{"id":7185,"date":"2014-01-13T14:11:30","date_gmt":"2014-01-13T14:11:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=7185"},"modified":"2014-01-16T17:16:50","modified_gmt":"2014-01-16T17:16:50","slug":"nizami-xaliq-m%c6%8fmm%c6%8fdli-s%c9%99hid-taleyim-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=7185","title":{"rendered":"Nizami Xaliq M\u018fMM\u018fDL\u0130.”\u015e\u0259hid taleyim” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259r xiyaban\u0131. B\u0131\u011f yeri t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015f, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q cizgisi itm\u0259mi\u015f M\u0259zahir g\u00f6zl\u0259rini anas\u0131na dikib bax\u0131r, hey bax\u0131r. \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcmidli bir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda \u00dcmid adl\u0131 m\u0259fhumdan m\u0259hrum olan Z\u00fcleyxa ana. Ana\u2026be\u015fikd\u0259n q\u0259bir evin\u0259d\u0259k h\u0259r bir insan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n dey\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s s\u00f6z\u2026
\nB\u0259li, Z\u00fcleyxa ana da \u00f6z o\u011flu M\u0259zahir\u0259 bax\u0131r, h\u0259r ikisi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir \u2013 birin\u0259 tu\u015flay\u0131b hey bax\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. He\u00e7 biri t\u0259rp\u0259nmir. He\u00e7 birinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00fcmid \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 parlam\u0131r.
\nAna bir anl\u0131q \u00f6z balas\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259yini xat\u0131rlay\u0131r. K\u00f6rp\u0259 dil a\u00e7\u0131r, ana deyir. \u00d6m\u00fcr g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259n Z\u00fcleyxa ana \u00f6z k\u00f6rp\u0259sini bir qar\u0131n ac, bir qar\u0131n tox b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u018flind\u0259n tutub m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 apar\u0131r. K\u00f6rp\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259rif\u0259t v\u0259 qanaca\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259l biliy\u0259 v\u0259 bacar\u0131qlara yiy\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k h\u0259v\u0259si anaya kims\u0259sizliyini, arxas\u0131 , daya\u011f\u0131 olmama\u011f\u0131 unutdurur. Anada yeni arzular ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r. X\u0259yallar onu lap zirv\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 aparma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. Zaman is\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131r, t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. K\u00f6rp\u0259 M\u0259zahir is\u0259 bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr, boy \u2013 buxunlu bir g\u0259nc\u0259 \u00e7evrilirdi. Anan\u0131n sonsuz arzular\u0131 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ir, ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015firdi. Onun h\u0259yatda yegan\u0259 simsar\u0131, kims\u0259si olan o\u011flu indi ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 daxil olmu\u015fdu. Ana x\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131n ger\u00e7\u0259kliyi o\u011flunu bacar\u0131ql\u0131, v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259r bir insan pill\u0259sin\u0259 apar\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ehh\u2026 Fikirl\u0259r, Arzular, X\u0259yallar\u2026 siz do\u011frudan da \u0259l\u00e7atmazs\u0131n\u0131z. Siz do\u011frudan da el\u0259 oldu\u011funuz kimisiniz.
\nAna x\u0259yallar\u0131nda u\u00e7du\u011fu zaman \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 hiss etmirdi ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n gil\u0259 \u2013 gil\u0259 ya\u015f s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb d\u0259rdd\u0259n, k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n q\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f sol\u011fun \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sini islad\u0131b. \u018fn m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s. \u0259n qiym\u0259tli olan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 \u0259b\u0259di yolda\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di simsar\u0131 kimi indi d\u0259 onu yaln\u0131z buraxmad\u0131. X\u0259yallar anan\u0131n fikirl\u0259rini uzaqlara apard\u0131, bir anl\u0131q ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131 ana. \u00d6z qara b\u0259xtini h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259, a\u011fr\u0131 ac\u0131 il\u0259 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u2026
\n– Ana, ay ana bu g\u00fcn birinci kursu bitirdim, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u0259la qiym\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259. Ay ana baxarsan m\u0259n mill\u0259timin ke\u00e7mi\u015fini tarixini \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259n, onu g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k n\u0259sill\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n bir k\u00f6rp\u00fc olacam.
