d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u00fck\u00fc bir anl\u0131q \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Uzun zamand\u0131r yata bilmirdim, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259rmandan bir ne\u00e7\u0259sini i\u00e7s\u0259m… o da bel\u0259 oldu…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bir ne\u00e7\u0259sini? Y\u0259ni n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rini? Qorxutma m\u0259ni!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Narahat olma, can\u0131ma q\u0131yacaq q\u0259d\u0259r aciz deyil\u0259m…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fidan s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, qon\u015fular\u0131 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r nigaran qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Sara dinl\u0259yirdi. Amma \u0259slind\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yuxunun i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O, g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 yem\u0259kd\u0259n-i\u00e7m\u0259kd\u0259n k\u0259sil\u0259n, evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmayan Sara deyildi sanki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Asta-asta \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toplad\u0131. Du\u015fa girib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 qurudub s\u0259liq\u0259y\u0259 sald\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fidan ona q\u0259rib\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 S\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131san?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259. Yax\u015f\u0131yam. Daha da yax\u015f\u0131 olaca\u011fam, \u2013 dedi Sara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra bird\u0259n ciddi bir ifad\u0259 ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Seminar\u0131m var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 N\u0259 seminar? N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan s\u0259n? Bu halda?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Hal\u0131ma n\u0259 olub ki?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Sara…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Qalx! \u00c7ox i\u015fimiz var \u2013 etiraz etm\u0259sin dey\u0259 Fidan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u015f\u0131l \u00e7ay\u0131ndan son bir qurtum al\u0131b fincan\u0131 masaya qoydu v\u0259 qap\u0131ya do\u011fru q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 add\u0131mlad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

***<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara auditoriyaya daxil olan kimi gecikdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fczr ist\u0259di. S\u0259si sakit idi. H\u0259tta h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q sakit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00fcrs\u00fcy\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Zal dem\u0259k olar ki, dolu idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Seminar gedirdi. Sara auditoriya il\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, suallara cavab verir, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini payla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259si sakit, ritmi nizaml\u0131, amma h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 auditoriyan\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259n bir enerji vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Seminar\u0131n sonuna yax\u0131n Sara \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yenid\u0259n auditoriyaya tutdu. Bir anl\u0131q dayand\u0131, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 zal\u0131n h\u0259r k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fczd\u00fc, sonra sakitc\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u0130ndi is\u0259 bir n\u00fcmun\u0259 il\u0259 m\u00f6vzunu bir az daha ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m\u2026 Bir yuxu haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015faca\u011fam. T\u0259bii ki, anonim bir n\u00fcmun\u0259dir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Anonim.)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6z\u00fc bu s\u00f6z\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 ac\u0131-ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Sonra yuxunu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Q\u0259biristanl\u0131q… Q\u0259biristanl\u0131qda \u00e7ox adam var, amma he\u00e7 kimin \u00fcz\u00fc se\u00e7ilmir. Sanki ham\u0131 var, amma he\u00e7 kim yoxdur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(\u0130zdiham i\u00e7ind\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131q…)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bu \u00e7ox tipik simvoldur. \u00dczl\u0259rin g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259si insan\u0131n \u00f6z emosiyalar\u0131ndan dissosiasiya etm\u0259sini g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Y\u0259ni, hiss var, amma \u0259laq\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fll\u0259ri masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 sakit dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 kim onun barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n titr\u0259diyini g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Daha sonra yuxuda balaca bir m\u0259zar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u00d6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc u\u015faq m\u0259zar\u0131 kimidir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zalda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r qeydl\u0259r apard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bu, \u0259ks\u0259r hallarda u\u015faql\u0131q travmas\u0131na i\u015far\u0259dir. \u0130\u00e7imizd\u0259 basd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u201cu\u015faq m\u0259n\u201d. Biz b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259 onu susdururuq. G\u00fccl\u00fc olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. T\u0259rk edilm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Sevilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Sevilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015fdin, Sara?)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Yuxudak\u0131 ata fiquru. Yuxunu g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015f\u0259xsin atas\u0131 ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. K\u00f6hn\u0259 \u201cm\u0259n\u201d onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc tam q\u0259bullanmay\u0131b, bir hiss\u0259si h\u0259l\u0259 itki il\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yuxuda onun yoxlu\u011fu g\u00f6st\u0259rir ki, qorunma v\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k ehtiyac\u0131 art\u0131q fiziki deyil, daxili prosesdir. Yeni \u201cm\u0259n\u201d bu yuxuda h\u0259m u\u015faql\u0131q travmas\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 atan\u0131 itirm\u0259yi q\u0259bul etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. Bu, transformasiyan\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sidir \u2013 k\u00f6hn\u0259 v\u0259 yeni versiyalar aras\u0131nda inteqrasiya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(Bilir\u0259m… q\u0259bul etm\u0259liy\u0259m… bar\u0131\u015fmal\u0131yam… S\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m, ata!)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Yuxudak\u0131 dig\u0259r detal \u2013 insan\u0131n \u00f6z m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 axtarmas\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir anl\u0131q susdu. Zalda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir sakitlik yarand\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u00d6z m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 axtarmaq n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir? Bu, k\u00f6hn\u0259 identikliyin art\u0131q funksiyas\u0131n\u0131 itirdiyini g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Psixika deyir ki: \u201cBu versiya art\u0131q ya\u015faya bilmir.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(K\u00f6hn\u0259 Sara\u2026 s\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 burdasan.)