{"id":51787,"date":"2026-06-28T01:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-06-27T21:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=51787"},"modified":"2026-06-28T09:42:19","modified_gmt":"2026-06-28T05:42:19","slug":"konul-nuriyeva-eyb%c9%99c%c9%99r-olmaqdansa-ols%c9%99k-yaxsidir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=51787","title":{"rendered":"K\u00f6n\u00fcl NUR\u0130YEVA.”Eyb\u0259c\u0259r olmaqdansa, \u00f6ls\u0259k yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r”"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n C\u018fNUB B\u00fcrosunun R\u0259hb\u0259ri<\/em><\/strong><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cBir \u00fcr\u0259k h\u0259m m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, h\u0259m d\u0259 nifr\u0259t yuvas\u0131 ola bilm\u0259z; insanda \u00fcr\u0259k bir d\u0259n\u0259dir. M\u0259n h\u0259r zaman \u00f6z \u00fcr\u0259yimi nec\u0259 xilas ed\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.
Bir d\u0259 ki, yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarma: qu\u015flar m\u00fcharib\u0259ni tez unudurlar.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“M\u00fcharib\u0259 qad\u0131n simal\u0131 deyil” kitab\u0131n\u0131n son s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam ki, h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 bir kitab m\u0259ni bel\u0259 a\u011flatmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onu m\u00fcsabiq\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oxuyurdum; noyabr ay\u0131 idi, m\u00fcharib\u0259 is\u0259 mayda bitmi\u015fdi. Amma Svetlana xan\u0131m v\u0259 roman\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fcharib\u0259 onlar\u0131n d\u00fcnyan\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r davam ed\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cM\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bayram\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m\u201d dey\u0259n qad\u0131n, \u0259slind\u0259, o bayramdan qorxurdu. \u201cBayramdan ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn qabaq paltarlar\u0131 yuyuram ki, i\u015fim \u00e7ox olsun, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qat\u0131m. H\u0259rbi oyuncaqlar\u0131 sevmir\u0259m, u\u015faqlara da alm\u0131ram. H\u0259rbi t\u0259yyar\u0259 modelini kims\u0259 biz\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi, h\u0259min d\u0259qiq\u0259 zibilliy\u0259 tullad\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fan kimi x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nir\u0259m. M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n sonra bizim evd\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. O da qorxulu idi. N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcns\u0259, c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259 bizi g\u00fcll\u0259d\u0259n qoruyan ki\u015fil\u0259r, bizi t\u0259rk edirdil\u0259r. He\u00e7 kim m\u00fcharib\u0259 i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 olan qad\u0131nlarla ail\u0259 qurmaq, onlar\u0131 sevm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. K\u0259ndin qad\u0131nlar\u0131 bizi \u0259xlaqs\u0131z s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 t\u0259hqir edirdil\u0259r. M\u0259n is\u0259 on s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131mdan c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259 sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 itirmi\u015fdim. Biz bu q\u0259d\u0259r yol ke\u00e7mi\u015fdik, qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u0259rl\u0259rini, o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 xilas etmi\u015fdik. Bu h\u0259qar\u0259t n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn idi?
S\u0259n kiminl\u0259 evl\u0259nmis\u0259n? C\u0259bh\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131yla.
Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri tez-tez e\u015fidirdik. Biz m\u00fcharib\u0259 zaman\u0131 v\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n sonra da d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yirdik. Bu h\u0259yat\u0131 qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131qsa, niy\u0259 m\u00fckafat\u0131m\u0131z bu q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r s\u00f6zl\u0259r olurdu?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir qad\u0131n insan qan\u0131n\u0131n nar \u015fir\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259 parlaq oldu\u011funu, n\u0259 r\u0259sm \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259td\u0259 ona rast g\u0259ldiyini dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Narkozsuz, adi mi\u015farla k\u0259sil\u0259n ayaqlara araq vururdular; n\u0259 yod var idi, n\u0259 d\u0259 pamb\u0131q.
\u0130deya v\u0259 inam\u0131n anal\u0131q hissiyat\u0131ndan da g\u00fccl\u00fc oldu\u011funu anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. M\u00fcharib\u0259 olan \u0259razil\u0259rd\u0259n ki\u015fi qoxusu g\u0259lirdi. \u201cNormal qad\u0131n m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259z, at\u0259\u015f a\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259z, bel\u0259 olarsa, normal u\u015faq do\u011fa bilm\u0259z\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259nl\u0259rin say\u0131 is\u0259 \u00e7ox idi. V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131danda e\u015fitdiyimiz \u0259n s\u0259rt danlaq is\u0259 bel\u0259 idi:
Bilirik, orda n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmusunuz. Bizim ki\u015fil\u0259ri yoldan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, c\u0259bh\u0259 fahi\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri!