\n– Ol, ay bala ol. S\u0259nin boyuna qurban, s\u0259nin a\u011fl\u0131na qurban ay o\u011ful. S\u0259n bils\u0259n ki, s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu 20 ild\u0259 m\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m.
\n– Bilir\u0259m ay ana \u2013 dey\u0259 M\u0259zahir dill\u0259ndi. M\u0259nim d\u0259 arzum budur ki. S\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyin b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259zab \u2013 \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259ri, d\u0259rdl\u0259ri unutdurum. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, d\u0259rd insana vurdu\u011fu z\u0259rb\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu unudulmaz olur. Amma m\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259yl\u0259riml\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011fam ki, s\u0259ni he\u00e7 olmasa bundan sonra xo\u015fb\u0259xt edim. Ax\u0131 analar xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaran\u0131blar. B\u00fct\u00fcn analar d\u0259rd y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc da\u015f\u0131yan olur\u2026 M\u0259zahir bir anl\u0131q fikr\u0259 getdi. Ax\u0131 insan xo\u015fb\u0259xt olacaqsa bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rd, q\u00fcbar, \u0259zyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi n\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r ? Yox, yaradan yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kims\u0259y\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verirs\u0259 y\u0259qin ki, onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259c\u0259k. B\u0259lk\u0259 bu bir s\u0131naqd\u0131r\u2026M\u0259zahir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259skinlik verm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131nmad\u0131. H\u0259yata g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n bu g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k anamda, m\u0259n d\u0259 z\u00fclm \u2013 zill\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q. El\u0259 ax\u0131racan da bel\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k.
\n– M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub bel\u0259 ? M\u0259n ki, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcmidl\u0259 baxm\u0131\u015fam. \u00dcmidli arzularla ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. Qorxuram n\u0259di ? \u018fsla ! M\u0259n m\u0259qs\u0259dim\u0259 \u00e7atacam ! M\u0259n m\u0259\u011flub olamayacam ! M\u0259qs\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir yol var \u2013 Z\u0259hm\u0259t. M\u0259n o yolu q\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259m. \u00d6z- \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259 aparan M\u0259zahiri anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si fikird\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– Ay o\u011ful s\u0259n fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259 ki, m\u0259nim d\u0259rdl\u0259rimi unutdurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 is\u0259 etm\u0259lis\u0259n. S\u0259n m\u0259kt\u0259bini oxuyub qurtarsan in\u015fallah bir i\u015fin sahibi olarsan. Evl\u0259n\u0259rs\u0259n. M\u0259n d\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259riml\u0259, g\u0259liniml\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qataram. Bax bu m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi unutduracaq. Z\u00fcleyxa ana bundan sonrak\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259ni dem\u0259di. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 nisgil edib k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq q\u0259lbind\u0259 Allah\u0131na s\u0259sl\u0259ndi : Allah\u0131m bu n\u0259 i\u015fdir, d\u0259rd var insan\u0131 a\u011flad\u0131r, m\u0259nim d\u0259rdim \u00f6z\u00fc a\u011flay\u0131r\u2026 Lakin, tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b \u00fcmidli sabah\u0131n\u0131n arzular\u0131n\u0131 davam etdirdi.
\n– S\u0259nin toyunu demir\u0259m h\u0259l\u0259. S\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f r\u0259hm\u0259tlik atan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n el\u0259 bir toyunu arzulay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, misli b\u0259rab\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015f olsun. N\u0259 is\u0259\u2026g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr qism\u0259t bel\u0259ymi\u015f \u2026amans\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcm onu tez ald\u0131 bizim \u0259limizd\u0259n. \u00c7ox g\u00f6rd\u00fc onu m\u0259n\u0259. Lap k\u00f6rp\u0259likd\u0259n bir h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck onunla. Bir yerd\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getmi\u015fdik. M\u0259kt\u0259b ya\u015flar\u0131ndan ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q bir \u2013 birimiz\u0259. Dost, h\u0259md\u0259m, sirr yolda\u015f\u0131 olduq bir \u2013 birimiz\u0259. G\u0259nclik ya\u015flar\u0131na dolanda m\u0259n valideynl\u0259rimi itirdim. Ail\u0259nin yegan\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131 oldu\u011fun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, kims\u0259siz yetim qald\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00fcmidl\u0259riml\u0259 atana arxaland\u0131m. Ona s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m. Elin ad\u0259ti il\u0259 m\u0259ni bu ev\u0259 g\u0259lin g\u0259tirdi. H\u0259r \u015feyi onda tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. O, m\u0259nim yegan\u0259 \u00fcmidim idi.