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Maraql\u0131 m\u0259qam odur ki, yuxu g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015f\u0259xs o m\u0259zar\u0131n \u201ck\u0259narda\u201d oldu\u011funu deyir. Uzaqda. Ziyar\u0259t olunmayan. Bax\u0131ms\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259si bir az yava\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bu, \u00e7ox vaxt insan\u0131n \u00f6z ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 ill\u0259rl\u0259 ikinci plana atmas\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259tic\u0259sidir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259nara qoymaq. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259rk etm\u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(S\u0259ni yaln\u0131z o t\u0259rk etm\u0259yib. S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc daha \u0259vv\u0259l t\u0259rk etmi\u015fdin.)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara n\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rind\u0259n ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Bir ba\u015fqa simvol is\u0259 fotoplyonkad\u0131r. H\u0259yat\u0131 geri qaytarmaq ist\u0259yi. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 etm\u0259k arzusu. Bu, kontrol ehtiyac\u0131d\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnki d\u0259yi\u015fiklik qorxuludur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(K\u00f6hn\u0259 versiyan\u0131 buraxmaq daha qorxuludur.)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zaldan bir t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u0259l qald\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 B\u0259s bel\u0259 yuxu g\u00f6r\u0259n insan n\u0259 etm\u0259lidir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara ona baxd\u0131. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 sakit idi. Amma i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir \u015fey q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Q\u0259brin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 torpaq atmaq yox \u2013 onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayanmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r, \u2013 dedi. \u2013 Qorxmadan baxmaq. \u00dczl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k. Yas tutmaq. \u00c7\u00fcnki transformasiya silm\u0259k deyil. Transformasiya q\u0259bul etm\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259lik s\u00fckutdan sonra davam etdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 H\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015fimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir \u00f6l\u00fcm var. Amma bu \u00f6l\u00fcm fiziki deyil. Bu, k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u201cm\u0259n\u201din \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(K\u00f6hn\u0259 Sara, s\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259lis\u0259n?)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259si yenid\u0259n sabitl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 \u018fg\u0259r bel\u0259 bir yuxu g\u00f6rs\u0259niz, bilin ki, beyniniz sizi qorxutmur. Haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. B\u0259li, haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. N\u0259y\u0259? B\u0259z\u0259n insan\u0131n tutmal\u0131 oldu\u011fu \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r yas \u2013 ba\u015fqas\u0131na yox, \u00f6z k\u00f6hn\u0259 versiyas\u0131na tutdu\u011fu yasd\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara l\u00f6vh\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Marker\u0131 yenid\u0259n \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cTRANSFORMAS\u0130YA\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131ndan x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 alt\u0131na yazd\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0259bul.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yas.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buraxmaq.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra bir anl\u0131q dayand\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Yeni identiklik se\u00e7imi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Arxaya \u00e7\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Transformasiya bir se\u00e7imdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zalda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tlilik yarand\u0131. Seminar bitmi\u015fdi, amma he\u00e7 kim t\u0259l\u0259smirdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b sual verdi. Biri qeyd etdiyi fikri d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259di. Dig\u0259ri \u015f\u0259xsi bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sanki ham\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir \u201cm\u0259zar\u201d var idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259di. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131sa, konkret cavablar verdi. \u018fvv\u0259lki kimi emosional deyil, amma m\u0259saf\u0259li d\u0259 deyildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zal t\u0259dric\u0259n bo\u015fald\u0131. Fidan ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Saram… ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr idin bu g\u00fcn, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 M\u0259n d\u0259 hiss etdim, \u2013 dedi sakitc\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Telefonu \u00e7antaya qoymaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 ekran i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131. Burax\u0131lm\u0131\u015f z\u0259ng \u2013 \u201cSevgim\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Telefon yenid\u0259n titr\u0259di. Fidan bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ondan \u00e7\u0259kmirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Odur? \u2013 dey\u0259 astadan soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sara cavab verm\u0259di. Sakitc\u0259 ekrana bax\u0131rd\u0131. Barma\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 tam ortada idi \u2013 n\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l, n\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fcym\u0259d\u0259. Z\u0259ng susdu. Sara bir anl\u0131q dayand\u0131. \u201cSevgim\u201d ad\u0131n\u0131 sildi. Sonra ads\u0131z n\u00f6mr\u0259ni qara siyah\u0131ya \u0259lav\u0259 etdi v\u0259 telefonu \u00e7antas\u0131na qoydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2013 Ged\u0259k? \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fidan n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di. Sad\u0259c\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onlar birlikd\u0259 auditoriyadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00f6vh\u0259d\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bir s\u00f6z qal\u0131rd\u0131: TRANSFORMAS\u0130YA. V\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, bu s\u00f6z Sara \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259z\u0259ri termin deyildi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n Ba\u015f redaktoru \u2013 Sara! Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7, Sara! \u2013 N\u0259 olub, ay q\u0131z\u0131m? Niy\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcrs\u0259n? \u2013 qon\u015fu qad\u0131n \u00f6z qap\u0131s\u0131ndan t\u0259la\u015fla boyland\u0131. \u2013 Sara… Saran\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n olub s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n? \u2013 Fidan qad\u0131n\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259birsizl\u0259ndi. \u2013 Yox… D\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. Amma s\u0259n ax\u0131… \u2013 H\u0259, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-50528","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50528","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=50528"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50528\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":50535,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50528\/revisions\/50535"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=50528"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=50528"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=50528"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}