{"id":6102,"date":"2013-10-08T15:38:11","date_gmt":"2013-10-08T15:38:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=6102"},"modified":"2013-11-16T09:37:21","modified_gmt":"2013-11-16T09:37:21","slug":"fazil%c9%99-qafarqizi-arxali-kop%c9%99k-felyaton","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=6102","title":{"rendered":"Fazil\u0259 QAFARQIZI.”Arxal\u0131 k\u00f6p\u0259k” (Felyaton)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Arxal\u0131 k\u00f6p\u0259k
\n (felyaton)
\nSavadl\u0131 olmasam da \u00e7ox bacar\u0131ql\u0131 o\u011flanam. \u0130dar\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 ba\u015f vururam. Kim\u0259s\u0259 i\u015f tap\u0131ram, kim\u0259s\u0259 y\u00fck da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram. Kimins\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n tutub y\u0131x\u0131lma\u011fa qoymuram. M\u0259nim bu bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb qon\u015fum dedi ki, g\u0259l s\u0259ni qiyabi oxutdurum. G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m qabiliyy\u0259tli o\u011flansan. N\u0259 x\u0259rcin var, m\u0259nim boynuma. Raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. S\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rimi d\u00fcz\u0259ltdim, m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 verdim, girdim, oxudum. Nec\u0259 oxudumsa, onu bir Allah bilir, bir d\u0259 m\u0259n. N\u0259 is\u0259… Vaxt bitdi, D\u00f6vl\u0259t imtahanlar\u0131n\u0131n verilm\u0259 vaxt\u0131 g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131. Qorxu can\u0131m\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130mtahana girm\u0259s\u0259m diplom verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. N\u0259 edim, n\u0259 etm\u0259yim qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m \u0259li qoynumda. A\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n xo\u015f bir x\u0259b\u0259r m\u0259ni bu s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131dan qurtard\u0131. \u0130ki g\u00fcn sonra imtahan g\u00fcn\u00fc idi. Geyinib-gecinib, \u0259tirl\u0259nib evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. B\u0130r ba\u015fa \u0259zcaxanaya getdim. Oradan bir-iki \u0259d\u0259d z\u00f6k\u0259m\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 d\u0259rman, bir \u0259d\u0259d d\u0259 \u201cvetnam maz\u0131\u201d ald\u0131m. M\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 az qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc bir tin\u0259 verib ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m mazdan g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn alt\u0131na, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 yaxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Aradan on d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f, m\u0259n oldum ill\u0259rin x\u0259st\u0259si. Yaxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m maz g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn suyunu nec\u0259 ax\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131sa, el\u0259 bil g\u00f6yd\u0259n leysan ya\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Allah, m\u0259nim bu g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc anam g\u00f6r\u0259ydi. Dey\u0259rdi a bala, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 oldu bu g\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn. Evd\u0259n sa\u011f-salamat \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n. N\u0259 is\u0259… Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 n\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131m ey. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, burnumu silm\u0259kd\u0259n el\u0259mi\u015fdim k\u00fcft\u0259 boyda.
\nAd\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar. D\u0259smal\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ma tutub i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dim. Bilet \u00e7\u0259kib oturdum. Suallar\u0131 oxudum. \u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tin idi. Dedim evim y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131, indi m\u0259n n\u0259 edim. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qoydum stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259. \u00d6h\u00f6, \u00f6h\u00f6… o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6sk\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0131m dedi bala, bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 s\u0259n imtahan ver\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n, dur get, sonra g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n. Dedim, yox m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, \u00f6ls\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015facam cavab ver\u0259m. M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259m \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bir insan idi. O\u011flu \u015f\u0259hid oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 ham\u0131ya h\u00f6rm\u0259t edirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z. Dedi o\u011flum, g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, he\u00e7 hal\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyil, m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 qiym\u0259t ver\u0259r\u0259m. Dur, imtahan v\u0259r\u0259q\u0259sini qoy stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 get, amma bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t ikimizin aras\u0131nda qals\u0131n. M\u0259n \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlarla \u2013\u00e7ox sa\u011f olun m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, deyib, otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Foyed\u0259 u\u015faqlarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ayr\u0131ld\u0131m. Birba\u015fa ev\u0259 g\u0259ldim. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn vanna ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7dim. G\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 baxd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259dim. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 qan damm\u0131\u015f, sif\u0259tim d\u0259 \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fdi. O ki var, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi sabunla yudum. Amma maz\u0131n qoxusu getmirdi. X\u00fclas\u0259…