\nZ\u00fcleyxa anan\u0131 q\u0259h\u0259r bo\u011fdu. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 ax\u0131tmaqdan g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlad\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di\u2026 Amma bu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f saxtal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 asanl\u0131qla biruz\u0259 verdi.
\n– Ana, qurban olum b\u0259sdir. \u0130ndi m\u0259n varam. Atam\u0131n yadigar\u0131yam s\u0259n\u0259. S\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259. Atam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 onun nece insan oldu\u011funu bilir\u0259m. M\u0259n onun yerini tuta bilm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b onun ad\u0131n\u0131 do\u011fruldaca\u011fam \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k M\u0259zahir anas\u0131n\u0131n boynunu qucaqlad\u0131.
\nK\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b, \u00f6z g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn boynunu yana \u00e7evirdi. O, anas\u0131na t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259k ist\u0259di. Amma kims\u0259sizlikl\u0259rind\u0259n, arxalar\u0131nda he\u00e7 kimin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fcd\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi. S\u0259sinin bo\u011fuldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb daha dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. Dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131 ki, do\u011fma anas\u0131 da onun aciz, g\u00fccs\u00fcz olmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. Ax\u0131 g\u00fccs\u00fczl\u00fck el\u0259 kims\u0259sizliyin t\u0259sdiqi idi\u2026 Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bel\u0259c\u0259 qald\u0131 ana bala. H\u0259yat nec\u0259d\u0259 cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131, dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 v\u0259 \u00fcmidsiz idi. Bu zaman i\u00e7in \u2013 i\u00e7in a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131lar\u2026 H\u0259r ikisi \u00f6z x\u0259yal\u0131nda bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, hey i\u00e7in \u2013 i\u00e7in a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131lar. A\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131lar \u2026 Bu is\u0259 \u00fcmidl\u0259rin sonuncu k\u00f6z\u0259rtisini d\u0259 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sanki h\u0259yat\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u0259kd\u0259 idi bu iki kims\u0259siz insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Deyirl\u0259r insan\u0131n d\u0259rdi \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259ks olunur. Kim deyibs\u0259 do\u011fru deyib. D\u0259rd insan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 \u015fer s\u0259tri kimi misra \u2013 misra h\u0259kk olunur.
