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Nazil\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fc silib qurtaranda bil\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 x\u0259fif s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 hiss etdi. Vedr\u0259ni ehmalca eyvandan i\u00e7\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259kdi, rezin \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259yi divara s\u00f6yk\u0259yib yor\u011fun halda bir add\u0131m geri \u00e7\u0259kildi. G\u00fcnortan\u0131n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 el\u0259 yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. El\u0259 bil divarda iri bir i\u015f\u0131q par\u00e7as\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n budaqlar\u0131 h\u0259min i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 asta-asta yell\u0259nirdi. \u0130\u015f\u0131q yarpaqlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 x\u0131rda q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259pirdi. Bir s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259lib buda\u011fa qondu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yana \u0259ydi. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259ksini g\u00f6r\u00fcb dimdiyi il\u0259 ehmalca bir d\u0259f\u0259 vurdu. Sonra qanad \u00e7al\u0131b u\u00e7du. Nazil\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131y\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 bir d\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fc indi su kimi \u015f\u0259ffaf idi. \u0130\u00e7 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259, \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 is\u0259 balaca bir ovuc izi qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.. O\u011flu s\u0259h\u0259r ba\u011f\u00e7aya getm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l burnunu \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259yib h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri saym\u0131\u015f, sonra da ovcunu \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259y\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ana, bax, \u0259lim qald\u0131! – dey\u0259 u\u015faq sevinci il\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

El\u0259 bil u\u015faq p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 \u0259lini yox, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b getmi\u015fdi. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f o ovucun i\u00e7in\u0259 dolmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 divar saat\u0131n\u0131n t\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa s\u0259s yox idi. Nazil\u0259 \u0259lini \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259y\u0259 apard\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131 ovuc izin\u0259 toxunma\u011fa az qalm\u0131\u015f dayand\u0131. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, o izi silm\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi g\u0259lm\u0259di. El\u0259 bil bir ovuc u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015f d\u0259smalla sil\u0259c\u0259kdi. Dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm titr\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ax\u015fam…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00f6z yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qald\u0131. Kim\u0259 dediyini \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259di; B\u0259lk\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vedr\u0259nin suyunda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f x\u0131rda-x\u0131rda par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nazil\u0259 vedr\u0259ni qald\u0131randa i\u015f\u0131q da onunla birlikd\u0259 yell\u0259ndi. Vedr\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb vanna ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. Arxas\u0131nda qalan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 is\u0259 iki d\u00fcnyan\u0131 ay\u0131ran \u015f\u0259ffaf bir s\u0259ssizlik kimi yerind\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7aydan\u0131n fiti g\u0259ldi. Qaz\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u0259smalla \u0259ll\u0259rini qurulayanda giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 el\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131 ki, d\u0259hlizd\u0259 as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f a\u00e7arlar bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259yib cingild\u0259di. G\u0259l\u0259n Kamran idi. Gec\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin alt\u0131nda yuxusuzlu\u011fun g\u00f6y\u00fcmt\u00fcl k\u00f6lg\u0259si vard\u0131. K\u00f6yn\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131 t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015f, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259yin v\u0259 tozun i\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7ib g\u0259lmi\u015f adam sa\u00e7\u0131na ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ay Nazil\u0259! \u00c7ay s\u00fcz, \u0259ynimi d\u0259yi\u015fib g\u0259lir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259sini el\u0259 ucaltd\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bil d\u0259hlizd\u0259 yox, h\u0259y\u0259tin o ba\u015f\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Kamran h\u0259r g\u00fcn eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ev\u0259 girirdi. Evin havas\u0131 onun s\u0259si il\u0259 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. El\u0259 bil sakit g\u00f6l\u00fcn ortas\u0131na iri bir da\u015f at\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nazil\u0259 Kamran\u0131 \u0259zb\u0259r bilirdi. H\u0259tta b\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259 olurdu ki, Kamran h\u0259l\u0259 “\u00e7ay s\u00fcz” dem\u0259mi\u015f fincan haz\u0131r olurdu. \u0130nsan