\nKefim k\u00f6k\u0259lmi\u015fdi. D\u00f6vl\u0259t imtahanlar\u0131n\u0131n birind\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fdim. O birisi is\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 olacaqd\u0131. H\u0259ft\u0259aras\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259k almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bazara getdim. Bazar\u0131n ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sin\u0259 qalxmal\u0131 idim. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm bibim q\u0131z\u0131 kartof se\u00e7ib torbaya y\u0131\u011f\u0131r. \u015e\u0131ltaql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259dim. Yava\u015fca gedib arxadan onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rini tutdum. Q\u0131z he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 adam\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Adlar m\u0259n\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259di. Q\u0131z \u0259ll\u0259rimi \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm bibim q\u0131z\u0131 deyil. Ona ox\u015fatm\u0131\u015fam. \u00c7ox-\u00e7ox \u00fczr ist\u0259dim. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla deyib, qurtarmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n da\u015f idi, taxtayd\u0131, ya yumrux idi, bilmir\u0259m,-arxas\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259 yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m. \u0130st\u0259dim duram, t\u0259pik-t\u0259pik dal\u0131nca, s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn biri olub bir q\u0259pik, anam, bac\u0131m qalmad\u0131. Yeddi arxa d\u00f6n\u0259nimi s\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc k\u00f6p\u0259ko\u011flu. Bir t\u0259h\u0259r m\u0259ni onun \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131lar. A\u011fz\u0131m, burnum qan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. Qolumla \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc silirdim. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn biri g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tutdu\u011fum q\u0131z da orada idi. \u0130ki da\u015f\u0131n aras\u0131nda ondan yen\u0259 \u00fczr ist\u0259dim. Q\u0131z yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u201cAllah ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n\u201d- dedi. Amma bu ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamad\u0131,- deyib m\u0259ni \u015f\u00fcl\u00fcy\u0259n o\u011flan\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Bilm\u0259dim o, onun ya qarda\u015f\u0131 idi, ya da ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131. M\u0259ni ma\u015f\u0131na qoyub k\u00f6yn\u0259k alma\u011fa yox, x\u0259st\u0259xanaya apard\u0131lar. Sa\u011f olsun yax\u015f\u0131 adamlar\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc m\u00fcayin\u0259 etdil\u0259r. G\u00fccl\u00fc vurulan z\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn did\u0259si da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259kim dedi ki, g\u00f6rm\u0259 ehtimal\u0131 \u00e7ox azd\u0131. Bu da m\u0259nim \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n n\u0259tic\u0259si. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn sa\u011falmas\u0131 iki aydan \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bu iki ayda d\u00f6vl\u0259t imtahanlar\u0131n\u0131 verib, \u201chans\u0131 yollarla\u201d qiym\u0259t ald\u0131m v\u0259 oldum diplomlu bir ki\u015fi. Evl\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259ni \u00e7ox incidirdil\u0259r evd\u0259kil\u0259r. Vaxt\u0131n ke\u00e7ir, ya\u015f\u0131n \u00f6t\u00fcr, a bala, evl\u0259n bir toyunu g\u00f6r\u00fcm, sonra \u00f6l\u00fcm, deyirdi anam. \u00c7ox g\u00f6t\u00fcr qoydan sonra qon\u015fumuzda ya\u015fayan bir q\u0131zla evl\u0259nm\u0259yim\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verdim. Q\u0131z\u0131n da atas\u0131 \u00e7ox imkal\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Atalar\u0131n bir s\u00f6z\u00fc var ey… \u201carxal\u0131 k\u00f6p\u0259k qurd basar\u201d. Savad\u0131m yox, isteda\u0131m yox. Q\u0131z\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni qaynatam yola ver\u0259c\u0259k. Q\u0131zla \u0259laq\u0259 yaratd\u0131m, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Ail\u0259 qurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn raz\u0131l\u0131q verdi. \u00c7ox sevindim. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda quzu kimi apar\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u00e7il\u0259rimiz Allah\u0131n s\u0259ad\u0259t b\u0259x\u015f el\u0259diyi q\u0131z qap\u0131s\u0131na getdil\u0259r. Ni\u015fan g\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259yin olundu. Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik qu\u015fu qonmu\u015fdu ba\u015f\u0131ma.
\nQaynatam m\u0259ni ucqar k\u0259ndl\u0259rin birin\u0259 v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 qoydurdu. \u0130\u015f icra\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 deyildim. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m universiteti qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, savadl\u0131 idi. M\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259kan ver\u0259n, yol g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n el\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131m idi. M\u0259n tez-tez k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f edir, onlara k\u00f6m\u0259klik g\u00f6st\u0259rirdim. Qaynatam m\u0259nim h\u0259m maddi, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259vi c\u0259h\u0259tc\u0259 daya\u011f\u0131m idi. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di ki, m\u0259nd\u0259n \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259r g\u0259ldi. M\u0259n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti iclas\u0131n birind\u0259 onlara \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc tutub:
\n-Ay camaat inan\u0131n ki, m\u0259n sizin ham\u0131n\u0131za bir g\u00f6zl\u0259 bax\u0131ram. He\u00e7 biriniz\u0259 f\u0259rq qoymuram. Camaat is\u0259 \u00f6z naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi.
\n\u018fslind\u0259 diplomu saxta yollarla alan, qaynatas\u0131na v\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 camaat\u0131 nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r \u201cyola ver\u0259n\u201d, onlara k\u0259f g\u0259l\u0259n bu \u201cm\u0259rd\u201d o\u011flan\u0131n bir g\u00f6zl\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131 camaat\u0131 sevdiyind\u0259n dediyi fikr\u0259 \u0259saslanm\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qanmazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ucbat\u0131ndan itirdiyi bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 idi. Y\u0259ni o, ham\u0131ya bir g\u00f6zl\u0259 yox, bir g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Arxal\u0131 k\u00f6p\u0259k (felyaton) Savadl\u0131 olmasam da \u00e7ox bacar\u0131ql\u0131 o\u011flanam. \u0130dar\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 ba\u015f vururam. Kim\u0259s\u0259 i\u015f tap\u0131ram, kim\u0259s\u0259 y\u00fck da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram. Kimins\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n tutub y\u0131x\u0131lma\u011fa qoymuram. M\u0259nim bu bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb qon\u015fum dedi ki, g\u0259l s\u0259ni qiyabi oxutdurum. G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m qabiliyy\u0259tli o\u011flansan. N\u0259 x\u0259rcin var, m\u0259nim boynuma. Raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. S\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rimi d\u00fcz\u0259ltdim, m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 verdim, girdim, oxudum. Nec\u0259 oxudumsa, onu bir Allah […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6102","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6102","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6102"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6102\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6104,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6102\/revisions\/6104"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6102"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6102"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6102"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}