\n\u0130\u00e7in \u2013 i\u00e7in a\u011flay\u0131b d\u0259rdl\u0259rini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259n ana bala s\u00fckutun \u0259siri olmu\u015fdular el\u0259 bil. Dill\u0259nmirdil\u0259r. \u0130st\u0259mirdil\u0259r bu s\u00fckutu pozma\u011f\u0131. Dill\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 qorxurdular ele bil. S\u00fckut d\u0259rdlil\u0259rin \u0259v\u0259zsiz zaman\u0131d\u0131r. Bu zaman\u0131 bel\u0259 insanlar y\u0259qin ki, hec bir \u015feyl\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259zl\u0259r. \u00c7\u00fcnki, hec n\u0259 onlara s\u00fckutun verdiyi fikir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini bu q\u0259d\u0259r keyfiyy\u0259tli ver\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Ya\u015fada bilm\u0259z\u2026
\nZ\u00fcleyxa ana c\u00fcr\u0259t edib s\u00fckutu pozdu. O\u011fluna indiy\u0259d\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131nda ya\u015fanan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 an\u0131 n\u0259ql etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n– O\u011flum m\u0259nim, atan s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259l\u0259ri qurban verm\u0259di ? Bunu bir allah bilir. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n faydalan\u0131rd\u0131 ki, s\u0259n\u0259 laz\u0131mi \u015f\u0259raiti qursun Amma al\u0131nmad\u0131. C\u0259mi yeddi ay on \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fck. Nec\u0259d\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s v\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zsiz g\u00fcnl\u0259r idi o g\u00fcnl\u0259r. G\u0259nc ail\u0259 olsaq da qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7ox idi. R\u0259hm\u0259tlik olacaq \u00f6vlad\u0131 haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rdi. El\u0259 \u00f6vlad ki, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z, c\u0259fas\u0131z, d\u0259rd s\u0259ri olmadan ya\u015fas\u0131n. N\u0259 bil\u0259ydi ki, f\u0259l\u0259k onun arzular\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 qoyacaq. N\u0259 bil\u0259ydi ki, gec\u0259 \u2013 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259k, s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k, qullu\u011funda durmaq ist\u0259diyi k\u00f6rp\u0259 balas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcm onu a\u011fu\u015funa alacaq\u2026
\n– Ehh\u2026 \u00f6l\u00fcm..! Nec\u0259 q\u0131yd\u0131n ona, nec\u0259 ? He\u00e7 \u00f6l\u0259si insan idimi o ? He\u00e7 kim\u0259 pisliyi ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi. He\u00e7 kimin b\u00fcdr\u0259m\u0259sini ist\u0259m\u0259zdi. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fard\u0131 ki, z\u0259ifl\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259n tutsun, k\u00f6m\u0259k etsin. Ehh\u2026 G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131\u2026 N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 var bu d\u00fcnyada. Yoxsa kims\u0259 \u0259sla \u0259llid\u0259n yuxar\u0131 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259zdi ac\u0131mas\u0131z, zal\u0131m d\u00fcnyada\u2026<\/p>\n

– Ana qurban olum s\u0259n\u0259, ay ana a\u011flama \u2013 bu s\u0259s Z\u00fcleyxa anan\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 yuxusundan ay\u0131ltd\u0131 sanki. Tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 alma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da bunu bacarmayan anaya kims\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hd el\u0259di : \u2013 Allah o d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 r\u0259hm\u0259t nuru il\u0259 i\u015fiqland\u0131rs\u0131n ana. S\u0259brli ol. V\u0259 daha n\u0259l\u0259r\u2026 n\u0259l\u0259r\u2026
\nT\u0259s\u0259llil\u0259rin sonu olmaz bu d\u00fcnyada. Lakin, d\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259rman olan\u0131 da olmaz bu d\u00fcnyada t\u0259s\u0259llil\u0259rin. Yaln\u0131z ovudar, unutdurar bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t biz\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rimizi. Ancaq \u0259v\u0259zl\u0259m\u0259z h\u0259yat\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259yat anlar\u0131n\u0131.
\nYan\u0131nda g\u0259nc, c\u00fcss\u0259li bir zabitin t\u0259s\u0259lli s\u0259sin\u0259 ay\u0131lan Z\u00fcleyxa ana bir anl\u0131q duruxsa da, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b dill\u0259ndi : \u2013 \u00e7ox sa\u011fol o\u011flum, sad\u0259c\u0259 x\u0259yallar \u00f6z a\u011fu\u015funa ald\u0131 m\u0259ni, a\u011flatd\u0131. A\u011flatd\u0131 ki, yenid\u0259n g\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcvv\u0259tim olsun.