b\u0259z\u0259n sevdiyi adam\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini add\u0131m s\u0259sind\u0259n yox, v\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. \u00c7iynind\u0259ki \u00e7antan\u0131 stulun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 tullad\u0131. Penc\u0259yini oturaca\u011f\u0131n belin\u0259 ke\u00e7irib qalstuku yar\u0131ya q\u0259d\u0259r bo\u015faltd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Uf… \u0130sti adam\u0131 diri-diri bi\u015firir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b p\u0259rd\u0259ni bir k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kdi. A\u00e7\u0131q qalan \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri dolan k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 p\u0259rd\u0259ni \u015fi\u015firtdi, sonra masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131z salfeti asta-asta yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259tdi. Bir anl\u0131q otaqdak\u0131 \u00e7ay iyi tut yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131n qoxusuna qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131n\u0131 iki barma\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 dart\u0131b sin\u0259sin\u0259 hava verdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– L\u0259n\u0259t Yezid\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 fincana iki qa\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u0259k\u0259r t\u00f6k\u00fcb qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 fincanda \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 f\u0131rlatd\u0131. \u00c7ay\u0131n r\u0259ngi bir anl\u0131q bulan\u0131b yenid\u0259n duruldu. Kamran \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259kkiz il idi ki, iki qa\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259 i\u00e7irdi. Nazil\u0259 bunu he\u00e7 vaxt unutmurdu. B\u0259z\u0259n fikirl\u0259\u015firdi ki, insan sevdiyi adam haqq\u0131nda \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015feyl\u0259ri \u00f6yr\u0259nir. Sonra is\u0259 h\u0259yat yava\u015f-yava\u015f onu x\u0131rdal\u0131qlara apar\u0131r. \u00c7ay\u0131 ne\u00e7\u0259 qa\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259 i\u00e7diyini, corab\u0131n\u0131 birinci hans\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131ndan geyindiyini, yarpaq dolmas\u0131n\u0131 sarm\u0131saql\u0131, yoxsa sarm\u0131saqs\u0131z qat\u0131qla yediyini… El\u0259 bil evlilikl\u0259rin t\u0259rc\u00fcmeyi-hal\u0131n\u0131n \u0259sas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hz bu x\u0131rda v\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259r t\u0259\u015fkil edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131y\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131 silm\u0259mis\u0259n. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 l\u0259k\u0259 qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 \u00e7iynini \u00e7\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Vaxt \u00e7atmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran g\u00fcl\u00fcb fincan\u0131 dodaqlar\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7ay\u0131 el\u0259 hortuldatd\u0131 ki, s\u0259si m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 yay\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– \u015e\u015f\u015frrrpp…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonra fincan\u0131 n\u0259lb\u0259kiy\u0259 qoyub qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– R\u0259hm\u0259tliyin q\u0131z\u0131, adam da h\u0259r g\u00fcn “vaxt\u0131m olmad\u0131” dey\u0259r? E\u015fid\u0259n el\u0259 bil\u0259r akademiks\u0259n. Elmi i\u015f yaz\u0131rsan. Dissertasiya m\u00fcdafi\u0259 el\u0259yirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6zucu p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bir u\u015faqd\u0131, o da g\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u00e7ada ke\u00e7irir. Vaxt hara gedir, vallah, m\u0259n ba\u015f a\u00e7a bilmir\u0259m. Yoxsa vaxt\u0131 da vedr\u0259y\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcb p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 yuyursan?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6z\u00fc dediyin\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fc. Nazil\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259di. \u0130ncim\u0259di d\u0259. \u00d6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi Kamran\u0131n bel\u0259 yersiz irad\u0131na duzssuz zarafatlar\u0131na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Q\u0259rib\u0259 adamsan. Camaat bay\u0131r\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u00e7 t\u0259r\u0259fi silir, s\u0259n is\u0259 camaat g\u00f6rs\u00fcn dey\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fc silirs\u0259n. E\u015fitm\u0259mis\u0259n atalar da deyib “\u018fvv\u0259l evin i\u00e7i sonra \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fc”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 yen\u0259 dinm\u0259di. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucuna ki\u00e7ik bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qondurdu. Bu, cavab verm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n adam\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc idi. Kamran bilmirdi ki, son vaxtlar onun h\u0259r iyn\u0259li zarafat\u0131ndan sonra Nazil\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 cavab axtar\u0131r, sonra h\u0259min cavab\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 c\u0131r\u0131b at\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran fincan\u0131 masaya qoyub telefonu \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 ekrana baxd\u0131, sonra g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ard\u0131nca da q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 atd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ay s\u0259ni…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 \u00e7evrildi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– N\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bir qad\u0131n var, maraql\u0131 yaz\u0131lar yaz\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 sakitc\u0259 soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Kimdir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bilmir\u0259m. S\u0259hif\u0259nin ad\u0131 da q\u0259rib\u0259dir… “P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fc”. \u015e\u0259rhl\u0259r lap m\u00fcsib\u0259tdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259yib Kamran\u0131n boynunun dal\u0131ndan telefona boyland\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Yeni paltar alm\u0131\u015fam. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131mdan e\u015fitdiyim ilk s\u00f6z “Ne\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 alm\u0131san?” oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

On g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 on santimetr k\u0259sdirdim. Ev\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi dedi: “Yem\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 bi\u015firmis\u0259n?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fvv\u0259l \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015firdim. \u0130ndi yox. \u00c7\u00fcnki ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m… B\u0259zi ki\u015fil\u0259r el\u0259 hesab edir ki, krediti \u00f6d\u0259yibl\u0259rs\u0259, sevginin d\u0259 ayl\u0131q \u00f6d\u0259ni\u015fini edibl\u0259r”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Telefonun ekran\u0131ndan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kib sakitc\u0259 \u00fct\u00fc masas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na ke\u00e7di. Kamran\u0131n i\u015f k\u00f6yn\u0259yini a\u00e7\u0131b s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259rdi. \u00dct\u00fcn\u00fc asta-asta par\u00e7an\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259zdirdi. El\u0259 bil par\u00e7an\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yox, g\u00fcn\u00fcn yor\u011funlu\u011funu a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dct\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259r h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259 par\u00e7adan nazik buxar qalx\u0131rd\u0131 havaya. Bir g\u00f6z\u00fc k\u00f6yn\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 idi, o biri is\u0259 arabir Kamrana sata\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Kamran is\u0259 bunu hiss etmirdi. Telefonun i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 el\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bil m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 yox, ba\u015fqa bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda oturmu\u015fdu. Nazil\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yin qolunu \u00e7evirib \u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc yenid\u0259n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Buxar yava\u015f-yava\u015f qalx\u0131b bir anl\u0131q Kamran\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc duman kimi \u00f6rtd\u00fc. O is\u0259 he\u00e7 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da qald\u0131rmad\u0131. Barma\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ekran\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcr, gah doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u0259nar\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131r, gah da q\u0259fil q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi. O, h\u0259r \u015f\u0259rhi oxuduqca burnundan fitini itirmi\u015f \u00e7aydan kimi x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bir an dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131x\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bo\u011fmaq ist\u0259di. Amma q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 qapa\u011f\u0131 s\u0131\u00e7rayan qazan kimi da\u015fd\u0131, da\u015fd\u0131qca da b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nini silk\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00c7iynind\u0259n tutmu\u015f, dizl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r yeri g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ritmin\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259fil dizin\u0259 el\u0259 bir \u015fill\u0259 vurdu ki, fincandak\u0131 \u00e7ay titr\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Ay s\u0259ni… Ay zal\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131… S\u0259n Allah\u0131n ad\u0131, bir qulaq as \u015f\u0259rh\u0259: “Narahat olma, bac\u0131. M\u0259nim \u0259rim sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131n n\u0259 r\u0259ng oldu\u011funu yaln\u0131z kanalizasiya tutulanda g\u00f6r\u00fcr…”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ekran\u0131 bir az da a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– H\u0259, bunu da oxu… “M\u0259nim \u0259rim d\u0259 paltar alanda “Ne\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 alm\u0131san?” deyir. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 dedim: “S\u0259n\u0259 pulsuz ba\u015fa g\u0259ldi”. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr hesablay\u0131r ki, nec\u0259 olub?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 \u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 dik qoydu. Ovcunu bir anl\u0131q isti d\u0259st\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 saxlad\u0131. Sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b Kamrana baxd\u0131. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015fdi. G\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0131y\u0131lan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri. Q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 yanaqlar\u0131. \u00c7ay\u0131n buxar\u0131ndan dumanlanan eyn\u0259yi. Telefonun i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda par\u0131ldayan sif\u0259ti. Bu adam ona yad deyildi. S\u0259kkiz il idi eyni evd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r, eyni s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda oturur, h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r eyni qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, h\u0259r ax\u015fam eyni qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri girirdi. Amma el\u0259 bil bu g\u00fcn ilk d\u0259f\u0259 onun n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kamran\u0131n bird\u0259n barmaqlar\u0131 klaviaturan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Dayan e… M\u0259n d\u0259 bir d\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131m. C\u0259ld yazd\u0131, sonra bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131tlay\u0131b ucadan oxudu: “Bac\u0131, s\u0259nin \u0259rin ikiayaql\u0131 e\u015f\u015f\u0259kdir.” Vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n “payla\u015f” d\u00fcym\u0259sini basd\u0131. Telefonu q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 qazanm\u0131\u015f u\u015faq kimi havada yell\u0259dib soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– N\u0259t\u0259r yazd\u0131m?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Pis deyil…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir anl\u0131q s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Nazil\u0259nin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 Kamran\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 qondu. O \u0259ll\u0259r indic\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir qad\u0131n\u0131n haqq\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aradan xeyli zaman ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. F\u0259sill\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 tut a\u011fac\u0131 iki d\u0259f\u0259 yarpaqlay\u0131b yenid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131lpaq qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evd\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015fey \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi idi. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00e7antas\u0131 h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda haz\u0131r dayan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7aya yen\u0259 d\u0259 iki qa\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u0259k\u0259r t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kamran\u0131n k\u00f6yn\u0259kl\u0259ri yen\u0259 \u00fct\u00fcl\u00fc olurdu. Kamran\u0131n yem\u0259k masas\u0131na oturanda ilk sual\u0131 yen\u0259 eyni idi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k var?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u015fd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

R\u0259hb\u0259rind\u0259n, benzinin bahal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan gileyl\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Futbola bax\u0131rd\u0131. Telefonunu v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259yirdi. Sonra yat\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259h\u0259r durub yen\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 gedirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259kc\u0259 Nazil\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi deyildi. Nazil\u0259 is\u0259 n\u0259 s\u0259kkiz il \u0259vv\u0259lki Nazil\u0259 idi, n\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259kkiz g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259lki. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r evd\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox onun s\u0259si e\u015fidilirdi. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n ota\u011fa, otaqdan eyvana s\u00f6z da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Yeni ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 paltar\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi, sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259ngini soru\u015furdu, baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 filmi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, oxudu\u011fu yaz\u0131n\u0131 ucadan s\u0259sl\u0259ndirirdi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 o, evd\u0259n yox olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sad\u0259c\u0259 s\u0259si yava\u015f-yava\u015f evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran, dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r ax\u015fam h\u0259min s\u0259hif\u0259d\u0259 oxudu\u011fu yaz\u0131lardan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bu qad\u0131n q\u0259rib\u0259 yaz\u0131r e…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 \u0259la yaz\u0131 payla\u015f\u0131b. B\u0259z\u0259n yaz\u0131n\u0131 ucadan oxuyur, b\u0259z\u0259n \u015f\u0259rhl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr, b\u0259z\u0259n qad\u0131na yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lir, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 adamlara qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcdafi\u0259 edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yen\u0259 bir-birinin b\u0259nz\u0259ri g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n biri idi. Kamran h\u0259min g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259kind\u0259n tez \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Ev onu q\u0259rib\u0259 bir s\u00fckutla qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. El\u0259 bil kims\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259sl\u0259ri y\u0131\u011f\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7ay qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fincana d\u0259y\u0259n cingiltisi g\u0259lirdi, n\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n otaqdan-ota\u011fa qa\u00e7an ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri. S\u00fckut otaqlar\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 su kimi dolmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Nazil\u0259…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran\u0131n s\u0259si d\u0259hlizd\u0259n ke\u00e7ib otaqlara yay\u0131ld\u0131. Amma cavab g\u0259lm\u0259di. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131 da yerind\u0259 deyildi. Kamran penc\u0259yini stulun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131. “Y\u0259qin parka gedibl\u0259r…” dey\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi.  \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r bel\u0259 olurdu. Nazil\u0259 dar\u0131xanda u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 parka gedirdi. M\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib \u00e7aydan\u0131 qaz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Qaz al\u0131\u015fan kimi mavi alov \u00e7aydan\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 yalad\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 sonra metaldan nazik bir d\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 qalxd\u0131. Kamran qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib divanda uzand\u0131. Nazil\u0259y\u0259 z\u0259ng vurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn telefonu a\u00e7d\u0131. Ekranda bildiri\u015f var idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fc”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yeni payla\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ekranda s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u0259hif\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015e\u0259kild\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na q\u0259rq olmu\u015f bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 vard\u0131. A\u011f t\u00fcl p\u0259rd\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259yin qaba\u011f\u0131nda bir az yana \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 balaca bir ovuc izi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kamran yaz\u0131n\u0131 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“\u0130nsan b\u0259z\u0259n hiss etm\u0259d\u0259n \u0259n yax\u0131n\u0131ndak\u0131 adam\u0131 itirir”. El\u0259 bu anda m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7aydan\u0131n fit s\u0259si qalxd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259l nazik bir s\u0259s idi. Sonra uzand\u0131qca uzand\u0131. Ad\u0259t\u0259n bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r Nazil\u0259 qaz\u0131 \u00e7oxdan s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f olard\u0131. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 is\u0259 fit bo\u015f evd\u0259 s\u0259rb\u0259st dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Kamran yerind\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131. Telefonu \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015e\u0259kli b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fc. P\u0259rd\u0259…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu qat…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ovuc izi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran telefonu \u0259lind\u0259 saxlay\u0131b uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 vard\u0131, bu \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 is\u0259 ill\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi bir h\u0259qiq\u0259t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7aydan\u0131n fiti h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 evin i\u00e7ind\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil s\u0259s yox, ill\u0259rin o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n qay\u0131dan bir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f idi. Kamran g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. \u0130lk evl\u0259ndikl\u0259ri g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n biri idi. Ax\u015fam i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ay ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 buxar\u0131 qalxan fincan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 Nazil\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– S\u0259n m\u00fcn\u0259ccims\u0259n, ay q\u0131z?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazil\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib demi\u015fdi: “\u0130nsan b\u0259z\u0259n sevdiyi adam\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini add\u0131m s\u0259sind\u0259n yox, v\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131r”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran \u0259lini yava\u015fca \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259y\u0259 toxundurdu. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn istisini \u00e7oxdan itirmi\u015fdi. Soyuq idi. El\u0259 bu anda telefon titr\u0259di. Yeni bildiri\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin o \u00fcz\u00fc payla\u015f\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 redakt\u0259 etdi”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kamran \u0259ll\u0259ri titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259 ekrana toxundu. Yaz\u0131n\u0131n sonuna c\u0259mi iki c\u00fcml\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 olunmu\u015fdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r \u015f\u0259kli t\u0259k ya\u015famaq deyil. Eyni evd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259kdir”. Telefonun ekran\u0131 qarald\u0131. Qara \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Sonra ovuc izi. \u018fn ax\u0131rda is\u0259 \u00f6z \u00fcz\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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