M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 a\u015fiq olmasayd\u0131q, \u00e7\u0259tin ki, sa\u011f qalard\u0131q. Yaral\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259ri qad\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc xilas edirdi. “M\u0259n s\u0259ni h\u0259r yerd\u0259 tan\u0131yaram” c\u00fcml\u0259sinin nec\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc duy\u011fu, nec\u0259 s\u0259rt a\u011fr\u0131k\u0259sici oldu\u011funu \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r bilirdil\u0259r; ax\u0131 isti c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r onlar\u0131n yaralar\u0131na m\u0259lh\u0259m idi. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 yegan\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi hadis\u0259 idi. Qalan n\u0259 vard\u0131sa \u00fcmumi idi \u2013 h\u0259tta \u00f6l\u00fcm bel\u0259.
\u0130ztirab idrak\u0131n x\u00fcsusi formas\u0131d\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259dir ki, gettoda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini bil\u0259n qad\u0131nla ki\u015fi evd\u0259 deyil, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Onlar ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr v\u0259 birlikd\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Bu, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t idi. Ba\u015fqa n\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi ki? \u018ftrafda q\u0131r\u011f\u0131n vard\u0131, g\u00fcll\u0259-baran idi, onlar is\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 insan qorxulu v\u0259 anla\u015f\u0131lmaz olur, onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr.
A\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckl\u0259nm\u0259l\u0259r n\u0259tic\u0259sind\u0259 qad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u0259r ay t\u0259krarlanan normal hal\u0131 pozulmu\u015fdu. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 istid\u0259 ged\u0259n bir qad\u0131ndan axan qan qumda l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259r qoyurdu. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259r arxas\u0131nca g\u0259lirdil\u0259r, guya he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Qad\u0131n\u0131n \u015falvar\u0131 \u0259ynind\u0259 qurudu. Qan\u0131n qoxusu is\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7atlad\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259r k\u00f6yn\u0259kl\u0259rini koldan asan kimi o\u011furlay\u0131rd\u0131q. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn biz\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 vermirdil\u0259r, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r is\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr, ba\u015fqa paltar ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131sa k\u0259sir, yeri\u015fimizi d\u0259yi\u015firdik, amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 boyanmaq ist\u0259yirdik. Q\u0259ndi yemirdik, sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kraxmallamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn saxlay\u0131rd\u0131q. Bioloji t\u0259bi\u0259timizi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi.
Torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259d\u0259n v\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259zm\u0259k \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzumuz idi. Ham\u0131m\u0131z siqaret \u00e7\u0259kirdik. Ki\u015fil\u0259r acl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0259tin d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r, acl\u0131q onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n bet\u0259r idi. Biz is\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxurduq. Sonra yor\u011funluqdan bu qorxunu da unudurduq.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6ld\u00fckd\u0259n sonra \u00e7irkin g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k qorxusu is\u0259 adam\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt t\u0259rk etmir. Ac\u0131ndan \u00f6ls\u0259k d\u0259, yumurtan\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131b \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259rimizi t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdik. G\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k arzusu he\u00e7 bir qad\u0131n\u0131 \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin \u015f\u0259raitd\u0259 bel\u0259 t\u0259rk etmirdi. Bizim \u00f6hd\u0259mizd\u0259 i\u015f vard\u0131: h\u0259r bir yaral\u0131ya onu sevdiyimizi dem\u0259liydik. Bu, \u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fc d\u0259rman idi. S\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rimizd\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik detallar b\u00f6y\u00fck hadis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, h\u0259tta tarix\u0259 bel\u0259 qalib g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n C\u018fNUB B\u00fcrosunun R\u0259hb\u0259ri \u201cBir \u00fcr\u0259k h\u0259m m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, h\u0259m d\u0259 nifr\u0259t yuvas\u0131 ola bilm\u0259z; insanda \u00fcr\u0259k bir d\u0259n\u0259dir. M\u0259n h\u0259r zaman \u00f6z \u00fcr\u0259yimi nec\u0259 xilas ed\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.Bir d\u0259 ki, yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarma: qu\u015flar m\u00fcharib\u0259ni tez unudurlar.\u201d “M\u00fcharib\u0259 qad\u0131n simal\u0131 deyil” kitab\u0131n\u0131n son s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam ki, h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 bir kitab m\u0259ni bel\u0259 a\u011flatmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-51787","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51787","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=51787"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51787\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":51800,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51787\/revisions\/51800"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=51787"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=51787"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=51787"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}