\n– A\u011flama ay ana. M\u0259n el\u0259 yar\u0131m saat olar ki, Bak\u0131ya \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fam. \u015e\u0131n\u0131xdan g\u0259lir\u0259m, c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259n.Bu torpa\u011f\u0131n u\u011frunda h\u0259r g\u00fcn onlarla, y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00f6vladlar\u0131n \u015f\u0259hid olur. Uzun ill\u0259r oyunca\u011f\u0131na \u00e7evrildiyimiz bir oyunun qurban\u0131na \u00e7evrilir. Anam m\u0259nim ! Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259r olsun ki, bax bu q\u0259bird\u0259 yatan \u015f\u0259hidimizin. M\u0259zahirin arxas\u0131nca a\u011flaya bil\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcc\u0259 sahib olan iki g\u00f6z var. H\u0259r g\u00fcn \u015f\u0259hid olan qarda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7oxunun ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 xat\u0131rlayacaq kims\u0259l\u0259ri yoxdur. O ki, qals\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ax\u0131tma\u011fa\u2026 Anam m\u0259nim, el\u0259 bir zamanda ya\u015famaq n\u0259sibimiz oldu ki, ail\u0259si \u015f\u0259hid olan bir qad\u0131n\u0131n bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k xatirin\u0259 dil\u0259ndiyinin d\u0259 \u015fahidi oldu g\u00f6zl\u0259rim. Budurmu \u015f\u0259hidlik ? Budurmu V\u0259t\u0259n sevgisind\u0259n do\u011fan \u015f\u0259hidlik zirv\u0259sin\u0259 qoyulan d\u0259y\u0259r ? Bax\u0131n, ana o\u011flunuz M\u0259zahirin m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda olan bu \u015f\u0259hid m\u0259zar\u0131 h\u0259min v\u0259t\u0259n f\u0259daisinin son q\u0259rargah\u0131d\u0131r. Bu g\u00fcn onun \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr. Ancaq ziyar\u0259tin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259ni yoxdur\u2026 Yoxdur\u2026 indi onun ya\u015famaq h\u0259v\u0259sind\u0259n bezib intihar ed\u0259n xan\u0131m\u0131 da yoxdur. Bu g\u00fcn ac\u0131lara sin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n, zaman\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcn\u0259 tab g\u0259tirm\u0259k taq\u0259tini itir\u0259n bu \u015f\u0259hid qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 2 ya\u015fl\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259sd ed\u0259n xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259fn g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr. D\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fckd\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn a\u011fu\u015funa atd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc v\u0259 ki\u00e7icik k\u00f6rp\u0259sini\u2026<\/p>\n

Q\u0259rib\u0259 h\u0259yat, s\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259s\u0259n demir\u0259m. Biz q\u0259ribik s\u0259nin g\u0259rdi\u015find\u0259. Bizi ya\u015fadan \u00fcmidl\u0259rimiz t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259ndir s\u0259nin f\u0259l\u0259yinin \u00e7\u0259rxind\u0259. H\u0259yat is\u0259 davam edir\u2026\u00dcmidl\u0259r t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259m,
\nV\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259n,
\nV\u0259t\u0259nsiz m\u0259n he\u00e7 kim\u0259m..!
\nK\u0259f\u0259nsiz\u0259m..!
\nV\u0259t\u0259n \u015f\u0259hid qan\u0131d\u0131r\u2026
\n\u015e\u0259hids\u0259 m\u0259n\u2026EY V\u018fT\u018fN !!!<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri.1993 c\u00fc il.8 yanvar.
\n\u00dcmidl\u0259rin t\u00fck\u0259ndiyi bir zamanlar.
\n14 ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u0259ncin \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259r xiyaban\u0131nda
\nya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn xatir\u0259si\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259r xiyaban\u0131. B\u0131\u011f yeri t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015f, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q cizgisi itm\u0259mi\u015f M\u0259zahir g\u00f6zl\u0259rini anas\u0131na dikib bax\u0131r, hey bax\u0131r. \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcmidli bir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda \u00dcmid adl\u0131 m\u0259fhumdan m\u0259hrum olan Z\u00fcleyxa ana. Ana\u2026be\u015fikd\u0259n q\u0259bir evin\u0259d\u0259k h\u0259r bir insan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n dey\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s s\u00f6z\u2026 B\u0259li, Z\u00fcleyxa ana da \u00f6z o\u011flu M\u0259zahir\u0259 bax\u0131r, h\u0259r ikisi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7185","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-home"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7185","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7185"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7185\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7188,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7185\/revisions\/7188"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7185"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7185"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7185"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}